I picked up the rice, smiled at Shangguan Yun, and started eating. But when I picked up the rice, I didn’t want to eat it, maybe I was too hungry.
After Shangguan Yun saw me picking up the rice and putting it away, he hurriedly asked, "What's wrong? Why don't you eat it? Is it not to your liking?"
I looked at Shangguan Yun and said, "I have no appetite. Maybe I am too hungry."
After Shangguan Yun heard what I said, he hurriedly picked up the empty bowl, filled me with a bowl of clear soup, put it in front of me and said, "Let's have a bowl of soup first to appetize."
Seeing Shangguan Yun's enthusiasm, I felt embarrassed to refuse, so I took the soup and drank it.
After dinner, Shangguan Yun asked me where I wanted to go, but I was not in the mood at all, so we returned to the hotel. Suddenly I wanted to go home, maybe because I wanted to escape, but I didn’t know how to face Hao Hao.
Hua and his past relationship.
In the hotel, I was sitting on the bed watching TV, but my heart didn't know where to go.
"Are you going to see him tonight?" Shangguan Yun's faint voice suddenly sounded in my ears.
I looked up at him and met his gaze. His gaze was very gentle and clear. I twitched the corners of my mouth but didn't make any sound. In fact, I didn't know whether to see him or not. I was a little scared. I was afraid.
If you don't go to see him, he will wait as stupidly as before, maybe he will sit on the cold stone bench and wait all night.
Shangguan Yun gently pulled me into his arms and said in my ear: "No matter what happens, no matter what, don't leave me, okay? I know he may not have forgotten you, but I can't leave you anymore."
You, I can't live without you."
Shangguan Yun's words gently touched my heart. Even if he didn't forget me, so what? Can the scar in my heart be healed? Can he make up for the pain I've suffered this year? He
Can it make up for the tears I shed for him?
After staring at Shangguan Yun for a while, I said slowly: "He and I have moved on. Maybe there is still a little feeling between us, but it has faded. Maybe there is still a place for him in my heart. Then
I will only bury him deep in my heart and never discover him again. Feelings will change with time."
After Shangguan Yun listened to my words, his frowning eyebrows slowly relaxed, the corners of his mouth slightly raised into a beautiful smile, and he hugged me tighter.
Suddenly I thought of a very ironic joke. In the past, Haohua, just like Shangguan Yun, pampered and loved me like a treasure. He kept saying that he would not leave me, and kept saying that he could not live without me, but in the end he still left me ruthlessly.
I opened it. I shed a lot of tears in front of him at that time, but he was indifferent. Thinking back to the past, whenever I shed tears in front of him, he would seem at a loss and didn't know what to do. But after we broke up, I went there many times.
I looked for him and shed tears in front of him, but he didn't respond at all.
"What's wrong? You smile so coldly. Do you have something on your mind?" Shangguan Yun is really very attentive, and he noticed even such small details.
"No, I was just thinking about whether you would still treat me like this and care about me so much in a year." I laughed to myself after finishing speaking.
"I promise, no matter how many years later, my heart for you will not change. I will only love you more and more and care about you more and more. Please believe me, okay?" After listening to Shangguan Yun's words, although there are some
It's exciting, but to be honest, I can't completely believe what he said. After the relationship with Haohua, I no longer believe in these vows and I no longer believe in any everlasting love.
"Haha, to be honest, I don't even have confidence in myself, but that will be a year later, so don't think so far ahead and just cherish what you have in front of you." I said with a faint smile.
Maybe I don't believe what Shangguan Yun said. His eyes suddenly dimmed. Maybe what he says now is from his heart and the truth. Maybe he thinks he will love me more and more.
I care about me more and more, but no one can predict what will happen in the future, let alone a year later. To be more realistic, we cannot predict what will happen tomorrow.
After that, I was silent for a while, watching TV, but my mind was not on the TV. I was struggling in my heart whether to go to see him or not. If I did, what would he tell me and what would he give me?
Do you want to explain the reason why you left me? Or do you want to start over with him? My thoughts are a little confused. Since we broke up, and I already have a boyfriend, we can still be friends after the breakup, although this is difficult and very difficult.
Difficult, it must be the one whom I have loved forever, but it is necessary to explain some things clearly when we meet. In the end, I decided to see him at night. No matter what, I wanted to hear his explanation and what he wanted.
Tell me what.
"Yun..." I leaned into Shangguan Yun's arms and called softly.
Shangguan Yun turned around and looked at me gently and said, "Huh? What's wrong?"
"I want to go in the evening." When I said this, my whole heart felt very calm, so calm that I could hardly believe it.
After Shangguan Yun heard what I said, his face darkened at first, probably because he was unhappy, and then he raised his brows again.
"I don't like your frowning like this." I said as I stretched out my hands and gently smoothed it for him.
"Can you not go? I'm so scared. I'm afraid I'll lose you if you go. I'm really scared." Shangguan Yun held me tightly in his arms and spoke with a hint of sadness.
I gently broke away, looked into his eyes, smiled and said, "Since I promised to be with you, I will be with you well. Besides, I have fallen deeply in love with you. Could it be that
Can't you feel it? Shouldn't you believe me?" I always told him with a smile. I hope he can believe me. I hope he can let me go with confidence. I hope I say this
It will give him a little sense of security.
Shangguan Yun's expression looked a little helpless and he said: "But I still don't worry. I, I am really scared, very scared. I have never had this kind of fear before. I am just afraid." Shangguan Yun still frowned slightly and said to me.
He looked up, with a look of uneasiness in his eyes.
