Suddenly I no longer had any appetite and wanted to have breakfast. I walked past the door of the canteen and felt something in my heart. In the past, I always went in with Shangguan Yun. I found a good seat and sat quietly while he bought me breakfast. Gradually I got used to it.
The scene with Shangguan Yun sitting inside seemed to be lingering in my mind. My heart ached again and I quickly walked back to the classroom.
Maybe there is a habit for everything. I usually have breakfast with Shangguan Yun in the cafeteria at this time, but now I am sitting in the classroom, my stomach seems to be growling in protest, but I have no desire.
Eating.
I sat there blankly and thought about every bit of my time with Shangguan Yun, which was both sad and sweet. Although we usually quarreled and got angry, the situation now is different from before. I am too lazy to lose my temper. I can't.
To describe it as angry, it should be sad and distressed.
After finishing breakfast, Lili brought me steamed buns again and said they were bought by Shangguan Yun. Maybe Shangguan Yun bought them. Looking at the hot steamed buns, her heart suddenly felt sore and tears rolled in her eyes again. Look.
I was eating the hot buns but I had no appetite.
"I don't want to eat, I can't eat." After saying that, she picked up the breakfast and threw it aside. Lili just looked at me with a strange look and said nothing.
I went back to the dormitory after class at noon. I hid in the dormitory alone and thought about the past quietly. I suddenly wanted to call Horwath. I wonder how he is doing now and whether he has found a girlfriend. This is how people are. People of the opposite sex are inhumane.
When you are sweet with your boyfriend, you will forget some friends. Once you break up or have a quarrel, you will especially want the friends around you to accompany you and comfort you.
I held my cell phone and kept looking at the number that Horwath had left for me before without hesitation and dialed the number. Soon the other party picked up the phone, and he seemed very quiet there.
After I answered the call, I said calmly with a choked voice: "It's me. How are you doing recently?"
Horwath was obviously a little excited and surprised after receiving my call.
"I was just like that. I didn't expect you to call me. How are you doing? Is he good to you?" Haohua asked with concern. After hearing his words, my heart became even more painful.
He covered his mouth with his hands for a long time before saying: "He is very good to me."
Next, I listened to some of Horwath's life secrets, and my tears streaked down every inch of skin on my cheeks.
I cried bitterly after hanging up the phone, but I didn't dare to make a sound.
When Lili came back, she brought me another bowl of noodles. I knew that Shangguan Yun had bought it outside again. There were no noodles in the school cafeteria at noon.
Looking at the hot noodles, my heart failed to warm up. Shangguan Yun kept his word, saying that he had not come to me in the past few days.
"Lili, thank you. I'll tell him not to buy any more next time. I don't have the appetite to eat. If I'm hungry, I'll buy something to eat myself. I'm not stupid enough to go on a hunger strike." After saying that, he forced a smile.
Smiled at them.
I left the noodles there again without eating them.
I still had no appetite at night, so I didn’t go to the cafeteria to eat. I went back to the dormitory alone. I didn’t feel hungry at all. Maybe I was too hungry. I was afraid that my body wouldn’t be able to bear it, so I took out an apple and ate it.
The apples were the ones Shangguan Yun bought for me last time. I bought too many and didn’t finish them all last week.
The apple was originally very delicious, but now it has become so bitter when I bite it in my mouth. The apple is like feelings, sour and sweet, but now I don’t feel the sweetness when I eat it in my mouth.
After forcing herself to eat an apple and drink a glass of boiled water, Lili came back with another bowl of noodles. Lili said helplessly: "I told him, but he still bought it. Let me mention it to you. He said that if you continue not to eat, he will buy you three meals a day."
I smiled at Lili and said helplessly: "Then let him do whatever he wants. I will eat when I have an appetite."
I didn't want to go to self-study in the evening, so I pretended to be sick and went to the class teacher to write a request for leave. Lili also stayed in the dormitory with me and did not go to class.
It's class time now, the lights in the dormitory are not turned on, and it's completely dark. There are lights in the corridor, and the teaching building opposite is so brightly lit that the dormitory building isn't too dark anymore.
"Xuanxuan, are you hungry?" Lili asked as she and Lili were lying on the same bed.
