In the morning garden, in the pavilion of the flower forest, a person is dressed in white, looking at the cold autumn leaves in front of him.
"You forced her!" There was no longer a hint of joking in his words, but deep anger.
"Yes, I got her, she is mine." He said with certainty.
"No, you lost her. Lost her forever." He said it naturally, just like saying that a person needs to eat when he is hungry.
"Xue Mu! If you keep talking, don't blame me for being ruthless." Emperor Xuan Tian changed his usual indifference and stopped him excitedly.
"Really? Now I am not only your senior brother, but also the eldest brother of the deceased. Why do you torture each other?" Xue Mu suddenly felt powerless. How to manage this matter, how to manage it. Wasn't he an accomplice in the past?
"I will never let go, so you should think about how to let her live a better life here." Emperor Xuantian tried to calm down his emotions. In fact, he knew what Xue Mu meant. However, he couldn't.
If you love him, then bind her with hatred and let her remember him for the rest of her life.
"Really? I'm afraid it's difficult, I'm just a doctor, just a doctor." Xue Mu stopped looking at Emperor Xuan Tian, looked into the distance, and said solemnly.
Emperor Xuantian ignored Xue Mu's words and jumped forward. He unsheathed his soft sword and drew countless sword flowers in the air. The sword energy flew in all directions, and the remaining leaves and flowers flew around. Xue Mu's eyes were disturbed. Thousands of words were filled with emotion.
, can only turn into a deep sigh.
As time goes by, it is best to forget. Laughter is light, pain is light. Birth, old age, illness and death, togetherness and separation, the body cannot be controlled by oneself, and the mind cannot be controlled by oneself.
In a state of despair, time always flows too slowly, so slowly that you can't even feel it moving.
Every morning, I always see new dead leaves and flowers, sliding down the branches along the mysterious track. Lying flat on the barren land, silent and waiting, but there is no chance to turn into spring mud. Finally,
Amidst the rustling sound like funeral wails, it was cleaned up by the maid in charge of cleaning.
The legend of fallen leaves returning to their roots, and the myth of Xiangguan at dusk, can always only jump in the pale fantasy in my heart that has no chance to wander.
Like a caged golden magpie, it perished in this magnificent trap.
There will always be those meaningless wry smiles at the corner of my mouth, multiplying in my own bright red but stagnant blood, and eventually falling into a broken leaf. Falling into the stagnant water, there will be no ripples.
There are no more heart-wrenching shouts in the miserable wind and rain. I understand that the spring breeze cannot blow here.
In the winter afternoon, for a moment, I felt the sky was high and the clouds were clear, and a white hawk was flapping its wings and soaring. At that moment, the clouds dispersed and the sky cracked. It was like endless broken ideals.
I slowly stood up and walked towards the falcon.
After I escaped without overestimating my own abilities and regardless of the consequences, I realized that I couldn't run away, that I had no rights, and that I didn't even have the right to choose to escape by death. I was used to them following me like a shadow, used to them looking at me dull but still.
Blurred eyes. And they are more accustomed to my quietness and silence.
I walked with the falcon, watching it spread its wings and fly over the dilapidated and cold palace in front of me, thinking about where it would fly to. Maybe it would be a cliff, maybe a steep...
Thinking, thinking, I no longer even feel envious. Because even though I flew out like it, no matter how high or far I flew, I still didn't land. In the end, I could only be imprisoned in a smaller space.
.
A desolate voice came slowly. It was a singing voice, a little hoarse and distant. It felt like the mottled red paint on the corner of the ancient temple. It made people peaceful and I felt an instant peace.
I listened quietly to the only voice that could bring me some peace.
"The jianjia is green, and the white dew is like frost. The so-called beauty is on the side of the water.
If you follow it back, the road is blocked and long; if you follow it, you will find it in the middle of the water.
The leaves are luxuriant, and the white dew is not yet clear. The so-called beauty is in the meadow of the water.
If you follow it back and forth, you will be able to escape when the road is blocked. If you follow it when you follow it, you will feel like you are swimming in the water.
When I pick the bamboo, the white dew is still there. The so-called beauty is in the water.
If you follow it back, you will find the road is blocked and turn to the right. If you follow it, you will find yourself in the water."
I'm a little surprised. This is a love poem, which came from the cold palace, but it has a peaceful feeling.
"Son, why are you in the mood to go out and walk today?" The voice coming from behind made this short-term peace disappear.
I looked back at him. He was dressed in a blue dragon robe, arrogant with a hint of Yin Zhe, and cold and handsome with a hint of secrecy.
He circled me from behind: "But you should go out more often."
"My feet are tired after walking too much. It's very hard." I turned my head, looked at the cold palace not far away, and said feebly. Why do you always bring me pain, before, now, and in the future?
If nothing else, it is.
"I am reluctant to hurt you, but you are always so beautiful that you will disappear as soon as I let go." Emperor Xuan Tian thought that he had no choice, so he sealed the acupuncture points on her feet and locked them.
Thanks to her Qinggong.
"Whether I want to or not, I can't leave. You know this better than anyone else, don't you?" Facing his possession, I was already powerless.
