Loki admitted that he had always resented Odin's favoritism, but when the main object of the favoritism became himself, he felt a well-deserved fear, and now, this fear has turned into deep confusion.
, because an alien medical examination machine told him that he was not even an Asir.
Odin's great fame did not come from sitting on the throne. He conquered the universe, leveled the nine realms, and set foot on every branch of the world tree. All enemies trembled under his thunder. If you look at those conquered
From the tribal perspective, Odin is definitely a tyrant.
Odin can also be called a racist. He treats people outside the Aesir without mercy, at least in Loki's perception.
So the question is, he is not Odin's biological son, nor is he even the Asa protoss, so why is Odin suddenly being so nice to him?
Loki leaned on the bed with an arm on his forehead. He felt that his question was ridiculous. One day he would actually question why Odin was so good to him.
In the living room of the apartment, Thor finally figured out the electric lift hanger and successfully hung up his work clothes. At this time, he heard the door of Loki's bedroom and turned around to see Loki standing at the door of his bedroom.
underneath the door frame.
"What's wrong with you?" Thor asked very confused.
"I want to ask you a question." Loki looked at Thor and said: "I obtained the priesthood of the True God before you, and I can enter and leave Asgard freely without being deprived of my divine power or having my weapons taken away.
I even have the energy to laugh at you..."
"When you learned this fact, did you feel that Odin was partial?"
"Of course!" Thor glared at Loki and said, "I really can't figure out how you could be the first to get the priesthood of the Righteous God. Do you have any military exploits?"
He grabbed the collar of the work clothes in his hand and shook it vigorously, as if venting his anger, and said angrily: "Whether it is divine power or military exploits, I am stronger than you. How could the father of the gods..."
He breathed out hard through his nose, paused for a while, and suddenly seemed to be discouraged, and said: "Okay, actually I figured it out, I got into trouble, right? He was very angry, so he took me
I was exiled here, and then I gave you the priesthood of Zhengshen and asked you to come and laugh at me..."
Thor raised his arm and said: "Very good, he succeeded. Now the question I think about every day is, can I buy an extra case of beer with the salary I receive next week? There is no difference between me and these ordinary mortals."
, even more destitute than them, they even dare to order small portions of fried chicken..."
"You win, okay?"
Loki stood by the door, looking at Thor's expression, speechless.
"Why has your rather wise brain failed to convince you after all these years that he is really a complete idiot?" Venom asked him.
"The physical examination report shows that you have some problems with your brain." Venom's tone suddenly became a little lighter, and he said: "It just so happens that I know a very good psychiatrist who may be able to solve the entanglements and questions in your head.
Anyway, idle is idle……"
"Psychiatrist?" Loki's tone was a little confused, "There is no such profession in Asgard."
"Believe me, it will be very effective."
Half an hour later, Schiller took a new medical record from the shelf next to him and asked: "Name?"
Loki was a little distracted. Schiller asked again before he answered: "Loki."
"Where's the last name?"
Loki hesitated and said, "Odinson."
"Your pronunciation of this surname is a bit strange. Based on your current English proficiency, this should not be a mispronunciation. Do you have any opinions on this surname?"
"So you humans, so-called psychiatrists, just keep asking questions for me to answer?"
"If you feel that you need treatment, then try to cooperate with me instead of trying to turn against the client." Schiller wrote on the medical record and said without looking up: "This is not a business negotiation, you do not need to
I'm not your enemy when it comes to fighting for the initiative, so you don't have to use words to interfere with me."
"This is very novel." Loki put his hands on the table and leaned forward slightly, making a confident gesture.
"You seem to have become accustomed to this way of speaking. You want to take the initiative no matter who you are talking to. This is beneficial in most cases, but there may be exceptions."
Loki opened his mouth and said: "No, not all, at least when facing..."
He shook his head, as if he didn't want to say the name.
"Why won't you tell me your father's name?"
Schiller saw that when Loki heard the word father, his fingertips moved slightly, and then he heard Loki say: "Because that may not be..."
"Not what?"
"He may not be my father." Loki's tone was pretending to be relaxed, but the muscles in his neck trembled, and his entire shoulders became stiff. Schiller raised his head and glanced at him.
"How did you feel when you said this sentence?" Schiller looked at him: "Maybe the answer you want is hidden in it."
The tremors in Loki's fingertips began to spread to the back of his hands, followed by his wrists and forearms, but disappeared in an instant.
"You seem unwilling to admit this fact, but you feel that you have no reason not to admit it, but you just don't want to admit it, why?"
"I don't know." Loki's voice sounded a little hoarse.
"Although I don't need you to tell all your secrets, you can't say nothing, especially at this moment. You should have a lot to say and a lot of questions to ask."
"Why, are you still imagining a better listener than me? Then maybe I can call Strange and ask him to ask if Odin is awake..."
"No, no..." Loki denied instinctively.
"Every time I mention Odin, you seem to be a little afraid. Why?" Schiller tilted his head and looked at him and said.
"There is no one who does not fear the Father of the Gods."
