074: Ending: I love you, it's better to stop here 1
074: Ending: I love you, it’s best to only come here (1) 074: Ending: I love you, it’s best to come here (1)
Si Lan was still holding the dishes and did not turn around. For a moment, he didn't know what to say. Lan Sichen's broad hand was filled with warmth, and he could even feel the faint beating of the arteries...
…
She stood there stupidly, not wanting to let go of his hand, still longing for his warmth in her heart.
In a daze, a broad embrace embraced her from behind, and his arms gradually tightened... He took the plate from Si Lan's hand and put it on the table, held her hand with his backhand, and caressed her carefully.
With.
His chin rested against her ear, the hot breath he exhaled hit her ears, and the familiar breath lingered around her.
Neither Si Lan nor Lan Sichen wanted to speak first and break the tranquility at this moment. They would rather time stay for a moment longer.
It wasn't until a long time ago that he slowly said: "I'm sorry... I never pay attention to any festivals, so I gradually forgot about it. I didn't know that today is the Lantern Festival. I didn't know that you would... specially prepare so many things...
…sorry!"
Lan Sichen apologized repeatedly in Silan's ear, but held her arm without any intention of letting go.
"Dang...dang..." The ancient clock on the wall suddenly rang. It was already past midnight, which also meant that the Lantern Festival had long passed.
"Happy Lantern Festival!" Silan turned her head and said calmly to him.
"Happy Lantern Festival!...I am very happy to have you by my side." Lan Sichen slowly let go of Si Lan and looked down at her, his eyes unusually deep. In the infinite sky, it seemed that he could
Silan was wrapped in it and even drowned in it.
Silan held his hand, walked to the bedroom, and said lightly: "I want to tell you something..."
The bass tuba is a kind of wind instrument, the brass instrument with the lowest range in the orchestra. It was invented by the German Wei Plessit in 1835.
Because the sound is low and dull, it is also called the "voice of despair."
When the sound sounded, it was slow and melodious, with no ups and downs, no ups and downs, only a low hum, only a desperate cry.
... This contains Si Lan's conflicting struggle, as well as the love that cannot be expressed in ordinary days. This love cannot be mentioned on the lips, but can only sink silently in the heart.
Sometimes, even thinking about it seems like a luxury.
At the end of the song, the lingering sound lingers for a long time...
Lan Sichen nodded and said without surprise: "I can understand the music you play. It's just... I can give you all the best things in the world, but I can pamper you without any restrictions..." He paused.
, "But I love you, it's best to stay here."
His voice was trembling, and his whole body seemed to be trembling. In an instant, it was as if a dark cloud was coming, and he was caught off guard. A thunderbolt seemed to explode in front of him, leaving no room for reflection.
Silan looked straight at him, opened his mouth slightly, but couldn't say anything, and didn't know what to say. Should he beg him to stop talking, or beg him to believe in himself; or beg himself... not to
Love him again?
"Lan Sichen... do you know what you are talking about..."
Before Si Lan could continue, he immediately interrupted her: "...I know, I know!"
For a moment, Si Lan stood there blankly, looking at him.
Lan Sichen picked up a pack of cigarettes from the table next to him, took out one, and pressed the lighter with a "pop" sound. The sparks gradually ignited the cigarette and burned slowly... until he couldn't bear it anymore, and then became
Soot, falling.
He inhaled the smoke deeply into his lungs, and then exhaled it slowly, as if all the unpleasantness and pressure would disappear as the smoke burned.
"Asi, how long have we known each other?" Lan Sichen suddenly asked Si Lan.
Silan answered without thinking: "Seven years."
Lan Sichen looked Si Lan up and down, sighed softly, and said: "It turns out that it has been seven years since we first met... After experiencing so many things, you have grown up and are no longer the same person you were back then.
A little girl."
He chuckled twice and said, "Asi, let's break up."
Suddenly, after hearing what he said, Silan couldn't help but be startled and looked at him in disbelief.
He actually said this.
"Lan Sichen, what did you say? Say it again." Si Lan tried his best to control his emotions, but his hands were shaking uncontrollably.
