He looked at her melancholy, feeling the sadness overflowing in her heart, and his heart was torn painfully.
After being silent for a long time, he had already understood what she meant, "So... you regret meeting me and marrying me?"
She shed tears, feeling miserable but determined in her heart, "If I said yes, you might think it was cruel, but I really felt that I was very unfilial. I was only focused on pursuing my own happiness, but I couldn't. I ignored the happiness that already existed around me. After my father died, I couldn't even remember the last time I saw him, and my mother even more so. It actually makes sense for her to become like this, and for her to blame me like this... …
"You know, the night my father was kidnapped, my mother was raising money everywhere. The person who was most capable of helping us at that time was Qiao Lijie... Do you still remember him? Qiao Nawei's brother, the first heir to Qiao Bank, Although his character is not very good, he is indeed very rich. My mother once wanted to bring me together with him.
"Of course, I can't be willing, but if I had known that I would beg him one day, maybe... maybe I would compromise. I know that this kind of thing cannot be assumed, and I also know that if I really have to go to him, I may not really be able to grovel, but when I saw my mother in such a situation, I felt really uncomfortable and helpless, but I couldn't help at all...
"My parents have raised me for more than ten years. From childhood to adulthood, they have given me the best things. However, when they encounter difficulties and need me, I am powerless and unable to do anything. I have always been the most affected person. My doting grandmother, in order to help my mother pay back the money and to remove the stain on my body, she sold everything she could, including the portrait she painted for my grandfather when she was young...
"I feel that I am too unfilial and have let down so many people. I am also a failure. I ran away from home to marry you and pursue happiness. But later on, we quarreled and had a cold war. The marriage was in jeopardy and I could only rely on ...I can only rely on my children to maintain it... I found out that I can't do anything well, family affection, love, none of them can be maintained...
At this point, she finally couldn't help but choked up and couldn't speak any more.
He walked toward her heartbroken, gently pulled her into his arms, and used his shoulders to support him, "It's my fault that I don't have the ability to make your life better, so you have been wronged."
"It's not..." She murmured and shook her head, sobbing, "I just feel that the two of us are not suitable for each other. Love is too heavy, too tiring, and will hurt many people... so..."
"So, it's better to end it." He said the following words for her.
Finally, he understood what kind of desperate situation she had reached when she chose to divorce him. Not only was her family ruined, but her psychological defenses also collapsed.
She nodded sadly, her tears rolling down one by one, wetting his shirt and burning his heart.
"You should have told me at that time, maybe... maybe I could help you..." He used two "maybes" because he didn't know if it would work, but at least it was possible.
She didn't understand and looked at him with raised eyelashes.
He closed his eyes and told her about his life experience in a cryptic manner. He had never told her because he didn't want to admit it.
"Mint, you know, I am an illegitimate child. I have been dependent on my mother since I was a child. My biological father... is not in the country at all. When he met my mother, he was a counselor at the embassy abroad. He returned to China by chance and met me.
I met my mother. My mother didn’t even know at the time that he already had a wife and a son at home abroad... When she found out later, he already had me...
"He didn't come to me until I was 16 years old, but the purpose of him coming to me was to ask me to save his other son. His son grew up abroad. He is said to be very good and attends an aristocratic school.
, a versatile man in both civil and military affairs, but unfortunately, while riding a horse with his classmates, he fell off the horse and his left kidney ruptured. There was no way to save it, so it had to be completely removed. So my so-called father suddenly thought of me.
Want me to donate a kidney...
"I think it's ridiculous. He is his son, am I not? Although I have never thought of recognizing him, but he is also his child, why should I be divided into different grades? Just because my background is not good enough.
?Just because my mother is a dying liver cancer patient?
"I was not that generous, nor was I that kind. I rejected him outright. I said that if he forced me, I would disclose that I was his illegitimate son so that he could no longer pretend to be a hypocrite! He was already stationed abroad at that time
As an ambassador, naturally he would not be threatened by a poor boy like me, but I told him that if he forced me, I would die with my mother.
