When studying in modern times, if you play a lot before the exam... you will often feel that you can do everything, so you are not nervous at all. If you read a book before the exam... you will feel that this is not enough and that is not enough.
In the end, I became less and less confident about the exam.
Now I seem to have that feeling again... If I had fought in the past, I would have fought as soon as I came up without preparation... I fought in a decent manner. Now that I have time to prepare, I always feel that it is not enough and not good enough.
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For example, while I was practicing, I was thinking... Our army once destroyed the road when it withdrew from Vietnam. What if the Vietnamese didn't repair it? What if the tanks got stuck on the road and couldn't pass? What if the Vietnamese army didn't reinforce Luping?
manage?
This made me mentally push back the attack time. It was not until I had trained for more than a month and all the infantry regiments and artillery regiments were fully prepared that I finally made the decision: the start of the war will be three days later!
The reason why it was set three days later is because the troops participating in the war, especially our battalion... many people are not sure that this is going to be a war, and the three days are to prepare them mentally.
In fact, as the training intensity became more and more intense, the soldiers also felt the smell of gunpowder. It was just that they were too tired to think about it because they were busy training all day long... As soon as they heard that they had entered the first level of combat readiness, all units began to
Shaving my head and writing a suicide note...that's another feeling!
As usual, the soldiers wrote suicide notes... Of course, these suicide notes were not sent out. Each person wrote one and would only send it out once they died.
Perhaps the military commander considered that the mission our battalion performed was particularly dangerous, so he sent us two tape recorders and a large box of tapes. He said it was... to leave some voice for the soldiers. If it is an honor, then
Send your voice to your family!
This made the soldiers feel even heavier.
The scholar secretly asked me: "The battalion commander... leaves a voice for his family. Is this good or bad? This man is honored. I can still hear the voice at home... Then I will burst into tears!"
"Don't care what your family thinks!" I said, "You can stay as long as you want..."
"Yes!" the scholar responded, and then the correspondent Xiao Liu took over the operation. The soldiers spoke to the recorder in the order of number and list.
"Mom and Dad..." The first person to speak was the scholar, the commander of the first company: "We are going to fight, and my superiors asked me to leave a few words... It's no big deal. I am the company commander. I have to take the lead in the battle and set an example for the soldiers... That's it.
, I can’t fulfill my filial piety to my two elders!”
It can be seen that the scholar tried his best to talk to his parents in a relaxed tone, as if he did not want to make the elderly at home sad... but sometimes the more this happens, the more it can make people cry.
Perhaps influenced by the scholars, the messages from the soldiers became simple and relaxed, and some even made arrangements for funerals: "It is said...the army will give you a pension of 500 yuan if you are honored, and the family will owe you."
After the money is paid, there are still four hundred, two hundred for my parents. I always make trouble for the family, and now I can finally get some help. The eldest brother is one hundred, and the boss is not young anymore. It’s time to marry a wife. The younger sister is one hundred,
Use this money to go to school. You must learn more about culture..."
I don’t know why, but the person speaking often doesn’t feel anything, but the people listening next to me can’t stand it anymore, and everyone is secretly wiping their tears.
Because I couldn't stand this kind of atmosphere, I told Xiao Liu and walked out of the tent.
"What's wrong?" Zhang Fan followed from behind: "Don't you want to say a few words?"
I laughed dumbly and said: "What is there to say? Besides... there is nothing to say even if I want to say it!"
I'm telling the truth. Even if I recorded the audio, I wouldn't know where to send it.
"How about..." Zhang Fan hesitated for a moment, then lowered his head and said with a red face: "Wait a minute... let's talk to my parents together!"
I couldn't help but be stunned, and then I quickly understood what Zhang Fan meant. I couldn't help laughing and said: "Silly girl... you don't have to stay! Didn't you see that your name is not on the list?"
"Why?" Zhang Fan raised his head in shock.
"No reason!" I said: "The intervening troops are all combat troops. Even the staff department only has a few members. Most of them stay within our defense line to command. Of course, the clerks must stay within the defense line to assist!"
"You...what about you?"
"Of course I'm going!" I said, "If I, the battalion commander, don't go, then who will command the battle?"
"Then I'm going too!"
"Don't be ridiculous!" I said with a serious tone, "Obey the orders! If everyone disobeys orders like you, how can I give orders?"
Zhang Fan lowered his head and gritted his teeth and said nothing. After a long time, he leaned gently into my arms, hugged me tightly, said "I must come back," and then burst into tears.