"Shi'er, you are my concubine. Promise me not to leave." After saying that, he gathered a stream of true energy in his hands and injected it into his waist. He felt that the true energy flowed downwards and opened up the veins in his legs. There was a burst of energy in my legs.
It was warm and I felt suddenly alive... He let me go and said, "The acupuncture points are unlocked, you can try it."
I was surprised. After I came back, he never relaxed his surveillance of me. He wanted to tie me up every day and let dozens of people watch me.
I walked away a few steps, closed my eyes, and felt all the strength in my feet coming back. I opened my eyes, stood up, jumped up, and shuttled between the red walls and gold tiles. The sudden openness really gave me a sense of freedom.
illusion.
Maybe it was because I hadn't exercised for a long time. After a while, I felt weak all over and felt dizzy. Then, I felt that I was so bad, so I passed out. As I fell down, I always felt like there was a bottomless pit below.
At the end, there was the whistling wind and a calling voice. "Shi'er, Xi'er..."
When I woke up, I found myself lying on the big carved bed. Outside the bead curtain was the imperial doctor kneeling on the ground.
"What's going on?" The majestic Emperor Xuan Tian asked anxiously.
"Reporting to your Majesty, Concubine Tian is fine, but..." The imperial doctor was about to continue, but was interrupted.
"It's just what, it's nothing serious? How can I faint properly?"
"Congratulations to Your Majesty, Congratulations to Your Majesty, Concubine Tian is happy. It has been more than a month." The imperial doctor's words seemed to be full of joy and he replied respectfully.
My heart sank, I'm pregnant! Then I felt confused!! I touched my belly and there was a life inside. What should I do? Pregnant!
Seeing that he was about to walk in after rewarding others, I quickly closed my eyes and continued to faint. I told myself, quiet, quiet!
She felt her body being picked up and whispered: "Shi'er, we have a child. It's yours and mine, ours."
Child, then I will never have a clear relationship with him again. I don’t want a child with someone I don’t love! I lost control, woke up and broke free from his shackles. I said out loud: “I don’t want a child!
"
"What did you say? Say it again!" He said coldly.
"I don't want it!" I wanted to say, I don't want to give birth to a child for you. However, Ling'er on the other side suddenly interrupted me.
"Your Majesty, I have heard from the nuns that the first pregnancy is very difficult, so the queen will inevitably be concerned and afraid."
"I see, everyone, listen up. From now on, you will serve me as a good concubine. If you make the slightest mistake, you will not be spared lightly!"
"Me." I was about to say something when Ling'er beside me pulled my hand. I took a deep breath and said, "Your Majesty, I feel very sleepy and want to rest more."
"Okay, please pay attention to your health and have a good rest. I will come to see you later." As soon as he finished speaking, I was about to get out of bed and salute him to leave, but he stopped me and said, "Sir, you are pregnant now, so you don't have to
How polite."
After he left, I shouted away all the palace maids and eunuchs. At first, they refused to go down. It wasn't until I lost my temper that the others left. Only Ling'er was left inside.
I ignored them before, and I also understood that on the surface they were serving me as their masters, but in the end they still had to listen to the emperor.
But now, I really need to be alone for a while.
Pregnancy?! A child?! I really never thought that this would happen, but what should I do? I had the urge to shout loudly: I don’t want a child! I don’t want a child! Don’t give birth to a child for him! I don’t want it!
Don’t you want this child? If you don’t want this child, maybe Emperor Xuan Tian will kill me in a fit of anger, or throw me into the cold palace and never allow me to step out of the cold palace again. There is nothing bad in this outcome.
But, can I really do this? What should I do? At this time, I can no longer be quiet, and I really want to talk to someone alone.
"Ling'er, tell me, why does it always have to be like this? Why does he always bring me pain?"
"Empress, Ling'er doesn't understand what you mean. In fact, the empress can be said to be the happiest empress in this palace. The empress is the only concubine in Zhongtian. Strictly speaking, her status is more noble than the queen. The emperor's favorite is
Your Majesty, always give the best to your Majesty."
"Is this happiness? With a person who killed my relatives?" This is the happiness in their eyes. Maybe because I am not from here, I can't understand this kind of happiness at all!
"Your Majesty, your Majesty doesn't want me to say anything, but I still want to say it. In fact, your Majesty didn't mean to hurt your mother-in-law?"
"Go on!" It seems that there is indeed another article.
"At that time, the emperor treated his wife well, and she also said that my wife owed the emperor and his family. The day after the queen left, she arranged to detoxify the wife. Once, the wife overheard that the emperor wanted to threaten the emperor with his wife.
, on the day of the accident, I left by relieving myself, but I didn’t want to be hit by a frightened wild horse. I tried my best to save my wife’s life. It was the slaves’ mistake, not the emperor’s fault.”
"You said so much just because you want me to give birth to this child well."
"Yes." She said frankly.
"I understand, you can go down!" In fact, even if she didn't say this, I wouldn't let go of this child easily. Moreover, at this time, I can't just say I don't want to.
I also know Ling'er's good intentions. On the one hand, she is loyal to Emperor Xuantian and wants to keep this child for him; on the other hand, it also alleviates my hatred. In this palace, if I keep this child, I will
Of course I won't be too sad. And if I don't want this child, I can't even imagine what will happen to me.