I smiled bitterly and said, "I don't feel anything anymore. Lili, do you think I'm stupid? Maybe I'm too persistent in my feelings. I can't tolerate a grain of sand in my feelings. I hope my love is pure and transparent like crystal." Same, but I found that I was wrong, I just missed my relationship with Haohua, and now my relationship with Shangguan Yun still cannot be clean, pure and transparent."
"I always thought that Tingting liked Shangguan Yun very much. She thought that her family background was better than yours and that she was prettier than you. But Shangguan Yun just fell in love with you and ignored him when he came to her door. So she You want to take revenge, maybe this is just a trap of Tingting, are you willing to have your feelings taken away by her like this?" Lili persuaded me from the side.
Maybe she is not sure even in her own mind when she says this. How can she know more about Shangguan Yun? Everyone knows what kind of person Shangguan Yun was. As the saying goes, a country is easy to change, but a person's nature is hard to change.
Tingting is such a beautiful woman, even if Shangguan Yun is not interested in her, I don't believe that Shangguan Yun can maintain his composure under her repeated temptations. Can Shangguan Yun be able to maintain control under the temptation of such a beautiful woman? What's more, he is a person who is dissolute in his private life and cannot get what a man needs from me. If I just offer it to him, will he refuse?
"Haha, maybe these can be explained, but Shangguan Yun used to be such a romantic person and slept with countless girls. If Tingting came to his door, would he be able to handle it?" I said with another wry smile.
Lili was speechless now, and even Lili had nothing to say. I wish Lili could find more excuses for Shangguan Yun to comfort me, but she couldn't find any anymore.
Suddenly Lili mysteriously took out two cigarettes and handed them to me and said, "Azina is here, do you want to smoke?"
I took it over without even thinking about it and said, "Okay, give it a try. Every time I see them in a bad mood, they smoke when they are depressed. Watching them smoke makes us feel ecstatic." Come and try it.”
"You haven't smoked before, have you?"
"Haha, yes, my brother sometimes gets scolded by me for smoking. How could I smoke something like this?" After saying that, Lili lit the cigarette in her hand and handed the lighter to me to light it for me.
I imitated Lili and took a deep breath, and immediately coughed it out, which was followed by a violent cough. After the cough was over, I imitated Lili and took a cool breath, and I carefully inhaled it.
I spit it out from my mouth immediately. Although I said it was a waste, I felt very enjoyable. Although I don't know how to smoke, there is an indescribable feeling when I inhale and exhale the smoke.
Although it doesn't have the feeling of ecstasy they say.
I finished it very quickly and I felt like I was almost going to cum.
"Lili, are there any more? Do I still want it?" I couldn't see Lili's expression clearly in the darkness, but I knew that she must have looked at me with a surprised expression at this time and said: "No, just you
You finished smoking so quickly and still want it? Who would want to smoke one as soon as you finish smoking one? There are no more, just two, tomorrow, I will ask Aji for it tomorrow." Looking at Lili's hand
When I saw the small firelight, I suddenly smiled and laughed out loud, feeling like a bit of an idiot.
"Why are you giggling?" Lili threw away the cigarette butt and said to me. After throwing away the cigarette butt, she continued: "The smell of smoke in the room is too strong, please spray it with air freshener first.
Before Lili could get out of bed, I grabbed her body in time and said, "No, let me enjoy the taste."
"ah……"
"Shangguanyun has this faint smell of tobacco." I said lightly. It turned out that I had begun to miss the smell of him. After I finished speaking, I smiled bitterly again.
"You have fallen in love with him, and you love him deeply."
Lili's words cannot be denied. I have indeed fallen in love with him, and I love him very deeply. I have begun to rely on him, and I have begun to miss his unique smell, although the smell of tobacco is found in men who smoke.
, but I think the smell on him is unique.
"Then tell him that you love him."
In fact, Lili didn't know, she didn't understand, so what would happen even if she said it. Doesn't Shangguan Yun still know my feelings for him? I didn't tell her what I was thinking, I just gave her a wry smile.
.
At this time, there was a knock on the door in the dormitory. I opened my slightly closed eyes and said to Lili: "There is still someone knocking on the door. It can't be a ghost." I said deliberately in shock.
