"Jiu Yequan... let's not continue like this, okay? I know you don't really hate me, why do we keep hurting each other like this? Is this what you want?" After listening to my words, he held up his hand
The pen he was writing suddenly stopped, and he slowly raised his head from the document, looking directly at me, and then a sarcastic smile appeared on his face and he said——
"Tian Siyu, don't be so naive. When you see me treating you a little better, do you think that I have forgotten the harm you did to me? That is simply impossible. I will never forget your betrayal and your past.
How cruelly you left me behind, I will repay you twice as much for all the harm you did to me!! No mercy!"
"It's not like that, Quan... I don't want to hurt you, but..." I can't say it, I can't say it, because I can hide that secret from him for 6 years, how can I reveal everything at this time, so to Che
It's not fair. I can't be so selfish. I can't sacrifice Cheru just because Quan hates me. Absolutely not!
"But what? Tell me, I'll give you a chance to say it. You can't say it, right? Tian Siyu, don't make excuses for your mistakes anymore, because the facts are already in front of you. You'd better save your energy and accept me.
torture!"
"Will you really be happy like this? Will you really be happy if you torture me? When you see me fainting because of fear of fire, you will send me back to my room and help me make breakfast. When you see me getting wet in the rain, you will
Worrying that I will get sick and seeing me hungry, you will cook for me. Are these your ways of torturing me? Is that so? This is not torturing me at all, you are just torturing yourself.
That's all, I know you don't really hate me, but I don't deny that I hurt you 6 years ago, but I never regret this decision, because it is the best result for us. Maybe you don't understand, but...
…Why can’t you trust me?”
"I don't believe you? You still dare to say that I don't believe you? Tian Siyu, tell me, what did my belief get you in return? Tell me, when I tell you for sure, I won't worry
You fell in love with Kim Hyun Cheol because I believed in you, but what about you? What did you give me, and what did I gain from my belief? The knowledge I gained was only your betrayal, and you still want me to believe in you. Are you worthy of my belief?
Is it worth it?" I threw all the documents on the ground angrily, glaring at me with flaming red eyes, clenching my fists like an irrational lion, ready to pounce and tear people apart at any time. He made me feel like this
It's scary, but... if we back down now, our harm will be endless. So when can we stop hurting each other? Rather than such chronic harm, I would rather let him kill him now, anyway.
Better than enduring that grief!
"Then did you believe until the end? If you persisted in believing, maybe our result would not be like this!" So he and I must be responsible for that choice! Maybe... he didn't let me go, maybe... he insisted
, I would look back, but... there is no possibility, because we have chosen to walk on two different parallel lines!
"Tian Siyu, do you know what you are talking about? You blame me for not stopping you, you blame me for letting you go, you blame me for not believing you, are you still qualified to say this now?"
"Why not? You want to hate me, but what's the reason? If the betrayal is not established, what other reasons do you have? Why do you have to be so persistent about the past? We can't change the past. Why don't you cherish the people in front of you?
?Quan... don't give up the happiness in front of you anymore, Jing loves you very much, you should cherish her, instead of... instead of spending time on revenge on me, I know you are not as cold as you appear,
You have the softest heart in the world, and you are the most hard-spoken and soft-hearted person I have ever met! No matter how bad you treat me, I know that it is not your sincerity. You are only when you care about me.
True performance, I..."
"That's enough, Tian Siyu, have you finished speaking? I don't want to listen to your nonsense at all. If you think that if I treat you better, it means that I care about you, then you can continue to be amorous, and it has nothing to do with me.
, and my purpose of letting you here...will still not change. I will be happy only if you are in pain! Don't think that you know me very well. I will never be soft on those who betray you. Just remember this.
That'll be fine!" He gave me a cold look and was about to turn around and leave. But at this time, I still looked at his back desperately and shouted loudly:
"Are you really not going to be soft? Do you really want to see me in pain? Well, you don't need to do anything, I will help you. I just hope... when I can leave in pain, you can live happily every day.
That’s enough!”
"What are you going to do?" There was a hint of nervousness in his voice. Can I say that I have the right chips?
"Do you care?"
"Huh, do you think it's possible?"
"Then... don't worry about what I do, as long as you achieve your goal, isn't it?" After one last glance at his back, I turned around and opened the floor-to-ceiling window next to me, walked out, and stepped on with my bare feet.
On the wet grass, wearing only a thin piece of clothing, I looked up at the countless raindrops falling from the dark sky. The ruthless coldness instantly surrounded me. Maybe you will think I am too impulsive, but...
...please let me be impulsive once, because...I want to use this impulse as a bargaining chip to bet that he cares. If he cares about me, maybe I won't die in the cold rain. Maybe I can use this little bit of care to make him give up on me.
The hatred made him wake up from the ruthless hatred, live the life he should live again, and find his own happiness; but... if he didn't care... then, if such a painful death could bring back his happiness
It was worth it, and I... just walked out with this impulse, just like I was determined in the rain that time, and the bet... was also something he cared about, but I won that time, but...
What about this time?
"Tian Siyu——are you crazy? Do you think I will forget everything you did to me by doing this? Impossible, impossible!" Jiu Yequan looked at me standing in the rain angrily, his eyes
His coldness stung my heart, but I still looked up at him with a smile and said:
"It doesn't matter, as long as you are happy!"
"Tian Siyu, what you want to do is your business. Even if you're cold to death, I won't care about you. Just continue to stay there. I'll see how long you last." There was no trace of nostalgia on the cold back.
Turning around and going upstairs, I...did I lose? He didn't care at all. He really hated me and wanted me to die. Is that so? Quan...I'm sorry, if this is what you want, then I will...
...to realize your wish, I just hope... that you can be happy!