Chapter 10: The Origin of Everything, A Super Chapter for Christmas Eve
When I woke up, I found myself in a dirty and broken small room.
Yang Tao, Zhao Chen and Xin Xiaoxin were sitting next to me.
"Where am I?" I asked feebly.
"This is the place I rented before," Yang Tao said. "It's a little worse, but no one knows."
"How is Uncle Zhu?" I tried my best to support my body and tried to sit up, but my whole body was weak and it was difficult to move.
"He can no longer feel his pulse. He must have entered a state of suspended animation. He is in the small hall outside. Do you need to buy a freezer to store it?" Yang Tao said.
I shook my head and asked, "How is his injury?"
"It's hard to say. In his current state and the situation at hand, we can't take him to the hospital." Yang Tao continued.
I nodded with difficulty and said: "Let's hold on like this for a while. When we find a matching liver, transplant it for him. We must let him live. Where are the Xiao brothers and sisters?"
"Went to the hospital for a checkup. Did you forget? You asked them to go. Brother You, what Chen Ziqi said today...is it true? How did you get the fake death drug? What...is going on?"
Zhao Chen said these words in succession. In fact, she had been moving her lips beside her just now. She probably held back the second half of the sentence for a long time, but she hesitated to ask. Now she finally asked.
Xin Xiaoxin looked at me coldly and said nothing.
I looked at the three of them, sighed deeply, and said, "Now that things have happened, I don't have to hide it anymore."
Yes, at this point, what else do I have to hide?
Dear readers, this is the most difficult paragraph for me to say. In the previous writing, I did not have the courage to say it. But as I write this, I no longer want to hide it from you, and you may have already guessed it.
It’s better to tell everyone the truth. Just like I told Zhao Chen, Yang Tao and Xin Xiaoxin the truth at that time.
Maybe everyone is wondering, Mrs. Yin seems to be the final boss. Why was it so smooth when defeating Ling Kong, Huang Dingpeng and Mrs. Yin before?
That's because everything is a scene directed by me.
You may also want to ask, Lin You, why do you have the fake death medicine in your hand?
Have you forgotten? The first time I broke into Chen Ziqi's underground secret room from the KTV secret passage in the West Palace, I took a test tube.
That's the fake death drug.
That test tube had a label on it that read: 3.
3 means the amount for three people. I divided this tube of fake death potion into three parts and kept them for later use. I have never mentioned it since then, maybe everyone has forgotten the existence of this tube of potion.
On Jinshan Island, Yang Tao already told me Dong Hao’s father’s identity. I know what this identity means:
that power.
At that time, I had already slightly guessed that there might be something fishy about Dong Hao, a rich man, participating in the adventure of finding Xi Shi’s body. And when I saw Xi Shi’s body that had not decayed for thousands of years, I had no idea about Dong Hao’s purpose of searching for Xi Shi.
, it becomes more clear.
And Mrs. Yin sent us people from the organization to participate in the search for Xi Shi, which shows that Dong Hao's father is probably also a member of the organization. His status, not to mention me who was extremely naive at that time, even Chen Ziqi
This kind of person who has a villa in the city center and drives a Ferrari sports car is completely unmatched.
It is undeniable that after experiencing various "high-class life" such as yachts, villas, private jets, Longjingxuan banquets and the "pornography, gambling and drugs" arranged for me by Chen Ziqi, my mentality inevitably gradually changed.
. Later, I endured several near-death situations, and struggled to survive under the dictates of Chen Ziqi, Dong Hao's father, and Mrs. Yin. Even gang bosses like Boss Ding could find fault with me, and even make me laugh.
A lackey like Sora makes me drip with blood. People are not like humans, ghosts are not like ghosts... On one side is temptation, on the other side is oppression, on the other side is heaven, on the other side is hell. Under the influence of these factors, I have changed
, I became eager for money, eager for power, eager to be a superior person, eager to boss others around so that I no longer have to suffer any idleness.
However, just like all the poor people in this society, it is not that they have no ability, but that they have no opportunity. Unfair ability can make people feel sorry for themselves; but unfair opportunity can only make people feel despair.
Things took a turn. When I learned about the relationship between my uncle and me from Liu Qing, as well as his status in the organization, I knew that the opportunity had come. But the huge amount of money left by my uncle was in the hands of Mrs. Yin.
So Dong Hao's father became the best step for me to implement this plan.