I slowly approached him, covered his thin lips with my soft lips, and kissed them tenderly. His breath came out, and he slowly opened his sexy lips slightly, and his tongue was attacking
With my lips, I opened my mouth slowly and slowly, and his tongue quickly slipped into my mouth, sweeping across my mouth, seeming to be looking for something precious. When his tongue touched
When he reached the tip of my tongue, he let go, took my tongue out into his mouth, and sucked gently and tenderly...
It wasn't until I was dizzy and blushing from his kiss that he reluctantly let me go. The two of us lay on the big white bed. He gently pulled me into his arms and leaned against his chest.
Listening to his powerful and regular heartbeat, my heart feels very calm...
"I believe you, but don't let me down, okay?" Shangguan Yun rubbed his chin on my neck and spoke carefully in my ear.
His four words "I believe in you" seemed very heavy, and they also weighed heavily on my heart.
I nodded to him and said, "Thank you for your trust. I will not let you down. After I go and explain some things to him tonight, let's go home tomorrow, okay?"
After hearing what I said, Shangguan Yun sat up excitedly and said, "I'm going home tomorrow, is it true?"
I don't know why he was so excited when he heard that he was going home. Maybe it was because he didn't have to see Haohua anymore. After all, the mountains are high and the emperor is far away. Maybe he thought Haohua would no longer pose a threat to him.
"You are so happy when you talk about going home. Is there a girl waiting for you at home?" I said deliberately pretending to be sour, and deliberately turned around to ignore him. Pretending to be scared.
He hurriedly turned my body around and pulled me up. He leaned on the back of the bed, pressed me into his arms and said, "Where are the girls? I was having a good time here, but I don't want to
Now that I’m home, I can hold you to sleep every day and stay with you all the time. How could I be willing to leave? But you have to know that since his appearance, he has caused me a lot of uneasiness. Do you know? You were once
Love him so passionately. You once had such a beautiful and unforgettable love affair. I am envious and jealous, but that is all in the past. Although I will be jealous, I don’t mind. Everyone has their own feelings.
Personal past, I can only hate why I didn't get to know you earlier. In this case, there will always be only me in your heart, and he will not exist. Although I don't mind your past with him, I do.
His presence in your heart. His appearance has posed a serious threat to me. I feel that I can no longer control such a situation. In the past, I was very confident no matter what I did. No matter what I did, I could control it.
It is in my own hands, but I no longer have confidence in you. So I would rather leave as soon as possible." After finishing speaking, Shangguan Yun lit a cigarette and smoked lonely.
Seeing his uneasy expression made me feel a little distressed, but I didn't know how I should reassure him and give him a sense of security.
I gently took the cigarette he held between my fingers and said: "I didn't know that I made you so uneasy and insecure. I promise you that I won't go home until we go back. I will stay with you."
How about I stay with you? Can’t you go home until the last day of the vacation?”
Although my words made Shangguan Yun smile, I knew that he was still afraid in his heart, afraid that I would leave.
"Wife, you are so kind." Shangguan Yun called affectionately.
Although Haohua used to call me wife very affectionately, it is a little different from Shangguan Yun. Maybe I have slowly distinguished their feelings.
Next, feeling bored, we went to Huiqing's house to take Yunxuan back to the hotel. We went to the supermarket to buy some dog food and some dog supplies, and prepared to help Yunxuan take a bath.
Yunxuan seems to be very smart and can understand our words. Before I bought it, the owner of the pet shop said that this breed of dog is very smart, easy to teach, and can understand human language. At that time, I
Still don't believe it.
I gently touched Yun Xuan's hair and said, "Yun Xuan is quite smart. He seems to be able to understand what I say."
"Of course, this kind of dog is smart, and it's only so big. Otherwise, why would it be so expensive?" Shangguan Yun looked at it while putting hot water on the small washbasin we just bought.
I said.
This dog weighs almost one or two kilograms. It seems weightless when held on the body. Its tail is thin and small, and it is slightly curled. I always say that if its tail was longer and curled like this, it would not be like a pig.
The tails are the same, forming a Q.
After giving Yunxuan a bath, I applied some fragrance to his body. It smelled so good that I held him in my arms.
"Honey, don't hold it in your arms all the time. Just put it on the ground. Even after taking a bath, it will still be dirty. It must be a dog after all." Shangguan Yun raised his eyebrows and said to me.
But I refused. I didn't feel dirty. It had just been washed. How could it be dirty? I ignored his words and continued to play with Yun Xuan. Suddenly I thought that if I took it back, Shangguan Yun would think it was dirty.
An inattentive Yun Xuan drilled randomly and got into a place where he shouldn't have drilled. Will Shangguan Yun bully it?
So I put Yun Xuan down and walked over to Shangguan Yun who was leaning on the back of the bed watching TV and said, "Shangguanyun, I have to have a good talk with you."
After Shangguan Yun heard what I said, he first hugged me into his arms, and then I sat on the bed and nestled in his arms. He opened his mouth and smiled and said: "What's wrong, my wife, tell me if you have anything to do."
"After saying that, he kissed me and took the opportunity to eat my tofu.
"It's like this. No matter what Yun Xuan does wrong in your house from now on, you can't bully it, scold it or hit it. You have to treat it as well as you treat me, love it the same, love it the same, and treat it the same way.
Otherwise, I'm afraid that Yun Xuan will be tortured to death by you sooner or later." I finished speaking in one breath, and after finishing speaking, I turned around and glanced at the little thing.
Shangguan Yun always looked at me and stared at me with a smile on his face.
"Why are you looking at me like that, talking to you?" I raised my hand and waved it in front of his eyes.
"Haha... why are you comparing yourself to a dog? You..." Shangguan Yun said while lying on the bed, holding his stomach and laughing.
I pulled him up hard and yelled at him angrily: "You are a bad guy, you are a bad guy, you only know how to bully me." I also pretended to look pitiful and tried hard to squeeze out some tears, but I couldn't.