I let out a long sigh... I know what Zhang Fan is thinking. She has always wanted to go to the battlefield with me... This does not mean that she wants to die with me or something, no one would want to die...
Her idea is actually very simple. She doesn't want to be frightened by me going to the battlefield. Compared with the hail of bullets on the battlefield, she is more afraid that I will never come back.
Therefore, she had to stay by my side and look after me to feel at ease, even though she knew that doing so would only drag me down.
This may be the inner conflict of women. They think about problems more from an emotional perspective rather than rational thinking.
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The troops soon entered the final stage of preparation. First, one unit after another received "ready" reports... In fact, the overall commander of this battle was the 73rd Army Headquarters. Once these units were ready, they would not
Reports need to be reported to me, but the commander believes that our unit is the core of this entire battle, so he thinks it is necessary to know the preparation status of each unit, so he asked the staff to transfer these reports to my radio station.
But to be honest, Commander Huang's approach really had some effect... I was still a little nervous at first, but when I heard "Ready" coming from the radio again and again, I made up my mind.
Come down.
Then our mechanized infantry battalion rushed to Aidian in the night... The personnel who stayed at the base before leaving naturally came to see her off, and Zhang Fan was of course among them... But I didn't dare to look at her eyes, because I
I'm worried that if I look at her a few more times, I can't help but take her with me.
On the one hand... it seems that Zhang Fan is really not suitable to stay in the army, or in my army, because with her... I will have much more worries in my heart.
At this time, I felt a little strange in my heart. They were the same two women I loved...Why wouldn't Chen Yiyi make me feel this way? On the contrary, I would feel a sense of security when Chen Yiyi was around.
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After thinking about it, I felt that this should be the difference in personality and ability between the two people.
Chen Yiyi is a warrior on the battlefield. We can fight enemies together and face difficulties together. She is even better at fighting than many of my male soldiers. Zhang Fan is the one who is protected and has countless concerns.
, especially the way she looks at me, if I look at it for a few more times, I will have the urge to go to the battlefield and take her as far as I can...
This made me dare not even look back, and I breathed a sigh of relief only when the jeep turned a corner and drove to the entrance of the base.
"Captain Yang!" Staff Officer Liu was waiting for me at the door. When the guard opened the door, he came up to me, shook hands with me, and said, "I'm sorry!"
Hearing this, I couldn't help but be startled: "Consultant Liu... what does this mean?"
"I misunderstood you!" Staff Liu said with some embarrassment: "When you first came here... I thought..."
"Oh!" I couldn't help but suddenly realized after hearing this: "You think we are a related force that goes to the battlefield to hang out, right?"
Looking at the slightly embarrassed expression on Staff Liu's face, I couldn't help but laugh: "What does this mean... Speaking of which, we have to thank Staff Liu for helping our troops take care of everything for such a long time!
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"It should, it should!" Staff Liu replied hurriedly.
"Welcome to come again next time!" said Staff Officer Liu, and led the base guards to salute me and the soldiers.
The soldiers and I also returned the gift... This is the way soldiers say goodbye. It is simple and clear, and it also carries a bit of the heroic spirit of a warrior who has never returned... I don't know when, I have come to like this way of saying goodbye more.
The convoy soon got on the highway in the dark and headed towards Aidian.
This was the night before the war started.
The reason why I chose to drive into Aidian at this time is to keep it secret... We can observe Lang Son with high-power telescopes on the 1300 highland during the day, and the Vietnamese Japanese will definitely observe us on their high ground. So,
We don't want the Vietnamese army to know that a mechanized force is heading to Aidian. Although this will not expose the entire plan, in short, the less the Vietnamese army knows, the better.
Another reason is to have a final practice of the troops turning off the lights and advancing at full speed on the highway... The training base is 19 kilometers away from Aidian, which is not much different from the 23 kilometers that will be interspersed in tomorrow's actual combat, and because there are still many kilometers along the way.
There are many craters, so the road conditions are similar, making it perfect for the final push exercise.
Then I quickly felt relieved. Scar's second company was at the front, reconnaissance, occupation, and reporting in an orderly manner...the first company skillfully protected and guided the tanks and cars forward...everything was in order,
All this tells me that the hard training of the soldiers these days has not been in vain.
Of course, I also know that this is still an exercise, and there is still a gap between exercises and actual combat.
So... we have to wait until tomorrow to know whether the hard work will be in vain. (To be continued...)