I want to conquer you with my pain alone. - Gandhi
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Qin Bei stayed in the living room until late at night before returning to the room. Qin Nan was already lying on the bed, but his face and body were facing outside, leaving Qin Bei with a back. Qin Bei used one hand to circle his back.
Qin Nan didn't react at all. Qin Bei tried to get her to turn around and face her, but she stubbornly refused, so Qin Bei let her go and lay down behind her.
After a long time, the two people's postures did not change, and neither of them made a steady sound of breathing. They persisted until dawn. Qin Bei had a sore back and Qin Nan got up early, silently made breakfast, and then took two
An insulated lunch box ready to go out.
"Mom, are you going to see grandma?" Ruochu came down from upstairs before Qin Nan walked out of the living room and asked hurriedly.
"Yes." Qin Nan responded softly, without looking back or stopping. He went directly to the entrance to change his shoes. Ruo caught up with him after a few steps, "Mom, can I go with you?"
Qin Nan paused for a moment, "You can go by yourself later, I have to go to work." After saying that, he walked out without looking back. Ruochu stared at Qin Nan's back with wide eyes, almost biting his lips.
Bloodshot.
"Take your time." At this time, Qin Bei walked up to Ruochu and patted her shoulder. He was saying this to Ruochu, but not to himself. Isn't he also facing an unprecedented family crisis now?
?"I'm going to follow your mother. She didn't have a good rest last night. You can go and do your work." Qin Bei said and followed him out. Qin Nan wouldn't take him, but he could follow behind, knowing that she had
Qin Bei has low blood pressure and is worried about driving like this.
"Sister, they have all left. You can send me to school. You don't go to work anyway, right?" Qin Nan and Qin Bei both left. Ruochu was still standing at the entrance in a daze. Ruoqi ran out with his schoolbag on his back. Ruoqi ran out with his schoolbag on his back.
Chu had no choice and drove Ruoqi to school. Then he wanted to go to the hospital to see his grandma, but he was afraid of the embarrassment that his mother had not left, so he went to Xiaochuan's residence. As expected, Xiaochuan hadn't gone out yet, and it was already past the usual time for work.
, I don’t know if I am waiting for Ruochu on purpose.
"What's wrong?" Seeing Ruochu coming in listlessly, Xiaochuan felt that something must have happened, but on the surface he was still calm and asked seemingly casually. Ruochu sighed while changing his shoes.
"Have you had breakfast? Let me make you a sandwich." Xiaochuan thought for a moment, then turned and walked to the kitchen.
"Humbert, my mother knows." Ruochu suddenly said from behind Xiaochuan. Xiaochuan paused for a moment, without looking back, and continued into the kitchen. After a long time, he brought out a plate with a sandwich and a glass of milk.
Put it on the coffee table in front of Ruochu.
"Eat."
"Can't eat it."
Xiaochuan lowered his head and said nothing, as if he was thinking about something.
"Humbert?" Ruochu called Xiaochuan in confusion. Xiaochuan raised his head and smiled at her, "It's okay."
"Your mother, are you okay?" Xiaochuan added. In fact, he wanted to call Ruochu last night to ask about the situation, but considering that Ruochu didn't call, the matter might not be too bad. He also knew this.
Calling during this sensitive period may not necessarily help things, but I have been worried about Qin Zhai's situation, and I haven't slept a wink all night. When I woke up this morning, I had a gut feeling that Ruo Chu would come over, so I didn't go to work. Sure enough, as soon as I saw Ruo Chu
He knew what was going on.
A large part of the reason for rejecting this relationship from the beginning was because of Qin Nan. She was the person Xiaochuan wanted to hurt the least. Now, this incident still happened. Although he was not with her at the time, he almost
You can imagine how sad Qin Nan must be. Just thinking of this makes Xiaochuan feel pain in his heart. But in front of Ruo Chu, he can't show too much concern. After all, one is his current lover and the other is
He didn't want to misunderstand his former lovers, even if they were mother and daughter, even if they had been explained clearly last time.
Ruochu didn't think too much, "It's not good. Maybe what I said last night was too blunt. She has ignored me now and ignored my dad. Humbert, am I too selfish?"
Ruochu has been thinking about what Qin Bei said to her last night, so she asked Xiaochuan for confirmation.
Xiaochuan didn't answer. This was the first time he heard Ruochu say that she was selfish. Before, she had always thought that their love was justified. Has she begun to waver? But his mind is very confused now, mainly because
Qin Nan, she has always kept her emotions secret. Her relationship with Qin Bei has been as stable as a rock through all the ups and downs over the years. Now when Ruochu says that she doesn't even care about Qin Bei, it seems that the damage is not light.
of.
"Ruoruo, is your mother at home now?" Xiaochuan couldn't sit still.
"No, I went to the hospital to see my grandma, and then said I was going to work. I waited until she left to see my grandma, so I came to you." Ruochu answered honestly.
"Ruoruo, I have something to do and need to go out now. Can you stay by yourself for a while and eat breakfast? We'll contact you later, okay?" Xiaochuan stood up, had changed into his suit, and could go out directly.
