It was frozen to the very core. It was a bone-piercing pain.
I don’t understand that although love is beautiful and happy, sometimes love is also very hurtful, and love can also make people feel heartbroken, the kind of pain that makes people almost suffocate.
Soon Shangguan Yun came out. He groped his way to the bed in the dark. He kept groping in the dark without turning on the light and carefully climbed onto the bed and then put me in his arms. The moment he put me in his arms,
My whole body trembled violently.
"Don't be afraid, my wife, don't be afraid." Shangguan Yun thought he had scared me just now, so he comforted me in my ear gently and hurriedly.
"Yun..." I called his name softly.
"What's wrong, wife?" Shangguan Yun's words warmed my heart, and my heart suddenly became warm.
Thinking back to the time when I met Shangguan Yun, he would stand quietly downstairs of my house when he was thinking of me, just hoping to meet me. In order to meet me, he rushed all the way to Lishui in the middle of the night.
Time and again, he would hold back the lust in his body because of my unwillingness. I would see in his eyes his sincerity for me, and he gave me the feeling that he truly loved me.
I like the feeling of being pampered and loved by him, and I like the helpless expression he puts on me.
I originally thought that I would never be in love with others again, that I would never feel it so completely and deeply. But now I find that my original thought was wrong. I fell in love with Shangguan Yun again, and I was so attracted to him.
So deep, trapped in his tenderness and depth, that I can no longer extricate myself.
Sometimes I hear someone say that she loves someone so humbly, knowing that her boyfriend does not treat her wholeheartedly, but she loves her boyfriend wholeheartedly. Sometimes, she clearly knows that her boyfriend is looking for women outside, but she can stay.
It's fine as long as your boyfriend is by your side. It doesn't matter if you are too busy. Just pretend that you haven't seen or heard anything.
I looked down on people like that at that time, but now I find that those girls are very smart and know how to keep their boyfriends by their side. Maybe I should try to imitate their open-mindedness so that I can stay with them.
By Shangguan Yun's side, it's enough that he can continue to be considerate and gentle to me. It's better than hiding in a corner and crying alone after leaving.
Many people say that men also need to be coaxed. I always thought that I looked down on those who would say: Don’t leave me, I can’t leave you anymore, just to keep my boyfriend by my side. In other words, I really
I love you very much those people who long for their boyfriends to stay by their side. I feel that they will be very useless, but I found that I was wrong. She said these things because she has the courage. They dare to love and hate very coolly. Maybe
People like me will be looked down upon by others. I obviously care about him very much and love him in my heart, but I just don't say it with my mouth.
Lili has always told me that men need to be coaxed and often say sour love words to please them, but every time I ignore them with disdain. Now I can deeply experience what they say.
those words.
I decided to be a free and unrestrained person. There is nothing special about it. I just love it when I love it. I won’t be looked down upon by others if I talk about it. There is nothing wrong with love.
Love is great, no matter what kind of love it is, whether it is humble or shy.
"Yun, please don't leave me, okay?" I buried my head deeply in his chest and whispered.
"What, what did you say?" I don't know if he really couldn't hear clearly or if he did it on purpose.
"Don't, don't leave me, okay?" So I said it again.
Raising his head, he could vaguely feel Shangguan Yun's face was full of smiles, his eyes were half-squinted, and it seemed that there was a smile on every side of his eyes.
Could it be that my words like this can make him so happy? Maybe this is the sense of presence that Lili often talks about. My words can make Shangguan Yun feel the importance of him in my heart.
I usually hide my feelings for him very well. I always thought that if Shangguan Yun knew that I cared about him very much, he would look down upon me. I always showed my disdain for him.
"Wife, why would I leave you? Don't worry. But in the future, you should often say things like this to me, okay? Although I know that you have always been shy in your heart, I am not sure that I am in your heart.
Isn't it important? Sometimes when you are angry, my heart will tighten very tightly, as if I am afraid of losing you. Maybe you have never experienced that feeling of fear. I have never experienced that feeling before. It's just the same as
When you are together, sometimes you will feel like this. I am afraid that if I am not good enough or considerate enough for you, you will leave me. I feel very insecure. You know? My girlfriends in the past were always obedient to me.