At that time, I had not yet decided how to contact Dong Hao's father.
But, suddenly, Jiang Nan died.
Jiang Nan's death was not in my plan. But according to my guess, it should be Chen Ziqi's hand. Because of Jiang Nan's death, he discovered that Gu Zhiqiang's home was attacked, went to check, and was shot by Huang Dingpeng.
As for why Chen Ziqi wanted to surprise Gu Zhiqiang, I briefly analyzed the reason later: Gu Zhiqiang's family is extremely wealthy, especially his "Shanghai Hengyi Real Estate Development Co., Ltd.", which has taken advantage of the spring breeze of the real estate industry in recent years to make it very popular.
Gu Zhiqiang transferred 10% of the company's equity to Chen Xulin on May 10, 2007. Judging from this date, the purpose of this equity transfer was for Gu Zhiqiang to "pay money" to Chen Ziqi and let Chen Ziqi help him find a company.
The "fake dead female corpse" is for him to play with.
But Chen Ziqi is a very insidious person. Since his son Chen Xulin has become a shareholder of Hengyi Company, as long as all Gu Zhiqiang's family dies in an "accident", then his equity in Hengyi Company can be transferred to Chen Xulin's property as a matter of course.
Because the "Company Law" stipulates that when shareholders of a limited liability company transfer equity, other shareholders have the right of first refusal.
Chen Ziqi has used this trick of killing people and seizing equity more than once. You must still remember the fire in the seafood warehouse. The person who set the fire was none other than Chen Ziqi's man with a green face and a mustache. I estimate that the owner of the seafood warehouse "
"Boss Jiang", like Gu Zhiqiang, transferred the equity of his own company to Chen Xulin, but was later silenced by Chen Ziqi. That's why Chen Ziqi sent a green-faced mustache to burn down the seafood warehouse. This is what happened to Mingying
The origin of the fire.
This is how Chen Ziqi uses the "beauty trap", no, it should be the "beauty trap", so that women who are used to all kinds of tricks have found it boring and want to try the "heavy taste" of necrophilia
The bosses accepted Chen Ziqi as a small shareholder. Then they sent a green-faced mustache to kill people and seize all the shares to make money.
However, whoever killed Jiang Nan had nothing to do with Dong Hao's father.
Jiang Nan's death left me with nothing but sadness, anger and a vow to become a master and never be bullied again. It also gave me an opportunity:
Gather your friends and catch Dong Hao! Use this to lure Dong Hao's father out!
Inject him with a fake death drug, and then use the name of his uncle to pin all the charges on Mrs. Yin, so that all the grievances of Dong Hao's father will be vented on her!
The plan was implemented very smoothly. This group of capable friends lived up to my expectations. Stimulated by Jiang Nan's death, they all had their blood pumping, and it only took five minutes to complete a series of breaking and arresting people.
Work.
I quietly added the first dose of the suspended animation drug to the sodium thiopental solvent that Xin Xiaoxin found for me. After this medicine was diluted with the sodium thiopental solvent, its effectiveness did not work quickly, which was enough for Dong Hao to enter the state of suspended animation.
Before, tell me something I want to know: in addition to Huang Dingpeng’s whereabouts, there is also his father’s phone number.
Immediately afterwards, the green-faced man with a mustache sent me a text message on Mingying’s mobile phone, asking me to go to the roof of the Trust-Mart supermarket, but I saw through it on the spot. Why he did this, I don’t know. But this opportunity was simply a God-given opportunity.
How could I let it go?
So, I drove the car and asked Xiao Keming, who was sitting next to me, to make an anonymous call to Dong Hao's father and tell him: "Dong Hao was kidnapped. The murderer is on the roof of the Hao Trust supermarket near East China Normal University. This man is cunning."
Very, you must come in person."
Xiao Keming used a disposable phone that could not be traced, and the call quality was very poor. His voice would change pitch, so he didn't even need a voice changer.
So Dong Hao's father later told me that the person who called him was using a disposable mobile phone and his voice was unrecognizable. Judging from the movement of the signal and changes in the surrounding noise, he must have been sitting in a car.
He was absolutely right. Xiao Keming was in my car.
From then on, almost everything was under my control.
The prayer beads have been on my hand. How could I not discover the secret of its retractability until I fell downstairs? In fact, after reaching the top of the building, I could see the trap of the mannequin at a glance.
