Destiny is an irregular shuttle. Before sorrow is complete and before it is too late to change, let us always be the warp and latitude of plain silk; always bright and untainted by worldly love. - Wen Yiduo's "Encounter is a thing of the past"
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Rousseau disappeared on the eve of their wedding. To be precise, when Jojo first discovered it, it was the eve of the wedding, the night before.
In fact, it cannot be said that he disappeared, because Rousseau sent an e-mail to Ruochu before leaving, and also sent a text message telling Ruochu to collect the letter.
Ruo Chuzai carefully read the letter twice, and then calmly dragged it into the recycling bin. On the eve of the wedding, the groom ran away from the wedding. This is undoubtedly a disaster for every bride-to-be, but for every bride-to-be,
Ruo Chu said that not only was she not shocked, but she felt it was natural. She seemed to have been mentally prepared for this result. After reading this letter, she suddenly felt relieved, but she also felt a sense of powerlessness due to weightlessness. Does this mean that
, even Rousseau no longer wanted her, and she had become a complete loner.
Rousseau, Summer, and Humbert all left her, and her fiancé followed her good friends. She didn't know if they could still face her calmly, or that she could still have this friendship.
After sitting quietly in the dark for two hours, Ruochu suddenly stood up, took out a revealing mini-dress from Xiaoqing's closet, put on heavy makeup expressionlessly, and looked at herself
With bright red lips and thick dark circles under her eyes, she stood up and went out.
Ruochu arrived at the largest bar in the city and stood at the door for a long time before finally making up his mind and walking in.
Rousseau’s letter is copied below:
Dear Ruoruo:
"Every word is like a face. This time I have to blame you. I'm sorry. I know these are the most irresponsible three words, and they can't make up for the hurt you have suffered. But I still hope you can understand me and send this letter to me."
After reading the letter.
It is indeed not my intention to choose such a time to leave. Tomorrow is our wedding. I think that because of my own actions, I have brought shame to you, my family and you. When I go back, I will apologize to the parents of both parties in person.
, especially to obtain the teacher’s forgiveness.
I have to leave temporarily because Xia Tian is gone and I have to find her. If I don't go, I'm afraid I will regret it for the rest of my life.
You said, if I meet true love, give me freedom, then I take it seriously, I think I have fallen in love with Xia Tian, I'm sorry, Ruochu, I always thought I loved you, if you think I cheated
You, that's because I deceived myself first, so I didn't mean it. Can you feel better if I say this?
I have always believed in love at first sight, so I decided that you were my love at first sight. The love in my imagination and the girls in my dreams were all shaped in your image, so when you arranged summer by my side, I
I have confidence in myself, even though I was a little sad because of your arrangement. But later, slowly, I will thank you for this arrangement. Every time you reject me, if it is not summer, I think
It's still hard for me to get over it now. I was very depressed for a while, just because you fell in love with your godfather.
I feel like my dream was shattered into pieces. It was Summer who carefully put these pieces together and gave me the courage and strength to persevere. It was he who shaped a brand new me, and this me no longer belongs to you.
Yes, but I haven't noticed it yet.
In any case, I proposed to you that time because I really wanted to take good care of you. Even if you don't love me, I will try my best to give you happiness. This idea has not changed until now.
But during this time, I have also thought a lot. Will a marriage with only one-sided love last? Well, even if you and I will be faithful to this marriage, will you and I be happy? But I believe that I will be happy.
Yes, after all, I can be with you every day, but what about you?
What I saw was that during the period when you agreed to marry me, you were completely unhappy. This made me shaken. Do I have the ability to give you happiness? I couldn’t even smile when I saw you.
So reluctantly, I felt that we seemed to have made a mistake, and it was you, or Xia Tian, who made me realize this mistake completely.
To be honest, I think Xia Tian got sick at the right time, otherwise I would never have discovered what my feelings are like. Before, I always believed that it doesn't matter if you don't love me, as long as I love you, that's enough.
But if I am not sure about my love for you, we will dig our own grave if we continue to enter into this marriage. So I have been struggling these days. I believe you have also seen my abnormality. No matter what you say,
Didn't say anything.
It was Xia Tian who made me decide to completely end the relationship between us. I just found out yesterday that she left, and it was said that she went back to the small city where her home is. I didn't sleep all night, and I decided to write this letter to you this morning.
After finishing the letter, I will set off to find her, because I don't want to watch this love end before it begins. Even if Xia Tian won't accept me, I will give myself an explanation and give her an explanation.
Don't blame Xia Tian, okay? Ruoruo, if you want to blame you, blame me. She has never done anything to feel sorry for you. She always hopes that the two of us will be happy. This is why I can trust her unconditionally. I don't want to because
I ruin the friendship between you two, even if it's just my wishful thinking.
