Between the sun, the moon and the stars, I have been in this garden for half a month. I am feeling much better, and I am no longer shivering from the cold while wearing a big cloak like before.
During this period, Agda brought Hailan here once, and also brought their fat son. The child looked at me and felt very distressed.
And Agueda also told me what happened that day. He said that they all saw me when I returned to Xindu that day. When he was about to come forward to say something, he saw me embracing a man. Huangfu Zhe was very angry and said
On the way back, we bumped into a donkey cart transporting rancid water, staining our clothes. Princess Huyan happened to be at the house at that time, so...
I smiled as calmly as before and said, "I understand."
Isn’t it all in the past? Let the past be in the past. They talked and I just listened.
I was practicing Qinggong on the plum forest at the moment, when I saw Yasu coming over with a basket. There were flowers of various colors in it. They were not from this season, I am afraid they were covered with a stove. Those were delivered by Huangfu Zhe every day.
.I was just wondering why he didn't come. After I landed, Yasu came over and asked, "Put these flowers up and put them in the fourth lady's room?"
I nodded. In fact, she was asking too much. When I said no, she would always give me a long list of reasons. Then I let her go. The more I realized that she was very similar to Yali.
I walked on the snow again. After I was no longer afraid of the cold, I particularly liked walking on the snow. The creaking sound made me feel very at ease. Because a creaking meant that I had taken a step, a solid step.
At this time, I saw a figure emerging from the velvet-like white snow. I knew it was him, so I took a few steps forward, and he followed me, but he didn't make a creaking sound like me. When I looked back, he
He came here by stepping on my steps. He was wearing
He wore a crescent robe and a crescent cloak trimmed with gold. His face was no longer so pale. He reached out and took off the plum petals stuck in my hair, with a warm smile in his eyes. He said, "I just want to walk through it."
Wherever you go, feel what you feel.”
I smiled indifferently and replied: "Step on it, it's very solid, but it's also cold."
He naturally grabbed my hand and breathed to warm me as before. I was about to withdraw. He intertwined the fingers of his hands and clasped them as I had taught him before. He walked up to me and said: "
So, how about you step on my footsteps?"
I looked at him, nodded, and followed his pace. I knew that he deliberately slowed down and shortened his pace. With each step, he turned left and right twice to try to enlarge the footprint. When I stepped into him
When he made his first footprints, I felt warmth on my feet, but I felt inexplicably sad. Looking at his hard-working back, I felt
I have the urge to cry hard with this solid back. But I know that I can't. He will be the emperor of this country. That is an area that I don't want to get involved in anymore. I don't want to be his fetters. And he,
There is a time for happiness and a time for hardship; a time for happiness and a time for sadness; a time for hope and a time for disappointment; they have all passed.
I followed his footsteps and walked forward step by step, and soon reached the wooden corridor opposite. He hugged me onto the wooden corridor, looked at me, and still had a warm smile in his eyes. I really hope
You can go back to the past, bathe in his warm smile, and then walk down the street with him
Go and keep walking like this. But, I knew I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't bear to see his eyes dimming, so I lowered my head and silently took out my hand. After a pause, I said, "We're done. It's all over. Can't we go back?"
Let’s go.” After saying that, I turned around and prepared to leave.
He closed his arms and hugged me from behind. He said, "Why do you say that? We both know that these are all misunderstandings."
My eyes were hot, but I didn't struggle. I just shook my head and said, "Zhe, we can't go back. I am no longer the same Xiao Si."
"Why can't we go back? Why should we go back? Isn't it good that we are like this? In my eyes and heart, you are you! Did you hear that, no matter what you have experienced, you are you! You are you." He
Like a child, he hugged me hard, buried his head in my neck, and said stubbornly.
"Zhe, don't be like this." I said with tears, "You have your responsibilities, and I have what I want. My mood is different. We can't be together anymore."
"You're not allowed to say that." He turned me around, looked at me sincerely, and said, "What do you want, what do you want? Can't I give it to you?"
I looked at him, looking at an eagle soaring in the sky, and said: "Freedom, I want to be free. Freedom like the birds in the sky." This is what I longed for when I came here, but for me
It is such a luxury. I have no other expectations, just thinking about a free life in the future. Whether it is herding horses on the grassland, fishing with nets, or opening a small restaurant to continue my old business, etc.
It's okay. As long as you are no longer bound by others.
He stared blankly at the flying eagle, then looked at me and repeated: "Freedom? Freedom."
"Yes, freedom." I confirmed again. In the past, I confirmed that he regarded him as everything to me, but it is different now. He deserves better. And I no longer expect to have anyone's feelings.
