However, those two words he said have deeply hurt my heart.
Love and hate are intertwined in my heart, it hurts so much, so entangled and entangled...
Can I really be with him again like Shangguan Yun said?
"Honey, we're here, are you feeling uncomfortable? Do you feel like vomiting?" Shangguan Yun put me on the bed and said to me gently.
When I heard these two "wives" of his, my tears immediately rolled down my face.
The word "wife" was originally very warm and heartwarming, but now it sounds so harsh...
"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Shangguan Yun saw that I was crying and looked at me nervously and asked.
Tears streaked across every inch of skin on my face, and every time they streaked over an inch of skin, my heart felt heavy pain.
Slowly, tears seeped into the corners of my mouth, so painful...
I remember Shangguan Yun said at the beginning that my tears were not salty, but bitter. It was really, really bitter.
In fact, the real suffering should be in the heart, and it is only the heart that suffers the most.
Who can understand this kind of suffering?
"Wife, tell me what you want me to do. You won't be like this before you forgive me. Wife, let's forget about the unhappy past, okay? Don't think about it anymore, no matter who is at fault,
Is right and wrong so important? Let's forget it together, okay? I won't pursue the matter between you and Ahao. As long as you worry about my face in the future, don't be with Ahao anymore, or spend less time with Ahao.
Come on, I won’t ask any more questions, okay?” Shangguan Yun looked at me expectantly and asked.
Shangguan Yun never said that he wrongly blamed me, nor did he say that he believed me, nor did he say that he had misunderstood...
Does he believe me or not?
If he still doesn't believe me, is it interesting for me to be with him again?
Could it be that he said he could forget all the unhappy things in the past?
"Shangguanyun, why did you call me cheap? Why did you drive me out? Shangguanyun, why did you doubt me? Why, why?" I yelled at him loudly and heartbreakingly.
I have never shouted out so obediently, and I have never asked questions so readily.
I have been asking myself this question over and over again in my heart. I have always been asking myself this question, and it is all secretly.
This time I shouted out so loudly that a stone seemed to fall from my heart.
"I...wife, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said those words. At that time I...I..." Shangguan Yun couldn't explain it. Yes, what else could he explain?
"Is it just to be angry? For your face?" I still yelled at him very loudly.
"I..." Shangguan Yun was at a loss for words again, but looking at his expression, she could only imagine that it must be for those two reasons.
"Shangguanyun, I can't forgive you. I really can't forgive you. I can't be with you anymore. I really can't forget everything in the past and get back together with you. There's really no way. I
Hate you, do you know how much I hate you? If not, then do you know how much I love you? How much I love you, then how much I hate you. Shangguan Yun, please stop forcing me
Okay? As soon as I see you, when I think of you, I will think of that night. It was freezing cold. I didn’t eat all day. I ran to your house full of enthusiasm and waited for most of the night. It seemed that I couldn’t even freeze.
My blood was about to freeze. Do you know how happy I was when I saw you back? But my enthusiasm was extinguished by your indifference. However, I still shamelessly put down my pride and followed you in.
I begged you, I begged you, I put down my self-esteem and begged you so humbly, but what about you? How did you treat me? Why did you treat me like that?