, I thought of a series of plans on how to subdue this green-faced moustache, how to escape, and so on. But to implement the plan, I need Xiao Keming to help me buy time, and whether Xiao Keming can handle this former Dadullah Left Banner Envoy, I
not sure.
Therefore, I deliberately showed my weakness and let the guy push me off the roof to stimulate Xiao Keming's fighting spirit. I used the death escape to set up the electrification mechanism, which electrocuted the green-faced mustache and gave him a sore and comfortable feeling.
After the green-faced moustache was subdued, I deliberately left my phone there in order to let Dong Hao's father find my phone number. While Xiao Keming and I were leisurely eating barbecue, we were actually waiting for Dong Hao's father.
Locate me.
Even the blanket left by Liu Qing was thrown there by someone. I put this tattered blanket in order to allow Xiao Keming to escape smoothly. He is an important figure in my overall plan and cannot be caught easily.
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Afterwards, I "escaped" all the way in Changfeng Park, setting up various mazes along the way, and constantly proving my anti-reconnaissance capabilities in front of Dong Hao's father. Finally, I put on a diving suit and entered the water tank in the underwater world, letting Dong Hao
My father caught me on the spot. I did this not because someone among my captors wanted to kill me; but to create the illusion that someone among my captors wanted to kill me.
In fact, the person who attacked me does not exist at all.
After Dong Hao's father was doubtful by my words, I took him to where Dong Hao was. I knew that Dong Hao's father would be furious when he saw his son's death. I just wanted to make him furious. Because
People who are in a state of rage are often not clear-headed and rational enough.
Relying on the power of my sharp tongue and garlic, I proved Dong Hao's state of suspended animation to Dong Hao's father. At the same time, outside the gate of this place, there was a person secretly monitoring everything that happened.
This person is Xiao Keming.
On the way to the roof of the Trust-Mart supermarket, I discussed with him what to do next. After Dong Hao's father and others and I entered the place where Dong Hao was, Xiao Keming was secretly watching outside the door.
Do you still remember? After Dong Hao was resurrected by me, when he was sucking "Yang Qi", one of Dong Hao's father's men went out to drive. At this moment, Xiao Keming was hiding in the dark and suddenly struck hard at his right eye.
, punched him over. Then he took out his mobile phone and dialed his own burner phone. After dialing, he waited for a few seconds, then turned off the person's mobile phone and put it into his pocket.
After doing this, Xiao Keming called Dong Hao's father for the second time and threatened him: Dong Hao has been infected with the fake death drug, and if he wants the antidote, he will kill Lin You.
As for the guy who was beaten up by Xiao Keming, he woke up and found that his phone was missing. He quickly ran in to report, but I told him that he was sent by the mastermind behind the scenes. When Dong Hao's father checked the call records of this person,
Naturally, the call records of the number that Xiao Keming used to call this person's mobile phone were found. So he was convinced that this person was a traitor.
That's why this guy who I framed as a traitor got angry and wanted to shoot me. He was indeed wrongly accused by me.
However, it was Tian Xingyang and Feng Shang who shot him, and they had nothing to do with me.
Then, I appeared to be righteous on the surface, but in fact I asked Dong Hao's father to kill me in exchange for the antidote. In fact, I knew that the person sitting in his position had a very tough character and would never succumb to the threats of others. I
The more I use words to provoke him, the less likely he will kill me.
Of course, I am not completely sure, but in this case, only by making dangerous moves can we win by surprise. I also considered myself taking a gamble with my own life.
I won the bet.
Dong Hao's father promised to fully support me.
At this time, I hit the snake on the stick and told him that the paper left by the uncle recorded that a senior figure in the organization was seriously ill and would not live for five years. Moreover, Mrs. Yin disappeared every night.
The guests' habits, combined with this, gradually shifted Dong Hao's father's attention to Mrs. Yin.
In fact, I am the only one who has read the piece of paper left by my uncle. How can anyone else know what is written on it? There is nothing on it about being seriously ill. All those nonsense about "using fake death medicine and antidote alternately to stay alive" are just nonsense.
I made it up to frame old Mrs. Yin.
However, these alone could only make Dong Hao's father suspect Mrs. Yin, but it was not enough to bring her down. So I went to the hospital specially and pretended to teach Xin Xiaoxin a lesson. The purpose of this was not just to establish a good reputation in front of him.
