Long Sifeng went to find Long Zhan after dinner. Unexpectedly, when she entered the door, she found an ordinary-looking woman in her twenties sitting inside. Long Zhan was sitting beside her. They were very close.
Seeing Long Sifeng stunned at the door, Long Zhan stood up and introduced her, saying that the strange woman was a staff member of the Kunming Municipal Garden Bureau, named Hu Yixiang, and the sister of Hu Yilan, a life teacher at the Selection and Training Office.
Long Sifeng was not stupid. One look at the red-faced woman sitting on Long Zhan's bed, and he knew that the two were on a so-called blind date in movies and TV shows.
Long Sifeng's smile froze on her face, and there was a cold air of despair in her breath. She stared straight at Long Zhan and Hu Yixiang. Suddenly, she turned around and ran away without even saying hello. Long Zhan followed closely.
He grabbed her at the corner of the stairs and said, "Feng'er, listen to me!"
Long Sifeng flicked away Long Zhan's hand and ran away like a snake, scorpion, and beast.
"Feng'er, Teacher Hu means well...she looks at me...at my...age..." Long Zhan is the worst at explaining. In his opinion, doing it is more direct and clear than talking...
"I don't believe anything you say - you dare to say that you two are not on a blind date - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
She covered her rising and falling chest, looked at Long Zhan under the shadow of the lamp and choked out: "I...I like you...I have always liked you...
Four years ago...I came to Kunming for you...Four years later...I stayed in Kunming again for you...You...save what I said in the hospital that night,
I heard it all...you like me too...right!! Why not? Why can't you be with me...with me..."
No more words can be said, because all the courage has disappeared as the secrets in the heart are revealed.
Long Zhan gritted his teeth, his resolute face twitched, and looked at Long Sifeng without saying a word.
Long Sifeng's vision was blurry, and she couldn't clearly see the blood in Long Zhan's eyes. She just saw Long Zhan silently turning around, his back to her, and speaking to her in an extremely cold tone that he had never seen before.
He said: "You...said...I just pretended that I didn't hear it...go back." After saying that, it seemed as if he didn't hear Long Sifeng's sobs that grew louder in an instant, and he strode away without looking back.
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Long Sifeng just cried all the way and ran all the way back to the dormitory. After being ruthlessly rejected by the emotions she had suppressed for many years, she just wanted to anesthetize herself and vent herself. She wished she could lose her memory or consciousness and no longer suffer so much.
.
Why is this happening...
Didn't he never plan to get married? Why did he suddenly agree to go on a blind date when she graduated and became free?
"Xiaoxue... I can't bear it... My heart is almost broken... It hurts... it hurts..." Long Sifeng hugged Gong Xue, still crying sadly...
When Long Sifeng's mood calmed down a little, Gong Xue pulled off the quilt to cover her, and said with a clear and firm look: "I will help you, Sifeng, but you have to promise me that no matter what decision the instructor makes, you will do it."
You can't act like a child anymore and make things difficult for him, you know?"
Long Sifeng closed her eyes sadly, and a line of crystal tears flowed down her cheeks and flowed silently into the quilt...
While Gong Xue was thinking about her words, she imagined the scene of meeting Teacher Hu's sister and came downstairs.
Unexpectedly, the person she was looking for stood like a tall poplar in front of the flower garden outside the dormitory building.
I don’t know how long it has been standing, but there are still a few white fallen flowers on the shoulder strap with three stars.
"Instructor." She walked towards Long Zhan, stopped and gave a military salute.
Long Zhan usually pays great attention to the etiquette in the military camp. Whenever someone salutes and greets him, he will respond with the most serious and formal etiquette. But today, he seems to be worried, and the tangled lines between his eyebrows are like dark clouds that cannot be blown away no matter how hard he blows.
..
He waved his hand, looked at Gong Xue solemnly, and then turned his gaze to the lighted window of dormitory 95, "Is she...sleeping?"
Gong Xue shook her head, "How can she possibly sleep? She is waiting for me to bring news back."
A bitter smile appeared on Long Zhan's lips, pointing to the empty small playground in front of him and saying, "Let's go over there and talk."
"good."
Long Zhan did not continue talking, but turned around and walked towards the playground. Gong Xue followed. When she was approaching the training equipment, she stopped and asked proactively: "Teacher Hu's sister, do you plan to get along with her?"
Long Zhan turned around, but did not look at Gong Xue. Instead, he pressed his back against the cold horizontal bar, looked at the moon covered by dark clouds in the sky and said, "If nothing else happens, I plan to get married this year."
"Oh? Do you like her? Or is it because of Sifeng that you are so anxious to get married?" Although she knew Long Zhan's thoughts and attitude towards Long Sifeng very early, the marriage without any warning still made her feel deeply
don't understand.
Long Zhan didn't answer immediately.
In the distance is a foreign language corner spontaneously formed by lower-grade students. Whenever there are no classes at night, there are always more than 20 young college students gathering together to enjoy the fun of learning and communication. Their conversations and laughter are faintly floating.
Come and break the silence of the night.
Long Zhan looked solemn and spoke slowly: "Feng'er is still young, and her future is very broad, not just the love in front of her... I believe that this decision will only bring benefits to her, not disadvantages...
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"But..." Gong Xue couldn't help but interrupt, "But...instructor...you obviously like Sifeng..."
Long Zhan shook his head resolutely, and his eyes were firmer than ever before, "From today on, she and I will only have a kinship relationship, and we will have no other inappropriate thoughts. Gong Xue, you don't understand that at my age,
I have experienced a life of hardship and bloodshed, and I have already taken everything lightly... Hu Yixiang, in fact, is a good person. She does not have the philistine and greed of women nowadays. She does not care about my lack of house and money, but she is willing to live with me. I am very grateful.
Her..”
"Is it okay without love?" In Gong Xue's opinion, love is the most sacred and inviolable existence in the world. She cannot accept a marriage without love.
Long Zhan didn't answer for a long time. He was especially prone to silence today.
At the end of Long Zhan's life, he said with deep eyes: "For me, as long as I do good things to Feng'er, nothing is impossible."
Of course, it also includes a loveless marriage that must be achieved through hard work.
Back at the dormitory, as Gong Xue expected, Long Sifeng didn't sleep at all.
She hugged her knees and leaned against the wall, looking blankly at the shadow of the sycamore trees outside the window.