Cassia arrived at the semi-abandoned supply station half an hour later. There was no one, but the lights were on and not turned off. Instead of walking down the road, Cassia dragged her luggage in and rested.
Sitting by the window, I wiped away the fog that had gathered on the window with my hands, and looked at both sides of the mainland, waiting for the arrival of vehicles.
It was a dark world outside, and Cassia felt her chest holding a deep breath. She stayed in the military school for several months and did not come out. When she was exposed to such a scene again, she always felt like she was looking at abstractions that she had never understood.
Paintings. The eyes can definitely see it, but the various senses of the body do not have corresponding real feelings.
There was a slight sound when the snowflakes hit the glass. Cassia was fascinated by the snowflakes while waiting. When a limousine actually came, he looked at his watch. It was already noon, and the sky outside was dark.
It also became a little brighter at this time, but the snow was still not small, but became bigger in the brighter and brighter light.
"It's been raining for several days. If it wasn't for the strong wind, the road would have been piled with snow and it would be impossible to get out. I heard that the train station was delayed for a long time and a lot of people were crowded there." The driver's age was between
Middle-aged, wearing thick clothes, the hot air was turned on in the car, but she kept talking about being cold. But Cassia didn't feel any of this, she kept a straight face and nodded in agreement.
When we arrived at the train station, the situation was not much different from what the driver said. The situation was only slightly better. A bunch of people were crowded in the waiting hall to escape the severe cold outside. The air became extremely dull and the fresh air brought in by the purification system
At this time, air circulation cannot function at all.
Cassia went to buy a ticket and wanted to find a corner to stand and read for a while, but the environment in the waiting hall couldn't be described as chaotic. Even in Manoma, the center of the empire, its train station was designed to
It was able to cope with an extremely large number of people, but in the face of the number of people gathered now, it was ultimately defeated.
The ears were filled with noisy sounds. There were people talking to each other without scruples, there were unbridled laughter, there were children crying, and there were also scoldings that could feel spit splashing in the air. The sound of coughing was also mixed in.
Among them, Cassia, who was sitting on her own salute, suddenly regained her original feelings about the scene in front of her. This was a sight and sound she had never seen and heard in school again. I had these scenes in my head.
, but the retention of memory does not seem to last as long as I imagined. In less than a year, even though these things have been with me for more than ten years, they still disappeared quickly under the erosion of the environment.
Come without a trace.
On the contrary, the models of various types of firearms, as well as their corresponding bullet caliber, power, magazine capacity and rate of fire, etc., became more and more clear in my mind. Looking at the faces of ordinary people, I no longer feel any kindness at all.
Of course, the feeling is not unfamiliar. It is completely isolated from everyone in the waiting hall. Even though the air breathed is the same, the smell and temperature are already different.
different values.
"It will definitely be different, no matter whether I entered the military school or the Imperial Heavy Industry." Cassia thought this until she got in the car. The surroundings were the most realistic living environment in the empire, but Cassia
He also discovered a fact that he could not deny, and he could no longer find the feeling of his true existence.
Sitting on a soft seat, the light from the lamp above my head is very soft and has no dazzling feeling. The temperature is just right due to the adjustment of the air circulation system, and it even brings a pleasant aroma. The floor under my feet is made of wood, and when I step on it, it emits "
The refreshing sound of "dong dong" will not be considered as annoying noise in the ears. These are the feelings that nature gives Cassia, and these feelings are far more real than the feelings given to him by other people around him. p>
I never had this illusory feeling when I went out on missions before. Is it because I knew that there would be so-called "similar" things around me from time to time? The answer is unknown, but at least that's what Cassia thinks now. He knows that it is a sign of peace of mind.
, and now he feels that he is an abandoned thing, getting further and further away from the place where he should belong.
In the military school, he had always believed that it was meaningless to take the things Delya gave him. But now, he had to admit this. Only the things in the black box could give him reality in a certain sense.
The feeling of existence.
In his head, he should have been filled with the joy of finally being able to break away from the military school for a while and then return to his normal life. But now, Cassia only feels that he is moving forward in the fog of unknown direction.
He was thinking about other things. He was thinking about the hard glass on the window next to him, which he could easily break with his elbow. He was thinking about how even though the train was moving at high speed, he would jump off like this and rely on his body.
With such coordination and agility, he could roll dozens of times on the ground at most, and then stand up unscathed. Thinking that even if the flight attendant had a pistol on his waist, he could easily twist it just by relying on the strength of his fingers.
Break their necks. Thinking that as long as he has the need, in a few minutes, he can start from the front of the car and clean everyone on the entire train without missing a beat.
I don’t know when these thoughts started to settle in his head.
From this moment on, Cassia became mentally unstable. Cassia knew that something was wrong with her situation and she had to adjust immediately. But there was no way to alleviate this situation. It was not a warning that her life was threatened, but a warning that her life was in danger.
It's like a lone wolf being thrown into a world with only white sheep.
He wanted to relieve his mental instability through drowsiness, but the surgeon's abnormal physique and his always energetic spirit became more and more powerful at this time. To reach the small city under the Lilac Peak, even a high-speed train would
It had to move forward continuously for eight days. It was more frequent than the repeated train, but it would be ten days later when we actually arrived in the small town. During this period, Cassia only suffered more mental pressure than she could bear on the seventh day.
Except for sleeping, even if he closes his eyes at other times, his body's other keen senses can still clearly reflect the surrounding scenery into his head.
In the afternoon, Cassia felt that the speed of the train had slowed down. Through the blurred glass with a layer of ice, one could still see a cluster of low buildings not far away. There should be no wind, but there were several streaks of thick black smoke.
The pillar was rising vertically into the sky. Cassia felt her nose move, as if she smelled the strong smell of soot again.
When it arrived at the station, the train hurriedly vomited Cassia, the only person on the broken platform, and hurriedly left here as if running away.
Dragging two pieces of salute alone, Cassia walked towards her home along the buildings and streets that were completely unchanged from her memory. Her footsteps unknowingly accelerated, and the white breath she exhaled was getting closer and closer.
It became urgent.
My chest was overflowing with joy. There were not many people on the street. They were probably rushing to give birth. After all, the imperial rearrangement was coming soon.
Turning the corner, it was the street where her house was. With excellent eyesight, Cassia quickly found the house where she had lived for several years. The old wooden door had been replaced and the house had been repainted.
Paint once.
He quickened his pace and walked over. There was still less than fifty or sixty meters away. With a "click" sound, the door suddenly opened. A little girl who was no more than Cassia's waist poked her head out from inside, as if she was looking outside.
Has the snow that has been falling stopped?
Wearing light red cotton clothes, her hair was spread around her head, as if she had just woken up. Her eyes glanced around the door, and her hazy eyes exuded a bright look after seeing Cassia.
"Brother!" Lilia ran out, jumping up and down.
Cassia put down the salute on her hand, walked a few steps forward, picked up Lilia who was running over, and raised it above her head.
Just when she was about to speak, she heard a cry coming into her ears, and then cold drops of water fell on her face. It was Lilia who was crying.
"Brother doesn't love Lilia anymore,,," Lilia's little hands were desperately wiping her tears, and her voice became blurry after that.
Cassia's hand froze there for a few seconds, and the circuits in her head were all disconnected there. When thinking returned, only one voice was filled in her heart.