"Don't talk nonsense." After Lili said to me, she called out to the door in a small voice, "Who is it?"
"It's me." A male voice sounded outside. The voice was very familiar. It was Aji's voice. I continued to close my eyes slightly and asked Lili to open the door. Her boyfriend is here, does she still need me to go?
Can't you open the door?
After Lili opened the door, I opened my eyes. Through the faint light outside, I saw another person coming in. That person was Shangguan Yun. My heart trembled slightly when I saw him. Didn't he say this?
Won't you come to me in a few days?
I ignored him and pretended not to notice. Lili and Aji left and went out. Shangguan Yun slowly walked to me and sat down.
I still ignored him and pretended he didn't exist.
"Why does your dormitory smell so smoky?" Shangguan Yun's deep voice sounded in my ears after a long time.
After listening to his words, I sat up with a cold smile on my face and groped for something on his body without saying anything.
"What are you looking for? I don't have anything with me. I'll buy you whatever you want." I finally found a pack of cigarettes and a lighter in his pocket and said to him calmly: "
I'm looking for cigarettes, I know you will bring them." After saying that, I took out a cigarette and put it in my mouth, lit it with a lighter, but I couldn't light it for a long time.
After looking at it, Shangguan Yun took the cigarette from my mouth and the lighter in my hand and said, "You smoke?"
Although it was in the dark, I could still clearly see his deep black eyes looking at me. I still had a cold smile on my lips without saying a word and approached him and kissed his lips. When he smiled slightly
She opened her mouth, stretched out her tongue, and slipped it into his mouth. She stayed there for maybe one second, two seconds, or maybe three seconds, and then left very quickly. He left just when he was in love.
"How about it, believe me now that I smoke." Because I smoked just now, I believe there must still be a faint smell of tobacco in my mouth, maybe a strong smell of tobacco.
"Did you kiss me just to let me know that you smoke?" Shangguan Yun said to me with a slightly trembling voice.
Listening to his words and his tone, I felt a little proud and said, "Yes, otherwise what do you think?"
This time I took the initiative to kiss him and put my tongue into his mouth. He must have been surprised that I would do this, and he didn't even think that I did it to let him know that I smoked.
After saying that, I tried to take the cigarette and lighter from his hand, but he wouldn't give it to me.
"Are you so stingy that you can't even give me a cigarette? Didn't you just say that you would buy me whatever I want?" Suddenly I felt a little angry. I hoped that everything he had on him belonged to me.
Suddenly I felt jealous, jealous of those girls who had slept with Guanyun. They had enjoyed the rights but I had not.
"Xuanxuan, stop being like this. Smoking is bad for your health. You are a girl. I heard that you haven't eaten for a day. How about I take you to dinner?" Shangguan Yun said while coaxing me, his tone seemed a little bit...
have no choice.
"I want to smoke, give me a cigarette." I said in a very calm tone, although it was calm but I couldn't question it.
Shangguan Yun looked at me strangely, picked up the cigarette and threw it out of the window, doing it in one go.
I never thought that Shangguan Yun would do such a thing.
He looked at me quietly, and his eyes seemed to tell me that it was gone now.
"Forget it." I sighed, turned around and lay down.
Slowly, he was hugged tightly by a pair of strong arms. I didn't struggle, nor did I want to struggle. I greedily enjoyed the smell and body temperature of his body. Everything was so familiar, but my state of mind was different.
"Believe me, okay? I really haven't done anything sorry for you. My feelings for you are true. I never thought about betraying you. Wife, believe me, okay?" After hearing his explanation, I
I felt some inexplicable pain in my heart, and I didn’t know what to trust him with. Was it just the abortion certificate signed by him?
I turned around and pushed him away gently and said, "Didn't you say you would come back to me in a few days? What are you doing here today?" I deliberately looked at him with confused eyes and said, with a hint of coldness at the corner of my mouth.
A cold smile.
"Honey, don't be angry, okay? Can you listen to my explanation?" Shangguan Yun continued to stick to my body and said.
