"If you blame me, you don't understand me, I have no choice, you can leave, just listen to me, no matter what I did wrong, if you leave today, don't look back tomorrow, I have abandoned you, yes,
If you keep hating those things, there’s nothing I can do about it—”
"I don't want you to have any way, I don't want it!" She yelled at me, looked at me coldly and said: "You are very angry when I do something, but what about you? What about you? How many women are there around you?
, you have so many women, no one forced you, you have hurt them, you have not only hurt me, have I ever blamed you? I just see farther than you, I know you are a little over 20 years old
Man, I understand you, why don’t you understand me?”
I almost couldn't listen, because what she said was right. What she said directly knocked me down. At that moment, I suddenly felt that I had sorry for her and hurt her. I was no longer worthy of her. I
I did too many things in front of her. Although it is just a man's instinct, as a woman, what would you think? What would you think if you were in another position? Besides, she is such a self-centered, strong, and somewhat feminist woman.
I said: "Don't tell me this again. If you want to talk to me, there will be no consequences. Go away and stay away from this man. No one owes anyone today. Everything is calm. I am no longer entangled.
No matter what you blame, you can just-" I think we need to calm down, calm down each other, maybe cool down, because our hearts are about to fight.
"I'm leaving. I hate you. I hate you little bastard. Why do you want to know me? You are immature and egotistical. You can live a good life, so why do you want to know me?"
"Stop talking. Do you want me to kneel down for you?" I lost control completely. She looked at me and said tremblingly: "Okay, okay!"
She carried her bag and limped along forcefully, her body staggering and her legs beating, and then she walked to her car.
At that time, I looked at her and wanted to call her, but I felt that both of us were angry. You know that getting along between a man and a woman is not a matter of love or not. Sometimes love is too much, which is also terrible. The best love is that
It's kind of plain, with light clouds and clear wind.
She got into the car, and the car parked there for a while. Then she started the car suddenly and drove away.
I didn’t call her. I already knew everything I should know. It’s not a matter of whether we love each other or not. She knows me and I know her. What is that? Personality. The personalities of two people. I can write an article.
You can tell a cause and effect in one sentence or two, but what about real people? I used to read novels and saw some people describe
When men and women are having affairs, they always state the reasons very clearly and clearly. Whether they love or not love, there are reasons. But I want to tell you, a true lover, who loves deeply, cannot explain the reasons and can only go.
Feel it, or give a general idea. If you feel it and think about it, you may be able to come up with some reasons like me.
That's how it is with men and women.
I walked slowly on the street of Bincheng that I had walked countless times. I smoked a cigarette and quietly looked at the night in Bincheng, the men on the street, and the little kids.
Couples were hugging each other, and I was looking at some young boys and girls coming out of the bar I used to run. They were hugging and kissing, and the girls were smoking cigarettes. I couldn't help but feel that I was getting old.
I walked into the bar. The place had been bought by a friend of mine and the name was changed to "a8", a name I don't know what it means. Maybe the style here is closer to that of young people.
After I walked in, there was some noise inside, and many people were dancing there. I was not used to such a bar with loud music. I sat at the bar and ordered a drink. I leaned there and looked at the dancing boys and girls. They were so
They are so passionate and unrestrained, they embrace naturally. Men are looking for women here. Women hope to meet a man they like, or some hope to attract the attention of many men, but she only chooses the one she wants most.
.
These people may come here every day and go to nightclubs as a part of their lives. I wonder why I didn’t like this when I was young.
"Boss!" a girl called me. I turned around and looked at her, but I didn't recognize her.
She hugged a girl and said, "Weren't you the boss here before? Boss Lin, you don't even remember us? You used to work in DS here!"
I smiled and said: "Oh, I seem to remember——"
"Come dance with us, come on!" She pulled me, and I declined by saying, "Sorry, I can't dance!"
"They're all dancing blindly!"
The two girls were very sexy. I just looked at them and thought to myself, what are you doing? I feel that I can do it without messing with girls so casually. There are many such girls here, but I have no interest at all.
, I invited them to have a drink, and then walked out of the bar. There was a tattoo shop next to the bar. I used to work in a bar, and I often went to chat with the boss and saw some people getting tattoos. At that time, the boss knew that I was injured.
They wanted to design a set of tattoos for me, but I never did it.
