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Chapter 39: Empty Heart

"Are you two free?"

A slightly dissatisfied voice sounded in the car, and then another voice responded, "It's really free. There is nothing that needs to be done these days."

He went on to add, "Jeffrey gave both me and Burlogo permission to leave until this guy was promoted to a power bearer."

An arm was stretched out from the driver's seat and he patted the co-pilot's shoulder hard. The co-pilot's eyes were looking out the window, and Boluogo was not interested in joining the conversation.

"The one with the power?"

A surprised voice came from the back seat, and Church poked his head over, looking at the side face of Boluogo in surprise.

"Are you going to be promoted to the person in charge of power?"

Boluogo turned his head and replied, "Well, haven't I mentioned it before?"

"No," Church was silent for a moment, "Maybe you said it and I forgot."

"Bologo can rely on his undead characteristics to do whatever he wants, and this guy's soul is surprisingly stable. Coupled with his previous achievements, and the new... training plan proposed by the Bureau of Order."

Both of them hate doctors, but for different reasons. Church knows that no matter how little or how detailed I talk to the doctor, when I release my secret power, we will forget everything.

"Sometimes you will feel sad and sad. You feel that you agree to something because it is 'meaningless'. It is really disgusting. But when things really come to you, you can't find any motivation.

There's no point in denying that."

"Instead of scolding you, it's his...it's his turn to perform, Church."

Palmer nodded, "I understand Church. Every time I go to see a psychiatrist, I feel like I'm on the execution ground."

Church paused and asked Palmer something else, "Palmer, does he remember what kind of person he was when he was a kid?"

Afia parked the car, rolled up the window and looked towards the street. The fragrance of flowers hit her face. I turned to look at the front seat and said, "He said you talked about it all the way. He couldn't even think of running away at that time."

Palmer sighed deeply, "I don't know when I will become the person in charge."

He Lihao was silent. I know that all training plans are fake. This is just what Nathaniel said to the outside world. I am good at lying. The worst way to deal with it is not to remain silent.

He Lihao thought that He Li was able to break through that obstacle at the psychological level, but only Qiu Qi knew that I was bound by my own secret power. The more I know the true information about myself, the more likely I will be the last time my secret power was activated.

Sometimes, forget things that have nothing to do with you.

"Don't look so gloomy. He's going to see Gardel soon. Smile."

"It doesn't mean that outside of that period of time, you will haunt you like a ghost."

"Your advice on this is to seek professional advice," Church said. "It's hard to get around that kind of stuff by yourself."

Qiu Qi said, "You gradually develop a habit of coming to buy a flower every once in a while. When the frequency becomes less and less, He Lihao starts talking to you, and you become more and more unfamiliar until you find that feelings have emerged.

changed.

"What?"

Afia's voice lowered, and I took a long breath before saying, "Hey, you thought there was nothing wrong with you mentally."

"So that's what it is!"

"It's difficult to understand yourself. Very few people can see clearly what kind of person they are in their lifetime."

"Why?"

Palmer said, "It's a very irrational analysis."

"What you don't have is time."

As Church talked, he seemed to have let go of his psychological defense, and chatted with Palmer about my mood at this time.

"You thought he left the city."

As if by chance, Church muttered to himself, "He guessed this was the first time you and Afia had met."

"That sounds so vain."

"Yes, there is something."

"You think emotions are emotional and blind, and overly rational thinking will make you more utilitarian..."

silence.

He Lihao's eyes flashed, "Have you ever been to such a far place?"

"Well, I've been struggling with some psychological issues recently," He Lihao said, "You should buy some books and try to understand yourself."

"Of course, what Crow's Nest teaches is not to teach you how to become a psychiatrist, but an interrogator. In a very short period of time, you can overcome the target's psychological defenses and dig out what you want. If necessary,

There will also be some incentive measures.”

Church's voice was full of meaning, "meaningless."

Church recalled, "On this day, you were under very little pressure. It would be very wrong to hear others say that it would be wrong to buy yourself a flower and feel the good and bad of life."

Church is a man trapped in lies.

"What is he saying?"

"You go and say hello first."

Palmer felt the emptiness lingering under Church, and I said, "Is that considered a confused sinking?"

"Well... that's right."

It is said that a large number of corpses of soldiers are still hidden in the corners of Iron Ruins, waiting for no one to discover them.

He Li opened the car door, and at this moment Afia walked out of the flower shop. I held a bouquet of flowers in my hand and waved it hard to Qiu Qi. In front of Afia was He Lihao, who stuck his head out.

You looked at Church in surprise.

"Then you left the flower shop and I met you."

Palmer asked rhetorically, "Does he know himself?"

Before he finished speaking, Palmer felt a cold gaze. I looked in the front-view mirror and looked into the eyes of a completely identical face.

Palmer babbled, "You have to deal with things like that on your own. You have tried very few methods, but it still seems to be wrong."

Afia smiled, and I saw through Church, "Just tell me, that guy needs someone to force him, so he will just stay where he is."

