Hope itself is happiness. Although it often encounters setbacks, such setbacks are not as terrible as the disillusionment of hope. - Johnson's "Happy Expectations"
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Qin Nan never expected that Ruochu could say such things to her. From childhood to adulthood, although he knew that she was a child with a strong personality and a stubborn temper, and did not like other children to act coquettishly with their parents, Qin Nan had always
I think she is very considerate and well-educated. Although her escape from marriage has brought her a lot of shock and trouble, Qin Nan firmly believes that there is a hidden secret or a last resort. After all, no matter what mistakes young people make, they are
It's forgivable, and she herself bears a large part of the responsibility, but after what happened, she blamed herself more than Ruochu.
Because of Yuan Jingshu's illness, the relationship between Xiaochuan and Ruochu had actually aroused Qin Nan's vigilance. A series of events were connected together, and Qin Nan could almost understand what happened, but she had been holding back from mentioning it proactively.
First, because Yuan Jingshu's life or death is uncertain, and other things are not worth mentioning, and because Qin Nan has always been afraid of facing the cruel reality.
The moment Ruochu admitted that she fell in love with Xiaochuan, even though he was fully mentally prepared, Qin Nan still suffered a thunderbolt from the blue. This was nothing, one was his own daughter, and the other was his daughter who had once pursued him.
Although she has not yet heard Xiaochuan admit this personally, judging from his behavior in the hospital, the two of them are undoubtedly lovers, and there is no need for him to admit it personally.
Qin Nan couldn't tell her how she felt about this matter. She didn't know if she had a mysophobia. In the past few days, she kept telling herself that maybe it was her illusion and that her daughter's feelings for Xiaochuan might just be her admiration for her elders.
It's just attachment. Even if Ruochu is young and ignorant, Xiaochuan will not mess around. She doesn't believe that Ruochu regrets the marriage because of Xiaochuan. That is to say, she doesn't believe that the seniors she has known and admired for decades will
He would not believe it even if he was beaten to death for doing such a thing.
She really wanted to ask him personally, but she didn't dare.
When he walked out of Ruochu's room, Qin Nan almost fell down on the stairs. He barely managed to hold on and returned to his room. Qin Bei immediately followed him.
"Nan Nan, are you okay?" Qin Bei saw Qin Nan's face turning pale, walked over and held her arm, and asked worriedly.
Qin Nan calmly took his arm out of Qin Bei's hand and turned his head away without answering Qin Bei's question. How could she not be angry with him? He actually hid this from her. She thought
If there is one person in this world who is loyal to her and will not deceive her, it can only be Qin Bei. Unexpectedly, he also deceived her.
Qin Bei knew that he was in the wrong. In his opinion, Qin Nan's alienation and indifference was what he deserved, but he had no way to tell her these things. If possible, he would rather not let her know about it for the rest of his life. He could just handle it himself.
How could he not understand how she felt when she suddenly heard such a thing? Didn't he experience that feeling just now? He felt the same way.
"Nan, please listen to my explanation. I didn't mean to hide it from you, I was afraid of you..." Qin Bei murmured to himself. He knew that although Qin Nan turned his back, he would still listen to him, "Forget it.
You blame me, it's all my fault for not handling this matter well, but believe me, things are not as bad as you think, they are just..." Qin Bei tried to comfort Qin Nan, but Qin Nan was interrupted mid-sentence.
interrupt.
"Bei, can I just be quiet for a while? I don't want to hear about this now, so don't mention them anymore, okay?" Qin Nan closed his eyes unconsciously, feeling that his heart was throbbing in pain, and even his facial expressions were...
She must have been so sad that she was confused, but fortunately her back was to Qin Bei, so he couldn't see her, and her voice at least sounded calm.
Qin Bei walked behind Qin Nan and tried to hold her in his arms. As soon as his hand touched Qin Nan's arm, he felt her whole body stiffen unnaturally. He frowned and sighed softly,
He retracted his hands sadly and said, "Everything will pass. Get some rest early."
After a long while, Qin Nan didn't reply, so Qin Bei had no choice but to leave, leaving the room to Qin Nan himself.
He walked listlessly to the bedroom door and found Ruochu leaning against the wall of the corridor in front of his bedroom with his head lowered. As soon as Qin Bei came out, he immediately looked at him pitifully.
Qin Bei originally wanted to complain about Ruochu, but looking at her look now, he knew that she wasn't feeling well either, so he reached out and patted Ruochu on the shoulder, sighing deeply. He didn't know what time this was for him today.
He sighed for the first time. It seems that he has sighed more recently than in the past half of his life combined. Qin Bei is a person who has always been high-spirited. He never blames others or others when he encounters problems. There is no situation that he cannot solve. So he sighs so intensively now.
They all felt as if they were ten years older, but they couldn't care less.
"Dad, is my mother okay?" After asking, Ruochu nervously waited for Qin Bei's answer.
