The past is often difficult to get through.——Jordan Chan
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Ruochu agreed to Rousseau’s proposal!
Before today, or before the quasi-car accident, Ruochu would not have agreed to him even if he was beaten to death. Although emotionally Ruochu was still a novice who had just intervened and was almost in a state of ignorance, she was stubborn.
We have firmly recognized the truth that marriage without love is absolutely immoral.
It is precisely because her emotional world is relatively simple, so compared with those people who are exhausted physically and mentally and have become numb to love after thousands of emotional experiences, she still has illusions about marriage, even if she cannot be happy with each other.
, but at least you have to be with the person you love. This is not selfish, but only when you love the other person can you devote yourself wholeheartedly to the other person and give the other person perfect happiness. And Ruochu sincerely hopes that Rousseau will be happy, but
She understands that she can't give it herself, so even if he loves her again, she doesn't want his unilateral contribution.
She would rather be the one who gives in the marriage.
But today, Rousseau's words shocked her. It turns out that everyone's definition of happiness is different. For Rousseau, happiness is as long as she gives him the chance to pay. And for herself, this is so simple.
If something can make others happy, then why not do it?
Although I still feel that this is unfair to Rousseau, there is no such thing as absolute fairness in this world. Emotional matters can never be weighed on a scale. They are always tilted at one end. It is an unequal exchange, but it just happened.
It is an unfairness that everyone can tolerate, even willingly. Since the person involved does not feel unfair, then other people's sympathy and pity are unnecessary. Ruochu admitted that she underestimated Rousseau.
Since you can't marry the person you love most, and since you must marry someone else, it doesn't matter who you marry. If this can make a person happy and satisfied, then do it.
Moreover, this person has just saved himself. Since life is given by others, then just start over as your reborn self and return the new life to him. Try to let go of everything before, and try to put everything in your heart back.
I slowly let go of my feelings and tried to see if I could put another relationship in. I feel tired and exhausted, so let’s leave it at that.
As long as you no longer have expectations in your heart, as long as you no longer dwell on the past that you once thought was beautiful, living is actually a very easy thing.
Rousseau leaned on the sofa alone for a long time without moving. Things developed beyond his expectation. However, marrying her was his biggest dream in this life, but he never dared to dream of the day when it would come true. So just now
She would say that, firstly because of her sincere thoughts, and secondly because she felt that only by threatening Ruochu in this way would she be more careful in order not to marry him in the future. However, she did not expect that the protracted battle she was prepared to fight would be won so easily.
Winning caught him off guard, and even felt that it was too fast. He had not yet thought about what to do after winning.
It was a lie to say that he was unhappy, but he had just saved her and immediately asked for marriage. If Ruo initially agreed to repay his kindness, then he would not only have failed to win, but also feel like adding insult to injury. Rousseau suddenly felt a little regretful.
It's not that he regrets proposing to Ruochu, but that he regrets his impulsiveness just now. The timing was wrong and it was a bit coercive. Also, is he really mentally prepared to get married?
But no matter what, she had already agreed, and she didn't think about anything. It was better to look forward to everything. At this time, Rousseau's heart was like a sea of clouds, and he probably would have to suffer from insomnia for a few days.
When Ruochu came back, Rousseau did not call Xia Tian because the incident was too sudden and he had to make sure again, even though he had already pinched his arm until it turned blue, confirming that it was definitely not a dream.
The two people who had grown up suddenly felt a little unnatural, and they just got engaged in such a simple way. Ruochu took advantage of the opportunity of cooking to hide in the kitchen, and refused to let Rousseau into the kitchen on the pretext that Rousseau had an injury on his hand, but he was eating.
You have to face it sometimes.
Then Ruochu suggested that since she still had two years to reach the legal age for marriage, could this matter not be announced to the outside world yet, but that the two of them knew that they would tell her parents after Rousseau graduated and she was old enough? Rousseau did not
Opinion, just like that, two people have a marriage contract. Although there are no laws or any restrictions, both people know that from now on, they are each other's responsibility, and no one can escape.
Ruochu hoped that Rousseau could give her freedom before marriage. She wanted a quiet time and lived the life she wanted, so Rousseau tried not to disturb her, but only came to see his future wife at a fixed time every week, and occasionally
In his free time, he would sneak over to see her as he did before. What made him happy was that after the last incident, Ruochu became much more careful. He also learned to concentrate when crossing the road, and his mentality gradually became calmer. Sometimes when he knew that he
When he was deliberately trying to please her, he would smile gently, which was already very difficult for Rousseau.
The days are very ordinary, and nothing seems to have changed on the surface. In order not to worry the family, Ruo Chu will go home on time every week, but he never stays overnight. After arriving home, he goes into Yuan Jingshu's room and doesn't talk to his parents much.
Yuan Jingshu's condition has improved a lot, and Ruochu no longer has to sneak back when Qin Nan goes to work during the day.
