I nodded, and then my grandpa and I sat in the living room. We smoked a lot of cigarettes there, and we analyzed it for a long time. Finally, grandpa said: "Xiao Lin, no matter what, you have to be like a man. Remember this,
As long as things don't reach the final step, never think like that. By the way, there is a place, have you ever gone?"
I said: "Where?"
"Where's her mother?" Grandpa said.
Oh my God, we all forgot about that. It shows how long it has been since she left home and how long she hasn’t been in contact with this place. I have been looking around all afternoon, but I just haven’t thought about it. I said: "I
Go there quickly, it should be there!" I said, and went there excitedly. Along the way, I was
Happy. It is possible that Xiaoxuan went to her mother to talk about marriage. It must be yes. We must have been too nervous. When she got there, she chatted with her mother. After all, her mother was not in a good mood when she went to see her mother that day.
Well, maybe she was comforting her mother. This chat lasted a long time, so that's why she was like this.
I drove very fast, eager to get there immediately. No one lived in the place where her mother lived, and there were no street lights. It was dark everywhere, and the villa was also black. After the car drove there, I saw that the surroundings were dark, and even the villa was dark.
Without turning on the light, I knew something was wrong. If Xiaoxuan was there, the light must be on. Did she just leave? After she left, her mother fell asleep, so it was dark?
I hurriedly got off the car and walked there to ring the doorbell. After a while, there was a voice coming from inside. It seemed that the voice was asleep. I said, "Auntie, it's me, Xiaolin, has Xiaoxuan been to your place before?"
She heard my voice and said: "Do you know where Xiaoxuan went? Why did you ask me? She said she didn't want me to take care of anything -"
I said: "Auntie, listen to me, it's like this. Xiaoxuan is missing. Her phone has been turned off. She walked out during the day and hasn't come back yet. We are all looking for her. Auntie, if she has been to your place
, please tell me, please!”
She paused and said, "Xiaoxuan is missing? How could she be missing?"
I said: "Yes, Auntie, has Xiaoxuan been here?"
The aunt said: "Wait a minute, I'll go out!"
I said: "Okay, Auntie!"
The light was turned on, and after a while she came out and the door opened. I walked into the yard. After she came down, she said, "What's going on?"
I told her what happened again, and she said after hearing it: "How could this happen? What should I do? It's true, why are you like this? If something happens to Xiaoxuan, I, I
,I——" She suddenly cried, I saw her
In this way, he hurriedly said: "Auntie, don't cry. Be obedient and don't cry. Xiaoxuan will be fine. She will definitely be fine. Maybe she went to play with her classmates, forgot the time, or for other reasons. Let's
I'm just worried, I didn't say she was missing!"
After hearing this, she said: "Then you said you were missing? Ah, why did you say no? Oh, Amitabha, Buddha bless Xiaoxuan and nothing will happen to her. Nothing will happen to her. Don't let anything happen to her. Don't let anything happen to her.
matter!"
I said, "Well, Auntie, don't worry. You can go back and rest early. Xiaoxuan hasn't been here. I'll go check out other places!"
She said: "Then if you have any news, tell me immediately. I'll give you my phone number!" She gave me her phone number. I was afraid that she would be worried about Xiaoxuan, so I said, "Well, okay, Auntie, I'll go." Check with her classmates. If there is any news, I will call you immediately, so you don’t have to worry!"
She said: "Yeah, okay!"
When I left her place and sat in the car, I always felt that Xiaoxuan's mother was very strange and had some mental problems. She shouldn't be in the house like this all day long. Something would happen if she did this for a long time. I suddenly felt a little bit confused. I regret telling her about Xiaoxuan's disappearance, she will definitely be extremely worried.
There was no news here, so I left with great disappointment. When I got home, I told my grandfather, and he said: "Xiao Lin, don't worry, just wait a little longer!"
Yes, we continued to wait, but by the next day, Xiaoxuan didn't come back. That night, we almost didn't sleep and couldn't sleep. Grandpa smoked all night. The next day, he asked almost all the navy to come back. People came to help us find Xiaoxuan. They really wanted to turn Bincheng upside down, but there was still no news.
In the end, I even started to doubt Bai Ling. I knew it was unreasonable to doubt her, not at all, but I still called her. After she heard this on the phone, she hurriedly said: "Xiao Lin, don't be nervous. I swear on my life that it can't be me. I didn't even care about that incident back then. I -"
I quickly said: "No, don't get me wrong, I just want to tell you. If you have any clues, please tell me. I have no other intentions!"
Bai Ling said: "Well, don't be nervous, don't be anxious, don't think too much about anything, Xiaoxuan is such a nice person, nothing will happen to her, and none of the people you doubt will do the same. You believe me, I Understand them, they really can’t do it, no matter how brave they are, it’s impossible!”
