The most important thing for two people to be together is to trust each other. Although Shangguan Yun has many bad records in the past, I am still willing to believe that he is sincere to me, and I am still willing to believe that he has not betrayed me.
I am very satisfied with my current life. I am accompanied by Shangguan Yun at school. Shangguan Yun always takes good care of me. It feels good to be pampered, loved and loved.
Another week passed. My junior high school classmate Wenwen called to tell me that it was his birthday. He wanted to invite a group of classmates and friends to a party on Saturday afternoon, and those who had boyfriends had to bring their boyfriends to say they knew each other. I readily agreed.
, I know that Shangguan Yun usually has nothing to do, so I will definitely not shirk asking him to accompany me to Wenwen's birthday party.
When he sent me home after school, I happily told him to accompany me to Wenwen's birthday party on Saturday, but he said to me with an embarrassed look: "Honey, I may not have time in the afternoon.
What time is it in the afternoon?" Seeing his troubled face, I felt a little unhappy. He has always been fine, so why did he suddenly get into trouble when I asked him to accompany me? How can there be such a coincidence in the world?
Things.
"Wenwen said, it will be around three or four in the afternoon. At three or four in the afternoon, we will be invited to dinner first, and then in the evening we will be invited to drink and sing." I said to him a little unhappy, and my tone was not as bad as before.
When the temperature rises, it suddenly becomes cold and has a straight face.
"Then I'll do my best. If I can't accompany you to dinner, I guarantee that I can accompany you to sing with them in the evening." Shangguan Yun said to me with a flattering smile.
Since he said he had something to do, and I don't like forcing things, I bit my upper lip and said, "If you have something to do, just go and do your own thing. Anyway, your thing is more important, and mine is less important."
I said it deliberately sourly, but actually I was very concerned about it.
Shangguan Yun could see that I was a little angry. I had been with him for so long, and since I was unhappy, I would also tell him, just go about your business. I'm fine. He understood to some extent and said: "Wife
, don’t be angry, I really have something to do. I’ll go find you right away after I finish the matter, okay? Don’t be angry.” Although I feel a little unreasonable, and although I know that Shangguan Yun really has something to do, but in my heart
It's just uncomfortable.
"Forget it, I wish I could come." I flattened my mouth and said.
Along the way, Shangguan Yun told me a lot of nice things and coaxed me all the way, but I didn't say much. I felt uncomfortable and didn't like to talk. When I was almost home, I turned around and said to him: "Don't talk.
Okay, I'm not an unreasonable person, just come early tomorrow. I'll go back first." After saying that, I took my clothes from his hands and left. I could feel that Shangguan Yun was still standing there, not leaving.
But I didn't look back. Maybe he was waiting for me to turn around and give him a smile, but I was so angry that I didn't want to look back.
After returning home, I took a shower, ate and went out to buy some things with Liu Xi. I wandered around randomly, feeling very restless. When I got home, I chatted with Liu Xi for a while and then went to bed to get ready for bed.
I was lying on the bed cultivating sleep and my phone rang when I was about to fall asleep. I was not in a good mood, but Shangguan Yun called me again when I was about to fall asleep and woke me up. I was so angry that I turned off the phone and tried again.
Turn off the phone, pull up the quilt, cover your head and fall asleep.
I fell asleep after a while and entered my sleep. I don’t know how long I slept for, but I felt someone touching my face and kissing my lips. I slowly woke up. I couldn’t see clearly who that person was in the darkness.
Who, but his breath let me know that he was Shangguan Yun. I thought I was in the dream, so I immediately sat up, rubbed my sleepy eyes and said, "Shangguanyun, why are you in my room?"
When Shangguan Yun saw that I was awake, he also squeezed onto my bed, sat on the back of the bed, hugged me into his arms and said, "My mother-in-law is angry, and the consequences will be serious. So I came here overnight."