Lan Sichen calmly put out the cigarette, took Silan's trembling hand, wrapped it tightly with his, and whispered slowly: "Asian... I can't keep you by my side anymore! If this goes on.
, I'm afraid that I..." He didn't say any more, but kept shaking his head.
"I thought that as long as I could let go, nothing in this world could separate us. Unexpectedly, it turned out that in the end..." As he spoke, Si Lan slowly took his hand out of his palm and moved away from the constant
The warmth of yearning. “You still don’t want me anymore.”
And his hand was frozen in mid-air for a long time.
It took so long that even Si Lan’s hands lost his warmth...
"No, Asi. We're just not suitable for being together..." After hearing Silan's words, he quickly retorted. It seemed that he instinctively wanted to grab Silan's hand, but Silan had already held it behind his back.
, that place that he can't pull or reach...
Lan Sichen was sitting, and Si Lan was standing in front of him, just over an arm's length away. They were clearly visible, but seemed to be out of reach.
Si Lan took a step back, looked at him intently, and clenched his hands into fists behind his back. "Lan Sichen, there are some things I will never say again after today..."
"I love you, Lan Sichen. So, don't you want me too?" Si Lan summoned up the last bit of courage and asked him in a trembling voice.
"Asian, I don't want you..." Sombra's eyes flashed with excitement, and his voice sounded extremely painful. Although it was an objection, his voice was not so determined.
He worked hard to get this love, but now he can't have it.
Lan Sichen looked at Si Lan with guilt, which contained endless reluctance, but also a trace of heartbreaking determination.
"Asi, I can't continue to love you... There are too many people and things between us. There is Xu Ningmo, my mother, and the Lan family... You love me, but I am also your nightmare.
I have thought about it carefully, and it would be a good thing for us to be separated." He said to Slan, but he seemed to be saying to himself. "I have decided that while you are still young, you can find someone better for you.
Man, you can still be a mother and have your own children...As, I won't harm you...let's break up."
Both Silan and him were silent for a long time, no one spoke, and the room was completely silent...
He had known for a long time that there was a swamp and whirlpool in front of him, but Silan still jumped in without thinking, without even hesitating! In contrast, Silan didn't even leave a way out for himself...
So confident! So confident that he thought Lan Sichen would risk everything for himself, so confident that he thought he would scratch his own hand and not give up on himself...
It's a pity that he said - I love you, it's best to only stay here.
Lan Sichen, when you disguised yourself as Ning Mo and accompanied me to be buried at the bottom of the building, why didn't you say that there was Wen Wanrou's death between us? I was crazy, you took care of me sleeplessly, and even called me over and over again when you fell ill from exhaustion.
When you named me, why didn’t you say that there is Ningmo between us? When you jumped into the reservoir to save me, why didn’t you say that there is Lan Family between us...
Si Lan looked at him with calm eyes, because the calmer he looked on the surface, the more painful he felt in his heart.
Try your best to speak calmly, "I understand, please get out."
"As..." The cigarette butt on Lan Sichen's fingertips flickered on and off, and the flashing red stars seemed to be mocking Si Lan's innocence.
Si Lan slowly turned around, facing away from him, and remained silent.
Lan Sichen stared at her for a long time, finally stood up and left the room silently.
During the Lantern Festival, a festival of reunions, Lan Sichen didn't want her anymore. This was a kind of irony for Si Lan.
Silan stood there for a long time, took out the goose-yellow suitcase from the bottom of the wardrobe, put it on the bed and started to pack her things. The drawer of the bedside table was filled with pink piggy pendants and cups that she had collected, and she took them in one by one.
The clothes in the suitcase and in the wardrobe are all brand new, and they were prepared for her personally by Lan Sichen...
Silan only took two pieces of clothing and some company documents, leaving everything else untouched.
In fact, she has always had very few things, and there is not much she can take away...
Silan pulled her suitcase and stopped at the door. She looked back at the room where she had lived for a long time. Everything here was carefully arranged by Lan Sichen for herself, but now she couldn't take anything away...
