"I have always believed that a person's acquired education plays the most important role in the formation of his personality. In other words, if you put another person in your situation, he may not do better than you."
"Thor may be born with a big heart, but his bigness is limited. People will think that he is more generous than you, just because he got more when he was growing up. He doesn't need the attention, favor, and status that you often struggle with.
You can get it if you want it, so of course he will be generous because he has a vested interest."
"And you wonder why you always think so much and why you always have these negative emotions. It's just because you get less, or less than Thor."
"Now, let's change the angle. Suppose you are Odin's only son. That is to say, Odin only has you as his son. Thor does not exist from beginning to end, but Odin still treats you the same way, just like you got before.
That way..."
Loki fell into thinking again, and Schiller's words rang in his ears: "Without Thor as a reference, do you still feel that you have gained very little?"
"Or rather, you have to tell me what you have gained as a prince of Asgard. After all, I am just an ordinary person and I cannot imagine your royal life."
"I..." Loki paused and said, "I have many privileges in Asgard. For example, I live in the most magnificent building in Asgard. There are many Asgard guards at your disposal all day long, and I can travel easily.
The exclusive carriage and rainbow bridge are on standby at any time. We have exclusive royal uniforms and helmets symbolizing the honor of the Asgardians..."
"Except for the God King, God Queen, and Thor, everyone must salute when they see me, no matter how high their priesthood is. I have my own guard, a dedicated swordsmanship teacher, a etiquette officer, and a coachman. I have 30 people to my name.
There are multiple streets of industries, and two independent dimensions of fiefdom..."
"Okay, stop talking." Schiller put the cup on the table again, this time with a louder voice. Loki was stunned for a moment and looked at him. Schiller said: "I will definitely send it to your brother.
A bill that surprised him."
"Okay, I know you must be thinking that Thor has more, but I have to tell you, whether it's you or Thor, your two lives are ridiculously superior, not just for ordinary people on earth.
In other words, the same should be true for ordinary Asgardians."
"Without Thor for comparison, I think you would be more accepting. With Thor, you will seem less satisfied."
"When people feel that their lives are not satisfactory, they often feel that they are not close enough to their goals. So what is your goal?"
"This question may be a bit broad, but I can give you a detailed example. Do you feel that this kind of life is not superior enough, do you want more land and property, do you want to have endless wealth and status, or do you want to have endless wealth and status?
Say, just because you don’t get as much as Told, as long as you get more than him?”
Before Loki could answer, Schiller said: "Logically, everyone should pursue the former. After all, who doesn't love money in this world?"
"But judging from your current state, you seem to be the latter, because when Thor was down and out and you were stronger than him, you suddenly became satisfied with life."
"How do you know I'm satisfied with my life?"
Schiller spread his hands and said: "To put it simply, people need driving force to do something. The inner driving force is very complex. It can be because of some specific things, such as the pursuit of enjoyment, revenge, or
It can be because of some abstract things, such as the expression of self-worth."
"When you don't do something, or you had the opportunity to do it but gave up and just want to fish in the same place, it proves that this driving force is no longer so strong."
"Most of this is because the goal has been achieved, for example, there is already endless money, revenge has been successful, or one's own life value has been realized through some method."
"Don't you realize that you are fishing now?" Schiller looked at Rocky and said: "Don't tell me that you are born to love serving those difficult customers and exploring the lower limits of human understanding and communication capabilities.
.”
Loki opened his mouth and took a breath. He found that he seemed unable to refute. He covered his forehead and began to reflect.
What is he doing now? Why doesn't he engage in some conspiracies that can shake the nine kingdoms, but instead commutes here from nine to nine?
"Although I don't want to make rash inferences, based on what I know about you, normally, you should be planning a bigger conspiracy by now, such as finding something to kill your brother or something like that..."
"But you didn't do this. The reason may be the change in your life status. Suddenly, you surpassed Thor. Not only did you surpass him in the quality of life, you also surpassed him in the area that he valued most, which was honor.
Him, and there was plenty of time to laugh at him.”
"Although you haven't admitted it yourself, you should be very satisfied with this kind of life. That's why you stay here and don't do anything serious. You just want to kill time."
Loki pinched his fingers together and said, "Am I very satisfied? Why do I feel..."
"What? You feel that you are a bit worthless? You feel that your goals and ideals are not ambitious enough? Then what do you want to do? Kill Thor first, then Odin, and then unify the nine kingdoms?"
"This is indeed a good goal, and you can indeed achieve it with your ability, but if you really wanted to make this a goal, you wouldn't be sitting here now, right?"
"The moment you learn that you are not Odin's biological child, that is an important turning point in your life. You have two options, either go back to Asgard along the Rainbow Bridge and pretend
Don’t know anything, or…”
When Schiller looked at Loki, Loki also looked at him. Loki continued what Schiller said: "Either...find Thor."
"You want to see him, right?"
"This is very strange." Schiller raised the pen in his hand and said, "Generally speaking, when people feel pain, they prefer to call mother."
Loki tilted his head and did not want to pay attention to the teasing in Schiller's tone. Schiller continued: "The first half is over, we can review it."