But this night, I walked into the shop again. The boss was quite old. It turned out that he studied tattooing in Japan and had very high skills. Later, he opened this shop after returning to China. Tattooing has become popular in recent years.
"Master Wen -" Even his surname was Wen, and he seemed destined to be a tattooer. An apprentice came out and said, "Oh, it's Boss Lin. My master is busy inside. It's almost done!"
I sat outside drinking and waiting. After a while, an old man came out wearing glasses. When he opened the curtains, I saw a woman lying there with her back exposed. When the curtains were closed, Mr. Wen said: "
Boss Lin, you haven’t come to chat with me for a long time. I’ll be busy right now, and this girl will be fine soon!” I said, “You hurry up first, I’m not in a hurry!” Then, he looked at me and said, “
Are you here for a tattoo?" I nodded.
Half an hour later, Uncle Wen said: "If you are not busy, I will do the back tonight and the front tomorrow night. If you are busy, come over for an hour every day from now on -"
I said: "I'm not busy, I'm afraid it will affect your rest!"
"I was busy last night and slept all day today. You can sleep while I work. But Xiaolin, there is something I want to tell you. Tattooing is a lifelong thing, especially if you are almost
It's tattooed on the entire upper body -" I said, "I don't want it on the arms, just on the chest and back!"
"That's the same. Getting a tattoo is a lifelong thing. You can't wash it off. When you get old, you have to take it with you when you leave this world. Have you thought about it? You can't regret it -" I nodded.
Say: "No regrets!"
"For a woman? No regrets, that!" He gave a thumbs up and said with a smile: "When I was young, there were many women in Japan. If I were a writer, I don't know how many kinds of flowers and birds I would have to write about!" I said with a smile, "Always.
Have a favorite one!" I added: "Let's use lilies as flowers. The dragon wind is coiled around the lotus, and there are larks around it!" Originally I said words, but Mr. Wen said no words, that was not good.
It's too straightforward. If you want to write, you have to wait until you are old to write. I don't know if he said it to me on purpose or if this is really the rule.
"You are very picky, let me draw some pictures for you first. Xiaolin, have you really thought about it?" The old gentleman is a bit of a mother-in-law.
I said, "I've thought about it. It's okay. Uncle Wen, don't worry. Let's sign a contract. It's not like you don't understand me. I'll never change what I said!"
Mr. Wen nodded and said with a smile: "Take off your clothes first, and let me see how to arrange them and cover those scars. In fact, I think the best thing is to redesign them, but since you want dragon and phoenix, then
That’s all!”
I said: "The dragon wind brings auspiciousness, what a wonderful union for hundreds of years!"
"I know what you mean, kid."
I lay there, and when the carving knife went down, I felt a little bit of pain, but it was bearable, and the pain was quite pleasant. I kept thinking of Bai Ling in my heart, and I wanted to carve her on my body.
Although it's a bit abstract, I don't need to let her know the meaning. I just need to keep it in my heart. This is my own business.
Later, I fell asleep. In the early hours of the morning, the back was finished. Mr. Wen said that it would take at least a week if I gave him an apprenticeship, and he is the best designer I have ever done. He is very attentive. When she brought two mirrors to let him
When I saw the back, I felt very beautiful. I looked very pleasant to the eyes, but it seemed that it was not me anymore. I seemed to be looking at someone else. There were many lilies around, and the body of Long Feng was wrapped around me. I wanted to do it for her.
Change may not only be a physical change, but also a mental change.
In the early morning of the next day, Mr. Wen also finished the front. When I stood in the mirror and looked at my body, especially when I saw those larks, I kept saying "Bai Ling, Bai Ling——" over and over again in my heart.
The tattoo is really beautiful. The original scars are almost invisible. He covered the obvious places with leaves, bird feathers, and the overlapping areas where dragons and phoenixes are entwined. The whole thing looks very harmonious.
It looks quite sexy and has the masculine beauty of a man.
I looked at it and said, "It feels a bit like a gangster!!"
I said that casually, but what I didn't expect was that one day, someone would really force me to take that cruel path. Of course, it was just cruelty. There was nothing wrong with it. In this society, if in the end
After losing a supporter and trying to kill you, what can you do?
Although I only have a lark tattoo, I am willing to offend any powerful person for Bai Ling, Xiaoxuan, or anyone I know, even if it is Yao Wanshan's son!!