The bright sunshine at noon has gradually dimmed and become no longer so dazzling. There is only a small gap left in the curtains of the sanatorium office, and the light from the gap shines on the table.
After the temperature began to drop, the air conditioner was turned on in the office. At this time, the heating was sufficient, but Loki felt something he had never experienced before, a feeling unique to ordinary humans - cold.
The corners of his mouth drooped downward, and he didn't even open his mouth. He just squeezed out a few words through his teeth: "...Stop talking."
"People always like to overestimate their mental endurance and think that they can be calm and calm when faced with a certain answer, but in fact this is difficult."
Loki stared at him without speaking. The appearance of Asgardians always has some classical beauty. Loki's eyebrows are deep and sharp, like a knife. When the shadow cast is completely covered
When you look into his eyes, they look cold and deep.
"I have many angles to analyze this problem and tell you where your mentality comes from and how to solve it..."
Schiller's words turned a corner: "...but there is a fee."
Loki's expression was very cold. He stood up, but felt a resistance in his body. The venom said in his heart: "I advise you to think about it again. This may be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity."
"Don't try to influence me, monster."
"If you want to take your anger out on me..." Venom's voice carried an unexpected calmness from Loki: "Then I will tell you that even if you leave here now, you have nowhere to go, orphan."
"Are you going to face Thor with this mentality? Ask him those stupid questions that you already know the answers to, or are you really going to be like a dog wagging its tail and ask him directly if he loves you?"
"...I said, enough is enough!"
"Calm down." Schiller's words brought Loki back to reality. He said, "My charges are very expensive, but it must be more effective than you think."
"More importantly, I don't think you have the ability to pay the bill now, so I will put this account on your brother, because he is the heir of Asgard."
"...Then let's get started." Loki sat back down.
"Let's look at this problem from another angle." Schiller made a gesture of putting things aside and said: "You should know in your heart that you are jealous of Thor, but we can analyze this emotion carefully.
.”
"Now, please imagine what would happen if you were Thor?"
"What will happen?" Loki asked: "...what else can happen?"
"Don't worry, listen to me. Suppose you are the eldest son of Odin and the heir of Asgard. You have been paying attention to Odin since you were a child. No matter what trouble you get into, he will not blame you too much...
…”
"He..." Loki tried to calm himself down as much as possible before entering this hypothetical scene.
"You can imagine that if you put yourself in Thor's position, you have been the focus of everyone since you were a child. Odin values you, Frigga loves you, and your peers respect you..."
Following Schiller's words, Loki began to sink into his imagination.
When the bonfire burned, the shouts in the duel field became very noisy. He stood in the front row, then jumped down from his seat and stood in the center of the duel field, accepting everyone's cheers and shouts. The audience looked at it with hopeful eyes.
Follow him and believe that he will be able to win.
Then, he crossed the long bridge of Asgard and walked into the gate of Asgard with joy and excitement. He stood upright and was bathed in the light. Odin praised him and Frigga showed his smile.
A happy smile.
He galloped on the battlefields of the nine realms, and no one was his enemy. He galloped freely, effortlessly taking the honors of victory, and then brought them back to the Father of the Gods to accept the favor of the people of Asgard.
Watch with admiration.
"So where is Thor now?"
Schiller's words did not interrupt Loki's fantasy, but only caused his perspective to turn. He saw that behind the crowd cheering for him, Thor was standing there watching him. When he walked back to the camp,
Thor looked at him from a distance. After their identities and perspectives were completely reversed, Loki suddenly had a strange feeling.
"Okay, then, let's bring the things you did to Thor. He did many pranks on you, and then this behavior began to become more and more bad. Later, it was no longer limited to pranks, and started to really frame you.
…”
"No..." Loki frowned deeply, "I didn't..."
"Don't deny all this, but continue to think about it and see how you would view all this from Thor's perspective?"
In an instant, the dream full of honor and glory was shattered. Loki's arms began to tremble, his teeth pressed together tightly, and then a few words appeared from it: "I didn't see it."
"Don't see anything?"
Suddenly, his shoulders relaxed and his jaw began to tremble slightly, and then slowly calmed down, "I didn't see those things."
"Really? Do you want to watch it again?"
"No." Loki refused immediately.
"Are you sure you didn't see it?"
Loki was silent.
He was silent for a while, until he was completely freed from that emotion, and then he said: "Maybe... I saw it."
He paused for a long time, and the whole sentence was filled with hysterical breath, and then it turned into trembling, "But I... didn't care."
"He knew, but he didn't care, right?" Loki looked up at Schiller, who fiddled with the pen in his hand and said, "Actually, you should also think that although your brother is reckless, impulsive, and stubborn,
He is not really a fool, his intelligence is normal, and it can even be said that he is quite talented in some aspects..."
