016: Don’t believe it either. 016: Don’t believe it either.
Si Lan returned home like a wanderer. In the past, when he returned to Tao's house after work in the evening, he would see bright and warm lights, and he would see Xu Ningmo either in the kitchen or in the living room reading a newspaper. But now the sun is high outside the window, and the light is bright.
An inexplicable desolation and gloom poured in through the glass.
I took off my shoes and stepped barefoot on the cold floor. I slowly sat on the sofa and curled up. My stomach hurt more and more. The sweat on my forehead flowed into my clothes along the outline. I looked at the deserted house and my heart sank again and again.
Shen.
He never came back.
Apart from here, apart from the company, apart from the phone, Silan really doesn't know where else to find him.
He leaned against the sofa and slowly closed his eyes. He didn't rest last night, nor today. At this moment, he was in pain from stomach cramps, and under the double blow of his body and mind, all his strength began to slowly disintegrate, and he was even about to collapse.
She didn't know how long she had slept. Feeling the dazzling light, Si Lan suddenly opened her eyes and sat up. She saw Xu Ningmo standing at the door. Joy filled her dark eyes and she stood up instantly: "Ning Mo, come back.
Already."
Xu Ningmo's expression was indifferent, and he nodded briefly. Just as Si Lan opened his mouth to explain to him, Xu Ningmo turned directly to his room and walked towards his room. His lowered eyes did not notice Si Lan's slightly opened lips.
, and the sound that disappeared between the lips and teeth.
Si Lan stood there in shock, the chill seeping into his blood from the soles of his feet and rolling back and forth in his body.
Doesn't he have anything to ask? Even if he asks angrily or scolds himself angrily, it would be better than the calm and calm look he is doing now. Does he really not care? Or has he never cared about himself?
The joy in Si Lan's eyes disappeared little by little, and it felt strange. He was obviously not angry, but just because he was not angry, he felt even more uncomfortable.
Xu Ningmo walked out of the room, changed into a set of clothes, and still held documents in his hand. He did not look at Si Lan with his lowered eyes, and said as calmly as possible: "I have to go to the company to deal with some urgent matters in the evening. You can call me for dinner."
Get takeout or find... find someone to eat out with you. Go to bed early."
"...Ning Mo." Si Lan put his hands on both sides of his body, and his eyes followed his footsteps. His voice came out of his throat with difficulty, and was slightly sour.
Xu Ningmo stood at the door holding the cold doorknob, silently hearing her voice coming slowly from behind, "Don't you have anything to ask me?"
He didn't look back, but his spine froze obviously. Slan looked at him expectantly, he should ask, he could ask, he had to ask, how could he pretend to not care about anything.
Could it be that I have just been feeling sentimental these days? Did I misunderstand what Ning Mo meant? Is it because he is so kind to me, tolerant in everything, and caring and considerate because he sympathizes with me?
After a while, he finally spoke, his voice calm as if nothing had happened. "No." After the voice fell, he opened the door, walked up, and closed the door. The door closed with a "bang" sound, as if something hit him hard.
Lan's heart felt very uncomfortable.
The moonlight outside the window was hazy, and the glazed light in the house was faintly exuding gloom. Si Lan stared at the closed door tightly, and his heart ached for a while. His nails dug into his palms, and the pain slowly spread. His watery eyes stared at the moment he closed the door.
Completely extinguished; as if all the lights in the world were extinguished, and the surroundings were cold and dark.
In the silent room, you can even hear your own heartbeat and breathing, which are thin and weak.
Xu Ningmo stood at the door without moving for a long time, holding the document tightly with his fingers, and his veins were looming. His anger became stronger and stronger, and his heart felt like it had been cut into pieces, dripping with blood.
If this is your choice, what else do I have the right to ask?
If Lan Ruixiu forces you, I can still fight for it and be qualified to stand by your side; but - if you choose him on your own initiative, what else can I say or ask?
Xu Ningmo, it's not that you're not good enough, it's that I'm not good enough for her to choose me, not enough for her to like the current Xu Ningmo.
You have obviously worked very hard to be the Xu Ningmo she loves, but why did you and I still lose her?
In the past, it was guilt, love, and wanting to make amends; but during this time together, he knew very clearly that he fell in love with her all over again.
I love the way she blushes every time, I love her soft voice when she talks, I love the cute way she laughs and pokes her dimples when she's drunk; I love the way she likes to be around me like a child. I don't know why my heart feels so moved.
She is so violent
She will not want to leave her even for a minute. She even thinks too much that she can only do this in front of him. He will be angry when he sees her saying good night to Lan Ruixiu. He will be angry when he sees Lan Ruixiu always hanging around her. See
Helianze will get angry if he uses her cup.
But these emotions are something you shouldn’t have and can’t have, right?
Sometimes he even does some childish things that he can't even understand.
Or is he really too involved in the drama and thinks he can really replace Xu Ningmo?! Can he really be as strong as Xu Ningmo and not let her refuse her love?!
The mood is very confusing. I wake up under the deserted moonlight from my dream at midnight, and I suddenly feel strange, and I don’t even know who I am.