Now, everything here does not belong to her, including him.
Si Lan lowered his eyes, his eyelashes as thin as cicada wings covering his eyes and trembling violently. Finally, his hand fell on the cold metal and gently opened the door.
Lan Sichen was sitting in the living room. When he heard the sound and looked towards her, he suddenly stood up when his peripheral vision fell on the suitcase beside her.
"As... you..."
Si Lan looked into his black eyes expressionlessly, holding the lever tightly with his hands, veins looming, and his nails were split by the force, and the tearing hurt.
"Now that we have broken up, it is no longer suitable for me to continue living here."
"Even if we break up, Ass, this is still your home. You can always live here...I can leave!" Lan Sichen said solemnly.
Suppressing the longing in his heart, how could he be willing to let her go.
"Lan Sichen, you are not the only one who has pride, I also have it." Silan spoke out each word calmly, "I, Silan, would rather starve to death than need charity from others."
To me, you have given up on me, so what you give me is meaningless.
"...As!" Lan Sichen's deep voice could not hide the pain.
"I don't want the things in the room anymore. You can dispose of them as garbage." Si Lan said, his voice paused, and he looked at him with watery eyes and said: "Lan Sichen, goodbye." I hope we will never see each other again.
Seeing and feeling are still coming.
The sound fell, and before Lan Sichen could react, she opened the door and left.
The key is placed on the shoe cabinet.
Lan Sichen said, this is still her home, how is that possible!
Mr. Lan, you don’t want Asi anymore, so how can this be Asi’s home?
Lan Sichen sat slumped on the sofa, lowered his head slowly, and covered his face with his hands as if to hide the pain and sorrow in his heart, but his fingertips were still wet and hot...
***
Helianze opened the door and saw Si Lan standing at the door. His face was pale and colorless, and the hand holding the box was full of blood. The red and bright yellow formed a clear contrast. The whole person was lifeless and without any life.
"Baby you..."
Helianze hesitated to speak and looked at her blankly, not knowing what was going on.
"Don't ask anything, don't say anything, I just want to have a good sleep." Slan's hoarse voice was filled with age, and the sparkle in his eyes seemed to be "desperate". "Let me have a good sleep."
Just take a nap, okay!"
Helianze felt a tearing pain in his heart and immediately pulled her inside. With his other hand, he dragged her suitcase in and threw it aside.
Si Lan was lying on Helianze's big bed, with his eyes closed, neither sad nor happy; but the position on the right side of his chest was like a thousand arrows piercing his heart; every time the pain was so painful that he was almost numb, more pain swept over him, and he felt deep.
shrouded her.
Helianze took a warm towel and gently wiped the blood from her fingers. The pale and colorless face made him worried.
What happened to her?
What exactly did Lan Sichen do to him again?
Helianze put down the towel, stood up quietly, and was about to go to the living room to call and question Lan Sichen, but before he had taken two steps, he heard a vague voice behind him.
"We broke up."
"What?" Helianze's beautiful peach blossom eyes widened, and he looked at Silan who still had his eyes closed in disbelief, suspecting that he was hallucinating just now.
Si Lan slowly opened his eyes, his watery eyes were like mirrors, there was no wind, no waves, no ripples, and he said calmly: "He doesn't want me, don't go to him. Stay with me here... I'm afraid...
"
"Okay." Helianze quickly walked back to the bed, lay down on the bed and held her hand, carefully, for fear of hurting her, "I'm right here... don't say anything, I won't look for him, I won't look for him."
.Baby, you still have me. As long as I stay with you, just sleep well."
Silan said softly "Yeah" and closed his eyes.
***
"Yes, she is here with Helianze. It will be fine. Helianze and I will take care of her."
Lan Yunsheng cut the phone call, turned around and saw Si Lan standing at the door. He couldn't help but be stunned for a moment, and said meaningfully: "You know that he... why do you do this?"
Si Lan's face was still bloodless, with a cold expression, and he said calmly: "Do you know what a woman wants most?"