My prestige is to ensure that my confession is correct without him knowing it, so that the fact that I secretly added a fake death drug to the solution will not be revealed.
Then I went to Mingying's place and asked her to send Zhao Chen away on the pretext of being hungry. Then I asked her, where does Mrs. Yin live?
After she told me the address of Mrs. Yin, I asked her to find Boss Ding of the Anhui Gang when I ordered her to ask Chen Ziqi for the antidote in the name of Mrs. Yin, and deliberately caused a scene.
Fortunately, I secretly recorded it on my mobile phone as another evidence to frame Mrs. Yin.
Therefore, Mingying is aware of my plan. You should still remember that after defeating Mrs. Yin, when I was looking at the paintings with her, she suddenly asked me inexplicably, "Are you satisfied?"
Right? You should understand the profound meaning contained in it now.
She is a very smart woman. She cooperated with me just to save Su Chujun. She knows the principle of "the cunning rabbit dies, the lackey is cooked, the flying bird is gone, and the good bow is hidden". She understands that she knows too many of my secrets. She
I left not to escape from these rights and wrongs, but to... escape from me.
Yes, at that time, I was so greedy that I could do anything. With that kind of mentality, once I got the property, I would kill her and Xiao Keming, the two people who knew the inside story.
Impossible.
Let's go back to the story. Maybe you have guessed that after I came out of Yueyang Hospital, I sent Yang Tao away under the pretense of sending money to Jiang Nan's parents. The purpose was to enter the Gonghe New Road Iron Prison and arrest Ling Kong and Huang Dingpeng.
Get it out.
However, if Ling Kong and Huang Dingpeng were "rescued" at the same time, then the person who called Dong Hao's father the night before was not Ling Kong? Does he have an alibi?
Of course I won't let him get away with it. Do you remember? Yang Tao found a newspaper note from the previous day in the room where Ling Kong was detained, and based on this, he inferred that Ling Kong was kidnapped the day before.
But Huang Dingpeng had just been taken away. In fact, that newspaper note was left deliberately by me to cover up the fact that Ling Kong and Huang Dingpeng were taken away by me at the same time. In this way, Ling Kong had no alibi.
, I can design him to be one of the "masterminds" and blame him for many things.
The call Ling Kong made to me telling me to go to the TV factory to die was actually not Ling Kong but Xiao Keming. This time, he still used the disposable phone.
I specially recorded this phone call and played it for Dong Hao’s father to listen to. The two phone calls he heard before were all spoken by Xiao Keming, so of course he felt that the voice in this recording was very familiar, similar to the previous two calls.
The same person was speaking on the phone, which naturally proved that the person who called Dong Hao's father the first two times was also empty.
In addition, the sound of a disposable phone will be distorted. Even if Dong Hao's father has heard Ling Kong's voice, I am not afraid that he will find anything abnormal.
So, in fact, when I had a "life and death struggle" with Ling Kong in the TV factory building, Ling Kong had already been turned into a string-pulling puppet that was about to die. He couldn't even speak anymore and was just manipulated.
There, waiting to be shot by me.
That shootout was also an act.
In the factory, what Ling Kong said must be his own voice. Because it was what he said on the spot, without the modulation effect of a disposable phone. If it were not Ling Kong's own voice, the recording in my hand would not be
Accepted by Dong Hao's father.
But what Lingkong said was not what he said on the spot, but what he said intermittently after I got him out of the iron prison and was tortured in every possible way. I intercepted a few paragraphs and put them on my phone.
When appropriate, let another person present play it. Add my singing and harmony, and it will sound like a conversation.
Maybe you are wondering, who is the other person who ambushed Ling Kong? Why hasn't he appeared since?
The fact is: the so-called "other person", the person who threw the grenade at me and shot me, was also Xiao Keming.
After he pretended to have a few moves with me, he threw over the cell phone that recorded Ling Kong's voice, and I shot it to pieces without leaving any evidence.
Then, Xiao Keming drove my car all the way to the parking lot and hid it. He lived on spinach and egg noodles every day. As I said before, Xiao Keming couldn't drive, so he scratched the car full of scars.
You may say: Lin You, you didn’t write about these things, you completely covered them up, how could we know?
In fact, I have left many foreshadowings. For example, when Xiao Keming and I separated in front of a park bench, I "explained a few more words to him" before leaving. When I visited Mingying in the hospital, I "chatted for a while more."