"You have spent so many years together, and have been together day and night for a long time. You feel that you know him very well, but he also knows you. Perhaps, he sees many things you do, but he
Don’t care…”
"You just wanted to avoid this answer because you felt that compared to exposing you in person or complaining to Odin, his indifferent behavior made you feel more uncomfortable."
"So now, ask yourself, do you really want to hurt Thor, kill him, replace him, or are you just trying to get more attention?"
"I..." Loki subconsciously wanted to deny this answer, "Don't be ridiculous, how could I want to win his attention? He has no brains at all, he is just a reckless man from the beginning to the end..."
"Really? Then when I ask you, as Thor, what do you think of Loki, why are you unwilling to tell that answer?"
Loki was silent again, but he was not trembling like that, he just paused in the same posture.
"Maybe he really doesn't care." Loki's voice became more breathy, and this sentence was blended into the sigh. He showed a somewhat self-deprecating smile and said: "At least when I was a child, those pranks I did
I didn't do it carefully at all, I was just playing tricks on him."
"I remember that several times, Thor's companions saw that it was me who did it, so they hated me even more, but Thor didn't say anything."
"I know he didn't see it..." Loki's tone became a little confused: "But why did I believe it so much at the time, but he just didn't see it?"
"Maybe it's because you can't accept it, and he sees it, but he just doesn't care," Schiller said.
Loki was silent.
"Okay, now let's add some additional conditions to this situation. You are still you, that is to say, it is your current appearance, physique, strength, and ability, but you are still Odin's favorite eldest son, Asgar.
The heir of virtue..."
Before Schiller finished speaking, Loki said: No, this is impossible, I..."
"Asgard will not have such an heir. My physical strength is too weak..."
"I'm not Odin, this isn't a coronation ceremony, and what I say doesn't count."
"This is just a hypothesis. It's all a hypothesis anyway, so what logic is there?"
Loki was speechless and could only nodded.
"Okay, as you said, you have various shortcomings, some of which are even fatal. For example, you don't have the physique that Asgardians are proud of. Odin can see these shortcomings. Asgardians
You can see it, but you have still become the heir of Asgard. Odin takes great care of you. No matter what trouble you get into, he is willing to settle it for you..."
"So, what would Thor think of you in this situation?"
"He..." Loki seemed to have a complete sentence that he wanted to say directly, but after spitting out the first word, he was choked.
"There is no need to doubt what you are thinking now. Thor will definitely be jealous of you. No matter how much, this emotion definitely exists."
Schiller made another gesture and said: "You may often think that Thor has so many shortcomings. He is completely blind in everything he does. He only buries his head and rushes without considering the consequences. He is simply an unreasonable fool."
"But if this identity is changed, Thor should also think that you are so weak, you can't even pick up the artifact, you can't charge forward in battle, you can't set an example as a general, and you are not as brave as the Asgardians.
quality……"
"You see, the world is like this. When you can't be the other person, can't be in his position and do the things he does, you will always feel that the other person's virtue is not worthy of him."
"Some of his shortcomings will be infinitely magnified in your eyes, and then you will use these shortcomings to imagine that if you sit in that position, you will do better than him."
"But when you really get to that position, your shortcomings will be magnified, and it is still unknown whether the advantages you are proud of can handle the trouble caused by the shortcomings."
"So?" Loki looked at Schiller and said, "Are you going to say that even if I sit in Thor's position, I won't be able to do better than him?"
Schiller shook his head and said: "No, I'm just telling you that you will be jealous of your brother, resent your father for being unfair, and feel that Asgardians have no vision. These emotions are very normal."
"If you and Thor's positions were reversed, these emotions would still exist. Thor may not have as delicate emotions as you, but it is absolutely impossible for him to be completely immune to these emotions."
"If you don't believe it, then think about him now. In a sense, the current situation is that the status of the two of you has been exchanged. Do you think Thor is really completely concerned about your sudden promotion?
Isn’t he jealous? Do you think he is so generous that he doesn’t care at all that Odin gave you the glory that belongs to him?”
"Since he can also be jealous and he can be resentful, there is actually no difference between the two of you. It is not because you are narrow-minded or mentally abnormal that you have these negative emotions. This is just human nature."
"I make this assumption..." Schiller paused, picked up the water glass and took a sip of water, and then continued: "... just to tell you that the mess of emotions in your heart now includes jealousy and resentment.
, shock, confusion, confusion, at a loss, etc., are actually all too common.”
"So you don't have to make some self-defeating inferences. For example, Thor and Odin are both good people with glorious justice, but you are a dark and despicable villain who can only hide in the corner to release negative emotions, or produce some more...
Extreme thoughts, wanting to bring this pain to others..."
Schiller put down the water glass, looked into Loki's eyes and said, "I just said that you are like a dog chasing minced meat, but the conclusion is that if you put a collar on Thor, he may chase him more happily than you."