Now I was a little angry. I pushed him away hard and sat up and said, "Why should I believe you? Yesterday you told me that you had something to do and you couldn't go. When I asked you what happened, I already gave you a chance to explain.
But you didn’t seize the opportunity properly. The opportunity was already given to you, but you didn’t cherish it and lied to me. How do you want me to trust you, just based on the abortion consent form you signed?” I was angry.
Yelled at him.
Shangguan Yun was yelled at by me for a long time without saying a word. His bright black eyes could be seen in the darkness.
"Yesterday, someone clearly saw you with a beautiful girl at the entrance of the hospital, but when I asked you, you denied it. You lied to me." I said bitterly.
Before I could wait for Shangguan Yun to speak, I continued: "Someone brought me a gift today. I was really shocked by such a big gift. It turns out that my boyfriend didn't have time to accompany me yesterday, and
I went to accompany another girl to have an abortion." After I finished speaking, I laughed a little at myself.
"It's not what you think. Please listen to my explanation, okay? I won't tell you because I'm afraid you will think too much. I also know that I have a bad record in the past. I am afraid that you will misunderstand me, so I will think more about something than less about it."
, As long as I have a clear conscience." Although I didn't believe Shangguan Yun's words, I saw sincerity in his eyes and his tone. I was afraid that I would be deceived by him, so I told myself not to believe him. I couldn't.
believe him.
"When two people are together, they have to be honest. I don't know if I can still believe what you said. I really believe what I saw." I didn't dare to look at his eyes. I was afraid that I would fall in. I turned around.
Staring at the wall in the dark.
Shangguan Yun gently pulled me into his arms and said, "Believe me, believe me, okay? Ah Chun made an agreement with me on Friday and asked me to take Su Tingting to the hospital for an abortion on Saturday, saying she was pregnant.
, I don’t know who the child in Su Tingting’s belly is. I don’t need to know. Anyway, I can swear that I have never had any relationship with him, let alone any ambiguous feelings. Su Tingting is Achun’s sister.
It was good for us to be together. Ever since she dealt with you last time, I have been very cold towards her, almost ignoring her. But now that Achun has spoken, can I not help? If you don't
I believe I can confront them." Shangguan Yun actually had the attitude of not doing anything bad on weekdays and not being afraid of ghosts knocking on the door in the middle of the night.
In fact, in my opinion, this confrontation is meaningless. They are good brothers, and he will definitely help Shangguan Yun. Even if he comes to confront him, whether it is true or false, he will definitely help Shangguan Yun speak.
"It's not necessary." I said lightly. After I finished speaking, I continued: "If you are no longer interested in me, you can make it clear to me, but tell me that we can break up. I just hope you
Don't hide it from me and be with other girls, I don't want my feelings to be betrayed." My tone began to soften, and it seemed helpless. I didn't want to leave him, but I couldn't let go of my pride and ask for help.
He doesn't want to leave me.
"Stop thinking about it, okay? There are no other girls outside of me. I only have you. You are really the only one in my heart." Shangguan Yun said sadly as he hugged me into his arms.
Letting tears roll down my face, I leaned quietly in his arms, greedily enjoying his warmth. I didn't know when I would lose his arms. I didn't want to come out.
I want to keep him by my side. I don’t want him to leave me. I don’t have a beautiful face. I don’t know how I can keep him and dedicate myself to him? Since I can’t go to the end with him, I can’t let him go to the end.
It’s not a good idea to dedicate your first time to someone you love as repayment. I don’t know how long my relationship with him will last.
Do I need to rely on my own body to humbly maintain my feelings?
"I want to go back, please take me out, please?" I said calmly, leaning into his arms. After I finished speaking, I breathed a sigh of relief, as if I had made a big decision.
Shangguan Yun pushed me away gently, and looked at me with his deep black eyes without speaking for a long time. He looked at me like that, as if he wanted to see through my mind.
"I, I'm hungry and want to go out to eat." In order to hide my inner thoughts, I coughed dryly and said.
After Shangguan Yun heard what I said, he came back to his senses and said to me: "Then let's leave now. Do you want to ask Lili to go out with us?"
"No need. Just the two of us." I said calmly.
Shangguan Yun stood up first and then said to me: "It's cold outside, wear more clothes."