"He knew I wasn't joking, so of course he didn't dare to force me anymore, so he went back abroad in disgrace and continued to look for a suitable kidney source. But unfortunately, his other son and I both had rh-negative blood, so it was difficult to find one.
, while waiting for a kidney source, his son suffered kidney failure and finally died of uremia...
"Then my troubles came again. In the past, he had a real son, an excellent son that he could show off, so he was indifferent to my life and death, but then I was the only son left.
He then set his sights on me again and tried every possible means to take me abroad. Of course I refused. My mother was also suffering from terminal cancer at that time...
"Ten years ago, on the night when my grandma held an art exhibition, after we had a fight, I wanted to go out and calm down temporarily, but suddenly I received a notice from the hospital that my mother was critically ill. She passed away without even having time to say her last words.
But do you know what is excessive? My cold-blooded father actually sent someone to look for me that night..."
"Then what?" she asked heartbrokenly. She had never known these things about him and was so sad.
She finally understood why he loved his children so much. Because she had never received father's love, she wanted to pour all her feelings into her children.
He smiled helplessly, "Then... he said that as long as I am willing to go abroad to recognize him, he can agree to all my conditions... So I thought, if you tell me the truth of the matter at that time, maybe... I can beg him
Help... he should agree to me regarding the money issue, after all, I am his only bloodline, and he has never dreamed that I could call him daddy."
When she heard this, she took a breath. How could he? How could he recognize such a cold-blooded father for her?
If he really did that, he would be selling his soul to the devil!
Her eyes were red and burning, but she shook her head lightly, "Guan Shouheng, stop talking... I told you the situation at that time, not because I want your sympathy, nor do I want you to feel guilty.
The truth is... we were too young and naive at the time. We thought love was too great, but the gap between ideal and reality was too big. The cost of growth was huge, and we had no chance to regret it. Once a person makes a choice,
There is no way out. Life cannot be relived... So, if we get divorced, we are divorced. We can't look back. No matter how we look back, the past has passed. We can only look forward... You understand
?"
He pondered melancholy and nodded sadly, "Understood."
What she meant was that they were already in trouble, but...he didn't want to see her working so hard alone anymore, he wanted to help her.
"Mint, I am different now than before. How much debt do you still owe? Tell me the number and I will pay it for you."
She shook her head in panic, "Guan Shouheng, don't do this!"
She doesn't want his sympathy now, because she has no regrets about her choice back then. She just hopes that from now on, he will stop dwelling on the past, stop living in the haze, and hope that he can truly let go.
But he insisted, "I'm not pitying you, just think of it as something I owed you back then."
"You owe me nothing."
"If I had had this ability a long time ago, maybe it wouldn't have been so difficult for us back then. If I had been so rich at that time, your mother wouldn't have had to..." He didn't finish his words, but stopped abruptly.
No, he suddenly thought of a question. If Shen Mei had not embezzled public funds back then, if she could have escaped and was not arrested by the police, then she would not have ended up like this. Then maybe he and Bo Mint would not have ended up like this.
Got to this point now.
He once again thought of what Shen Mei had said. She suspected that he was the reporter. It turned out that she really had not thought in the wrong direction. Of course he could swear to God that it was not him, but...he could not guarantee that it was not that person.
!The man his father sent to pick him up!
He remembered that that person had been following him that night, so...could he have been ordered by his father? In this way, he cut off his desperate path and made him have no love in Xihai.
Then he fulfilled his wish and left the country without hesitation?
Thinking of this, Guan Shouheng's heart trembled heavily, and he even stepped back a few times involuntarily. He even felt that he was unsteady on his feet, and a chill shot up from the soles of his feet.
Mint noticed something strange in his expression and couldn't help but asked nervously, "What's wrong with you?"
He didn't answer, he didn't dare to answer!
If he guessed correctly and it was really his father who did it, how...how should he face her?
Although he had not directly harmed her, if it hadn't been for him, her fate, her mother's fate, her whole family's fate... might have been different. Even if it wasn't better than before, it would never be as bad as before.
It's so miserable now.
"Guan Shouheng, are you okay? Just speak!"
Talk? What can he say? Say that I have hated you for ten years, but in the end I found out that it was actually you who hated me?