Shangguan Yun looked at my funny expression, hugged me into his arms, and then fell on the bed and said: "The kindness to you and the love for you are only for you, whether it is a dog or someone else,
I won’t do this to anyone else again, you know?”
Although Shangguan Yun did not promise me to take good care of Yun Xuan, after listening to his words, my heart was very touched.
I was moved and kissed his thin lips affectionately. Shangguan Yun's face immediately bloomed with a happy smile and he hugged me tighter and said: "Honey, I really wish time could stop at this moment.
I really hope we can always be so happy."
"Happiness must be striven for and established by oneself, not something that can be obtained easily."
"Don't worry, I will definitely try my best to make us live happily together." After I finished speaking, I kept gesticulating on my slender fingers.
I impatiently withdrew my hand and said, "What are you doing? Why are you studying my fingers all the time?"
Shangguan Yun pulled back my already withdrawn head and said, "Let me look carefully so that I can buy you a ring later." Looking at Shangguan Yun's happy face, I was also deeply affected, and my heart
Overflowing with happiness, I cherish the happiness I have with him now, but I am also afraid that I will lose this happiness one day.
Happy time is always very short-lived. It always feels like happy time will quietly slip away from you soon.
I don’t know whether time passes very quickly or very slowly. I see eight o’clock slowly getting closer. The closer the time is, the tighter Shangguan Yun hugs me, as if I will never come back once I leave.
"Yun, the time is up, I'm going to go there." I said calmly while lying in his arms.
Shangguan Yun just closed his eyes and quietly held me in his arms without saying a word.
"Yun..." I called him softly. After a long time, he slowly opened his eyes and said, "You have to promise me that no matter what he says, you will stand firm. You are already my wife.
Don’t let me down, okay?”
"Well, I'll be back soon. Wait for me here. We'll go home tomorrow." Seeing his uneasy look, my heart ached slightly.
"Wife, I love you!" When I got up and put on my shoes, Shangguan Yun hugged me into his arms again and called me softly in my ear.
He walked me downstairs, walked me to the door, and then walked me to the car. When the car started, I could still see him standing at the door for a long time without leaving.
Originally he wanted to send me to the scene, originally he wanted to accompany me, but I refused. This is a matter between me and Horwath. It is better not to let him infiltrate. I have confidence in myself.
, I think I can handle it myself, and I will not let Shangguan Yun down.
I went to meet him with a very calm mind. I looked at the time and it was already half past eight, but I was very sure in my heart that Haohua would not leave and he would definitely still be waiting there.
It was all Shangguan Yun, and the time he wasted away was wasted little by little.
There happened to be a heavy traffic jam on the road again, and I felt a little anxious. I had already arrived late, but there was another traffic jam. Looking at the long line of cars in front of me, I felt really anxious.
Just then the phone rang again. I thought it was Haohua calling, but it turned out not to be the case. It was Shangguan Yun calling.
"What's wrong?" I answered the phone and kept looking forward, hoping to get through the call soon.
"Reached?"
"We're still in the car. The traffic jam is terrible."
"Then don't go. I'll pick you up, okay?"
"Stop thinking about it. I promise you I will do it. Just feel at ease. If nothing happens, I will hang up." Shangguan Yun said nothing after hearing what I said and hung up the phone obediently. I knew this
His heart will definitely be as full as an ant on a hot pot, and he will definitely be very restless and restless.
Maybe he would call again, so I took out my phone and pressed the power off button.
The road finally became smooth, but it was already half past nine when we arrived at the place we agreed with Haohua.
I got off the car and looked at the scene. The park had not changed at all. It was still the same. The old fitness equipment, the trees, few flowers, and the dilapidated pavilion. I remember that Haohua and I were still on top of the pillars of the pavilion.
It was engraved with both of our names, I don’t know if it is still there.
It turns out that after seeing this park, every bit of time with Haohua would come to mind, but these beautiful memories were about to be buried in the deepest part of my heart, and I suddenly felt reluctant to let go, and my heart suddenly ached slightly.