After listening to his words and looking at him, I felt like I was dreaming, but the way he held me was so sincere. I had to believe that he would do such a thing. He used to be able to chase me to Lishui in the middle of the night, but now
What's more, it's my house. But I don't understand why he came to my room. The window is closed tightly. He shouldn't be able to climb in from such a height.
"Then why did you come to my room?" I looked at him with wide eyes and asked.
"I called you just now, but you didn't answer and turned off your phone. I felt a little anxious. I kept calling and turning off my phone. I thought you were still angry, so I came to your house. I
When I came here, I first called your home and asked for Ah Xi, and then told Ah Xi that I was at the door of your house. He naturally opened the door and let me in, and your room was unlocked, so I ran over."
Shangguan Yun hugged me very much and said proudly.
Fortunately, Shangguan Yun said he was looking for Liu Xi instead of me. "How long have you been in my room?"
"It's been almost half an hour."
I'm a little dizzy. It's been half an hour and I just woke up now. If it was a thief, I guess all the things in the house have been moved away, and even the people have been carried away. I don't know yet.
"Then you don't plan to leave tonight? Then go to Liu Xi's room to sleep." I said to him very rudely.
But he said with a bitter look on his face: "I'll go there later. It's almost one o'clock here. I want to sleep with you. When I sleep until five o'clock, I can go to Ah Xi's room, okay? I'm all with Ah Xi."
It’s settled.” Looking at Shangguan Yun’s behavior, I couldn’t drive him away at night, and he came to my house so enthusiastically that I couldn’t bear to drive him away. My parents were probably fast asleep in the middle of the night.
I locked the door and waited until five o'clock to wake up the alarm clock on my phone, then asked Shangguan Yun to go to Liu Xina to sleep.
Lying on the bed, Shangguan Yun was very restless, kissing me here and hugging me there. I finally said to him: "I'm very sleepy, let me sleep." After listening to my words, he put me in order.
Cuddled into his arms and fell asleep.
I felt like I had just fallen asleep, and my phone kept shouting in my ears like a ghost. When I tried to wake Shangguan Yun up in a daze, Shangguan Yun was still awake and said: "I understand.
Just keep sleeping, I won't be able to hold you." After saying that, he kissed me on the forehead and left.
I said feebly: "When will we leave tomorrow?" I was very sleepy, I didn't want to move my mouth, and asked without opening my eyes.
"Don't worry, your mother knows that I'm coming to your house. I'll wait for you to wake up before leaving tomorrow." I was still in a dazed state, and I vaguely heard the sound of Shangguan Yun closing the door and quickly speaking again.
Entered dreamland.
I was so noisy by Shangguan Yun last night that I couldn't sleep. Naturally, I couldn't wake up in the morning. It was when Liu Xi came in and called me that I slowly got up and washed up. By that time, Shangguan Yun had already woken up.
There seemed to be some blood in his body. Although I don't know if he slept after returning to Liu Xi's room, but even if he did, he didn't go to bed until five o'clock. It's almost nine o'clock now.
My mother greeted Shangguan Yun before letting him go after eating. While eating, I glanced at him secretly, and he just looked at me secretly. We pretended not to know each other in front of our parents.
After Shangguan Yun left, her mother kept praising Shangguan Yun for being good-looking and well-educated. If her mother knew that Shangguan Yun was a gangster, she might not dare to let him in next time.
When mother was praising Shangguan Yun, Liu Xi kept covering his mouth and snickering. Anyway, there was nothing to do at home. I continued to go back to the room to sleep. I had to go out in the afternoon. I couldn't look lazy.
Go out looking like you haven't woken up yet.
Although it is already autumn, many girls like to wear skirts in autumn. Of course, I am no exception. Today I wore a very thin sweater and a plaid skirt that covered my knees.
I put on my beige boots, which looked quite good. After I went out, I called Shangguan Yun first. The place in Shangguan Yun seemed a little noisy. I didn’t know where he was. I asked him when he could come, and he said no.
Make sure you call me after you finish the work. So I went alone to the place I had made an appointment with Wenwen and the others.