"...Also, do you still remember? After I said goodbye to Yang Tao who went to send money to Jiang Nan's parents, it was still evening. I wrote in the article: "The sun sets in the west, taking away the dusk. When the night is deep,
"I rushed to Songjiang while the sky was full of stars." Why didn't any reader want to ask what I was doing during the long period of time from "the sun set in the west" to "it was late at night"? Was I in a daze?
What? This kind of jump in time clues is the most suspicious. Why has no one suspected it?
In fact, the bigger foreshadowing was the test tube I found in Chen Ziqi's underground secret room; and when I saw Dong Hao's "corpse", I suddenly had to eat garlic to verify whether he had faked his death; and, for such a long time
, why didn't Xiao Keming show up, where did he go...and so on, and so on.
Maybe as a reader, you will feel depressed when you see this: Lin You, you crazy person, you are so full that you can't bear it? Why didn't you write it truthfully from the beginning, and insisted on fooling us here and deceiving our feelings?
Do you think it's fun?
If you think so, then I can only say sorry. Then explain my real purpose:
It has been half a year since I wrote this book. During this period, many readers asked me: Why can't you leave the opportunity for readers to use reasoning to solve the case and let them participate?
You see, I am giving everyone the best opportunity now.
Maybe in your impression, Lin You is a good person. But everyone in life has both angel and devil sides at the same time, and they are always changing. Lin You will change too, right?
What I wrote before can be regarded as the self-confession of a criminal who has created layers of fog. And you are the detective listening to the confession. I sincerely hope that you can find various things in my long confession.
Doubtful, and if you believe my confession, then you are not a qualified detective.
Doubt everything, boy! This is a necessary quality for a detective!
If you can accept my statement, then I will continue to explain the whole story of other incidents. Maybe you will ask: If you are really the director of all this, then what happened in the ward of Mingying, Zhao Chen and Xin Xiaoxin?
Isn't the person in the hotel room opposite Huang Dingpeng?
Of course not. That was also Xiao Keming.
During the period from "sunset" to "nightfall", Xiao Keming and I did two things: First, we went to the old factory building of Shanghai TV Factory to build a stage and arrange props, such as
The noose trap I later stepped on. Second, Xiao Keming and I went to the garbage recycling station next to the Weihai villa where Mrs. Yin lived, and bought a paper called "
Wang Jianbo's ID card, Xiao Keming took his ID card to the Silk Road Hotel and got a room on the 18th floor to the north. Xiao Keming deliberately changed his clothes and stuffed many things in his clothes, changing his body shape.
.The golf bag he was carrying contained the m40a3 sniper rifle that we confiscated when we captured Huang Dingpeng.
Xiao Keming took the infrared high-power flashlight I gave him and blinded the cameras in the corridor and elevator cameras on the 18th floor of the hotel. The security of this kind of hotel is not strict, and the camera records are only used for subsequent retrieval. Usually no one keeps watching.
screen, so even if the camera flashes and breaks, no one will fix it for a while.
As a result, the camera only captured a tall and lanky guy walking into the room carrying a golf bag, but did not capture when he came out.
After Xiao Keming arranged the gun and other items in the room, he immediately left the hotel, rushed to the TV factory, pretended to be Ling Kong's helper, and started a fake gunfight with me.
By the way, the purpose of deliberately designing a trap and launching a gun battle was to make the scene more dangerous, so as to prove that I killed Ling Kong in "legitimate self-defense."
Mingying also knew that the so-called sniper was just a trap set up by me, so when I called her, she was so calm and just said "oh" lightly.
Then, I ordered her to go find Boss Ding from the Anhui Gang. She had already dealt with Boss Ding because of the kidnapping of Hao Ling. Boss Ding was not aware of any deceit, so he told Mrs. Yin that Mingying had falsely told her "Yizhi"
Next, I went to find trouble with Chen Ziqi. I happened to be there at the time, so I took the opportunity to record the audio.
Under my arrangements, Old Mrs. Yin became a person who colluded with Chen Ziqi, alternately using fake death medicine and antidote to extend her life. She also murdered her uncle, framed the old man Fang Yan, tore the organization into pieces, and monopolized all his property.
