The light of day is fleeting and dim, and who knows what will happen in the remaining time. Everything is just the continuation of the nightmare, another extension, and spread...
Who says there are no flowers on the other side?
I began to recall myself from time to time in modern life. I graduated from a key university with a double major in English and design. Fortunately, I am not useless here. I have been an independent person since I was a child, with clear goals and a stubborn and strong character.
, this is also the result of me coming from a martial arts family and practicing martial arts diligently since I was a child. My parents taught me a lot from a young age. They respected me but never doted on me. When I chose to go to design school, my family
Everyone else in the room was very opposed to it and couldn't even understand it. After trying to persuade me many times to no avail, they all scolded me for being useless and losing face as a warrior. My parents always laughed about this. They withstood all the pressure and worked hard.
A piece of sky allows me to pursue the life of my dreams freely and independently.
When I was young, I saw a red skirt. At first glance, I fell in love with it as if I was possessed by a demon. It was like a red skirt that was almost eerie and gorgeous. It was like a poison, planted in me.
I couldn't let go of it in my soul. This nightmare has been entangled with me all the way through my growth. This is also the reason why I decided to choose to go to art school.
Flower of the other shore, also called Manzhu Shahua. The legendary flower that attracts souls and the only flower in the underworld. According to legend, this flower only grows in Huangquan and is the only scenery on the road to Huangquan. The beauty of Manzhu Shahua is a symbol of monsters, disasters, death and
The ominous flower of separation. However, even if I know this, I still fall hopelessly in love with those flowers in the dream that are so enchanting and gorgeous that they are almost red and black. The shocking red is like fire, tea, blood, and so on.
poison……
Just like love.
"Miss, sweet-scented osmanthus green tea." Yun Ying carefully held a cup of hot tea to me, who was lying on my side on the bench and was bored. Three days since my old illness relapsed and I was unconscious for three days, they are now even afraid of me getting out of bed and walking around.
He followed me fearfully, fearing that no one would know if I fell off the wall like last time.
"If not, if not - Master Sang was here that day, Miss, you just - wu wu..." This is the routine that Yun Ying and Xiao Quanzi performed around me in the past few days. Even those who have always been addicted to "female"
The "sexy" little white girl is nestling in my arms every day, screaming "ouch" in distress, and can't get rid of her no matter how hard I try.
In fact, at that moment, my heart died... I don't know why I had such strange thoughts in my heart. I didn't really like Brother Sima, even though I kept telling jokes that I liked him.
, but I never took him seriously. I always regarded him as my brother in my heart... Why did I have such a big reaction when I heard that he was the emperor? In fact, I spent a month in bed recovering from my injuries.
, I have been thinking about this problem. In Yun Ying's eyes, I have a tendency to be a bit stupid. For this reason, she went to ask the old guy if I had become stupid after that fall. I admit that I was.
I often feel dazed, but that’s just thinking in silence, okay?
Could it be that I really like him and fall in love with him? This possibility is really explosive and has caused quite a ripple in my heart. But I would rather never have.
Will I, An Jin, fall in love with an emperor? This is really a big joke!
Besides, how could an emperor with a harem of three thousand beauties and the most talented and beautiful women in the world fall in love with me? What’s even weirder is that I always dress up in men’s clothing, and we are brothers who play together, drink together, and visit brothels!
It’s so ridiculous. It’s so ridiculous for me to have such thoughts. This is nothing like An Jin, who has all the wealth in the world. It’s nothing like An Jin, who doesn’t care about anything. So, all the thoughts that come out that I shouldn’t have,
I'd kill it all while it's still in the cradle!
I think of my first boyfriend. We met in college. In art school, I always kept to myself. Although my clothing matching and design concepts in my studies were always very eccentric and bold, in reality, I
In fact, I have never cared about dressing up. I wear black and white clothes all day long. Although they are all made by famous brands, they give people a monotonous and tasteless feeling, and I don't agree with it. But the one who is wallowing in the crowd of women is the most popular.
The playboy Zeng Cheng, who was like a fish in water, just fell in love with him. He must have been used to eating delicacies from the mountains and the sea, and he suddenly became interested in side dishes. Zeng Cheng was a famous figure in the school. He was handsome and had a devilish smile.
Jin Gui's life experience adds to his aura, and he is also a famous black widow in the school. He has a gloomy face all day long and doesn't talk much. He is only outstanding in academics, but compared with him, no one can imagine anything else.
, why did that playboy fall in love with me, An Jin? Not only the people in the school didn’t understand, but even I didn’t understand.
When he was a junior, he said on the school forum that he would catch up with him within a month. In fact, he finally caught up with him. After a month of rejection, a month of cynicism, and a month of silence.
, he impressed me with his unparalleled patience, unusual tenderness, and silent concern. Three months later, we held hands and appeared on campus. Although the appearance was still not very coordinated, it was still a sight to behold.
When I was deeply in love, I also asked him why it was me, and he always smiled faintly, hugged me lightly, and gently whispered in my ear, An Jin, you are special.
I also gave him my first time. I will never refuse any request from the man I love deeply, even though I was in so much pain that I almost couldn’t get up the next day. That night he kept asking for me.
, he who never said love actually murmured in my ear: An Jin, I love you, I love you.
Most girls will never forget the man they had sex with for the first time.
Just like now, I still can't forget it. What's more, at that time, I fell in love with him stupidly and wholeheartedly. So after coming here, I met Huan Wen who was similar to him, even though I had a moment of love.