There were a lot of people here, some I didn’t know and some I knew. Those I knew were all junior high school classmates. Those I didn’t know were probably Wenwen’s current classmates.
When Wenwen saw me, she said, "Xuanxuan, where is your boyfriend Shangguan Yun? Why didn't he come?"
I smiled and said to her, Shangguan Yun will come later, and I have something to do now. After hearing Shangguan Yun's name, a man came up to me and said, "You are Shangguan Yun's girlfriend. I seemed to see her just now."
I went to Shangguan Yun to be with another girl." His words stung my heart. Shangguan Yun was with another girl, and his words "You are Shangguan Yun's girlfriend" made me feel uncomfortable.
Some irony, can’t I be Shangguan Yun’s girlfriend?
But in response to his words, I still gave him a faint smile and said, "It's normal for Shangguan Yun to be with other girls, just like you are not with a lot of girls now? Could it be that you
Have you never been alone with a girl other than your girlfriend?" Maybe my words were a little harsh. Although I tried to lower my tone as much as possible, the man's face looked a little ugly when I said what I said.
Or because of Wenwen's face, or because I was still Shangguan Yun's girlfriend, he couldn't get angry at me, so he just snorted and left.
Although I said that, I was very concerned about what he said. Is being with another girl the important thing he said?
When everyone was sitting at the wine table, I was alone and depressed. If it were like this in normal times, I would definitely be eloquent, but today I have no energy. Time passed slowly and I kept staring at my phone.
, but it didn’t ring. Shangguan Yun hasn’t called me yet. He usually calls me when I’m not expecting him to call me. Now I’m expecting him to call me, but he just doesn’t call me.
.The anger in my heart is a little big.
It wasn't until we all finished eating and the sky was slowly getting dark. It was past six o'clock that Shangguan Yun didn't call yet, and I simply didn't call him.
When I arrived at the Heaven and Earth KTV, I sat alone in the corner with my mobile phone in my hand. I was afraid that it would be so chaotic inside and so noisy that I wouldn’t be able to hear Shangguan Yun’s call. I kept staring at my mobile phone until eight o’clock.
A few minutes later, Shangguan Yun called. I went out to answer the phone and told him that he was in Box 302 of the Heaven and Earth. My tone was very bad. I originally wanted to tell him not to come, but I had already made an agreement with them.
Shangguan Yun will definitely come. If Shangguan Yun doesn't come in the end, wouldn't I lose face? No matter how angry I am now, I have to earn back this face. People have to fight for a breath of life.
Soon Shangguan Yun opened the door and came in. When he came in, he first smiled at them and then looked for me. I didn't go up to him or call him, I deliberately sat in the corner and pretended not to see him.
When Shangguan Yun saw me, he walked over to me, sat down, smiled, hugged me into his arms and said, "You're late, why are you angry?"
"No. You have something important to do today, can you tell me?" I said to him in a stiff tone. I still couldn't forget what the person said just now, so I wanted to test Shangguan Yun's tone.
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"There was something going on at my aunt's house, so I went over. And my parents are back, so I had to go. Wife, don't be angry."
"Really? You went to your aunt's house? Were you with other girls just now?" I looked at him and asked, and when I said these words, I noticed a quick flash in his eyes.
Panic, as if some lie had been exposed.
"No, there's no girl. I've been staying at my aunt's house all afternoon." Shangguan Yun said in a very calm tone, without any hint of lies, but the panic in his eyes just now made me unable to
To believe that what he says is true.
Since he didn't intend to talk about it, I didn't intend to ask any further questions. It wasn't until very late that we dispersed and went home.
Standing at the door, Tian Guanyun said it was very late and asked me not to go home at night and go to his house.
Originally, I had planned to go home with Guan Yun in the evening and visit Yun Xuan by the way. But now I am not in that mood.
I said coldly: "No, aren't your parents back? Besides, I promised my mother that I would come home at night." I said expressionlessly, without even looking at him.