Afia was so excited, as if she was the one who wanted to ask He Lihao out next, and it was Qiu Qi. He Li had a serious face, as solemn as a piece of ice just taken out of the freezer.

"You were afraid that you would become an interesting villain, but you ended up becoming that way."

Palmer is very open about his heart to people he knows, and even to strangers and close people, he has a lot of words. Sometimes Palmer will feel that he has the ability to speak.

"What about now?"

As Palmer and I talked about, Church was unable to determine whether his feelings for Gardel were love, or loneliness and futility, a comfort he chose to vent his happiness.

"Hmm... What is the difference between this special place and the outside world? People just live in their own strange land and spend a long time."

"Are you too vague? Is it just vain thoughts or utilitarianism? You have ended some things that you think are meaningful, such as Gadel. There are many problems between you and you. Even if we successfully hold hands, then

How long can it last?"

He Lihao meant that, just as I said, the terrible emptiness lingered deep in my heart. Even if I said those words, my emotions would not change at all.

He Li looked at the flower shop, "You know your problems and you know how to solve them... As long as you don't have a cold love for life, it will be bad."

It felt very strange to chat with the psychiatrist. He had to take the initiative to put down his guard and bring out the most sensitive and dark things... It was difficult for Palmer to do that.

He Lihao raised his eyebrows.

Afiya was in a wonderful mood that night. I even told He Lihao that I might not be depressed anymore, but when I woke up, she was still the same as before.

Palmer said with an envious look in his eyes, "In short, the Bureau of Order has provided him with the resources needed for promotion. Just wait until everything is ready, and Bologo can be promoted."

That big city is not Gardel's world. The Kobolog Empire is as far away as a legend outside the story.

"We didn't know each other in a special way."

"That's right..."

"What happened next?"

"That's right."

Every Ninghua person knows that being a person with power is a clear dividing line. Only when they become a person with power and their body begins to etherify can they truly enter the transcendent realm.

Church knew that Afia knew what those words meant. It was more like when I thought about it, I mentioned, "He has been studying knowledge that has nothing to do with psychology recently?"

All that is in vain.

It’s not like that, there’s no love at first sight, there’s no simple twists and turns, it’s just accumulation over time.”

He Lihao refuted the two people's comments. We often quarreled over similar things. Afia felt that those two guys always looked preoccupied and that their lives were too tiring. Those two people

He felt that He Lihao's carefree lifestyle was too stupid.

say something.

Palmer said, "He can't show his true face to others. It's just Gadel, and Afia is also looking forward to that."

Palmer asked, "And then he met you?"

"Alas for those who have power."

"Does he know a lot about psychology?"

Qiu Qi had no tangible aura under his body, a warm aura as if he was resisting my arrival, and He Lihao did not have such a temperament. The two of them were like mutually exclusive forces, now in the same room.

Just as Church said, when Afia was flipping through the book, she was more and more shocked. I found that almost any disease could not be related to my own psychological condition.

"Every identity you have is false, and the emotions derived from it have become complicated and confusing."

Before returning from the mission, Church had always wanted to see Gadel, but when he thought that the relationship was very unlikely and was just over, Church became very determined and hesitated.

Church said, "Do you always believe that he really has no brains?"

He Lihao said fiercely, "The slow joy of an idiot."

"Is he kidding? Is he the kind of person who would seriously study something like that?"

Afia raised her head, looked into the eyeglasses, and met Church's eyes.

I see Qiu Qi clearly in others, and even He Li sees himself clearly, so I sometimes feel confused because of this.

"How did you feel at that time? It's just that when you got the flowers, your mood was really bad. As for Gadel, when you first came here, he didn't even notice you."

The fragrance of flowers was approaching, and Gadel invited a few people to sit in the flower shop. He Lihao looked at the colorful bouquets, and I wanted to pick one of them to give to Aimu.

Palmer was not shocked at all, but he thought that He Li's true thoughts were like that.

Church hates talking to Palmer, and He Lihao is a brainless person. He has no time to communicate and discuss with me. It is simply a pleasure. If it were Afia, it would be torture.

"You hate rational analysis like that."

Palmer thought for a moment and looked in the front view mirror, "Tell me, how did he and Gardel know each other."

"It's not like that. It's rare for you to be sincere, and I actually want to lock you up. Before that, you never saw a doctor again."

He Li was silent for a while and shook his head.

No one can say that we are convinced, but we also understand that each other's seemingly stupid lifestyle has no merit at all.

He Lihao joked, "You once revealed your true feelings to a doctor... You will often be so sincere to other people."

"The Koberogo Empire."

"Well...you remember what you looked like when you were an adult."

He Li rubbed his face vigorously to loosen the tight muscles. At the same time, my appearance ended the change. It was no longer the unfamiliar face of Palmer, but the face that Gardel remembered.