It's not that Qin Nan and Qin Bei didn't notice her abnormality, but Qin Nan was recently disturbed by a harassing phone call from a stranger and had no time to pay attention to Ruochu. She suspected it was Sun Miao, but she couldn't find any evidence and called the police.
There was no result, so she simply unplugged the phone at night, but this person and this incident made her mood very bad. As well as Xiaochuan's incident, Qin Nan even wondered if menopause was coming.
The weather was getting hotter. On a sunny weekend morning, Rousseau called to tell him that the website had a test and he could only come in the evening. Ruochu wanted to have fun by himself during the day. Ruochu was more than happy to do so, but he didn't have any activities planned for Rousseau on the weekend, so he was suddenly free.
I didn’t know what to do, so I remembered that I hadn’t bought a book for a long time. If I could find a good book, I could take it to “Carve Time” and share it with everyone. With this thought in mind, I chose a set of light spring clothes and set off to the bookstore.
Facts have proved that coming to a bookstore on weekends is definitely not a good idea. If you want a quiet environment for book selection, not only are there many people on weekends, but there are also many children. It is difficult to avoid being noisy. It is not much better than a wet market.
, but once you come, take it easy. Looking at the many new books on the shelves, Ruochu still doesn’t want to leave.
By some strange coincidence, I randomly picked out a best-selling book that the bookstore was currently promoting, and flipped through the content. The more I read, the more I liked it. Finally, I found that my arms were sore, so I thought about flipping to the front to find the author's name. I glanced at it and suddenly my eyes widened.
The name hit Ruochu like lightning, and the book in her hand fell to the ground with a crash. The author was Xiaochuan. How could she not remember his pen name?
She took a deep breath and planned to bend down to pick it up. At this time, a pair of hands had already picked up the book and handed it to her, "Miss, your book."
At this voice, Ruochu suddenly raised his head, and immediately met a face whose color also changed instantly due to surprise. The two looked at each other for several seconds without saying a word.
"Hi, how are you?" Xiaochuan smiled slightly and said hello softly.
Ruochu's lips moved, but no sound came out.
Xiaochuan looked straight at her, with surprise, longing, longing, and maybe other things in his eyes. However, he didn't dare to blink, for fear that if he blinked, he would disappear like Ruochu.
"Your book is pretty good..." Ruochu cleared his throat and pointed to the book that Xiaochuan had just picked up for her and was still in his hand.
"This one? Do you like it? Do you want me to give you a signed copy?" Xiaochuan raised it casually and said in a relaxed manner.
"Uh, okay, I'm honored..." Ruochu said. At this time, two children who were chasing each other ran over. The one in front accidentally bumped into Ruochu. Ruochu staggered and Xiaochuan hurriedly stretched out his arm.
Hold on.
"Let's find a place to chat." Xiaochuan frowned. The environment here was really not suitable for talking. Ruochu nodded.
There is a cafe in the garden on the top floor of the bookstore. The environment is not bad, so the two of us went there.
"How have you been recently?" Xiaochuan asked tentatively. It seemed that Ruochu's appearance had not changed much, but there was something more in his eyes. It was not as clear as before, and it seemed not as bright as before, but it was still him.
The pair of loving eyes that he thought about day and night stared at him wide, but with that expression, he didn't know if he would have the chance to see it again in this life.
"Are both "Mirror Image" and "Absolute Color" okay?" Ruochu mentioned those two magazines, where all her hard work had been.
"Fortunately, it's getting better and better, and it's all thanks to you." Xiaochuan said.
Ruochu smiled, and Xiaochuan's heart skipped a beat.
"Ruoruo, are you still angry with me?" At this time, the coffee was brought and the two of them fell silent.
When the waiter left, Ruochu shook her head. She had already tried to accept the fact. Since she couldn't change it, she thought she could understand her father. After all, there was nothing wrong with falling in love with someone, just because that person was her mother. Psychologically
The shadow just needs more time to dissipate.
"I'm sorry..." Xiaochuan was struggling whether to explain or not. It didn't matter if Ruochu misunderstood him, but he didn't want Ruochu to have this knot in his heart for the rest of his life. Even for the sake of their mother-daughter relationship, he felt it was necessary to treat Ruochu
The knot in my heart was untied, and besides, it felt uncomfortable to be wronged, but I was still a person who cared so much.
It's just that he doesn't know how to say it yet.
"Ruoruo, if I want to tell you about what happened between me and your mother, are you willing to listen?" Xiaochuan suddenly made up his mind. Ruoruo should know the truth of the matter and his feelings for her, so he decided not to
No matter how much you try to hide it, even if you just say that and go your separate ways, it's not in vain that the two people fell in love with each other. Even if the relationship has a beginning and an end, it always needs an explanation. There must be an explanation for her and for himself, otherwise he will
I don't know if he can still feel at ease in the rest of his life. He doesn't want to carry the resentment of a girl and move on, not for himself, but because he doesn't want Ruoruo to be unhappy.
Ruochu gritted his teeth and seemed to have made a lot of determination, then nodded solemnly to Xiaochuan, "You say it, I'll listen."