"What's wrong? Didn't we agree? We would go to my house to sleep late at night. Why did it change again?" Shangguan Yun may not know why I got so angry for no reason, and I already talked about it well last night.
of.
"Can't we change what we said? I want to go home anyway." I continued to say to him in a very irritable tone.
I always feel that he is hiding something from me, but he is unwilling to tell the truth to me.
Seeing how angry I was, Shangguan Yun agreed to take me home. When we got home downstairs, Shangguan Yun wanted to put me in his arms, hug me and kiss me, but I moved away.
She turned her back to him and said, "I'm going up first. I really want to sleep."
After returning to the room, I secretly leaned against the window to look, and found that Shangguan Yun was still there, not leaving yet, smoking a cigarette. I picked up my phone and wanted to send him a message asking him to go back to bed early, but I picked it up.
I put it down again. In order to prevent Shangguan Yun from touching my room again in the middle of the night, I jumped out of bed and locked the door of the room.
I couldn't fall asleep lying on the bed. The words of that person always echoed in my mind as I tossed and turned, and I kept thinking, who is the girl with Shangguan Yun? Is she Shangguan Yun's new girlfriend?
Thinking of this, my heart started to hurt. It hurt so much that it made me feel like I was suffocating. I originally thought that when I heard that Shangguan Yun had another girl, I would accept it calmly and tell him coolly.
We broke up, but now it's not the situation I expected at the beginning. My heart hurts and I can't accept that fact. I'm starting to be a little afraid of leaving him, afraid that he will leave me.
When I got up again and lay down outside the window, there was no one below. Shangguan Yun had already left.
Although I didn't hold out any hope that I would see Shangguan Yun again, when I couldn't see it, I still felt disappointed.
I went back to bed again and covered myself with the quilt. It took a long time before I slowly fell asleep.
When I woke up the next day, I hoped to see Shangguan Yun, but the door was locked well, and there was no sign of Shangguan Yun. I looked at the time and it was only about seven o'clock. I was always thinking about him, so early.
I woke up. My eyes hurt when I woke up. I grabbed my phone and looked at it, but there was no call or message from Shangguan Yun. I felt panicked. Has he changed his mind? Has he changed his mind so quickly? He doesn’t want me anymore.
?
I asked myself over and over again, but couldn't find the answer. I wanted to call him, but I didn't have the courage.
I felt sleepy and tired, so I continued to sleep with my hands on the quilt. When I woke up, it was already noon. They say that the more you sleep, the softer your body will become. This is true. I have been sleeping for a long time.
I still felt very sleepy, but I was so hungry that I got up to eat.
Shangguan Yun called after a while after eating. I was startled by the ringtone of my cell phone. I grabbed the phone and didn't press the answer button. I was afraid and panic enveloped my whole body. I was afraid that he would tell me to break up on the phone.
I was afraid that he would call me and tell me that he had another girlfriend, so I chose to escape and put the phone in the drawer and let it scream. The beautiful melody over and over again on the phone was like a sharp knife stabbing me.
It entered my heart, and it took a long time for the phone to become quiet.
I was bored in the room because I was afraid that I would have random thoughts, so I thought of going for a walk outside. When I felt better, I put on my coat and left, wandering alone on the street. I usually walked hand in hand with Shangguan Yun on the street.
But now it is so miserable. Walking on the street alone feels very boring, so I thought of going to my grandma’s house in the countryside. I haven’t been there for a long time. It only takes more than half an hour to get there by car, or I feel happy when I get there.
No more random thoughts.
So I got in the car right away, and Liu Xi happened to be there, so I dragged him to grandma's house. He was very reluctant at first, so I agreed to lend him my phone for a week, and I said he didn't know how to be filial.
After a lot of talking, I finally gave in under my coercion.
I didn’t plan to come back and stay there in the evening, so I simply packed up my things and then went to the street with Liu Xi to buy some things for my grandparents. When we arrived at grandma’s house, it was time to have dinner, and Liu Xi and we just happened to catch up.
After dinner, my grandparents looked very excited when they saw me and Liu Xi passing by, their wrinkled faces always filled with smiles.