I didn't listen to what he said and walked out by myself. When I walked outside, I didn't see Lili. I thought Lili should go to the balcony on the top floor, so I went up with Shangguan Yun. When we went up, they were alone.
Hug each other and enjoy the breeze on the top floor.
After we went up, Shangguan Yun told them that he would take me out to eat, and after saying that, he took me away.
Walking with Shangguan Yun, I remained silent the whole time. I kept silent. Shangguan Yun would say some caring and distressing words to me at first, but I ignored him. I just walked quietly by myself.
.Until I suddenly stopped outside the school and said to him: "I can't walk anymore." My tone was still calm and without any emotion.
"Then wait here for a moment and see if there is a car coming." Shangguan Yun took my hand and said to me gently. Under the moonlight, Shangguan Yun's gentle face looked a little sad.
"I don't want it, I want you to carry me." I still said coldly. Shangguan Yun was stunned for a moment, then he smiled and walked up to me, bent down and said, "If you didn't tell me earlier, come up quickly.
"
I walked behind him expressionlessly and lay on his broad shoulders. I instantly felt a warm wave of warmth flow into my heart. I stretched out my arms and hugged his neck tightly, laying my head on his neck.
on his neck, using your mouth and nose to gently rub it on his neck.
"Wife, don't, don't..." Shangguan Yun said in a hoarse voice, which seemed a bit ambiguous in the dark night.
I ignored what he said and continued to rub his neck gently with some pride in my heart.
Suddenly Shangguan Yun put me down, turned around, hugged me into his arms and said, "Honey, did you do this on purpose?" After saying that, he immediately kissed my lips.
I could clearly feel his urgent need, and I began to feel a little complacent in my heart. I don’t know why I had such thoughts. If I saw Shangguan Yun like this before, my heart would be very tight, for fear of
It's like losing your virginity.
Shangguan Yun's lips became less and less gentle, and became more and more domineering. His hands began to become erratic, stroking my waist gently and slowly rising up. His breathing became extremely rapid.
The kiss on the lips could no longer satisfy the desire in his heart. His kiss slowly fell on my neck, slowly going down my neck and into my collar.
Just then, a car drove up in front, and I saw the headlights from a distance. I pushed him away and said, "You don't want me to lose my virginity here." After saying that, the car just turned from mine.
As I passed by, Shangguan Yun's confusing eyes were still looking at me, looking at me infatuatedly and saying: "Honey, I really love you so much, please don't be angry with me anymore, okay?"
He put me in his arms and kept rubbing my neck.
"Honey, would you like to come to my house?" Shangguan Yun's confused voice sounded in my ears, and he kissed my neck and ears from time to time.
"I'm hungry. Didn't you say you would take me out to eat?" I said a little at a loss.
There seemed to be a fire burning in Shangguan Yun's eyes. His eyes seemed to be as terrifying as eating me into his stomach.
"I'm so hungry." I said calmly and touched my stomach after using it.
"Then what do you want to eat?" Shangguan Yun then said to me with a smile.
"Let's have noodles." I said with a smile, and then continued: "I'm so hungry that I can't walk, so you carry me." I raised my face and said to him, and I could clearly see his clear face.
His eyes were bright and full of smiles.
Shangguan Yun touched my head affectionately and said to me with a smile: "You can carry me on my back, but don't move around."
I smiled and nodded to him. Shangguan Yun bent down again. I lay on his broad back and hugged his neck tightly with both hands. I leaned on his back very quietly. He walked step by step.
Walk, walk regularly.
"Honey, I feed you so much every day, why are you still so thin and light? You need to eat more in the future, you know?" Shangguan Yun said as he walked, leaning on his back and feeling a little drowsy.
, said drowsily: "I'm sleepy and want to sleep."
After saying that, he closed his eyes and trained himself to sleep.
I was in a daze all the way. When I reached the street, I was woken up by the noise of cars. I opened my sleepy eyes, patted Shangguan Yun's back and said, "Put me down. I'm tired."
Although it was already autumn and was about to enter winter, he was still sweating profusely.
Shangguan Yun said breathlessly: "It's okay, I'm not tired."
