I love you very much, so I am willing not to tie you down and fly to more happy places. - Rene Liu "I love you very much"
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Xiaochuan didn't let go until he pulled Ruochu to his car, because he was a little anxious just now and didn't have enough strength. As soon as Ruochu was let go, he subconsciously moved his wrist that was reddened by Xiaochuan.
Xiaochuan closed the car door, noticed Ruochu's actions, and said "I'm sorry."
Ruochu shook his head slightly.
"If I remember correctly, you should get married tomorrow, right?" Xiaochuan glanced at Ruochu's outfit again. She was pretty, but she was much more old-fashioned and tacky. He didn't like her look, and wanted to
I don't understand why she would do this.
If Ruochu didn't comment, Xiaochuan was disappointed. In fact, he was asking questions knowingly.
"Aren't you happy?" No matter what he said, he just wanted her to tell her what happened, so that she could subvert her previous image and come to a place like this, where she almost lost her virginity on the eve of her wedding.
Ruochu was still silent.
Xiaochuan thought for a while, started the car suddenly, and stopped talking. Ruochu seemed to have made up his mind to ignore him anyway, so what qualifications did he have to care about her?
The car stopped steadily in front of the apartment building where Ruochu now lives.
"Get off the car." Xiaochuan said coldly, Ruochu didn't move.
After a while, Xiaochuan sighed deeply, "Ruoruo, is there something you can't tell... to me? Is it related to Rousseau? Do you want me to call him?" Xiaochuan finally got to the point,
Pretending to dial the car phone.
"No." Ruochu finally said two words, and Xiaochuan looked at her.
"I don't want to go up." After saying five more words, Xiaochuan frowned, "How about I take you back to Qin's house."
"No, I don't want to go back there." Ruochu immediately objected, and his tone was very urgent and fierce.
"Okay, but..." Xiaochuan was in trouble. He had experience in dealing with women, but he had no use against Ruochu.
"Would you please take me back to our home? I'm only staying for one night, the last night, is that okay?" Ruochu suddenly turned to face Xiaochuan, the longing in his eyes that Xiaochuan couldn't bear to refuse.
Xiaochuan also looked at her, and when he turned back, he started the car again, and the car drove into the community where they once lived together. Before it could stop, just by seeing the building, Ruochu started to
Heartbeat increases.
"Well, it's a bit messy. There's nothing to eat. There's only wine. I won't buy you a drink. I have a new set of pajamas that I can lend you. What time do you have an appointment with the stylist tomorrow morning? I can send you there. You want it here.
Don't call home, um, are you thirsty? I'll boil water..." As soon as he entered the door, Xiaochuan started to chatter like Tang Monk. He was used to living in this house alone, but Ruochu suddenly became so
At first, he felt a little uncomfortable, so he kept talking to cover up his embarrassment. Although it was not coherent, Ruochu didn't listen.
As soon as she came in, she walked to the hand-painted wall and gently touched the dust on it with her hand. Xiaochuan coughed and went to the kitchen to boil water.
"I heard that brides should get enough sleep. Fortunately, there is milk at home. If you drink this, you can go to bed early." After a while, Xiaochuan came out of the kitchen with a cup of freshly heated milk. Ruochu didn't see if there was any milk.
I wanted to take it, so I put it on the coffee table.
"Well, I'm going back to the room first. You want to go to bed early?" Xiaochuan sat on the sofa with Ruochu for a while. Seeing that Ruochu ignored her, he stood up and said, and then went back to the room sadly.
This was destined to be a sleepless night. Xiaochuan locked himself in the room and smoked one cigarette after another. He did not dare to go out. Although she was still with him now, she would soon be someone else's bride. Xiaochuan told himself
, can't think wildly, although he can vaguely feel Ruochu's reluctance towards this marriage, but it has reached this point, it can only be like this. There are all kinds of medicines in this world, but there is no regret medicine. I believe that time can heal.
Everything, at the same time, he also believed that Rousseau could give Ruochu happiness. After all, he and Qin Bei were both optimistic about the child, so he couldn't go wrong.
When the sky was dark, Xiaochuan decided to take a cold shower to refresh himself, and then sent Ruochu back. If people knew that Ruochu spent the night at his place, I wonder what Rousseau would think.
Pushing open the door, Xiaochuan couldn't help being surprised. He saw Ruochu hugging his legs and nestling in a corner of the sofa, with his head tilted on his knees. When he heard the knock on his door, he raised his head and looked
He had not taken off his heavy makeup. After a night, he already looked a little decadent, and the shade of his eyeshadow was also uneven.
"Ruoruo, you didn't sleep?" Xiaochuan asked in surprise. In fact, he shouldn't be surprised, because he himself was not the same.