After dinner, I chatted with my grandma and the others. It was very late when I was about to go to bed, but I couldn’t fall asleep. I stood alone on the balcony and looked at the stars in the sky. I don’t know what Shangguan Yun is doing now. There is no mobile phone signal in the countryside. I don’t know.
Will Shangguan Yun call me?
When I was deep in thought, Liu Xi suddenly appeared behind me and said, "What's wrong? Did you quarrel with him?"
It turns out that Liu Xi figured it out, and I didn’t intend to hide it from him. I told Liu Xi exactly what happened, and then gave him a wry smile.
"Sister, actually you have been with him for such a long time. You should know that you should be able to feel his feelings for you. You cannot judge that Shangguan Yun has another girlfriend just based on other people's words. What you feel is
You can't escape. If he really has no feelings for you, then don't worry as soon as possible. There should be a solution. Escape like this is not a solution. Besides, it may be that the person is blind. You must always listen to Shangguan.
Yun, let me give you an explanation." Liu Xi said to me seriously, and then left.
Maybe he is better at relationship matters than me. Otherwise, how come his relationship with Lin Chen has always been so good? Even if they quarrel sometimes, he will handle it well. Maybe I should listen to Liu Xi and make peace with Shangguan Yun.
Let's talk. If he really changes his mind, then it's time for me to let him go. I was mentally prepared for this from the beginning. But recently, I've actually backed down again.
But now that you've arrived at grandma's house, let's stay there peacefully until tomorrow, and take care of yourself once you've arrived.
After thinking about it, I felt much more comfortable. I went back to my room to sleep. The air here is very good. I really hope to live here with my beloved forever. I hold hands and look at the Agricultural Bank of China every morning, and stay here in the afternoon to look at the Agricultural Bank of China.
Watching TV, sitting on the balcony at night and looking at the stars. But if we were really allowed to live that kind of life, we would not want to. People are like this, and they will never be satisfied.
The next day after dinner at grandma's house, Liu Xi and I went back. After returning home, it was time to go to school again. I usually looked forward to meeting Shangguan Yun at school, but now I was a little scared.
I might as well go to school. In order to avoid meeting Shangguan Yun, I arrived at the school at three o'clock. There were only a few classmates who lived in the school and didn't go home during the weekend. It was very quiet, so quiet that even a bird could be heard.
You can hear the sound of leaves falling.
After arriving at the dormitory, there was no one in the dormitory, and it was so quiet that you could hear breathing.
I have been sitting on the bed and looking out the window. Slowly, more and more people are coming, but I can’t find Shangguan Yun. People in the dormitory also slowly arrive. When they go to the cafeteria to eat, I also
I went to eat with them, but I still didn't see Shangguan Yun until I returned to the dormitory after dinner. I didn't know if he was here or if he would come to school today.
I didn't see Shangguan Yun's figure when I arrived in the classroom. Even during class, I always looked outside and stretched my neck, but I just didn't see his familiar figure. After the first evening self-study period, someone gave me
I thought my letter was from Shangguan Yun, so I quickly opened it and saw a scene that broke my heart.
Inside is an abortion surgery form, but the signature below is Shangguan Yun's name, and the hospital's seal. The time was just Saturday. I think Shangguan Yun's handwriting was written by him, and the person who performed the abortion surgery actually
It’s Tingting. I know that Tingting has always liked Shangguan Yun. Although Shangguan Yun has always been very cold to her, but now she has children and they all had abortions. No wonder some people say they saw Shangguan Yun with a beautiful girl.
With the children together, no wonder Shangguan Yun kept saying that there was something important and didn't come until so late.
Looking at that piece of paper, the three words "Shangguanyun" cut through my heart like a sharp knife. It hurt so much. My brain felt like it exploded.
Tears have quietly flowed across my face and dripped on "Shangguanyun"
On those three words, the three words "Shangguanyun" were slowly melted away by my tears, and became very blurry in front of my eyes. Although I don't know what the relationship between Shangguanyun and Tingting is, at least
They have all had children.