I walked towards the pavilion slowly and uncontrollably, wanting to see if the names we had engraved back then were still there. I remember that Haohua even drew a circle and circled both of our names.
I walked to the pavilion, stood on the stone bench and looked up. It turned out that the names from back then were still engraved on them, but they were a little worn. It turned out that they had not been destroyed. I felt very happy. But when I looked up, I felt very scared, afraid of our names.
It has disappeared without a trace.
In fact, I still care about it. In fact, I still can't let go of that unforgettable relationship.
Slowly walked out of the pavilion and walked in the direction where we used to sit. When there was a traffic jam, I was very anxious and hoped to arrive soon, but now I am a little timid. My heart is afraid, afraid, but not
Know what you are afraid of.
Even though I had slowed down, I was standing in front of him unknowingly. He just lowered his head, and his expression could not be seen clearly under the dim light. When I lowered my head, I saw that there were already cigarette butts scattered around him.
, I don’t know how much he smoked, but it was all over the floor. Maybe he felt that I was coming, so he stood up and said to me with a smile: "Xuanxuan, I knew you would definitely come."
I just nodded to him and said to him without much expression: "Just tell me if you have anything to do."
"Let's find a place to sit down first, okay?" Haohua took my hand and looked at me with clear and bright eyes. Through the dim street lights, we could still see some helplessness and loneliness in his eyes.
I gently withdrew my hand, sat down on the stone bench, looked up at the sky, and said, "No need, just talk about anything here." Tonight, the moon is not very round or bright, and the sky looks brighter.
It's a bit dim, there are no stars in the sky, only a few pitiful ones hang in the endless night sky.
Haohua saw that I had already sat down, so he could only sit down with me. I kept looking at the sky quietly. Although the night was not very beautiful today, it could be said to be a bit desolate, but I don’t know why I just like to stare.
As I watched, I felt much calmer looking at the silent night sky.
"Xuanxuan, I love you!" Haohua's affectionate words broke my silence and the silence of the night. After hearing his words, my originally calm heart was no longer calm, like a wave hitting me.
The coast was hit hard.
Although Haohua would often say love to me in my ears and tell some sour love words in the past, I don’t know why I had such a strong reaction when I heard it this time.
My heart couldn't calm down for a long time, but I kept pretending to cover up my inner uneasiness and didn't speak.
The night began to become quiet again, and the night became as peaceful as before.
"Xuanxuan..." Haohua's voice sounded again.
I turned my head and looked at Haohua. His eyes were so hot and his profile was still so handsome. I gently opened my mouth and smiled and said, "That's all in the past."
My tone was very calm, so calm that I was surprised. I could never have imagined that when I saw someone again and heard him say he loved me again, I could face him so calmly.
if.
"Is it true that I no longer exist in your heart? I know it was my fault for leaving back then. I didn't give you a reasonable explanation, but I had my own reasons. I really had my reasons. You
Can you listen to my explanation?" Haohua said excitedly. After listening to his words, I felt a little sour in my heart. Can his explanation and his difficulties be exchanged for the pain I have endured and the pain I have experienced?
Tears?
"You have your difficulties, but you didn't choose to tell me. Do you know what kind of life I lived when you left me?" I also said to him excitedly.
"I know, I know, of course I can know...but I..." Haohua frowned and said to me.
Before I could finish what he said, I quickly grabbed the topic and said, "Yes, you know why you didn't want to come back to me at that time, why? I begged you to come back to me, but you
But you are indifferent. I cry so sadly in front of you. Do you feel bad? If so, why are you unwilling to come back to me?" I continued to talk to him excitedly, my tears already falling silently.
It crossed my face and slowly seeped into the corners of my mouth. The tears were very salty and had a bit of a bitter taste.
After hearing what I said, Haohua seemed a little at a loss. He waved his hands and didn't know what to do. He moved the corners of his mouth several times without saying anything. He could only look at me helplessly with big tears.
.
In the end, he hugged me into his arms. His arms once had a familiar smell to me, and his arms used to be my harbor. But now why do I feel so cold and devoid of warmth in his arms now?
