He really didn't know what to say, but he couldn't hide this matter, that would be unfair to her!
"Mint...what if I say...that whistleblower from ten years ago might actually be related to me?"
She suddenly froze her eyes, "What?"
"I'm not sure, but... it's very possible... it was my father who ordered someone to do it..." He just didn't check it now, but he was basically sure that there was no one else but him! It's just that his father didn't
Thinking about it, although he wanted to leave and go abroad, he still did not go to him, but relied on Mr. Jin's help. However, in any case, what he reported did indeed happen, which prompted her to have the problem.
A life of uncertainty becomes even more miserable.
Bo Mint listened to Guan Shouheng's words and looked at his guilty and painful expression, and her heart tightened, but... should she blame him?
It shouldn't be.
She opened her mouth bitterly and summoned up the courage to say, "Guan Shouheng, you don't have to blame yourself. This matter has nothing to do with you. If I even want to hate you for this, I will have too many people to hate in the past ten years."
There are too many, and I have long hated them to death."
"But if it weren't for me, maybe you and your mother wouldn't be in this situation today."
She shook her head lightly, "Guan Shouheng, you are always like this, why do you have to take all the mistakes on yourself? Why do you have to carry so many heavy things? Ten years ago, before we got divorced, you
Even if you shoulder all the burdens of the family by yourself, you are still like this ten years later. I am no longer your responsibility. Whether I am living well or not has nothing to do with you. You really don’t need to give yourself any more.
The pain in my heart increases.”
He didn't like her saying that, reminding them that they had nothing to do with each other anymore.
"I don't want to do this either, but your mother is right. If she had successfully gone to Canada, she wouldn't have..."
She still shook her head, "My mother just had nowhere to vent, so she tortured herself and you and me like that. But in fact, she also knew very well that she couldn't blame anyone for what happened back then. If she really wanted to blame, maybe she should blame the terrorists.
If there had been no terrorists, if my father had not been kidnapped, then nothing would have happened. So according to your logic, should I go to the terrorists to settle the score? Ten years later, the regime of country C is still the same.
It has not stabilized, and those few terrorists at the beginning have already died under the fire of others. The sky is still intact, and now everything is over."
It's over, including between the two of them.
it's over?
Guan Shouheng's heart throbbed tightly, and even more anger arose spontaneously, "Mint! Have you forgotten? We once pronounced our wedding vows in the church. No matter good, bad, poverty, or disease, nothing can change it.
We were separated, but you decided privately to exclude me from your life!"
"I have no choice...I don't want to drag you down..."
"A drag? I'm your husband! Have you ever thought about my mood and my feelings?" He said with self-mockery, "When you were in the most pain, the most depressed, and the most need of me, I decided to leave.
!I am the most incompetent, useless, stupid, and ridiculous man in the world! When my wife is in trouble in life, I am only busy blaming you, complaining about you, and hating you! I have hated you for ten years
, even now, I don’t want to forgive you!”
"Then what do you think I should do? Pull you into the water at that time? Maybe you were willing at the time and had no hesitation, but Guan Shouheng, can you promise that you will not regret it in the future? Can you promise not to blame me in the future?
Even if you think about it, have you ever thought about your mother? Her biggest wish in life is for you to get ahead! In order not to drag you down, she once pulled out the oxygen tube and tried to commit suicide! We were only 17 years old at the time, and we were too self-righteous and thought that love was the big deal.
Damn it, but we have all ignored that we are not only each other's lovers, I am also someone else's daughter, and you are someone else's son! Our marriage was already in jeopardy, and poor and humble couples suffer from everything! Or do you want me to hate you now, because
Does your father hate you for reporting things?"
Guan Shouheng's heart clenched tightly. She didn't hate him, but he couldn't relax at all. She had really grown up and matured, but... she felt even more distressed.
How he hoped that she would still be the same as before, willful, proud, and self-centered. She would definitely get what she wanted. Anyone who opposed her would definitely have a bad end. Back then, when she and Qiao Nawei were facing each other tit for tat in Gaofan Academy,
She was so strong and arrogant, but at that time, she was so radiant.