Shangguan Yun said breathlessly: "It's okay, I'm not tired."
"Put me down. I see you are panting even when you talk. Let me down quickly." I started struggling on his back.
Only then did Shangguan Yun let me go. Seeing him sweating profusely, my heart felt sweet. I took out a napkin from my pocket and gently wiped the tears from his forehead. After wiping, I asked
When I pulled back and wanted to throw away the napkin, he suddenly grabbed my hand and said: "Wife..." Shangguan Yun called out affectionately. He looked at so many people around him. I immediately withdrew my hand in embarrassment.
Throw away the tissues in your heart.
Shangguan Yun always had a faint smile on his face. He held my hand and said, "We're going to eat. You must be starving." It was clear that his eyes were full of heartache. He was hungry and hadn't eaten for a whole day.
, and I didn’t feel hungry at all.
Suddenly I got greedy, so I asked him to take me to Baiyou Street to eat snacks.
At first he refused and insisted on eating. He hadn't eaten for a day and eating those foods was not good for his stomach. After my hard work, he finally succeeded.
My heart felt so sweet as I followed Shangguan Yun and was held by his big hand, which warmed my heart to the core.
After getting in the car, I leaned in his arms and closed my eyes, enjoying, enjoying, enjoying the warmth and happiness that I don't know when I will lose. I listened quietly to his heartbeat.
When we arrived at Baiyou Street, there were a lot of people coming and going. We shuttled through the sea of people, and our hearts were flying, very happy and happy...
I had a good appetite after seeing these things. I asked Shangguan Yun to buy everything for me, until I couldn’t hold it anymore. I handed it to Shangguan Yun and asked him to hold it for me. There was always happiness on his face.
Smile, although Shangguan Yun accused me of eating less, as eating too much would make me angry, he would still always have a smile on his face, and he would smile at me at first. Although he would frown occasionally, he could still see it.
When he came out, his smile was very real and genuine.
Tonight I want to put aside everything, forget everything and stay with him. I have fallen in love with him, deeply in love with him, and I am already starting to be afraid of losing him.
It was so hard that I couldn’t eat anymore. I forced Shangguan Yun to eat at first, but he refused to eat, so I pestered him to let him eat. If he didn’t eat, I pretended to be angry, with a stupid face, which made him look very embarrassed.
I ignored him for a long time, but in the end he was defeated by me. He shook his head helplessly and ate until it was quite late. We didn’t go back until around ten o’clock. Naturally, we didn’t go back to school, but to Shangguan.
The home of clouds.
Shangguan Yun’s home has my towels, toothbrushes, pajamas and everything else. His home is just like our love nest.
After returning to his house, I took a hot bath and got into bed. I was a little tired. I didn't sleep well last night. I kept crying today and didn't eat all day. I just ate something. Breakfast
exhausted.
Sleeping on his bed, my heart felt very peaceful and peaceful. There was a similar smell here, the smell left on Shangguan Yun's body. It smelled very good. Sleeping in his bed felt even better than sleeping in my own bed.
By the time Shangguan Yun came in after taking a shower, I had slowly fallen asleep. It wasn't until he hugged me that I slowly woke up.
She said drowsily: "I'm so sleepy." After saying that, she crawled into him.
Shangguan Yun first kissed me slowly on my face, and then slowly kissed me on my lips. I don't know how long it took before he left, and peacefully put me in my arms to sleep.
I feel a little disappointed. I don’t know if he is not interested in me or if he really has another woman outside. When I usually sleep with him, he will always ask for this and that, and do whatever he wants to do to me.
His body moves wildly, and every time he has to wait for me to get angry before he calms down, but this time I just lay down and let him kiss me, but he was so obedient.
"Shangguanyun..." I hid in his arms and called softly.
"Well, didn't you tell me not to call me by my first name? Why didn't you listen again?" Shangguan Yun said to me dotingly.
After listening to his words, my heart felt warm again, and I hugged his strong waist tightly with both hands without speaking.
"Why don't you talk again? What did you want to say to me just now?" I stopped, and Shangguan Yun started talking instead.
I originally said what I wanted to say, but then I swallowed it and crawled into his arms and said, "I'm cold..."
