The world is beginning to suffer from insomnia.——Ferrero
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Ruochu was not as able to sleep as Qin Nan imagined. In fact, since the fever subsided, her brain has been in a high-speed chaotic thinking state. However, because Qin Nan was with her, she could not affect her mother's rest.
, so he simply lay on the bed with his eyes closed at night. When Xiaochuan came, Qin Nan thought she was sleeping, so he didn't call her. At that time, Ruochu was staring at the ceiling, thinking about how to be with daddy in the future.
get along.
During dinner, before Qin Nan came up to serve it to her, Ruochu took the initiative to go downstairs. His expression couldn't be helped, but Ruochu tried his best to look calm so that his family could rest assured.
"Ruoruo, when you went to bed in the afternoon, daddy came to see you. I saw that you had just fallen asleep, so he didn't call you." Qin Nan observed Ruochu carefully, as if he wanted to find something about her emotions on her face.
There are clues, this is how mothers are, Qin Bei told her that her daughter had grown up and she didn’t need to worry about it, but sometimes she just couldn’t help but worry about it.
"Oh, Mom, you don't have to accompany me tonight. I'm fine. You can just sleep by yourself." Ruochu said in a hoarse voice. Her body constitution is such that whenever she gets sick, her tonsils will swell immediately.
"That's fine, but you can rest at home for two more days." Qin Nan said.
"Oh." Ruochu lowered his head and agreed.
After dinner, Ruochu still went upstairs listlessly.
"Is there something on your mind about this child?" Yuan Jingshu frowned, "Don't you all know what happened?"
Qin Nan looked at Qin Bei. Yuan Jingshu was worried about what she was worried about, but she didn't know whether to listen to Qin Bei's words or not to ask.
"Mom, it's okay. This child Ruochu has her own opinion and can handle it well no matter what happens. Besides, she has grown up, so there is no need to worry." Qin Bei smiled and comforted the woman at the dinner table, but he was not worried.
, however, he believes that parents’ trust is the greatest encouragement and unconditional support for their children rather than direct intervention.
The fact is that if Qin Bei or Qin Nan are willing to give Ruochu some direction at this time, she is in great need of it.
Our little princess, a little princess with a super high IQ who skipped grades all the way, was completely confused and lost her position when she encountered emotional problems, which were still so complicated and shocking.
Several times she had the urge to talk to her father or mother, as long as they could point her in the direction, but she didn't dare because she was afraid that if she told her, she would never have the chance to be with her father again.
In fact, if the source of heart disease is an extreme denial and disgust of oneself, the more outstanding children are, the easier it is to fall into this emotion. Because as they grow up, both their family and society have high expectations for them.
They will also invisibly restrain themselves with higher requirements than other children of the same age. However, once they find that they are not doing well, or even have some thoughts that they should not have, they will deny themselves.
It's more profound and extreme, and Ruochu is like this at this time.
When she discovered one thing, that is, she might have fallen in love with her godfather, she was filled with deep contempt for herself. She felt that she had tarnished all the good things her father had done to her, and she felt sorry for her father.
I'm sorry for her parents, and I'm even more sorry for Rousseau, even though she never did anything deliberately, even though this kind of love came from subtle and unconscious, even though it came suddenly, so sudden that she was knocked down by it without any preparation.
But isn’t this a kind of happiness? When you find that you have fallen in love with someone, no matter who he is, this is the feeling of happiness. No matter how much you blame yourself, no matter how unreasonable the relationship is, love
It's love.
So, when pain and happiness intertwine, when you discover for the first time in your life that you can be so entangled with one person, the whole world begins to suffer from insomnia.
In another house, our male protagonist is not like this. The only difference is that he has not yet recognized his emotions, or does not want to take the initiative to recognize anything. He just knows that this house is empty, lifeless, and shocking.
Every corner seems to have traces of her.
I wanted to make a dinner for myself, but I found that without her to make trouble, I couldn't bring up the interest with Ben, and I had no appetite. I saw that the carrots I wanted to shred had turned into "matchsticks" with uneven thickness.
, it’s hard to be admired by that girl at this level. Xiaochuan smiled unconsciously, and then the smile stayed at the corner of his mouth. If someone saw it, it would be like a bitter smile. He threw the knife aside and did
If it’s ready and you don’t want to eat it, why bother with it?
In the living room, my eyes kept glancing at the hand-painted wall disobediently, and the remote control was pressed back and forth in my hand. One channel stayed on for no more than 1 minute. I simply threw away the remote control, took a shower, and went back to the room to sleep.
, lying on the bed, I just couldn't bear to close my eyes, because the ceiling was also the work of that girl. I turned off the light and forced myself not to think about anything. Tomorrow, this girl should be back.
Xiaochuan passed by Ruochu's office from time to time the next day, intentionally or unintentionally. It wasn't until the afternoon that she finally gave up. However, she was full of hope when she got off work. Maybe she would go home directly, so she got off work on time and went to the supermarket to buy a big bag.