I closed my eyes and quietly recalled the feeling from the past. Slowly, slowly, the familiar feelings from before slowly flowed into my heart, and the feelings returned to what they were a year ago.
Leaning in his arms and listening to his regular heartbeat, I don't know how long it took before he let me go and looked at me lovingly and said: "Xuanxuan, when I knew it, I always thought you didn't care about me.
Forget, you always thought that I still exist in your heart. Huiqing said that you still love me, right? I know that it was my fault for leaving back then, but I really had my reasons. Soon after you left
, I came back to look for you, but Huiqing said that you had gone back. At that time, I wished I could look for you, but I couldn't. In fact, Huiqing has always known about my affairs, and I asked him to hide it from you. I
Now let me tell you everything that happened back then. Didn’t I often have nosebleeds at that time? You should know, and every time I told you it was okay, I got angry, and you didn’t care much. Later, my mother
He took me to the hospital for a checkup, and it turned out that I had leukemia. I was not afraid of death. What I was afraid of was what would you do if I died, and who would take care of you if I was no longer by your side. I stayed at home for three days at that time.
There is no news today. I have been thinking a lot. I can’t let you know. I don’t want you to care about me forever, so I can only choose to break up with you ruthlessly. In the end, I began to slowly and deliberately become worse, letting you
You thought I had changed, but you never gave up. You came to me again and again and looked at your tears. I almost softened my heart several times, but my reason told me that I couldn't, I couldn't involve you, every time.
When your tears fall in front of me, your tears penetrate into my heart like knives. It hurts so much that it makes me suffocate.
Suddenly I was very afraid of death. I was afraid that if I died, I would not be able to see you again, so during that time I insisted on staying in school. At least I could still see you if I stayed in school, as long as I looked at you from a distance.
That's good, I don't know how much time I have left to live. Every time I would secretly hide not far from the door of your dormitory building and watch you. However, you still discovered me a few times. At that time, I always
Pretending to be casual, pretending not to care, I purposely don’t look at you, but every time after you leave, I stare at your back and can’t get enough of it. Watching you become thinner and thinner day by day.
Haggard, my heart really hurts, I wish I could continue to take care of you, drag you to eat when you don’t want to eat, wear my coat for you when you don’t have enough clothes, and then I choose
No matter what, I must live well for you. Even if there is only one percent chance, I will give it a try. This is why I left school. I stayed in the hospital for a while and underwent chemotherapy.
It was the most painful period, but every time I thought of you, I could persevere. I had been waiting for the bone marrow that was suitable for me. The school was about to be on vacation at that time, and I begged my family to let me leave the hospital.
Let’s go. I just wanted to see you, but they refused at first. After my resistance, they had no choice but to let me leave. At that time, Hui Qing told me that you were already at the station. In order for me to take a look at you, Hui Qing
Huiqing promised to help me keep you from getting on the bus. When I rushed to the station, sure enough, you were still chatting with Huiqing, with a touch of sadness on your face. You can no longer see the old smile on your face.
With a bright smile, I didn’t go back until the time was up and you left. Huiqing knew all these things. From then on, she stayed in the hospital and listened more carefully to the doctors’ arrangements and accepted the treatment they arranged for me. Until the second half of last year, the doctor
He told me that he had found the right bone marrow. Do you know how happy I was at that time? So I asked my family to let me go out of the hospital. I wanted to find you, I wanted to see you. Although I was in the hospital at that time,
I miss you every day in my heart. But when I arrived at school, Huiqing told me that you had left and gone back. I had to go back to the hospital with disappointment."
Haohua talked so much in one breath. When he finished speaking, he smiled at me, but it could be seen that the smile had a bitter taste, and my tears had already cut across every inch of skin on my face, and my heart was so tight.
It's very tight. I didn't expect Haoran to hide such a big thing from me. He was almost taken away by the God of Death. It turns out that he left for this reason, but I can't understand it. Why didn't you let me
Take care of him, why should you bear it alone.