As soon as I finished speaking, Shangguan Yun hugged me tighter, but the question in my heart still lingered in my heart. I was obviously very sleepy and wanted to sleep, but I couldn't fall asleep because of the question.
"Yun, if I dedicate my first time to you, will you stay with me longer?" After a long time, I gave up my self-esteem and said it calmly. Although the tone was very light, but
It looked so bright and powerful in the darkness, instantly breaking the silence of the night.
Leaning in his arms, I could clearly feel his body trembling slightly. I usually don't want to talk about ambiguous topics when I'm with him. Even if Shangguan Yun talks about it, I will try my best to do it.
Avoidance, maybe even he doesn’t know why I would say such things tonight.
Shangguan Yun hugged my body tighter, and I could clearly feel the changes in his body. After a long time, he said: "Wife, what's wrong with you? What's wrong with you tonight? I had to smoke at school just now.
You want me to carry it again, and now...what are you thinking in your mind? If you are worried about me, please tell me. If you have any doubts, please tell me." Even myself.
I feel weird. I always carefully protect myself every time I go out with Shangguan Yun, for fear that I will lose my virginity if I can't control myself. Also, I don't like those girls smoking on weekdays, but tonight I was so eager to smoke.
"I don't know, maybe I was stimulated by the abortion certificate." I said with a wry smile on my lips.
In the darkness, I could clearly feel Shangguan Yun's slightly frowning eyebrows.
I stretched out my hands and gently smoothed it for him and said, "Don't frown, you'll get old." I said with a smile.
After I finished speaking, I let go of my hand on his brow and gently hooked his neck. I found his lips by feeling, kissed his lips, and slowly moved the kiss to his neck. He was sleeping naked.
He was sleeping, and my kiss slowly slid down his neck to his chest. When the kiss fell on his chest bit by bit, I could clearly feel his chest rising and falling violently, and his heartbeat also increased.
His beating was obviously much faster, and slowly he began to lean over and kiss me, and his breathing became extremely rapid...
When his hands stretched into my pajamas, my body trembled slightly and my heart beat rapidly. I was still not ready to give myself to him.
I grabbed his hand hard and said, "Don't..."
"It's too late now. You did it on purpose. You deliberately made me horny and now you said no. Wife, don't be afraid. Be good. It will be fine soon. Don't be afraid, okay?" Shangguan Yun turned over and pressed gently.
My body was murmuring softly in my ear. I could strongly feel the hot breath coming out of his mouth when he spoke. It sprayed on the base of my ear, making it itch and feel uncomfortable.
He began to slowly unbutton my pajamas, one button, two buttons, and three buttons. Slowly, they were all unbuttoned. When I felt a cool gust of wind blowing from the front, I pulled hard.
My pajamas said: "No, no...I, I'm not ready yet."
"Honey, be good, I really love you and I am sincere to you. I will be good to you and love you well, okay?" Shangguan Yun's expression could not be seen clearly in the darkness, but he could only feel his breathing a little.
His voice was hurried and breathless. Maybe I did something wrong just now. I shouldn't have thought or acted like that.
I was still holding on to my clothes, but he pulled my hand hard and took off my pajamas. I was anxious, nervous, panicked, and scared. Am I going to lose my virginity to him tonight? Although
I love him. Although he is my boyfriend, will I regret it? My heart is so scared. When Shangguan Yun comes close to my body again, and his fire-like body is close to my body, I
My heart felt a little cold. Tears had fallen silently. When Shangguan Yun leaned over and kissed my face, he touched my eyes. He froze, maybe because of my tears.
At this time, it felt like the air had become extremely cold and without a trace of temperature. The cold wind came straight in from the gaps, not letting go of any gaps. Gradually, I felt that my body was being attacked by the cold wind, so cold.
But the tears continued to flow.
Shangguan Yun kissed the tears on my face very gently this time and said: "Okay, don't cry anymore. I won't do anything to you. Stop crying, okay? Just put on your clothes. After saying that, I handed the clothes to you."
I went into the bathroom by myself.
After getting dressed, I pulled up the quilt and wrapped myself very tightly, but I didn't feel a trace of warmth. My body was still so cold...