That is to say, from these small details of life, the relationship between Fang Ju and I gradually developed conflicts.
However, in some aspects, I admit that Fang Ju is a perfect woman. Because she has a good background and a good education, she always gives people a sense of elegance and grace in front of outsiders. At the same time, she is also a very conscientious person.
Our mother, under her careful care, our daughter was taken care of as carefree as a little princess.
However, I just can't accept her attitude towards my parents and family. I know this has something to do with our growing backgrounds. Our growing backgrounds are so different that this contradiction cannot be reconciled, so I can only sigh.
Later, my parents passed away one after another, so family conflicts in this area gradually faded away over time.
However, at this time, Fang Ju fell ill. It was a tumor on her uterus. After a doctor's diagnosis, it was initially determined to be benign. Although Fang Ju had always lived a comfortable life, diseases are sometimes unpredictable.
Since Fang Ju fell ill, I have been taking care of her with all my heart. After the test results came out, the doctor said they were not very good. To be cautious, the doctor removed part of Fang Ju's uterus during the operation.
After the operation, under the careful care of doctors and family members, Fang Ju's body gradually recovered. However, after that, she developed obvious sexual frigidity.
I was not yet forty years old at the time. Due to regular fitness exercises, my body was very strong and my sexual desire was also very strong. The frequency of sexual life once a week was not satisfactory to me, and our husband and wife at that time were not satisfied.
The actual situation is that she doesn't have sex once or twice a month. Even if she does, Fang Ju's attitude is extremely cold and she often deals with things in a hurry.
I had no choice but to find solace in other women. Because Fang Ju couldn't meet my needs in this regard, she turned a blind eye to me looking for women outside.
Because I am now a successful businessman, there are not many Yingying Yanyan around me. However, I always feel that I lack a sense of communication with them that goes straight to the bottom of my heart. Those young women can satisfy my needs.
My body cannot satisfy my soul.
It was at this time that I met Su Man, the mother of my daughter Ranran’s good friend Tongtong.
The first time I met her was at her home. At that time, I personally drove to pick up my daughter Ranran and go home. The moment I opened the door, I felt dumbfounded because Su Man's temperament was so much like my first girlfriend.
, quiet and shy. Although she is a mother, she still retains a bit of shyness of a girl, which makes people laugh.
However, at that time, Su Man was someone else's wife, and I was also a man with a family. Although my sex life was not harmonious with my wife, for a family like ours, these would not be shown on the surface.
I quietly asked Fang Ju about Su Man and got to know her better. I also learned about Su Man and her husband Deng Wenliang through other channels, but I did not take any measures against her during this period.
The next step is to secretly pay attention to information related to her family situation.
Later, almost suddenly, I heard Fang Ju say that Su Man and her husband had divorced, and I didn’t know the specific circumstances.
I sent someone to inquire about the specific situation and learned that Deng Wenliang did not give Su Man the portion of his company's property that should be given to her. I felt very angry and wanted to give Deng Wenliang some trouble.
Look, if he bullies a defenseless woman who has lived with him for more than ten years like this, is he still a fucking man?
But from my perspective at the time, I was not in a position to take any action against Deng Wenliang, so I had to secretly watch Su Man's every move.
Later, Su Man disappeared, and later, I learned that she actually opened a spicy snack shop in a mixed environment like a village in the city.
When I heard the news, I had mixed feelings. It could be said that I felt heartbroken for her, but also admired her courage. A weak woman like Su Man dared to open a snack in an extremely complex environment like an urban village where the lower class people live together.
The courage of the store is really commendable. At the same time, I was secretly worried that she would encounter some trouble. After all, she was just a weak woman.
So I often drove around the village in the city, looking forward to meeting Su Man by chance one day. Finally, Su Man saw my car when I was passing there, so I naturally asked to go to her shop to have a look.
Look, we will have a connection next.
At that time, I hoped to use this opportunity to help her and give her a sum of money to let her do something she likes according to her own wishes. But Su Man is a very introverted and shy person, maybe to avoid suspicion, she
She resolutely refused to accept the money I sponsored for her, which made me feel helpless.
Later, I found several opportunities to ask her to meet, but Su Man declined all of them for one reason or another. She finally met with me, but maybe I was too eager to express myself at the time, which scared her, which led to her later
He no longer dared to come out to see me, which made me even more helpless.
But I can't help but think of her all the time in my heart, her gentle and reserved temperament, her faint smile and her expression of wanting to talk, and even the faint scent of lavender perfume on her body,
They all left me with a long aftertaste.
I couldn't help but reflect in my heart: With my current status as Zhu Yunxiu, what kind of woman can't I want? How many young and beautiful stars, models, and white-collar workers usually flirt with me overtly or covertly, and some even
He openly showed his love to me without worrying about my married status.