"Listen, this is not an exam. I'm not asking you to find a perfect answer to my question." Schiller said helplessly.
"When I ask you a question, you can use this question to ask yourself, and then give yourself the answer in your heart. If you are willing to tell me the true answer, then the treatment will be more effective. If you are not willing, then
does not matter."
Loki was silent for a long time, but he still lowered his shoulders, exhaled, and said: "I do fear him because of his majesty and power, and more importantly... I am not Thor."
"Of course Thor can't be afraid of him. No matter what he does, the father of the gods will clean up his mess, and it will be the same this time,"
"...But I can't." Loki's fingertips touched the table, leaving a shallow reflection. He looked at his fingers and said: "I can't make mistakes like Thor, especially, I can't make such stupid mistakes.
mistake."
His lips moved and he said, "He won't tolerate me."
"I must remain in awe." Loki's voice began to break away from the complicated emotions. His thinking seemed to be back on track and he began to become more engaged.
"I am not special to the Father of the Gods. I am not even sure whether I am as important to him as those brave and skilled Asgardian warriors."
Schiller took the pen in his hand, changed his posture, and said: "Because the loved one you value is unwilling to give you concrete feedback, you can only keep lowering your own expectations and convince yourself that as long as he treats you
Without overt hostility, you can just muddle along."
"But this is not the solution, especially when there is a comparative example. Deceiving yourself and others cannot last long,"
Loki held the edge of his eyebrows with one hand and said in a daze: "But the problem now is that during this period of time, I became the favored object, and then I just discovered that maybe he originally did
That's right, because I'm not his biological child..."
Schiller shook his head and said: "There is a concept that has caused some confusion. Whether there is a blood relationship and whether he is eccentric may not be directly related."
Schiller explained: "The superficial logic is that if you are not his biological child, then it is natural for him to treat you badly. But the question is, if you are not his biological child, how did you become his son?
"
"The background story may be complicated, but one thing must remain constant, that is, your father should have picked you up from somewhere. We don't know what kind of mood he had in picking you up.
, but the fact is that even though he knew you were not his biological child, he still raised you to such a big age."
"If his purpose in raising you was to favor your brother and ignore you, then why on earth would he pick you back?"
"Okay, I assume there is a certain interest relationship, such as what benefits will come from raising you, which drives him to pick you up and raise you, and he is not willing to have another son in his heart, so he
Deliberately partial and thus ignoring you."
"If that's the case, then you don't need to worry about it. As long as you find out what the conspiracy is behind it, and then find a way to retaliate against them."
Schiller supported his cheekbone with one hand, then looked at Rocky and said: "You should have thought of this possibility the moment you learned this fact, then ask yourself, what are you still struggling with?
?”
Loki was silent.
His eyes began to calm down, and he said: "I tried to convince myself that his kindness to me during this period was just a small favor. I speculated on many possible conspiracies, and even had several plans to investigate my true life experience. Now
, I should have appeared on the Rainbow Bridge..."
Loki's eyes moved downward, as if he was thinking about something, and he said: "But the reason why I appear here is because when I was about to put these plans into practice, when I wanted to move in the opposite direction,
When I took that step, I discovered..."
His voice had reached an extremely low pitch, like a pebble blown by the wind to the edge of a cliff. His fists slowly clenched, and then he said with some disbelief: "...I don't seem to want to do that."
"Why do you think this is?"
Loki shook his head, looked at Schiller and said, "You are the doctor, aren't you?"
Schiller turned the pen in his hand and said: "This is what most people misunderstand about psychiatrists. Most of the time, we are just listeners and are not responsible for giving answers."
"In other words, in fact, many people already have the answer in their hearts, but they are unwilling to admit it, so they come to ask the doctor, hoping to get a different result. Sometimes, we see this but do not expose it, just because
Not everyone can handle this kind of excitement."
"Do you think you can?"
"I..." Loki tilted his head and murmured: "I think, of course I can..."
"Well, maybe you should have discovered it too." Schiller looked at Loki and said: "Your unfair resentment towards Odin and jealousy towards Thor cannot cover up your desire for family affection."
"Whether family love really exists or not, you have been deceiving yourself for so many years, and blood relationship is an important pillar in this self-deception."
"Today, after this pillar was shattered, you discovered that your instinctive action was not to uncover the truth and take legitimate revenge on these people, but to panic and find another pillar..."
"You suddenly find that you are weaker than you thought, easier to compromise, indulging in some illusions you have made for yourself and unwilling to wake up. You are not as smart, decisive, and vicious as you thought, even if there may be a shocking conspiracy.
Neither hatred nor hatred can make you make up your mind."
"As long as your nominal relatives give you a little sweetness, you will be willing to desperately look for some reasons to deceive yourself and get by..."
"You find that you are more like the ordinary people you have always looked down upon than the God who never makes mistakes."
"In other words, compared to ordinary people, you are more like a dog chasing a little bit of minced meat..."
"enough."
The protagonist finally goes to work.
It would be great if I could work at this frequency.