Fresh things, when you get home, you will see that they are still the same as when you left in the morning. It doesn't matter, maybe you will come back later, Xiaochuan told himself this, and confidently tried his best to cook a table of dishes, and then he
Just like yesterday, he waited boredly in the living room. Finally, when Xiaochuan was sure that Ruochu would not come back today, he did not touch the table full of dishes.
Xiaochuan really didn't sleep at all that night. He got up several times and smoked back and forth in the living room. He didn't want to admit it, but he was really afraid. He was afraid that the girl would never come back, and then he wouldn't be able to stay.
, Come to think of it, I was also the one who made the fuss. Qin Nan had already said that he wanted his child to rest at home for a few days to recuperate, but he was so upset that he just didn't come back for a few days. So it turned out that he didn't live well alone? It seemed like
I'm really old and have a strong sense of dependence on others. If it doesn't work out, I'll find Xiaoqing to live with. At least I'll have a companion.
When I got up in the morning and went to work, everyone was very submissive when greeting me along the way. The magazine had already spread the word, because Xiaochuan had not been in a good mood for the past two days, and Ruochu didn't show up for the past two days, so everyone consciously said
After linking these two things together, I decided that Ruochu must have had a conflict with Xiaochuan and was having a bad temper so he didn't come to work. In the past two days, no one should be caught in the crossfire.
How many were rejected?
Ruochu still didn't show up during the morning meeting. Xiaochuan pointed out everyone's faults one by one at the meeting. Everyone didn't dare to express their anger, and then announced the adjournment of the meeting. He was the first to walk out of the conference room, but he didn't expect to meet him face to face.
We arrived at Ruochu who was rushing inside.
Xiaochuan stopped and was stunned for a moment. The surprise on his face flashed away, and then he returned to his expressionless face. It was Ruochu's slimmer face that made him a little angry. Wasn't he recuperating at home? How did he become so skinny and sallow?
Yeah, it’s better to come back early.
"Ah, is the meeting over? I'm sorry I'm late." Ruochu said with difficulty after swallowing his saliva.
"Oh, it's nothing serious. You can just read the meeting minutes later. Well, come to my office when you have time." After Xiaochuan finished speaking, he lowered his head and walked sideways, starting to hum a tune in his heart.
Returning to the office, Xiaochuan waited for a while, but Ruochu didn't come. After waiting for a while, he still didn't come, so he lost his temper and got up and went to Ruochu's office.
Ruochu was dealing with the backlog of things over the past few days. After staying at home for two days, she figured out many things and decided to let nature take its course. Since she couldn't convince herself that she didn't love her, so be it. As long as he was happy, she could do anything.
She wanted to bless Michelle and Daddy. Doesn't loving someone only mean that the person is happy? Isn't there a popular saying now: "I love you, it has nothing to do with you." Although this kind of mind seems great, it is not
How can people who are deeply involved in it understand the helplessness hidden in it?
Now Ruochu just wants to seize every minute of time by his side, no matter if she is her daughter, as long as it can make him happy. If you love someone and it is not for the purpose of possession, maybe the person who pays will not feel too hard.
Relationships can last much longer.
After finishing the urgent matters at hand, I wanted to make a cup of coffee, and then I remembered that my mother had told me to drink the isatis root she had packed in her bag. I picked up the cup and stood up, and saw my dad standing at the door, looking at
When she noticed, he coughed twice.
"Oh, Humbert, what's the matter?" Ruochu's voice contained no emotion at all. After all, the office door was open and people were coming and going outside.
"Yeah." Xiaochuan walked into Ruochu's office and closed the door. Ruochu was a little surprised. She didn't care about rumors, but her father's actions were too obvious.
"Michelle just came to take a shower that day, and she left after that. She didn't stay at home... at home... to spend the night..." Xiaochuan was trying to figure out the words, and it was obvious that it was not easy for him to say these words.
"Oh..." Ruochu nodded. If she had known it at that time, she might have felt better, but now she didn't care. It didn't matter where she spent the night or who she spent the night with. What mattered was whether she could think about it.
Xiaochuan swallowed, put his hands unnaturally into his trouser pockets and took them out again, not knowing what to say next.
"You're just talking to me about this?" Ruochu thought for a while and asked when Xiaochuan didn't continue talking.
"No, ah, that's right. I thought you didn't like strangers living in our house. I mean, the place we share..." Xiaochuan began to speak incoherently. This was the first time in his life that he was so uncontrollable in front of a girl.
Angry, she is still a little girl.
Ruochu nodded, "Yes, I don't like strangers living in our house, but that doesn't mean I don't like Michelle." This is Ruochu's biggest advantage, he talks about matters case by case.
"I know, I'll pay attention." Xiaochuan looked into Ruochu's eyes and said, then turned and walked out. When he put his hand on the door handle, he turned around and asked: "Will you go home?" He believed that Ruochu could.
Understand which home he is referring to.
"Of course, if we continue to compete in cooking tonight, we must win once." Ruochu blinked.
"Ah, okay..." Xiaochuan agreed and hurriedly opened the door and walked out, so all the manuscripts submitted today were approved at once.