Who am I?
If you love Xu Ningmo, I am Xu Ningmo, but if you don't love him, then who am I? Who can I be?
This has long been an all-or-nothing love, and I have no way out.
You can't go back to the past, and you can't go into the future.
****
Si Lan slowly squatted on the ground, his legs had no strength at all. His stomach seemed to hurt again, but his heart hurt even more, and he was almost numb from the pain. It was as if a knife had dug out his heart, cutting off all the meridians and
The blood vessels cut off everything, leaving only holes and blood.
Silan adjusted his breathing, but no, it was still painful and uncomfortable. The severe pain made his back spine wet with cold sweat. The scene in front of him gradually blurred. He looked up and looked at the halo of the glazed light, which seemed to be getting farther and farther away.
.The curled eyelashes trembled violently and finally slowly fell down. When I closed my eyes, I fell towards the coffee table, and my head hit the coffee table with a "bang"...
Completely unconscious.
****
Hospital, high-end ward.
When Si Lan opened his eyes, he saw Lin Jiu's worried gaze. Thinking about it, his whole body was exhausted and his head hurt, as if he had been beaten.
Lin Jiu quickly held her down, "Don't move around, lie down. I'm almost scared to death by you."
Pressing his finger on his head, Si Lan stared at Lin Jiu and said, "Why are you back?" I remember that I passed out at home.
"I went to look for you as soon as I got off the plane, but when I opened the door, I saw you lying on the ground. I thought something had happened to you, but it turned out that you were just malnourished and didn't get enough rest." Lin Jiu took her to the hospital and was surprised when she heard what the doctor said.
Now, how can she still be like this when Ann is taking care of her?
When Lin Jiu got off the plane, he didn't go to Ling Jiuyue but came to find himself. Silan felt warm in his heart and a faint smile appeared on his lips: "I'm fine."
"The doctor said that you haven't eaten for a long time and you can only eat liquid food when you wake up. I'll notify Ann and he will come to buy you something to eat in a while."
Si Lan's heart sank and her eyes drooped. She informed Ning Mo. Will Ning Mo feel that she did it on purpose again and make him sympathize with her?
Yang Shenli was like this. Seeing that she was distracted, Lin Jiu didn't want to scold her but couldn't help but said: "It's not like you don't know that your stomach was damaged during those days in England. The doctor told you not to stop eating! Even if the doctor didn't
He said, if you study medicine yourself, you should also know that your stomach cannot be hungry...".
"I know." Si Lan glanced at her calmly, "I didn't mean it." I just forgot.
"You didn't tell Ling Jiuyue that you were back?" Ling Jiuyue knew that she would be angry.
Lin Jiu looked indifferent, "What do you have to tell me? After telling me, he got up specially to wash up and change clothes and go to pick me up at the airport. How troublesome. Why not let him have a good rest and I will go directly to him for lunch tomorrow."
Such a considerate and sensible girlfriend, but I'm afraid Ling Jiuyue won't think so. Men sometimes want to be relied on by their women. Silan smiled bitterly thinking about it for some reason, and heard Lin Jiu said: "You
What will happen to Ann?"
"Xiaojiu." Si Lan bit his lip and said hesitantly: "Does Ning Mo just have sympathy for me?"
"Why do you ask?"
"I have been married and had an abortion, and my heart now is not my own. I don't know who I am or who my parents are. What I have today is because of Ning Mo. He has always been very good to me; and I
Are you too greedy and want too much?"
There is no reason for Ning Mo to redeem himself incompletely, and there is no reason for Ning Mo to accept such a incomplete self.
It was because he was too dependent on Ning Mo's existence, and he sympathized with her so he couldn't bear to refuse.
"Did Ann say something? Or did someone else say something?" Lin Jiu asked calmly.
Si Lan shook his head invisibly. Ning Mo didn't say it, and neither did anyone else, but he couldn't help but think this way. In the past, Ning Mo had an attitude of being both close and distant, but now his Yun Danfengqing didn't even ask.
Asking, doesn’t it mean that he has always been sympathetic to me.
"Don't believe it." Lin Jiu calmly uttered three words. Silan was stunned for a moment, and heard her cold voice again: "Don't believe anything that Ann didn't say."
Si Lan couldn't understand the meaning of her words for a moment. Lin Jiu looked at her with calm eyes, and seemed to have no intention of explaining. Someone happened to knock on the door at this moment, Lin Jiu answered, and Xu Ningmo opened the door and his eyes fell immediately.
On Si Lan’s pale and thin face.
His heart was pulled hard, and his deep eyes concealed distress and guilt.
Lin Jiu stood up and yawned: "I'm so tired from flying, so I'm going back first. I'll leave her to you to take care of her."
Xu Ningmo nodded, and Lin Jiu walked out to leave the space for the two of them. Although she didn't know what happened between them, Lin Jiu believed that Si Lan must have misunderstood. How could Ann be sympathetic to her.
Who would be stupid enough to silently become a shadow out of sympathy for someone.