Ruoruo, we are all still young, and we all still have the right to pursue happiness. I used to feel that all my happiness was with you, but now I see, nothing lasts forever, so let’s give each other freedom.
In fact, I can see that Uncle Xiaochuan also loves you. Although he has looked for me several times, hoping that we can be together, this makes me feel that his love is selfless, and it makes me feel even more insignificant. I love you
, just wants to possess you, but the way he loves you is to give you freedom, so let me love you like this again, let go, give you a chance, and give myself a chance, let's pursue our own together.
Although happiness is our own happiness, I am sure that your happiness is also mine. Will you bless me in the same way?
Having said so much, you may think that I am shirking responsibility or giving up. You can hate me, as long as you can feel more comfortable. But no matter what, you are the first person I saw when I was twelve years old.
That little princess who has never been forgotten, if I can no longer love you in the future, I will protect you like a brother, as long as you can give me a chance to make amends.
I'm leaving this time, so they won't make things difficult for you, they will just make you embarrassed, but don't take it to heart. Compared with the happiness of our life, some rumors are nothing. When I find Xia Tian, I will
I told her from the bottom of my heart, get her back, after all, the website cannot live without her, I will come back to clean up this mess, I will wrong you tomorrow, have a good sleep, everything will be over, you know? - Rousseau."
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If she was sitting at the bar drinking alone, one glass after another, she didn't know that she had such an amazing capacity for drinking. Human potential is unlimited, and the key is to discover it. The content of Rousseau's letter echoed in her mind.
It’s not Rousseau’s fault, nor Xia Tian’s, but she doesn’t want to mention it again, so she will delete it. In fact, her most pressing priority is how to explain to both parents, relatives, friends, so many guests, and even Qin tomorrow.
All the employees of the company needed her explanation, but at this moment, she felt that her brain was super insufficient and she had no ideas at all. Rousseau's letter said that she could just leave everything to him, but Ruochu didn't want to do that.
So he drank more and more uncontrollably.
"Miss, are you alone?" I don't know when a man sat next to her. Because Ruochu felt a heat coming from her ears, she instinctively moved her upper body to the other side and ignored the man's question.
Didn't even look at him.
"Oh, it's quite aloof. That's what I like. Come with me. I won't treat you badly." Instead of retreating despite the difficulties, the man pushed even further.
Ruochu still ignored it and drank the wine from his own glass alone.
Seeing that Ruochu was ignoring him, the man put his arm on Ruochu's shoulders wantonly, trying to pull Ruochu into his arms.
Ruochu pushed him in disgust.
"Why don't you just put on a stage? What are you pretending to be?" The man reached out his hand wantonly and tried to pinch Ruochu's chin. When Ruochu turned his head, she felt that she had fallen into another embrace. She was shocked, what if the other person was
If there were two people, then she would probably be in trouble tonight.
Fortunately, the person behind her spoke in time, allowing her to finally put her heart back in her stomach.
"She is my woman, please respect yourself." Although he didn't look back, if he heard that it was his father's voice, no wonder that embrace seemed familiar.
The man glanced sideways at Xiaochuan. Everyone knew that Xiaochuan was a regular visitor here and was still a good friend with the boss. As the largest bar in the city, it was impossible to get involved without some background.
So I just hummed "I didn't tell you earlier" and left knowingly.
Ruochu secretly breathed a sigh of relief and reached for the glass with half a glass of wine left, but Xiaochuan took it away first.
"Why are you here?" Xiaochuan asked with a frown. Everyone on earth knew that she was getting married tomorrow. How could a bride-to-be come to a bar to drink heavily the day before her wedding? She was almost molested. If she told anyone, it would be a fantasy.
As for why Xiaochuan is here, it's easy to understand.
When he came in just now, he felt that the girl's back looked familiar and lonely, so he unconsciously sat down not far from her. Later he saw that she was being pestered, and he didn't want to meddle in other people's business, but he saw
It was probably her first time coming out to a place like this, and she had no experience dealing with these people. Especially when she pushed the man, she saw one side of his face. Xiaochuan was shocked, but she just thought he looked similar.
It's just Ruochu, because he knows she won't come to a place like this, nor dress up like this, not to mention she has a wedding tomorrow.
So he instinctively walked over again. When he saw clearly that this was Ruochu, he helped her. He was extremely scared. If he hadn't met him, if he hadn't been so curious today, the consequences would have been unimaginable.
I want her to explain.
Ruochu didn't speak.
"Let's go, I'll take you back." Xiaochuan said without any doubt.
If it moved for the first time, it didn't move.
"What? Do you want me to take you out?" Seeing that Ruochu didn't answer, Xiaochuan continued.
Ruochu finally raised her head and looked at him. Xiaochuan took one of her hands domineeringly and led her out without any explanation.