It was as if the noisy classroom had become quiet, unusually quiet, no noise could be heard, and the people in front of me became blurry and I couldn't see who was who.
Suddenly I felt someone stretching out his hand and gently trying to wipe away my tears. I looked up with tears in my eyes, and the person who caught my sight was a very familiar face. He frowned slightly and said to me distressedly: "What's wrong?"
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"Shangguanyun, please stop pretending in front of me. Let me see for myself what this is?" I said to him weakly and threw the abortion surgery form in front of him. His expression became darker and darker after reading it.
The gloom became darker and darker, and veins appeared on his forehead.
"Xuanxuan, please listen to my explanation, okay. Things are not what you think. She and I have nothing to do, and her child is not mine." Shangguan Yun said nervously and excitedly, and when he finished speaking, the bell rang for class.
.Shangguanyun had no choice but to leave like this.
I originally thought that Shangguan Yun was a responsible man, but I didn't expect that he would not admit it. He really shirks his responsibility after doing something wrong. It is really heartbreaking. I have always looked down on such men, but now my boyfriend actually does the same.
That kind of person feels so cold inside.
Tears fell uncontrollably, and I sobbed silently on the table. No matter how Lili tried to comfort me, I still couldn't stop. It seemed like I was back to the time when I had just broken up with Haohua. I knew it was useless to do so.
If you want to make a living, you know how to cry. It is obviously lost. No matter how much you cry or how sad you are, it is still lost and will never come back.
My heart feels the same now as when I just broke up with Haohua. My heart is cut by a knife and my heart is in pain like a knife. This feeling is very strong and intense.
After a night of self-study, I almost cried. Finally, get out of class was over. I walked out of the classroom with red and swollen eyes. Soon Shangguan Yun caught up with me. He held my hand and said, "Listen to my explanation." Okay?" I said nothing and looked at him helplessly with my eyes that were red and swollen from crying. I looked at him coldly without any emotion. I could see Shangguan Yun's eyes were filled with distress. I didn't understand. , why do you feel distressed and hurt me like this? If you say you love me, why do you hurt me?
Finally, I weakly said: "Get away from me." After saying that, I withdrew my hand and walked away. This time Shangguan Yun didn't catch up again, and I didn't expect him to catch up again. Maybe he was tired too, or
Our relationship has come to an end.
After returning to the dormitory, I washed up and went to bed to prepare for bed. However, as soon as I lay in bed, tears fell down uncontrollably and I kept sobbing silently. My stomach hurt from crying and I still couldn't stop crying.
, the more I want to stop, the more I can’t.
The phone rang countless times, but I didn't pay attention to it. I knew it was Shangguan Yun calling. Finally, Lili picked up the phone for me and said in a distressed tone: "She is still crying." I didn't know he was calling.
What kind of expression did he use to speak? He was probably looking at me.
After talking for a while, she returned the phone to me and put it on my bed. She pushed me and said, "Xuanxuan, stop crying. Shangguan Yun shouldn't be that kind of person. Whatever he has done, he will do it."
I will admit that maybe you really misunderstood him."
Lili's words couldn't relieve the pain in my heart. I continued to cry. In the end, Lili got into my bed and hugged me. I curled up in her arms, although her arms were not like Shangguan Yun's.
Her arms were so wide and warm, but they still allowed me to regain a little warmth. I don’t know when I cried until I fell asleep. Maybe I was tired from crying and had no strength anymore.
I woke up the next day with a pair of red and swollen eyes. I could still see Shangguan Yun at the door of the dormitory. Before he could speak, I said to him coldly: "You'd better not come here these days."
I."
"Then don't cry anymore. I feel sorry for you like this. Take good care of your health. I'll come back to you in a few days." After saying that, he left. Looking at his lonely figure, something suddenly hit my heart.
There was some pain after the impact.
After Shangguan Yun left, I walked away alone with a feeling of ending, slowly...