"The conclusion derived from the idea of exchanging identities is that all the emotions you are feeling now are normal, and they will be the same for another person. Then we find that Thor appears more generous, not because he is better than you, but just because
Differences in growing environment.”
"Then we discussed that changes in circumstances lead to a weakening of inner drive, which infers that your goal is just to be better than Thor."
"I think you have gained some new understanding of your relationship with Thor. Then, there is another question that you want to know more, and that is your relationship with Odin."
When Odin's name was mentioned, Loki's expression was still very complicated. He himself was not aware of the changes in his facial muscles.
"Perhaps you are expecting me to conduct a large set of theoretical analysis for you, but in fact, this is very difficult." Schiller sighed and said, "Because the values you provided are not enough and there are too many variables, so I did not
It is impossible to provide you with psychological counseling based on such uncertain factors, which may cause very large deviations."
"What uncertain... value?"
"For example, what is your relationship with Odin? Are you his biological child? If you are not his biological child, then why did you become his son? What is his purpose in raising you? And so on.
…”
"The relationship between you and Odin is more complicated. In this case, some logic is not valid. There are many possibilities at the end. If you must delve into the deepest part, you will only make yourself more confused."
"So regarding this part, I can only give you two suggestions. The first is to figure out what is going on, and the second is..."
Schiller drawled a long note. Loki looked at him, but he didn't get an answer for a long time. He asked: "What is it?"
Schiller changed his posture, put his forearms on the table, raised his shoulders and looked at Loki, and asked: "Have you ever gotten into trouble since you were a child?"
"Of course not." Loki said with certainty: "I am not Thor. I have completed every task assigned to me by the Father of the Gods perfectly."
"Since you haven't been in trouble, how do you know Odin won't clean up the mess for you?"
Loki pursed his lips and said in a somewhat disbelieving tone: You don't want to suggest that I... go get into trouble, do you?"
"Although I'm not sure what kind of person Odin is, from some of the stories Strange brought back, I heard that Odin was also very impulsive when he was young, and Thor is very similar to him."
"Generally speaking, parents will have greater tolerance for children who are more similar to themselves, because they also came from that time and know that for people with certain personalities, certain mistakes are inevitable."
"Your main insecurity now comes from the fact that you originally thought Odin would not tolerate your mistakes. Now that you have discovered that you are not his biological child, you feel that he will not tolerate you even more."
"But I think you can actually try. If you don't try, he will never know where the bottom line is. If you test it, you might get a surprise."
It was difficult for Loki to describe his current mood. He said: "Are you instigating me... to cause trouble?"
"I didn't say that, I was just conducting a normal psychological counseling session." Schiller still lowered his head and fiddled with the pen in his hand, and said: "When the goal in your heart is met, you will fall into a state of contentment and doing nothing.
After that, people instinctively start wanting to have some fun, and so will you."
When Loki returned to the apartment, it was still dark, so Thor hadn't gone out to work yet. He was holding a takeout, unpacking it, and taking out the fried chicken.
Thor still had long hair, but his beard was trimmed shorter. He was wearing a cheap sweater that he didn't know where he came from. His hands were full of oil. Looking at this scene, Loki held back his words.
He felt that sometimes, it might be a good thing not to get to the bottom of things so much.
"Actually, I have never quite understood why you would consider such a person as your opponent." Venom said in Loki's mind: "Why don't we go downstairs to play on the seesaw... Oh, we are alone and cannot play on the seesaw.
,What a pity."
"...This is the relationship between you and your brother."
Loki ignored him and sat on the sofa opposite Thor. He fiddled with the takeout box in front of Thor. Thor was a little surprised by his actions. He looked up at him and asked: "You
Don’t you dislike fried chicken being greasy?”
Then he took the initiative to open the lid on the side facing Rocky, pressed it down, revealing the fried chicken inside, then pushed the box to the center of the coffee table and said: "I only have enough money for a small portion, but if you want to eat too
If so, I can give you a few dollars."
Loki took his hand back, propped it on his knees, and put his hand on his chin. He saw that there were only about five or six pieces of fried chicken in the box, which was too little even for a small portion.
Thor shrugged and said: "The taste of theirs is really good, but it's a bit expensive and the portion is small, but it doesn't matter, we still have this..."
He pulled out a plastic bag containing a can of beer from under the coffee table. After picking it up, he found that there was only one can of beer left in it. He said, "Well, it's better than nothing."
He took out the can of beer, opened the top of the can, and put it on the table. He saw Loki sitting there, motionless. Thor said inexplicably: "What are you standing there for? Go get the cup."
Then he paused and said, "Okay, I won't laugh at you for drinking from a cup, but just this once."
"Do you need me to tell you? In fact, you really want to..."
Venom's voice sounded, but Loki interrupted him and said: "Yes, I would like to punch him."
"Well, it seems that not only humans, but also the gods are like this..."
When the sound of venom disappeared, the sound of foaming beer being poured into the cup was heard. At this time, the sky outside the window darkened, and the breeze blew the curtains up and down gently. After the temperature dropped, the autumn evening wind began to become colder, but
The chirping of insects disappeared and everything seemed quieter.