He is a big sinner, and is also responsible for Jiang Nan's death, Dong Hao's fake death, Mingying's massive bleeding from her lower body, and Ling Kong and Huang Dingpeng's deliberate murder of me, Mingying and others.
I have various recordings as evidence of these incidents. She couldn't explain anything.
Of course, since I want to ensure that my uncle's property falls into my own hands, I will not give Mrs. Yin any chance to defend herself. After I obtained the recording evidence of Boss Ding from Anhui gang from Chen Ziqi, I entangled my friends and prepared to attack
Enter the old lady Yin's mansion. But before that, there are still two hours of blank time. In this short period of time, I ran to Songjiang, not only to pick up civet ovarian cysts and other things, but also got a second dose of fake death medicine.
, and returned to the city with Zhu Junxuan.
When I was holding a mobilization meeting for my friends on the green lawn of Yan'an Middle Road, Zhu Junxuan had transformed into a cold-blooded killer and entered Mrs. Yin's home. With his superhuman speed, he killed all the bodyguards and injected Mrs. Yin with an injection.
He gave Mrs. Yin the drug to fake death. When Mrs. Yin entered the state of suspended animation, she stabbed her in the heart again.
So when I rushed into Mrs. Yin’s house with my friends, I didn’t encounter any resistance. In this way, I took over all the property of Mrs. Yin and the uncle. With the help of lawyers, I found out the clues about the property and collected the uncle’s inheritance.
Put it all under your own name.
The only trouble is that, for some reason, I can't contact Xiao Keming. After he "escaped" in my car from the TV factory, I called him repeatedly, but he was not in the service area. So I could only use Tian Xingyang's phone number
Strength, help me find it.
In fact, the reason why he was not in the service area was because he spent three days in a row eating spinach and egg noodles in an underground garage with no mobile phone signal.
It wasn't until he came out of the garage that he accidentally broke the lifting rod at the exit of the parking garage and parked dangling in the square. He could have contacted me, but policeman Zhang Feng caught him and he was about to
When Cang Man escaped with a few treasures, his cell phone was also smashed. I could only rely on various clues in the car to find him in the spinach and egg noodle shop and get back the treasures.
Maybe you are still surprised that the so-called "mysterious man" gave me a few things so readily. If I told you that that person was Xiao Keming, would you still be surprised?
Xiao Keming is not a vicious person, but when I used rescuing Xiao Luqi as an excuse to ask him to cooperate with me unconditionally, he could only agree.
Yes, the reason why everything went so smoothly before was because it was all my plan. At that time, I was tempted by money and threatened by death. I was determined not to be a chess piece and be manipulated by others.
; I want to be a chess player and play with others.
Facts have proved that I succeeded. Ling Kong, Mrs. Yin, and those once arrogant people lost their lives within a few days due to my planning and frame-up, and there was almost no trace left.
Lin You's rhythm, when he wants to do evil, few people can stop him.
Then you may ask, is Mrs. Yin a good person or a bad person?
Looking back now, I think that for me who was obsessed with money at that time, Mrs. Yin’s position has little to do with me. She holds the property that should belong to me, and she is guilty of the crime.
, her crime is unforgivable, and she deserves to die.
These are all the things I have done before.
However, these unscrupulous means can be said to be almost sinister and cruel. Although they were done by me, they were not my original intention at all. That's why I was in so much pain later that I almost fell into a trance.
Therefore, when Chen Ziqi finally revealed the truth, I suddenly felt at a loss and was helpless. Lin You's rhythm was completely disrupted.
I know that if Chen Ziqi reveals all the truth, I will become a complete sinner and will never recover.
I may have defeated Mrs. Yin, but Chen Ziqi was like a mantis stalking a cicada, with the oriole behind. Starting from the suspicion of Boss Ding causing trouble in Anhui, Chen Ziqi discovered most of my previous secret plans.
Alas! This is called self-inflicted evil, and you will not live!
At that time, I lost my original intention and almost went crazy. My whole life was acting. Looking back now, it still scares me.
Fortunately, after witnessing a series of life-and-death farewells and experiencing a life-and-death struggle between my heart and my desires, the real me finally came back on that hospital bed.
However, after listening to my narration, my friends showed expressions that made me uneasy...
"I don't ask you to forgive me, I just want to say it out to make myself feel better." I spoke for a long time, looked at Zhao Chen, Yang Tao and Xin Xiaoxin, tried my best to move my chapped lips, and finally said this