I said: "Okay, maybe, maybe I am like this, maybe! I just want to be like you. You can understand it however you want. Yes, there are many men in this world who really love you, and I
He's the man who just wants to sleep with you, that's right!" I nodded, then picked up my luggage again, and said, "I hope you can find a man who truly loves you and doesn't want to be like this, and then you two will have a happy life.
I don’t even want to talk about your marriage or anything else. I wish you happiness!”
I was hurt by her. I thought this breakup might be the best result. It was great to break up like this. She made me sad. She saw through me. She was very smart, wasn't she? She understood this, but she miscalculated a little.
That is, there really is true love in this world, and that true love will last a lifetime, but I don't want to say more, I turned around and left.
She suddenly stopped me and said, "Wait a minute!"
I turned around and said with a smile: "What?"
She blinked and looked at me and said, "I'm asking you, can you tell me?"
I said: "What?"
"Have you ever loved me?" she asked me innocently.
I thought for a while and then said: "I don't know, maybe, maybe it's just like what you said!"
She looked at me a little disappointed and said sadly: "Is it really like that? Is it just like that?" She is really a silly woman. Her uncertainty and uncertainty made me feel particularly bad. I smiled and said
: "Maybe, I don't want to say it, you can think about it yourself!" I looked at her, she smiled, blinked her eyes and said, "I don't care, I don't care, how can a woman of my age
, do I still care about these? I'm not a little girl anymore. I really don't need to care so much. Please take care of yourself. And I really don't deserve you. I hope you can find a little girl and live happily.
Life, Lin Jiayi, bless you!" She pursed her lips, she looked very good-looking, but my heart felt very painful. I knew that if I left like this, she would be with that man. I was worried about many things at that time
I don’t fully understand, for example, whether a woman will be happy if she does that, whether she can get her happiness, I don’t know. I even think that maybe she is with that man, they are about the same age, and they should be able to live together.
Be happy!
Also, I still care about my relationship with Yang Hongling, and if I were at this age, I would never do that. I would immediately tell her everything I have done for her, and I want her to be with me.
We are together, well, living happily ever after, never to be separated again, but who said that we were too young at that time?
I didn't say anything more, I started to walk forward. My heart was very painful at that time. I remember that the sunshine that day was very dazzling. I seemed to be crying, but I held it in my heart. I couldn't look back, no, no matter what my heart felt.
How painful it is, I have to move forward like this, not stopping even a step, keep going, keep going!
When I came to the corner, I was about to turn around. When I looked back and took a look, I found that she was still there. She seemed to be crying, but she still didn't cry. I couldn't see clearly. I could only think in my heart.
I was thinking, but my heart ached. My heart ached so much. I walked out of the neighborhood and got into a taxi. Then I went to the station. After arriving at the station, I waited for a long time and finally got on the taxi.
Sitting on the bus in Xiliang, when the bus was about to leave Bincheng, I kept thinking of her, and my heart kept hurting. I wanted to look back, I wanted to jump off the bus and go back.
But I didn’t have that courage. In the end, I had no choice but to let the car take me away from Bincheng and go back to Xiliang, where I grew up. It was a beautiful fishing village. Bai Ling once told me to let me
Take her there, we live a happy life there and never leave for the rest of our lives, but it seems so sad at the moment. Maybe we don’t have that chance after all. I never had that chance when I returned to Xiliang from Bincheng.
When I think about going back to Bincheng, my parents actually support me to study. They want me to leave Xiliang, but they also really want me to go back to Xiliang. By that time, they will feel that I stay in Xiliang or leave Xiliang.
Pretty good thing.
Slowly, I closed my eyes, and I decided to forget Bai Ling from my mind and memory. I knew that if I didn't forget, I would suffer for the rest of my life. The pain she gave me would last for a lifetime. I couldn't compare with this.
Know clearly and deeply.
Back in Xiliang, it's already autumn. The seasons here are not particularly obvious. If you don't count them according to time and feel them by feeling, you really don't know what kind of season it will be. When I get home, my parents are
I was very happy. The night I went back, my mother sat at a table with delicious food. There were many fish that I would not bear to eat. My father drank with me. I was very happy while drinking. My mother was laughing there.