Even if you are tempted, I still keep my distance and give it a wide berth.
Just like I can't forget that he was my first man, I can't forget his betrayal. Ironically, when he hugged me on the bed and said he loved me, he also inevitably had sex with other people.
Women indulge in gentleness.
I didn't deliberately pay attention to his romantic relationships with girls. I just silently responded to his feelings with a competent and virtuous girlfriend. However, he was still in his apartment, having sex with a girl... and he happened to be ex-girlfriend.
When I went to cook for him, I bumped into him. Looking at the naked man and woman intertwined on the sofa in the living room, I felt surprisingly calm. I closed the door for them silently, without crying or making a fuss, and quietly carried the man and woman who had just left the vegetable market.
After buying fresh vegetables, I walked out of the apartment. When I came to the trash can at the intersection, I threw the bag in my hand neatly and patted my dirty hands easily. The relationship ended calmly.
Although later he waited under my apartment to beg me for forgiveness, and even knelt down to beg. Such a proud person, such a high-spirited man, knelt in front of me and begged for my forgiveness. It was not that I was not unmoved, but in just a moment, all the emotions
All sealed by hard armor.
I know that my temperament has always been consistent with my preferences for black and white. It looks warm and plain, but in fact it is the most cold and cold. Although I love him, I refuse to be hurt again, and I will no longer hand over my feelings easily.
If you can't get the best, you'd rather not have it.
I think the same is true for Sima Rui.
However, it is a pity that the body I came here with is obviously as beautiful as a flower, almost absolutely beautiful, but it happened to meet an unmotivated host like me. However, speaking of it, I really made a profit. Coming here, not only did I become a
Once a beauty, she was also a real virgin. Although the modern An Jin is not ugly, she can only be regarded as pretty and pleasant. She is also very old. Maybe if I had not come here, I would have been the mother of the child in the modern era.
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Xie Weiying's lifestyle is the other person I want to be in modern times. I am witty, cunning, beautiful, and have countless surprises. I can live my own life as I please and make my own decisions. This is what I have always been
Live the life you want. Don’t rely on anyone’s strength, don’t beg for anyone’s warmth, don’t expect anyone’s affection...get everything you want through your own efforts, this is the real Anjin...until
Only by coming to this strange place can I have the courage to make a desperate move and let go to pursue everything.
"Sister," a familiar and charming voice came from a distance, and I knew who was coming, "Sister, you are so laid-back." Sure enough, a delicate woman in a gorgeous silk dress slowly walked towards me.
I took a sip of tea and said, "Yaya is here." I unconsciously stroked Xiaobai's smooth fur with one hand.
She had not come to see me in Jiunianxuan for a long time because she was favored, but when she heard that I was ill, she started to appear in Jiunianxuan from time to time. She became a frequent visitor here as before.
Because I kept telling others that I was ill, everyone in the harem soon knew that the pretty Miss Xie was a sickly beauty who had been ill for many years.
Although I didn't have the opportunity to ask how she was doing, I knew that she was living a happy life, so naturally I was sincerely happy for her. But after I found out that Brother Sima was the emperor, I felt strange.
Ji Ran remembered that after overhearing those words behind the rockery that day, he had always wanted to find an opportunity to tell her, and also thought about reminding her not to be too ostentatious, but I knew that she was addicted to vanity and splendor and couldn't listen to it.
If she is not good, she will suspect that I am jealous of her favor. I have to remind her time and time again to be careful, especially not to offend Wang Guifei.
She just responded lightly, with a look of disapproval. I know that because of her relationship with Concubine Huan Xian, the emperor has been very fond of her in the past few months, but no matter how much he is favored, the emperor will not do it for himself.
Paying attention to the life and death of a concubine on a whim. Therefore, in the harem, there are so many women who turned into ghosts and disappeared from then on.
"Sister, how are you doing recently?" I saw the blue agate bracelet she deliberately exposed, and the pride and pride on her face that couldn't be concealed. I knew that the emperor's favor recently made her a celebrity in the harem.
Those villains who looked down on her and bullied her were all trying to curry favor with her. She had suffered a lot and finally got to this point, so naturally she felt a little arrogant. I understand, but others may not understand.
I raised my head and glanced at her with a gentle smile, "It's not the same as before. This body makes Yun Ying talk a lot even if I just get out of bed."
Yun Ying on the side glanced at me rudely and said coldly: "Speaking of this body, Miss, it's not that I don't cherish it. She deserves it."
I smiled bitterly, this Yunying didn't take me as the master seriously at all. Yu Ya also covered her face coquettishly and giggled, with a face full of fun.
I raised my hands in surrender and begged: "Yunying, please let me go. I am your master after all. Don't embarrass me in front of Yaya."
"Then someone needs to realize their ugliness and change it."
"Change, I will change it." While chatting and laughing, Xiao Quanzi had already poured a cup of osmanthus green tea like mine. Anyway, there were several tall osmanthus trees in the yard. The existing materials were not used in vain.
"Haha." Yu Ya smiled with a charming smile, "Sister, she is still in the same good mood as before." She took a sip of tea and continued: "This tea is really good."
"If you don't mind, I'll ask Yun Ying to send some ready-made ones to your yard."
Yaya immediately jumped on me with beaming eyes and said coquettishly: "I knew my sister was the best to me."