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Ruoruo frowned. He wanted to leave as soon as she arrived. What was so urgent? Moreover, he wanted to leave her behind. Suddenly something came to his mind, "Humbert, are you going to find my mother?"
Xiaochuan was noncommittal, but nodded and thought for a while, "You don't mind, do you?"
Ruochu forced a smile and said, "Of course, you can also persuade her. Maybe she will listen to you and help me say sorry." Xiaochuan's mouth moved slightly, which was regarded as an agreement, but how could he be confident in his heart? Based on his attitude towards
Qin Nan understands that she is not even paying attention to Qin Bei now. Whether he can see her or not is a problem, but he can no longer pretend to be an ostrich. The later he goes, the harder it will be to get forgiveness. If he doesn't want this decades-old friendship,
Then it will be destroyed.
After Xiaochuan came out of home, he went straight to the Qin family. When he arrived, Qin Nan hadn't arrived yet, so he waited in the reception room on the floor where Qin Nan's office was located. Through the glass window, he could see the door of Qin Nan's office. As soon as she arrived, she wouldn't care.
Whether he wanted to see her or not, he had to at least apologize to her.
While waiting, Xiaochuan had nothing to do and couldn't help but think of the past. At that time, after he knew about Qin Nan and Qin Bei, he couldn't think about it and avoided her, so she ran to his office to find him. Now it's time to
After becoming him, it seems that the mountains and rivers are changing, the wind and water are changing, and the cause and effect reincarnation in the world may really have certain laws, and people can only passively obey them. Thinking of this, Xiaochuan shook his head helplessly
, he is not a fatalist, but now he is thinking about pessimistic things.
After a while, the elevator arrival bell rang. Xiaochuan suddenly became nervous and stared at the door of Qin Nan's office. Sure enough, Qin Nan came, walking very slowly. On the surface, it looked nothing special, but
Xiaochuan felt that she was a little weak. He quickly stood up and followed Qin Nan before he opened the door and walked in.
"Nannan, let's talk, okay?" Xiaochuan said clearly before he reached her side. Qinnan stopped. When Xiaochuan walked over, she lowered her head, as if she was struggling with something.
, when he raised his head to look at Xiaochuan again, no change in his expression could be seen, "I'm sorry, I don't have time today." He was calm and distant.
Xiaochuan was stunned for a moment, "Then you go ahead and I'll wait for you. Please give me some time when you can, just a few minutes, or I'll treat you to lunch..." Xiaochuan looked at Qin Nan stubbornly.
She wanted to eat, maybe. He knew that she was deliberately avoiding him, but this was not the solution.
Qin Nan looked into Xiaochuan's eyes with difficulty and avoided it the moment their eyes met. "Let's go to the coffee shop." Xiaochuan nodded gratefully.
During the long time when the coffee was served, neither of them spoke. Qin Nan kept staring at the coffee cup in his hand, his eyelashes were slightly lowered. Recently, due to mental and physical exhaustion, his skin had become much darker and his expression was not as calm as usual.
More often than not, it feels like someone is worried.
"I'm sorry." It was Xiaochuan who opened the topic first and directly hit the crux and essence of the problem. He said that he came today to apologize.
"Why are you saying I'm sorry?" Qin Nan asked bluntly, but Xiaochuan didn't know what to say. Could it be that he wanted to say sorry because he didn't love you anymore, but fell in love with your daughter? In short, Qin Nan said one sentence
, put Xiaochuan in a very difficult situation. In the past, she was always very considerate, considerate of others, and often took other people's feelings into consideration when talking. Xiaochuan's attitude today has never been seen before.
But he also understood why she suddenly became so sharp.
Xiaochuan was not angry, but instead smiled, "Auntie's illness is nothing serious, right?" Xiaochuan cleverly avoided the edge and chose a seemingly safe topic to circumvent.
"Aren't you always in the hospital?" Qin Nan said another sentence, which made Xiaochuan unable to continue. Xiaochuan unconsciously picked up the coffee cup and took a sip seemingly calmly.
"Nannan, let me tell you straight away, what happened between me and Ruoruo..." Xiaochuan was not going to talk in circles anymore. It didn't feel good to be pressed step by step like this. He glanced at Qin Nan and considered it.
How to say, "I mean I'm sorry about that."
Qin Nan turned her head towards the window. Xiaochuan noticed that she bit her lip gently. From this small movement and the tone of her voice, it could be seen that her mood was fluctuating greatly. Xiaochuan said nothing, waiting for her.
respond.
"I don't understand what you are talking about." After a long while, Qin Nan finally turned around and answered Xiaochuan's words. Xiaochuan's eyebrows frowned slightly. She was avoiding it instinctively. From a psychological point of view,
It is a defense mechanism after being stimulated. She is unwilling to accept this matter, so she rejects it psychologically and refuses to believe that it is true. Qin Nan is not the kind of person who would deliberately pretend, and her attitude is even more