Ruochu nodded.
"Hey, then wash your face quickly. I'll take you back. The stylist is about to arrive." Xiaochuan urged.
"Humbert, can we really not be together?" Ruochu asked suddenly. She thought and struggled all night, and recalled Rousseau's letter over and over again. Suddenly, she felt that a crack in the hazy sky seemed to open.
There was a crack, a ray of sunlight tried to squeeze in, but it was just a crack. It would take two people to work hard to let all the sunlight pour in, but she was not sure about anything yet.
Xiaochuan originally wanted to go into the bathroom, but when Ruochu asked, he had to stop and said, "Silly boy, you are going to marry Rousseau soon. Don't think so wildly. Why don't you take a shower first."
"What if I don't marry Rousseau? Is that okay?" Ruochu continued.
Xiaochuan had to look at her squarely, searching for the truest element in her eyes, "Don't make such a joke, hurry up, miss." In the end, he turned his head, he couldn't afford to make this joke.
"Answer the question." Ruochu said loudly without moving.
Xiaochuan was really defeated by her. It seemed that many things had not been resolved. This would not work. He could not let her get married with regret and reluctance. There were some things that he thought she understood, but in fact she had not thought of him so much. Maybe it was true.
It is necessary to explain clearly what is in your heart to her, so that neither of you will have any regrets.
Xiaochuan thought for a few seconds, then walked to the sofa where Ruochu was and sat across from her, "Ruoruo, even if you don't marry Rousseau, we can't be together." He looked into her eyes and spoke word by word.
Saying these words, Xiaochuan felt as if his nerves had been opened.
Ruochu's expression changed, and when he was about to argue, Xiaochuan waved his hand, signaling Ruochu to let him finish.
"Ruoruo, I am your godfather, your parents' best friend, and your godmother's brother. If we are together, where will you put these people? How can I have the face to face you?
Parents?" This is the first time Xiaochuan has told Ruochu this, and this is also what worries him the most.
"But we are in love. Isn't our love worth this? You can only live once in this life. If you meet true love and have to take care of so many things, then what's the point of living? Besides, we can win
Their consent. Mom and Dad are both enlightened people. Maybe we will be blessed. We should at least give it a try, right? Mom always told me to obey my heart, stick to what I think is right, and want to be with myself.
Is there anything wrong with having people you love together?"
Ruochu couldn't remember the last time he spoke so many words at once. He only knew that he hadn't argued with anyone for a long time.
Xiaochuan made a helpless expression. He envied Ruochu for being able to simplify such a complicated matter. However, what he said was not completely unreasonable, and he was not unmoved. However, "But Ruoruo, just...
Love is not possible. In fact, love is a very fragile thing. It is a luxury product and fragile. Many things can easily destroy love, such as ethics, time, and many force majeure factors..."
"Force majeure?" Ruochu's eyes widened.
"Well, take our age gap as an example. Suppose I can live another 30 years. I will be old by then, and 30 years later you will be in your prime, just like your mother or godmother now. That
I must leave you when the time comes, so who will take care of you for the rest of my life? How can I leave you behind with peace of mind? How can I ignore your future just for the sake of temporary happiness?"
"It is precisely because I love you that I must consider your future. I must see you find a good home and find someone who can accompany you through the storms of life so that I can feel at ease. And I have the energy to spare."
Not enough." Xiaochuan said, and Ruochu's mascara began to turn into liquid and flowed down his cheeks.
"Ruoruo, there are many kinds of love. You have to believe that Daddy loves you very much and is willing to be with you, but Daddy can't possess you selfishly, and he can't do anything in the future just because of your impulse or simplicity.
Do you know that there are things that may cause you to regret?" Xiaochuan was very sincere in his words, and when he saw Ruochu's tears, his eyes became red as he spoke, and he felt like giving up. Only he could feel this kind of pain.
"But why don't you listen to my choice? As an elder, can you self-righteously define happiness for me? Everyone has a different definition of happiness, why don't you listen to my thoughts?" Ruochu wiped a
Tears and mascara were wiped everywhere, Xiaochuan sighed and handed her a piece of paper.
"I would rather choose to stay happily with you for thirty years and then grow old alone calmly than never taste happiness in my life. You can at least give me thirty years of happiness, but no one else can
If you can't give it, then my life will be equivalent to death from now on. Would you rather watch me live happily for thirty years and then die with you, or watch me die now, like a walking zombie?
Can you bear it?"
Xiaochuan was speechless after what he said. He couldn't deny that Ruochu's words touched his heart. He admitted that he had always considered Ruochu from his own point of view and had never wanted to hear what she thought.
, and what Ruochu said below shocked him even more.