"Do you think the breakup or your illness will hit me harder? I admit that I will be sad when I know your illness, but at least I can take care of you and stay by your side every day, but I see you every day, but you have to
Breaking up with me, what does that mean? It means I have nothing, I have lost everything. You should know that in my heart you are my everything, you are my world." I said excitedly with tears in my eyes.
With.
Now that he told me the truth, since the truth moved me and shocked me, but I can't accept the understanding he gave me, should he break up with me for my sake? Should he hide it from me for my sake?
?
I paused and continued: "Do you think you are doing me a favor by not telling me the truth? If you are really taken away by death, what about me? I am still only one person, and you don't even have any recent memories.
, you are not willing to give me the last time. If you don't survive, then Huiqing will have to tell me about your condition. At that time, I have no chance to see you, let alone speak.
Or maybe when you are leaving, I can see you again, but I can no longer have your life. Do you think it is right for you to do this? You are so cruel, how can you bear to be so cruel?
Fortunately, you didn't leave. Fortunately, I can still see you. But if you really leave, what will be left for me? Do you know? You obviously know me so well, why did you make that choice in the first place?
, why..." I really couldn't understand his understanding of what he did, and I really couldn't imagine how he could bear it. The more I talked, the more excited I became, and the more I talked, the more excited I became, and finally I yelled.
Haohua talked so much in one breath. When he finished speaking, he smiled at me, but it could be seen that the smile had a bitter taste, and my tears had already cut across every inch of skin on my face, and my heart was so tight.
It's very tight. I didn't expect Haoran to hide such a big thing from me. He was almost taken away by the God of Death. It turns out that he left for this reason, but I can't understand it. Why didn't you let me
Take care of him, why should you bear it alone.
"Do you think the breakup or your illness will hit me harder? I admit that I will be sad when I know your illness, but at least I can take care of you and stay by your side every day, but I see you every day, but you have to
Breaking up with me, what does that mean? It means I have nothing, I have lost everything. You should know that in my heart you are my everything, you are my world." I said excitedly with tears in my eyes.
With.
Now that he told me the truth, since the truth moved me and shocked me, but I can't accept the understanding he gave me, should he break up with me for my sake? Should he hide it from me for my sake?
?
I paused and continued: "Do you think you are doing me a favor by not telling me the truth? If you are really taken away by death, what about me? I am still only one person, and you don't even have any recent memories.
, you are not willing to give me the last time. If you don't survive, then Huiqing will have to tell me about your condition. At that time, I have no chance to see you, let alone speak.
Or maybe when you are leaving, I can see you again, but I can no longer have your life. Do you think it is right for you to do this? You are so cruel, how can you bear to be so cruel?
Fortunately, you didn't leave. Fortunately, I can still see you. But if you really leave, what will be left for me? Do you know? You obviously know me so well, why did you make that choice in the first place?
, why..." I really couldn't understand his understanding of what he did, and I really couldn't imagine how he could bear it. The more I talked, the more excited I became, and the more I talked, the more excited I became, and finally I yelled.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, it's my fault, it's my fault. Didn't I leave? Aren't I still by your side? I live strong for you, and I live well for you, so don't leave me again.
Okay, okay, we have already missed you. I don’t want to miss you anymore, I want to keep you by my side." Haohua hugged me and said, his voice choked up.
If he had said these words to me a month ago, maybe I would consider returning to his body again, but now my mind is very confused and confused. I don’t know whether I like Shangguan Yun or Haohua.
, As for Shangguan Yun leaving my heart last night, my world has become cold and dark. I know clearly that I have slowly fallen in love with Shangguan Yun, and I can no longer let go easily. But what about Haohua...
…
I broke away gently, wiped the tears on my face, took a deep breath and said, "That's all in the past, our feelings are in the past, we can't come back, and we can't
Already."
After hearing what I said, Haohua's face immediately darkened. There was a sad look in his eyes. He grabbed my shoulders and said loudly: "Why, why, don't you love me? What's wrong with this?"