Qin Bei hesitated for a moment, what should I say? Could it be that she is very good? That is unrealistic. Just as he hesitated to answer, Ruo Chu got anxious and was about to push the door in and apologize to Qin Nan, but Qin Bei stopped him.
"Ruoruo, let's talk." Qin Bei looked at Ruochu and said, Ruochu looked straight at Qin Bei. The father and daughter had already talked once before, and Ruochu had clearly expressed his attitude.
Should Qin Bei still want to persuade her? Otherwise, what would we talk about? When it came to talking, Ruochu's defensive attitude immediately made Qin Bei feel a little distressed.
"Don't be nervous, let's talk casually, just like before." Qin Bei deliberately forced out a smile. He didn't know when it started. He and his daughter were so estranged. Don't he have no responsibility? Otherwise, what would happen to his daughter?
Qin Bei suddenly felt very sorry for Ruochu because he would fall into the arms of another man who was about the same age as himself.
Ruochu nodded slightly, but her nerves were still tense. Qin Bei took her to the rooftop.
"Is it cold? Baby?" Because we were on the top of the mountain and there were no buildings to block it. As soon as he came up, he was hit by a gust of wind. Qin Bei subconsciously held Ruochu in his arms. This action made Ruochu stunned for a moment, and then burst into tears.
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"I'm sorry, Dad, I'm really sorry. I made you so embarrassed and made you and your mother so sad. I didn't mean it. I really didn't mean it..." It was only at this time that Ruochu regained the fragility and kindness consistent with her age.
In terms of temperament, she is still a child who has just turned eighteen and is not yet twenty. What she has endured has far exceeded what she should bear at her age. I don't think a girl of her age should be enjoying love.
Is it beautiful, sweet and pampered by her family? But why does she have to live so tiredly? It doesn’t matter if she lives hard, but she also involves her closest relatives to suffer. She doesn’t know what she has done to deserve punishment.
To bear so much.
Sometimes, a warm embrace from her dearest person can make all the defenses she has worked so hard to build collapse. Just like Qin Bei's inadvertent action at this moment, it is absolutely lethal.
"Baby, it's me who should be saying I'm sorry." Qin Bei frowned, and couldn't help but feel a sore nose. He stretched out a hand to rub Ruo Chu's head, which was leaning on his chest, and spoke with a small trembling voice.
"Because I owe you my childhood, and I will never be able to pay it off in my lifetime..."
"dad……"
"I didn't even know you existed so long after you were born. This is something your father will never be able to forgive himself for in his life. Listen to me..." Qin Bei stretched out a finger to gesture to Ruo Chuyu to refute.
His little mouth said, "So until now I feel that I owe you, and I have always wanted to make it up to you, but you know your dad, if I am good at expressing feelings and can deal with all kinds of emotions very well, it won't be the same."
Is it okay to let you and your mother live outside for so many years?"
"Ruoruo, you have to believe that all the starting points of dad and mom are for you. We just want you to be happy. This is the most basic wish. At the very least, from the moment I saw you, this wish has never been
Changed, maybe sometimes you will feel that your parents are selfish and never think from your point of view, but have you ever thought about it from our point of view? If you know that it is a dead end or there is a trap, and you think
We can't see your life experience, but we have seen it, can we stop it without any force? After all, your parents will always leave you one step ahead, and what we can't let go of the most is your future happiness?"
Ruochu didn't say anything, but shrank into Qin Bei's arms, and Qin Bei also tightened his arms, "But no matter what, you have grown up, and your parents can only give you suggestions, even if they object.
Rights prevent you from doing anything you want to do, so don’t treat us as enemies, and don’t feel too guilty. Your mother is actually not as strong as you think, nor as fragile as you think. Any extreme emotion is a
The most real reaction in an instant. Maybe your mother’s character will make you think that she was a little out of sorts or excessive today, but you have to understand that she is also a normal person, and she will also have joys, sorrows, and joys, just like I knew this for the first time.
I couldn't help but have a fight with your dad when it happened. Each of us has our own way of venting. Your mother just can't accept it temporarily, so you don't have to bear too much burden, you know?"
When Qin Bei said this, he lowered his head and looked at Ruochu. Ruochu raised his head and nodded vigorously. He felt a lot relieved and began to think about Qin Bei's words. At the same time, he also reflected on himself. She found that she always wanted to convince others.
But she has never reflected on herself from the perspective of others. Qin Bei's words today shocked her.
"Baby, remember, you are you. If you persist, I will give you my blessing. Dad will always be on your side and support you, even if I don't agree. Do you understand?"
"Dad, thank you..."
"Fool, but you'd better spend more time with your mother at home. She just can't change her mind for a while. It's not really your fault, you know?"
"Um."
"The wind is getting strong, let's go down." Qin Bei's voice suddenly sounded desolate. Maybe he had figured something out, but he just couldn't make up his mind yet.