But now, the edges of her body have been smoothed by reality. Although the things in her bones have not changed, in many ways, she is different from before. She has learned tolerance and understanding, so she will not think too radically.
I won't hate him.
She also learned how to hide her edge. During the time they worked together, her strength was actually much higher than that of other team members, but she never stole any limelight. Firstly, it was because she didn't want to cause trouble, and secondly, she was feeling inferior.
, because she does not have a high degree of education or as much experience as others, so she can only choose to be down-to-earth and work quietly.
Maybe everyone would think that her current appearance is progress and a sign of maturity, but he doesn't think so. He thinks it's a pity for her. He doesn't want her to become like this, he wants her to be the same!
"Mint, you don't have to support yourself anymore. I can really help you. I can help you pay off your debt first, and then you can go to school again..."
She shook her head without thinking.
"Why don't you accept it?" He didn't understand what she was insisting on. "Since you don't hate me, why can't you accept my kindness?"
"Because the love between us has passed, there should be no more involvement." She said quietly, the love between them was not only lost to time, but also lost to fate.
"There is no past! Even if time and reality have separated us, we are reunited now. We can..."
"No!" She interrupted him, her tearful eyes reflecting on his face, "Guan Shouheng, I am no longer the mint you were before, and you are no longer the Guan Shouheng you were before. Do you still remember that we just went to a tea restaurant?
In fact, I feel so uncomfortable. I feel that everything is so luxurious and I feel uneasy eating. How can I be the same as before? Now I am just the most ordinary woman on the street.
You will be disappointed."
“Whether I’m disappointed or not is my feeling, it’s up to me!”
"Guan Shouheng! I just want to preserve the last bit of self-esteem for myself! I want to remain the same in your memory. If you really want to help me, then don't bother me again... Mine
I mean, do you understand?"
"..."
Understand, what she means is that a person's life is like walking. There will be many crossroads in the middle. Every time you encounter one, you must make a choice, choose between love and family, between love and career. Choose between them, and every choice means that you have to go down that road. Even if you regret it in the middle, you can't go back to the starting point, because time waits for no one. Even if you go back, the scenery on that road will not be the same. changed.
She is saying that the reason why life is precious is that it cannot be repeated. Once a choice is made, it is irreplaceable and cannot be regretted.
His chest felt a throbbing pain, and he nodded heavily, "Understood."
She smiled sadly, "As long as you understand..."
"But our date today is not over yet. This is what you promised me, and you can't go back on it." His tone suddenly changed again.
She was slightly stunned, and after a few seconds, she nodded helplessly, "Okay, one last time."
Bo Mint went to the ward to visit Shen Mei again and made sure she was sleeping peacefully. The doctor also told her that Shen Mei's mood should not fluctuate too much soon after she woke up, so she had better not come to the hospital again if necessary. To avoid causing more unnecessary trouble.
"Then please take good care of her." She asked the two caregivers.
"Don't worry, Miss Bo, we will do it."
"Thank you." She took out some money from her bag while no one was paying attention, gave it to the nurse, and left quickly.
Guan Shouheng's heart suddenly felt sour. It turned out that she now understands the harshness of the world. In a place like a prison hospital, a person like Shen Mei is both a patient and a prisoner. How the nurse treats her depends entirely on her conscience. No one would She seriously pursued those who were responsible, but she secretly gave money to the caregiver, just hoping that the other person would treat her mother better.
In the past, she spent any money without blinking an eye, but now she has to count every dollar, because every extra dollar can buy her mother better care.
No wonder she had to do so many jobs by herself. No wonder she was so careful when ordering food at the tea restaurant.
Mint felt two scorching eyes following closely on her back, tingling the nerves in her back and affecting her whole body.
She bit her lip secretly, but she didn't stop. She just straightened her back harder to make herself look stronger.
Guan Shouheng looked at her thin but straight back, and a strong emotion surged in his chest. Her figure was so slender, so lonely, so heartbreaking, but there was nothing he could do?
He was unwilling to give in, let alone bear it, so he quickly stepped forward, caught up with her pace, clasped his big hand, and held her cold little hand tightly.
Her heart skipped a beat and she subconsciously wanted to shake her off, but he held her tighter.
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