I'm afraid that I don't want them, so I've never felt that way, and it doesn't matter. If I leave, just leave. I'm not afraid of not having a woman, but it will be different after I'm with you. I'm really afraid that you will leave me at some point, or
It’s because of my past affairs that it has a bad impression on me, and you know what? I’ve never felt so comfortable in bed with a girl. Only you, only you. You make me very happy
Cherish, I will not force you to do anything. Although I really want to possess you, in fact, I have also thought that after possessing you and getting your first time, will you follow me wholeheartedly and never leave me? I
I hope I can use your first time in exchange for your persistence in me. Every time I want to be with you, I will make that request. In fact, I want you to stay by my side forever." Shangguan Yun said with a look on his face.
Speak sincerely.
Forever, I don't know how far away he means forever.
In fact, I also know clearly that I make him very insecure, because I always keep my feelings deep in my heart and hide them from him, for fear that he will make fun of me.
"I think I have fallen deeply into your feelings. I like the way you dote on me. I like you looking at me with affectionate eyes. I like eating with you every day. It makes me feel
We are very close, but I am afraid of being teased by you, afraid that you will leave me." I bit my lower lip gently and said to him.
"Fool, how could I, how could I make fun of you? Then if I tell you some sour love words every day, will you make fun of me? How will you feel in your heart?" Shangguan Yun said to me with a smile, deeply
His black eyes looked at me, looking at me very affectionately.
"Of course not. My heart will be very sweet and happy." I said a little shyly.
"Wouldn't that be great? So, if you tell me these words, my heart will feel sweet and happy. Why would you make fun of you?" Shangguan Yun said while smiling. You can feel it.
He was really happy and kept laughing.
"Yun, then tell me, did you really not have a relationship with Tingting? No matter what you say, I just want to listen to what you say, and I will believe what you say. Even if you lie to me, I will believe it.
"I said with a faint hint of sadness.
"Okay, then let me tell you, I really never had sex with her, let alone when I was with you. Even when I wasn't with you, I never had sex with her. I never had sex with her.
Any relationship, if she is not Achun's sister, maybe she will become my girlfriend, but because she is Achun's sister, and my relationship with him is so good, I will not hurt her sister, so
I always thought that no matter how she threw herself into her arms, I would always reject her, and I would reject her outright. I believe you should also know that I have had many girlfriends before without her, so I will never be with you.
I'm not that stupid to provoke her when we are together." Shangguan Yun said seriously. It could be seen from his tone that he was sincere and didn't seem to be lying.
I hugged his waist tightly, buried my head deeply in his chest again, and said, "I believe you." After saying that, I kissed him gently on the lips, closed my eyes quietly, and leaned against him.
Listening to the regular heartbeat on his chest felt peaceful and peaceful.
Shangguan Yun didn't speak. Silence is better than sound at this time. Now we don't need too many words and can just be quiet in the dark. The night is so dark and silent, but it is so bright and bright in our hearts.
warmth.
When we woke up the next day, the sweetness and happiness from last night still remained in our hearts, which was very beautiful and wonderful.
Sometimes I am afraid of the coming of day, hoping that it will always be night, lying in Shangguan Yun's arms and sleeping like this forever. Sometimes people's thoughts are always very special and weird, making people unpredictable.
Sometimes a small thought flashes through my mind, hoping to marry Shangguan Yun and have children for him in the future.
Every time I hear Shangguan Yun call me wife, I have this thought, but I never say it out loud for fear of being laughed at.
"Honey, are you okay?" I heard Shangguan Yun's voice again in the bathroom. I raised a faint smile on my lips and shouted back, "Okay, okay." Then he came out. Shangguan Yun held my hand.
My hand is gone. I once told him that I like to be held by his hand all the way. I like it very much, so he will always hold my hand. I hope that he will keep holding my hand and never let go until he is old.
Don't let go.
Love is a very delicate thing. Who knew that I would be with Shangguan Yun and fall in love with him so deeply. Being led by him like this.
After returning to school, I felt much better. I also thought a lot. In the future, I would ask questions clearly about everything so that there would be no misunderstandings.