I just pressed her down, but I couldn't move. I seemed to have no strength at all. I could only half-press her on her body quietly, and I couldn't do anything else.
Breathing slightly and having a severe headache, I called to her in a completely unconscious voice.
"It's uncomfortable, I feel uncomfortable!"
"Is this better?" She grabbed my head with her fingers and kept grabbing it. It seemed to be better. She turned my body over and I lay there with my hands on my face. I thought I
I have never been so drunk before. I think the reason why I was so drunk that day was probably because I was in a bad mood. In addition, I drank a lot of white wine mixed with a lot of red wine, so I was drunk, and very drunk.
I almost couldn't bear it.
I've never been very drunk when I drink. The drunkenness I remember was one of the worst.
"Let him drink some water, Lingling, let him drink some tea water!" That was the voice of the godmother.
Bai Ling picked me up and held me in her arms. I leaned on the head of the bed and closed my eyes. Of course, I thought of these based on my later memories and what my godmother told me. It should have been like this at the time.
I took a few sips and couldn't drink anymore, so I just leaned there.
"Mom, it's okay, don't worry, just go watch TV!"
My godmother left and she and I were left. I felt a little better because I felt her hands were still scratching me.
But my head hurt more and more, and I hummed and called her name, "Ling, Ling, Ling——"
"Are you still feeling bad? Why don't you go get some water?" she said. After a long while, I shook my head, and it felt particularly painful when I moved my head.
"Why are you drinking so much? Is there something wrong with you? Where did you drink? Is there a little girl?" She actually said this, why did she always mention the little girl and not the little girl?
"I don't know, I don't know-"
"Then you ask the little girl to take care of you and make a phone call!"
I said: "I have a headache. It hurts so much. Oh, Mom, I have a terrible headache—"
When she saw me saying this, she said: "You call me mom, are you my son? Call me again, mom will spare you the pain!"
"Mom - it's uncomfortable, Mom - it's so uncomfortable -" I was in pain, she seemed to kiss my forehead, I said: "Please help me, I'm so uncomfortable, I'm so sick from the alcohol-burning headache -
—”
"My dear, it's okay. It won't hurt in a while. Mom is here, dear -" She hugged me and coaxed me. It seemed that it really wasn't that painful anymore. I was panting slightly.
.
I seemed to be asleep, but I didn't seem to be fully asleep.
But it felt like I was in a dream. I couldn’t remember it clearly. I thought I didn’t speak at the time, so it must have been a dream, right?
"Good boy, mommy loves you. You little heartless one, who asked you to go to me? If I don't do that to you, can you come back so soon? If I am good to you, why don't you stay there with me -
—”
"Then, why did you come back again? Won't you come with me?"
"I didn't originally want to come back. If it weren't for you, how could I come back?"
"Is that so? Really?" I said, "Then do you love me?"
"You always like to ask this, are you a child?"
"Hey, I don't know. I asked because I didn't know. In fact, I'm very mature. You love me. I asked on purpose, otherwise you wouldn't come back, right?"
"Then you still ask, do you know? Xiaolin, how can I forget you? It's impossible. I will only love you in my life and the next life. When I think of you, I feel very excited and feel uncomfortable all over.
real!"
"I want to make love with you, with you, I want to make love with you. I haven't touched you for a long, long time. I feel so uncomfortable. Let me touch you, and I'll be satisfied -"
"You little rascal, you are just a little rascal. Why are you touching me? Is there anything good to touch?"
"Don't you want to? You can only feel for me. I love you, Bai Ling. I am happy every second with you, and I can even die of happiness -"
"Me too, but we can't be together -"
"Why? Why is this?" I remember struggling and grabbing her hand, her shoulder, her arm.
"No why!"
"What's that for?" I cried later, begging her to tell me and hold her.
"Because it's too much love, it's too painful, and also, I hate you. So many women like you, and I'm afraid of getting hurt——"
"Is this it? Is it this one?" I said bitterly: "I swear, I really swear, it won't happen. Give it to me. I only want you. I can only be happy if I am with you, otherwise I will never be happy."
None of them are happy——"
It was dawn, I was still talking, suddenly I woke up suddenly, what a ridiculous reason, I eagerly wanted to find Bai Ling, when I opened my eyes, I found that the sun was so dazzling, the bed was very fragrant, the smell of the sun, I
I'm not wearing anything, not even underneath. Where did my clothes go? Could it be that I vomited wine? It's still hot and I didn't bring any clothes to change. My godmother helped me wash them? Or did she wash them? Then who
Help me take off my clothes?