Willing to be with me again, Xuanxuan, I really love you very much, I really can't leave you, do you know what kind of life I have lived in the past two years, but it is my only hope, no
With you by my side, I can only look at your care every day. I hope that one day I can see you again, hold you in my arms, take a good look at you, kiss you, Xuanxuan, you are not angry, are you?
I'm still angry, angry that I didn't tell you the situation at that time, but I really didn't want you to worry or get hurt, so I didn't tell you. My original starting point was also for your sake. Really, please believe me
Okay?"
Haohua grabbed my shoulder and it hurt me so much. I pushed him away in pain and said, "Maybe you were thinking about me and doing it for my own good, but you just broke up with me without telling me.
Aren't you going to hurt me?" I couldn't bear the fact that he said he didn't want to hurt me when he had caused so much harm to me. He said it very easily.
Haohua just looked at me blankly for a long time without speaking. Maybe what I said hurt him.
Haohua just looked at me blankly for a long time without speaking. Maybe what I said hurt him.
"Haohua, our relationship has passed. I have now started a new relationship of my own. During the days when I was separated from you, I never dared to try new relationships, but until I met him,
I slowly convinced myself to get out of the shadow of your feelings, and slowly tried to accept the feelings Shangguan Yun gave me. The touch he gave me, the care and love he gave me would not be less than yours.
, I have slowly opened my heart to accept him, and I have slowly fallen in love with him. I admit that I still can’t let go of my feelings for you, but I believe that with him by my side, I
I will slowly forget you. So our relationship has passed. Time can dilute everything, and time can also dilute feelings. I will bury our relationship forever in the deepest part of my heart. So you also forget me.
Come on." I said openly to him.
After hearing my words, a layer of sadness immediately appeared on Haohua's face. I knew that my words hurt his heart. I knew that his heart felt very uncomfortable and painful. I can understand it, and I have experienced it too.
I have, but I can't let my heart soften because of his pain and let me accept him.
"Do you really have no feelings for me?" Haohua said to me in a sad tone. It was very sad and desolate. I couldn't bear to hear it. His words gently touched my heart.
I smiled calmly and looked up at the sky. A breeze blew gently, blowing my hair. I took a deep breath and it was refreshing, refreshing and comfortable...
"Actually, it is impossible to say that there is no love. After all, we have been together. After all, I have loved with so much heart. How can we just forget about it? How can we just pick it up at the root? It's just that our feelings have already been
It has passed, and I have found a new relationship. Although I cannot guarantee how long my relationship with him will last, I will definitely manage it with my heart and be with him with my heart. Haha...
Maybe God doesn't want to be attached to our relationship.
Haha... Maybe God doesn't want to be attached to our relationship. If it had been a few days earlier, maybe I would have chosen to be with you. We missed it. If we miss it, we can't do it again. You must not know the past few days.
God just agreed to be his girlfriend, and I just got together with him officially a few days ago. Maybe I have a fate with him, maybe we really missed each other again. Although it is said that people who have been in love cannot be friends, because
The two of them have loved each other. Although we have hurt each other, I don't think we can be the most familiar strangers. If you want us to remain friends, we can put away our feelings and become friends.
Can we be friends?" I smiled all the time when I said this. It made me feel a lot more relaxed after saying it. It really made me feel a lot more relaxed. The scars in my heart that had been there for more than a year seemed to no longer cause pain.
Haohua looked at me in surprise, maybe he didn’t understand.
"Haohua, we have already passed, so it is impossible for us. Just forget about me, I believe you can do it. It is very late, I should go back, otherwise he will be worried." I finished speaking and returned.
Before Haohua could speak, he stood up and was about to turn around and leave. But when he was about to leave, he grabbed my hand and held it tightly without letting go. Then he stood up and quickly hugged me.
When I was in his generous arms, I didn't struggle and leaned quietly in his arms. I thought this was the last time, so we could get together and part ways.
"These days, I thought that I always wanted to see you, put you in my arms, hold you tightly, and kiss you passionately, but now I know it's impossible, it's impossible to have you again.
