That day, we chatted casually and drank for a long time. During the whole process, Bai Ling would look at me secretly. Her eyes were always like that, which made me feel strange. I thought she must have some thoughts about me. After all, she left China.
, I was still with her.
At around nine o'clock, they left. They lived next door. I sent them out. Bai Ling never spoke to me much after that.
After they came out, I sent them away. I walked up to Bai Ling and said, "Sister, how long do you plan to stay? Are you going back?"
"Let's stay for a while and talk about it later. Hey, you can go back. This store is very good!"
"Go back to your godmother? Take me to say hello to her!" I said.
"Well, okay!" She smiled slightly, suddenly looked at me again, and then turned to leave.
I watched them get in the car and leave.
After I returned to the store, I couldn't seem to calm down. I sat down and continued drinking. I thought maybe she shouldn't come back, or why did she come to see me? If it was before, she would have been in the same mood when she left.
It shouldn't be, of course I didn't say she couldn't come, but it just didn't suit her character.
Today, she took the initiative to come, but when she left, the feeling of treating me as a younger brother was different again.
What happened to all this?
Just as I was sitting there thinking about this, suddenly a voice came.
"By the way, I forgot, my mother asked me to bring you this pack of red dates, saying it is for blood replenishing!"
I looked up and saw Bai Ling standing there quietly.
This time, from the look in her eyes, I was convinced that she had something on her mind.
She put the red dates on the table. I stood up suddenly and said with a strong sense of wine: "Thank you!"
"You're welcome. By the way, there is black rice in it. It's good to make porridge with black rice -" she added.
I said: "Wait a minute!" She actually hadn't left yet.
"What's wrong?" After she came back this time, she was much younger and looked very fashionable. She wore a pair of ultra-short jeans and a T-shirt on top. Her waist was very thin and her hair was tied up neatly. She looked like she was abroad.
I have been exercising a lot for a while.
"Please sit down for a while!" I asked her to sit down.
She shook her head slightly and said, "No, I'm going back. Don't drink so much!"
"Well, Bai Ling, do you hate me so much?"
"Don't say that, there's no need to hate it, Jia Yi——" She called me like this, and I frowned suddenly and said, "What did you call me?"
"Lin Jiayi -" Bai Ling said very indifferently: "I'm going to be a father soon. I can't live like this anymore. I have to live like a sunny man. If my body is damaged, how will I shoulder the responsibility of the family in the future?
?”
When I heard her say this, I nodded and said, "Thank you, sister!"
She nodded, looked down at the wine glass on the table and said, "Go back early!"
But I want to be able to talk to her more, but now I am a man with a family.
I said: "Sister, if there is a suitable person, you can find someone to marry -"
"Well, thank you. I'm living a good life. I'm old and I've experienced everything I should have experienced. I don't think too much about the future. You're still young. You have to live your life well. Come on.
!”
I nodded.
"I-I-" She wanted to say something, but she was in a bad mood. She wanted to say something, but she didn't say it after all.
"What?"
"No, it's nothing!" She wiped her eyes with her hand, then turned around to leave. I grabbed her hand suddenly, and she froze there. I stood there and looked at her hand and said, "What's wrong?
Why are you crying?"
"I didn't cry. The bug accidentally got into my eye. Ha, I have to leave -"
I held her hand and held it gently, but she didn't pull it away immediately. I thought that if she had gone to Canada before, she would have come back soon, but now she didn't. Her hand was in my hand.
The warmth lingered in my hand, and it seemed familiar, but it was a bit far away. I vaguely remembered the feeling, but I couldn’t remember when.
"Did something happen?" I asked her.
"No, I really have to go back. It's getting late. You should go back and rest early. How can Qianqian do it alone at home?"
"She's been living at her mother's house these days—"
"Then go back early!" she said.
I said: "Let me go out for a walk with you, go for a walk!"
She didn't look back and started to pull her hand away. She pulled her hand back and said, "You, don't forget that you are a man with a family, and a man with a family must be responsible for his own family!"
But I noticed a change in her. I felt that she was the same person I knew before. Everything her eyes told me, I would not make a mistake in judgment.
I nodded and said: "Yes, what you said is correct. I understand. In fact, there is nothing -"
"You know if there is anything, so don't say anything!" She walked out.
When I saw her walking out of the bar, I ran up and caught up with her. I called to her and said, "Bai Ling, wait a minute!"
"What else?" she asked me. But I didn't know what to say. There was nothing going on, so what else could I say?
"No, it's nothing. Let me take you back. It's already so dark, okay?"