Emperor Xuantian already thinks that I am dead, so I will change my identity and go away from home.
"Freedom." He repeated, stroking my cheek with his slender fingers. The slightly cool fingertips slowly slid across, from the center of the eyebrows to both sides as before, and finally slid across the cheeks, stopping at the chin. Then, he pulled away.
He held his hand, turned around and left slowly.
Watching him leave, I felt sad, sad and tired.
When love has gone through vicissitudes of life, I don't know if I still have the courage and ability to love him.
At this time, it snowed heavily again. Goose-feather-like snowflakes fell to the ground. I looked back at the snowfield I had walked through before. Those big black footprints were quickly covered by the newly fallen snow. What if
How great it would be if everything in the past could be like this footprint and disappear in a flash. Maybe I just need a little longer time, I hope so. As I was thinking about it, I suddenly felt that something was stuck in my head.
No, not even after that.
"Ahem! Girl." The old man Bai on the side suddenly shouted, which startled me. I patted my heart and turned back to stare at him. I was about to say something, but it was stuck in my throat and I couldn't.
I was stunned, why couldn't I say that sentence?
The old man Bai raised his hand, waved it in front of my eyes, and said, "Are you scared out of your wits, silly girl? Or maybe you want to scare me to death?"
Hearing what he said, an inexplicable emotion surged up in my heart. I paused, suppressed it, and said, "It's good to know. You managed to save me. Tell me how to arrange for me. Don't worry."
Leave me here to grow plum blossoms for you. Don’t send me away..." At this point, I couldn’t go on. I thought they wouldn’t do that.
"Don't worry, Tianfei has been sent back." He replied casually.
I was stunned, "When and what did you send back?"
"Oh, I burned a sow and gave it to Emperor Xuan Tian more than ten days ago." He replied, as if he was talking about sending a catty of tofu to Lao Xuan next door yesterday.
My face was full of black lines as I listened. I thought that you couldn't burn something better, but something with a little bit of spiritual energy would do. So I scolded him: "Tsk, just send a jar of ashes over there, someone as smart as him can buy your account."
"Hehe, girl, you don't understand. You were poisoned with life-sustaining powder before. The poison is very cruel. Two days after death, the intestines will be rotten, and then the bug will crawl out. If you don't burn, you will not be able to survive until the end.
You can't even find this ashes." He said angrily, which made my stomach churn. He seemed to be very satisfied with my reaction and continued: "So you have to believe it if you don't believe it. I heard that
When he received the ashes, he scolded everyone and locked himself in the house for two days without going to court. On the third day, the first thing he did when he went to court was to bury the jar of pig ashes in a grand ceremony.
The second thing is that my subordinates have taken care of everything and want to attack the four small countries of Xihe, Zile, Wuqi and Diwu. There are so many reasons, I am afraid that I didn't think about it less when I stayed in my room."
I was silent, just watching the snowflakes fall, one after another. Some branches could not bear the weight of the snow, and they pressed down, and the snow on them all fell down with a roar. The plum branches bounced back again,
I shook it up and down, as if to shake off the remaining snow flakes. Thinking that I was just a passerby who should have left long ago, I said, "Old man Bai, I should go."
"You can't leave. If you have to leave, old man, I can't leave. I have a bet with Xiao Zhezi, saying that Xue Qianren can help him find you and stay together for the rest of his life. You have to leave.
The old man, I have to stay here and work for him as a national counselor. I say girl, you can’t just die without saving me this time!”
I feel that the sky is full of clouds. This old naughty boy wants me to save him? I would rather believe that the sky is falling than the earth is falling. He snorted and said: "I'm afraid you are the only person in the world who is unwilling to save. How can it be someone else's turn to save him?"
You, come on, it’s true that you always forgive me.”
He stared at me, raised his white beard, and said in a low voice: "I can't control that grandson. When you two were making trouble, that kid got all angry on me. I have to bear this unjust anger.
I don’t want to obey you, old man!”
Facing such a childish white old man, I was suddenly speechless. I just felt that the men in this family had really good genetics.
When the old man Bai saw that I was silent, he said again: "Where else can you go? Just stay in my garden and plant plum blossoms. Isn't it quite good? If you feel tired of planting plum blossoms, just accompany the old man and I will bake."
Roasted sweet potatoes.”
I shook my head, looked at him and said, "Old man Bai, actually you understand the reason why I want to leave better than anyone else, don't you? Huangfu Zhe and I can't be together just because we meet again. Too many things have happened.
, everyone has changed. When love has gone through the vicissitudes of life, I don’t know if I still have the courage and ability to love him. Now I don’t dare to think about that anymore, I just want to live my life freely.