I said: "Well, we have all thought about it. Sorry, my mind is probably too messed up. I -"
Bai Ling said distressedly: "Don't be like this, Xiao Lin, be obedient. You have to believe that Xiaoxuan will be fine. She will definitely be found. Can I help you find her?"
I quickly said: "No, it's okay, I won't bother you anymore!"
She said: "I will keep an eye on it for you. If I have any news, I will tell you right away!"
I said: "Yeah, okay!"
When I thought about this matter later, I wondered whether Bai Ling felt comfortable in her heart. However, many times, we may only think about ourselves. People who once loved each other, after one day parting ways, you will not If you fall in love again, you will hurt the other person. You say others are selfish and don't consider your feelings. In fact, people who love each other are hurting each other. Sometimes they can't even find themselves when they hurt each other. .
When there was no news about Xiaoxuan after three days, my grandfather and I could hardly hold on anymore. Our mental state was extremely low. I would unconsciously shed tears when I was alone, but I remembered what my grandfather said to me. , I can’t cry no matter what, even if I’m a man, I can’t cry, so I hold it back, but I really miss her and my little baby. We have been together for so long, and she is still pregnant, and there is still something in her belly. I have my child, and when I think about this, I can’t help but shed tears, and I can only hold it back.
I think I will never be able to experience that kind of pain again. I can't bear it almost every minute and every second. Xiaoxuan's disappearance is an extremely heavy blow to me. This kind of blow is like dying once.
One day, I finally couldn't bear it anymore. I collapsed completely. My spirit became extremely abnormal. I always felt that I was lost every day. Grandpa was also stupid. He was stronger than me. He just stood there blankly.
It's a person looking at a place. During that time, I went out every day to look for Xiaoxuan. I took the photos and posted them one by one on the street. Then I did them on local TV stations, all newspapers, and everywhere I could advertise.
Advertisement: There was a huge reward on the Internet to find my lover Xiaoxuan, and many people provided a lot of clues, but there was no whereabouts of Xiaoxuan. After half a month, there was almost nothing we could do. One day, I cried when I saw my grandfather.
, and then we two men cried loudly there. Grandpa cried just once, and he never cried again. It’s just that people have changed and become silent. And I think I will keep looking, no matter where I find it.
As long as there is no whereabouts of Xiaoxuan, I will keep looking for her. Even when I grow old, I will keep looking for her.
Just keep looking for it forever.
A month later, we still have no news about Xiaoxuan. I am increasingly afraid to accept that reality. If it is okay to be kidnapped, I am afraid, just afraid - when I think of that, I will be particularly scared and heartbroken.
People are going crazy, but you have to face this reality. You want to get news every day, but you are extremely afraid of bad news. But two months have passed, three months have passed, half a year has passed, you know
Time is a thing that makes everything dull. Time makes us powerless and helpless. No matter how painful the pain is, you will still have to accept many things that you should accept.
Xiaoxuan's disappearance made me a completely different person. It can be said that this is a complete change. I feel that everything does not matter. If Xiaoxuan does not come back, life will no longer have any meaning.
I started drinking, drinking violently, drinking crazily. It seemed that only by drinking could I numb myself. I didn’t go to live with my grandpa. I moved out. This was what grandpa meant. What he meant was that Xiaoxuan didn’t know when she would be able to drink.
When he came back, his whole person changed. He hid in the house every day and saw no one, not even me. He asked me to leave and told me that if anything happened to Xiaoxuan, let me start my own life.
Don't think about it anymore. He asked the guard to send me a message. He didn't talk to anyone anymore. If there is no news about Xiaoxuan, he won't talk again.
I was very worried about grandpa. I originally wanted not to leave, but I couldn't go against grandpa's wishes. I asked them to take good care of grandpa and call me if anything happens. I rented a house by myself in Bincheng. At this time,
I stay at home all day. During the day, I sometimes go to see Xiaoxuan. Sometimes I drink alone in my room. When I get drunk, I fall asleep. You know, being strong at this time is all for others.
Listen, if you go to comfort others, you can definitely do it, but when you face it yourself, no matter how strong you are, you can't bear it. You simply can't bear it, that kind of grief, that kind of pain.
I almost feel so hurt that I don’t know how much it hurts.
Because of this kind of drinking, my state has become extremely bad, like a lunatic, because Xiaoxuan is so beautiful. If a baby like her leaves, no one can accept it, and I can't accept it even more. I miss Grandpa's
Not to mention that kind of pain, it's his god, his
The sky is gone. Now the only thing that can allow him to live well and let us live well is because there has been no news about her. We still have expectations, we can still wait, and we can still have an idea. I think if we don’t live in peace for the rest of our lives,
If it appears, we can wait like this forever.
I think I will. I am willing to never get married again for Xiaoxuan. I will live alone like this. I think I will anesthetize myself with alcohol. Only when she appears can I get better. I pray for her return every day.