You, I cannot hold you in my arms forever and never let go, because there is already another generous embrace waiting for you, prepared for you. Since this is your choice, then I will respect you, as long as I look at you
It's all about being happy. Can you promise to let me kiss you one last time?" Listening to Haohua's voice, I was choked with sobs. I suddenly felt a hot liquid drilling into my neck. It should be Haohua's.
Tears.
The heart that had been hurt was broken and could not be put back together again, so I chose to give up and accept another relationship, so that my broken heart could enjoy warmth again.
I gently raised my head, leaned on my toes and kissed the tears on Haohua's face tenderly. I always thought that he was the one who helped me kiss the tears on my face. This was the first time and the last time. It turned out
The tears are very hot. It turns out that the tears are very bitter...
Slowly I moved my kiss to his lips, covering his soft lips, kissing him gently...
It was already very late after we separated from Haohua. It was almost twelve o'clock. Haohua insisted on sending me back, but I refused. I refused persistently. At this time, I wanted to be alone and calm down.
I sorted out my thoughts. Although it was already midnight and the wind was a bit cool in my heart, I felt very refreshed and comfortable...
I started to miss him, and Shangguan Yun. I didn’t know if he was sleeping now, or what he was doing now, let alone whether he would be anxious or anxious because I didn’t go back so late... Thinking of this, my
The corners of my mouth slightly raised into a beautiful smile. Although I missed him, I was not so anxious to go back. However, after I went back, I must hug his waist tightly and lean into his arms.
I must kiss his cheek and his lips affectionately...
I walked to Huiqing's residence and rang her doorbell. At this time, she was supposed to be sweet with her boyfriend. I knew very well that it was rude for me to destroy it like this, but I didn't care so much anymore. I wanted to
Asked about the situation back then, although I believed that Horwath could not lie to me, and although I had completely believed in him, I still wanted to confirm it again.
After standing outside the door for a long time, the door was opened. It was Wang Xin who opened the door. I smiled and said a little apologetically: "I'm sorry to disturb you Wen Xin so late, but I really have something very important to find."
Huiqing, so don't blame me." After saying that, before Wang Xin could react, I rushed to their small room and pulled Huiqing up from the bed, and then told Huiqing what Haohua told me just now.
After telling the story again, Huiqing didn't show any surprise at all, which means she knew it from the beginning. Maybe many people knew it, but maybe I was the only one who was kept in the dark.
But let’s not worry about it anymore, let the past happen, let it sink into the sea.
It was already past one o'clock after I finished chatting with Huiqing. Wang Xin was already lying on the bed and fell asleep. I patted Huiqing's shoulder and said, "I'm going back with Guanyun tomorrow. Just remember to see me off tomorrow. It'll be nice soon."
It's late, let's go back." I woke them up and wasted so much of her time without saying a polite word. My relationship with her no longer requires so many polite words to compliment me, just feel free to do it.
Huiqing walked me to the door and said to me: "I guess he must be anxious, so you should coax him. Shangguan Yun should be a good person. At least he should be very good to you. Cherish the people in front of you and don't think about the past again."
It’s something.”
I didn't speak, I just smiled at her, turned around and left. I felt very relaxed now, more relaxed than I had in the past two years. I was thinking about what Shangguan Yun was doing alone. I wonder if it would be possible.
Thinking of me, I couldn't help but laugh. I walked quickly to the hotel, walking very fast, eager to see him. When I almost walked to the room, I found that the door of the room was open.
Then, as I got closer, I found Shangguan Yun leaning against the door, smoking a cigarette.
I quickly ran to his side and threw myself into his arms and said, "Why are you standing at the door? Why don't you go to bed first?" Looking at his tired look, I suddenly felt a little heartbroken.
Shangguan Yun hugged me very tightly and said in a choked voice: "I thought you wouldn't come back. I thought you would follow him and leave me." His words gently touched my heart.
My heart was spinning, it turned out that my leaving had caused him so much uneasiness.
Shangguan Yun held me tightly in his arms, unwilling to let go for a moment, and then we slowly moved into the room. The moment we closed the door, I tiptoed and kissed him without hesitation.