Is it her? I wrapped the quilt tightly and saw that my body was so powerful. It was so powerful early in the morning.
I lay there quietly, thinking about everything last night, I couldn't remember anything, I didn't even know if those words were a dream or true.
I vaguely heard sounds outside.
"Lingling, did you wash Xiaolin's clothes?"
"Well! What's wrong?"
"Have your underwear been washed too?" Godmother asked cautiously.
Bai Ling said: "Yes, what's wrong?"
The godmother smiled and said, "You are such a kid. What else are you hiding from me? Do you two live together?"
"Mom, what did you say?" Bai Ling began to quibble.
"Don't lie to mom. Mom is just afraid that you will bully Xiao Lin again. If you don't follow him then, he will be very sad!"
"Mom, does washing the underwear mean anything? He didn't bring any clothes to change, so I washed them for her. They were put in the washing machine anyway, and I didn't wash them by hand. Why are they doing it?"
"When did I say what I was doing? I didn't say what I was doing, that's what I meant, ha!" In fact, there is no need for the godmother to ask more, even if there is something, this girl will not tell her.
"Do you want to ask Xiao Lin to eat?"
"Stop yelling. I went in just now and he was still sleeping. Why are you calling him? This kid is not paying attention at all. If he were my son, I would beat him eight times a day-"
"If it were your son, you wouldn't be able to let him go. Xiao Lin is such a good boy. If Mom were you, Mom wouldn't be stupid. Where can you find such a handsome and sensible boy who likes you and is younger than you?
You are an idiot!" My godmother taught Bai Ling this way, I was very happy, I wanted to laugh.
Yes, you are just a fool, silly woman.
"Mom, what about you, are you, huh, huh!"
Fuck, this girl is crazy, the godmother said: "I'm going to hit you, what did you say? I'm telling you, seize the opportunity, how can any man really treat you well? Xiaolin is sincere, and
Don't keep thinking about her past and past problems. What does this man have?
I want to be sincere to you. What man doesn't care? Didn't your father, such an honest man, have some troubles in the beginning? Other women pestered him. How can a handsome boy like Xiao Lin not have girls like him? Then he still has to be sincere to you.
Being young, making some mistakes, what else?"
"Mom, you are quite open-minded. How come you know everything? But Mom, let me tell you, I don't like her being so fussy. I have my own ideas. Besides, I'm not in the mood to talk about this right now.
When I come back this time, I will not go there. I have decided to invest in the international tourism project in Xiliang!"
"You decided to invest in Xiao Lin's family? Wouldn't that be better? I just happened to meet Xiao Lin's parents. Go and visit Xiao Lin's parents for me. You said that you, my child, will be able to meet Xiao Lin more often in the future.
Now, what do you want mom to say about you?"
"Mom, don't say anything. It's my own business. I make the decision myself. I can handle it well. Just enjoy yourself. If not, go find an uncle. Look at what you're wearing. I'll give it to you.
The clothes you bought are so beautiful!”
"Fuck you, they didn't even buy it for you, why do you think you're hurting them--"
"He, injuries are more conducive to his growth. Otherwise, when he sees me, he feels like he wants to feed him milk. He wants to get into my arms and let me feed him milk-"
To say that to me is simply an insult to me. When will I drink her milk? Although I have touched and tasted it countless times, it has been so long that I almost don’t remember it. To be honest, I can’t remember it anymore.
I don’t remember what it looks like, let alone how it tastes.
She is really slandering me by saying this now.
"Then just give it to him. Woman, you don't understand. Women have to be like this all the time to stay young. Xiao Lin is in such good health -"
"He calls your mother so sweet. Mom, go and feed him. What are you doing? I don't want to!"
"I won't tell you, but no one will want you in the future. You are too old. What will you do? If you don't give your mother a grandson while you are still young, and your granddaughter will take care of you, tell me, look at how cute Xiaolin's child is.
, you haven’t seen that she is so smart and beautiful that she calls her uncle, it really hurts me to see her!"
"Mom, can you stop talking?!" Bai Ling said fiercely.
I don't know why she suddenly felt like this, but my godmother stopped talking.
After a while, the door rang. I quickly covered myself with the quilt and pretended to sleep.
I heard her footsteps, and I could tell them. At this time, I suddenly pretended to turn over, came out of the quilt, and then faced her. I thought she would definitely see it, she would definitely.
She didn't seem to take it seriously, and came over, as if putting clothes next to my bed. At this time, I suddenly grabbed her hand, and I slowly opened my eyes, and I found her looking at me.
, and I was facing her very straight, I looked down at my body, and then continued to look at her.