She turned back to look at me, narrowed her eyes and said, "Do you find this interesting?" Her tone was cold.
"No, it's not interesting!"
"Then what are you talking about? Go back quickly!"
I nodded and said, "I'll give it to you!"
"Didn't you understand what I said?" she said.
"Bai Ling, can I ask you something?"
"What's the matter?" she said.
I said: "Do you remember what happened before, right? Can you tell me? I really want to know, this is very important to me, I hope you can tell me, okay?"
"No, don't ask, can you be like a man?" She suddenly wanted to cry again. But why did she keep crying? If she really couldn't remember the past, why did she keep crying? She must have remembered it.
I rushed forward, grabbed her hand suddenly and said, "Tell me, tell me, do you remember the past? Do you remember everything from the past? Tell me? Tell me, okay?"
Please!”
She really cried, her tears kept falling, but she shook her head and said: "I didn't-"
"You are lying, I don't believe it, you are lying to me, I know you are lying to me, please don't lie to me, okay? Don't lie to me!"
I cried too, and I really wanted to know if she remembered the past.
I grabbed her hand and suddenly held her in my arms. I hugged her and said, "Tell me, tell me, I want to know, I'm in pain -"
"Let me go, let me go quickly, do you hear me? Let me go!"
I said: "Then tell me, do you remember? Tell me!"
"I really don't remember. Can you please stop asking me? Let me go quickly. If you don't let me go, I, I will call someone!"
There were people around at that time, and it was right in front of my store. Suddenly a good-hearted person rushed over and said, "How dare you act like a gangster?"
I let go of her, and then the man said he wanted to call the police. Bai Ling quickly said: "Hello, thank you, don't call the police, he, he is my boyfriend, he, he drank too much, he -"
The man sneered and said, "Boyfriend? That's really interesting -" and then left.
After I let her go, she gasped and looked at me and said, "Are you crazy? What are you going to do?"
I looked at her fiercely, I was crazy, I drank too much, I thought about the past, I thought about those things, I couldn't calm down, I went crazy, she was like this, I couldn't do it without going crazy.
I said: "Yes, I am crazy. You drove me crazy. Why do you come back? If you don't remember, will you be like this? You remember, you came back, when you don't remember,
No matter how much I beg you, you still don't agree to it. Do you know how cruel you are? Do you know?"
She shook her head and said: "You, what are you talking about? This is about who I am, don't say that, go back, wait, wait!" She walked to the bar, I don't know her
Why did she go in? After a while, she came out. When she came out, there was a waiter. The waiter said: "Mr. Lin, have you drunk too much? Do you want me to take you to the hospital to get some water? Or take you home?"
I said: "Oh, it's okay, you can go back, I have nothing to do!"
Bai Ling said: "He drank too much, please call his family!"
It was not convenient for Bai Ling to call me, so she asked my waiter to call me at home. I quickly said: "No, you can go back!" The waiter naturally listened to me and went back immediately.
Bai Ling stood there and said, "If you don't go back, I'll leave!"
She left, and I continued to follow her. After walking a long way, I followed her until I reached a place where there was no one. I ran up to catch up with her and held her hand. There was a bridge, and we were standing on it.
, I pulled her, and she looked back at me and said, "What on earth are you going to do?" She was about to cry again.
I said: "Don't cry, I don't want to do anything, don't deceive me, you can't deceive me, you can't deceive me, you remember before, or you never remember, you did it on purpose, didn't you do it early?"
Knowing that Liu Qian was pregnant, you did it on purpose to get me to be with her. Now that I'm married to her, you're not afraid anymore and come back, right? Is that so? You say it, I'll let you say it
!”
"No, don't think about it here. Things are not what you think at all. Don't be too self-righteous. Can't you let me go? What do you want from me? I know I'm sorry for you, Jiayi, I, I
I’m sorry for you, I deserve to die, I—”
I said: "You still said you don't remember. You used to call me Jiayi. You never called me by this name later, but now you call it out naturally. Why do you think this is because? Did I say it wrong?
What kind of excuses do you want? Bai Ling
, don’t lie to me like this, I won’t embarrass you, I just want to know the truth, otherwise I will be troubled all my life. I am married now, and I will not mess around. Besides, what can I do to you?
What harm? That’s impossible!”
"So what if I remember? Is it that important to you whether you remember or not?" She lowered her head and said.
I put my hands on her shoulders and hugged her gently and said, "It's very important, I want to know!"
"Do you just like that woman who remembers everything and then let her suffer that kind of pain? Really?" Her words made me feel extremely guilty.