Before Lan Yunsheng could answer, he heard her cold voice rise again, "What a woman wants most is not how prestigious her man's status is, or how many gold mountains and silver mines he has, but no matter what happens,
I won’t push myself away.”
"He Lan Sichen has been smart all his life, but he is so confused. He pushed me away thinking he was doing me good. One Ning Mo is enough. If there is another Lan Sichen, how can I, Silan Hede, be able to withstand his behavior?"
Such great love.”
Lan Yunsheng opened his mouth and swallowed the words again. He had to say that Lan Sichen did something wrong this time.
He underestimated Si Lan and overestimated himself...
"What are you going to do next?"
"I don't know." Si Lan shook her head. She really didn't know what to do. She didn't want to go back to Hengzhe and face the unfinished files and endless meetings every day. She looked towards the clear sky outside the window, her eyes dark.
In a deep voice, he murmured to himself: "Perhaps, I will leave here."
If he wants to be great, I will make it happen.
Lan Yunsheng wanted to persuade her, but didn't know how.
Lan Sichen and Si Lan not only have similar names, but also have similar personalities, the same pride, how can two such proud people fall in love, even hugging each other is painful.
Lan Sichen thought he could hide it from Silan, and thought that his decision was all for Silan's good, but he never thought that Silan would not even be afraid of death after being abandoned by so many people, but he was just afraid of being left behind.
!
I'm just afraid that Lan Sichen will not want her.
However, Lan Sichen really left her behind and didn't want her...
Helianze never mentioned Lan Sichen again in front of Si Lan, and even Lan Yunsheng was driven to live in the house next door by him. The reason was: There is no good person in your Lan family!
Lan Yunsheng asked: "Aren't you from the Lan family?"
Helianze sneered: "No, I am not! I am from the Baobao family... Get away as far as you can, it makes me upset!!"
Lan Yunsheng sighed: "You are so nice to her!" She was obviously afraid that Silan would be sad when she saw him and thought of Lan Sichen, so she pretended to hate herself.
He Lianze saw through it, and his expression was a little unnatural. After being awkward for a long time, he pushed him over and said, "Are you annoying? This young master is good enough to you... I didn't even go to the bar to watch.
av, just be content!"
Lan Yunsheng walked over there, then suddenly turned around and hugged him, biting his slender neck and said, "Come and sleep tonight."
"Why?" Helianze's peach blossom eyes widened.
"How dare you live in the same room with another woman?" His eyes narrowed into a thin line, filled with danger.
Helianze rolled his eyes: "That's baby, baby. It's not another woman..."
"Just because she is not another woman..." Lan Yunsheng muttered, and tightened the hand on his waist, "Anyway, you have to come over and sleep with me! Also, don't forget that you are her second sister-in-law, second sister-in-law! I know.
have no idea!"
"I know, I know! Why are you so verbose and annoying! Get out of here, get out of here...I want to go shopping with my baby!"
Helianze kicked him away impatiently and turned to look for Silan in the bedroom. (Author: Actually, he was embarrassed. Reader: An old couple is embarrassed when they have sex. Helianze: I’m sorry about your sister! Ben
I’m sorry that the young master is hairy, but there’s no live performance of thrusting and penetration! Author & Reader:....)
Helianze was afraid that Silan would be bored at home alone. Anyway, the actor's affairs were pretty much arranged recently, and the manager would take care of the rest of the small things. No matter how big the issue was, Silan was not as important in his eyes.
Si Lan knew that Helianze was worried about her, so in order to not let him worry about her, he agreed to go shopping.
When it comes to shopping, Si Lan is more like a man, and Helianze is more like a woman. (Reader: Except for his body parts, he is not a woman. What else is he not a woman about? Author: ...This, this is true!)
Young Master: Update one chapter first. There is also another chapter for the big red envelope of "Strongness by My Side"! My dears, the monthly ticket is doubled today and will end on the 31st. You can vote hard this month, because I want to vote next time.
If I vote for the young master again, I still don’t know what year or month it will be!