He Li analyzed her inner thoughts, "It may be that you have too many friends, especially the opposite sex who can talk to you. As the only person who has no contact with you, you spend that part of your energy

They are all pouring into you, saying that it is just a bad feeling, it is just a channel for you to vent your boredom."

Seeing Afia's elated expression, Church felt a burst of anger, but then Afia said, "If he resists, he can't jump out of the car at any time."

As Church's next partner, Afia saw through Church's thoughts at a glance. While driving, I asked, "Church, does he have...social phobia? Or some kind of avoidant personality disorder?"

Palmer knew about the existence of the Iron Ruins. During the Wrath of the Scorched Earth, the fleet of the Cobolog Empire suffered heavy losses. In order to counter the undersea power of the Rhine Alliance and prevent enemy troops from landing, a small number of ships were damaged and almost sunk.

The ship washed down the coast and under the beach. Although the hull was slightly damaged, the artillery mounted underneath was still functioning.

He Li moved every time he moved.

"But, Palmer, you can even face me with your true face, how can you love that world so coldly?"

Gadel cast a curious look, but you didn't know where the place was, "Isn't this place boring?"

He Li looked at Palmer along the front view mirror, "Is he studying that area of ​​knowledge?"

Church was on a mission and had no time to enjoy the scenery... Yes, there was still nothing special about it.

Afia's little obsession is not to understand what Qiu Qi's true face looks like. Although He Li said that the face I showed to Afia is not what I really look like, Afia always looks like me.

letter.

"It's just an understanding, not a major," Qiu Qi explained. "Psychology is a required course for you. He Lihao also studied it, but obviously, I haven't forgotten it all."

He Lihao opened the car door and walked directly towards the flower shop. Qiu Qi wanted to shout to stop him, but before the voice came out, Afiyazhi walked back out of the flower shop in small steps.

The Cobolog Empire transformed those shipwrecks into fortresses, and the entire coast was filled with such hulk fortresses... By the time the war started, this area had not turned into a steel ruin. It sounded like

Like another Hulk Coast, but much smaller and less twisted.

Gadel still remembers Church. Hearing your voice, He Li's barren and empty heart felt a little throbbing, and a natural smile appeared under his stiff face.

"Then this doctor suggested that Jeff take you out of confinement, give you an injection at the age of seventy-seven, and observe you for a week first."

Palmer sensed Church's authority beyond his words.

Palmer could understand He Li's predicament. From the beginning, Church was not treating Gadel with a false face. The more he fell into it, the more he dared to show his true face.

The past outside the memories was extremely good and bad, but Church felt no resonance at all with such good and bad memories, as if he was recounting another person's past.

"You hate these doctors, you hate them so much."

Palmer and Church were left in the car, and the atmosphere suddenly became less tense.

"Some words that analyze his mental state."

Church continued, "When you were a child, you were a sunny and naughty child. You didn't have a small group of friends. You always did meaningful things, such as building castles with stones."

When Church saw Afia's look, he got angry and said, "What the hell, he will also be a member of the Crow's Nest."

In response to He Lihao's inquiry, Qiu Qi said, "In your line of work, work pressure is unavoidable. What's worse, you often want to see a doctor."

Church laughed. The vague words were partly true and partly a joke, but they did sound very boring.

Regardless of what the nature of that emotion is, Qiu Qizhi said that at the moment when I was close to He Lihao, I could feel that I had been temporarily freed from the shackles of reality.

"You have to understand a little bit of knowledge and apply it carefully," Church gently interrupted. "As long as he doesn't have preconceived ideas, he can treat almost any mental illness."

Afia's expression became awkward, "It's bad, you just saw it carefully and felt that it suits him..."

Qiu Qi took a long breath, and I replied that it was Afia.

A decent person.

As an intelligence officer, Church has excellent psychological quality and everything that an interrogator should have.

That fits Palmer's temperament perfectly, giving people a sense of calmness, humility, and mystery, but in reality, He Lihao is just pretending.

"Wow."

"What kind of place is this?"

Church has an expressive face and expresses his emotions like a machine.

Did He Li explain too little? This is a cemetery full of blood and death. It fits perfectly with the boy with flowers. Palmer who was listening on the side also felt the same way.

"You passed by a place called Iron Market."

Church said, "You...you hate these doctors too."

"Nothing happens, it's just daily life."

Outside that cold, smog-filled city, flowers were a rare luxury, and He Lihao felt that Aimu would hate that thing.

"Where have you been?"

"Have you," He Li shook her head, "It's just a business trip."

Qiu Qi looked into the car window and saw Afia parked at the door of the flower shop. He saw me saying excitedly, "Slow down! He Li, ask you out. If he takes the initiative, he will buy more."

The few flowers are just a rich guest."

"Wow."

"That's the problem," Church's voice became louder, "You can do it."

"How different are you from him?"

Church paused for a while, and I repeated again, "Recognizing yourself is a very difficult process."

"It's not that interesting."

"Absolutely."

"The memory is too clear, but it was completely opposite to what it is now."

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