While picking up food for me, my dad said: "Jiayi, if you come back this time, don't leave. Look at our fisherman's house, we also need someone to help us. We have made more than 100,000 this year, and there are still two
The boat is more than 200,000 yuan again. This year's income is very good. Don't go anywhere. This money is all yours. You are at home. It is getting better every year. You will make millions in the future.
Tens of millions. Dad is getting old. I can’t live without you at home. And you, listen to your mother, find a girl to get married as soon as possible, start a family as soon as possible, and give us a child. We won’t do anything else in the future.
, do you think it’s okay to take care of the kids every day?”
I said, "Dad, how can getting married be so easy?"
My dad said: "It's not difficult. Our family is not short of money. In the past, no one was willing to marry into our fishing village. Your mother was not willing to come to our place at the beginning. It was much more difficult than now and she couldn't even afford food."
, look, I brought your mother home as usual, so you don’t have to worry about this at all. Don’t worry. If you don’t want to talk about it yourself, many people have started to introduce it? We are in Xiliang
There are many in the city!”
We also call them city dwellers, and many girls are also very beautiful.
I said: "Dad, I know, I will be fine!"
I couldn't help but think of that woman again. I slept on the boat that night, and I was thinking in my mind what she was doing? Is she with that man? What were they doing? If she didn't believe in love, she would be very casual.
, will give up on herself, she will feel indifferent, I know her too well, she must be with that man, doing such things together, thinking of this, my heart hurts to death, I can't think about it, my heart keeps
I was in pain, the kind of pain that made me feel worse than death. I wanted to go back to Bincheng to find her right away. I had a suffocating feeling that made it difficult for me to spend that night.
Later, I fell asleep for some reason. When I woke up the next day, I felt much better. I went fishing with my father. I hadn’t lived this kind of life for a long time. I felt very fulfilled after a busy day because I had been busy all day long.
When I have something to do, I don’t think about her that much anymore. I have been like this for many days in a row. In fact, it’s not that I don’t think about her at all. I think about her many times a day, but the thought is very beautiful. Gradually, the longing turns into a
It's a beautiful kind of plainness. I know it's hard for me to forget her, but I also know that time is a terrible thing. It will make me forget many things. Three months have passed. In these three months, I have thought about her countless times.
I called her, wanted to contact her, wanted to tell her how much I missed her, but I held back, I knew I couldn't contact her, I had to keep that love in my heart, or I would go find her
Be with her, or I'll forget forever.
Back in Xiliang, it's already autumn. The seasons here are not particularly obvious. If you don't count them according to time and feel them by feeling, you really don't know what kind of season it will be. When I get home, my parents are
Very happy, the day I go back
In the evening, my mother sat at a table with delicious food. There were many fish that I would not bear to eat. My father drank with me.
Dad said: "Jiayi, when you come back this time, don't leave.
You see, our fisherman's house also needs help. We have made more than 100,000 yuan this year, and we have two boats worth more than 200,000 yuan. This year's income is particularly good. Don't go anywhere. With all this money,
It's all yours, you're at home, it's getting better and better every year, I'll make more in the future
Millions, tens of millions, Dad is old, I can’t live without you at home, and you, listen to your mother, find a girl to get married quickly, start a family as soon as possible, and give us a child, so we don’t want it in the future
What do you do? Take care of the kids every day, do you think it’s okay?”
I said, "Dad, how can getting married be so easy?"
My dad said: "It's not difficult. Our family is not short of money. In the past, no one was willing to marry into our fishing village. Your mother was not willing to come to our place at the beginning. It was much more difficult than now and she couldn't even afford food."
, you see I brought your mother home as usual, so you don’t have to worry about this at all, just don’t worry, if you don’t want to do it yourself
I went to talk about it, and many people started to introduce it? There are many in Xiliang City!" Xiliang is a fishing village, and Xiliang City is actually a street formed in the middle of many fishing villages. The street is not big, but it is
The fishermen around us go to places to sell fish and go to the market. People who live in the towns are also said to be city dwellers. Many girls are also very beautiful.