But why can I turn a blind eye to these young and beautiful women? On the other hand, when I face Su Man, I am like a young boy who has just begun to fall in love, thinking about her as a divorced woman in her thirties.
What about losing your soul?
I carefully analyzed my psychology and felt that there were several reasons. First, Su Man's temperament was very similar to my first love Yun, especially her facial features and expression. They were similar to Yun, so I fell in love with her.
I found a long-lost feeling of first love.
What’s more, Su Man’s gentle and reserved temperament is a special charm unique to oriental women. This charm is very fascinating to men. I am just an ordinary person, and of course I am not immune to being deeply attracted by it.
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Finally, there is another point. Although Su Man is in her thirties, she still retains a very pure temperament from her teenage years. When she looks at people, her eyes are very soft, but she still has an unavoidable...
With a hint of shyness, this feeling is in sharp contrast to those women who are usually wives and mothers in their thirties.
Ordinary women at this age have already experienced the baptism of marriage for many years and are mothers of children of several years old. When they behave or even communicate with others, they no longer have the shyness and shyness they had when they were unmarried.
The original innocence and innocence are no longer in their eyes, replaced by the tiredness and calmness that life has brought to them.
So from this point of view, Su Man still retains a trace of innocence from her teenage years, which is very valuable. This is also the main reason why I can't stop loving her, especially when she repeatedly rejects my pursuit, which makes me even more
I feel irritable and restless, and even feel distracted during the day at work. I often think of her, and her graceful figure appears in front of my eyes.
Su Man couldn't accept me, so I protected her silently. After the car accident in which she accidentally hit her, I sent someone to investigate the cause of the accident and found that it was just a pure accident. But at the same time, I also discovered that
I learned about a boy named Ye Xing who was very close to Su Man. He and others had some secrets that were unknown to others. I am not interested in those secrets. I just hope that they will not endanger Su Man's safety, so I
Send an anonymous letter to Ye Xing to keep him away from Su Man.
In order to make Man give up, I also sent Man two important addresses related to Ye Xing. I thought that if Ye Xing really had such an important position in her mind, she would go and find it.
Unexpectedly, she really went to investigate, and the result was that she discovered some truths that Ye Xing had been hiding from her, and they finally separated completely.
I did this not because I didn't want the beauty of adulthood, nor because I was jealous, but because I felt that Su Man and that boy were really inappropriate, and at the same time, I was also afraid that they would cause great harm to Su Man.
It turns out that I originally wanted Su Man to be my regular lover. Anyway, she was divorced, and my marriage with Xie Fangju had long existed in name only. The so-called perfect couple was just an illusion created for others to save face. Our couple had long been together.
We have been sleeping in separate beds for a long time, and we seldom communicate with each other on weekdays. It is just because of our social status to avoid having a bad social impact, and there is a daughter between us, all of which make me unable to file for divorce from Fang Ju easily.
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But after I expressed my love several times, Su Man refused to accept me. I wonder if it's because she cares about the status of marriage?
I thought hard about this, and also reflected on every detail of my marriage with Fang Ju over the years. Thinking about the current situation where we sleep in separate rooms and have basically no communication on weekdays, I feel that there is not much that can be done about this marriage.
It made sense, so after weighing the left and right, I filed for divorce from Xie Fangju.
I never expected that Fang Ju would react so strongly to my divorce request. She cried when I proposed it, and then cried and asked me loudly: "I have already allowed you to have a lover outside, and you still want to
How about it? Why can't you reserve the title of your wife for me? Do you have to be so heartless after we have been married for more than ten years? "
Facing Fang Ju's crying and crying, I felt very sad. I patiently analyzed it with her: "Fang Ju, do you think our marriage has reached this stage? The husband and wife sleep in separate rooms. Apart from the education of our daughter,
, there is no communication between us at all, just like strangers living under the same roof, what is the point of continuing to have such a relationship between husband and wife? Rather than maintaining such a hypocritical veil of marriage, it is better to completely lift it
It gives each other a way out, Fang Ju, don't you think so?"
Unexpectedly, in the face of my earnest persuasion, Xie Fangju not only refused to listen, but broke out like hysteria. She cried and shouted at me: "Stop talking to me such nonsense! Don't think I don't know what you are thinking?"
Do you like Tongtong's mother, right? I've read your diary. You said in your diary that Su Man refused to be your lover and repeatedly rejected your pursuit, which made you very distressed, so you were hesitating about divorce.
, and then give her a formal title. This is your original intention of filing for divorce, right?"
When I heard this, I was stunned. After being stunned, I asked Fang Ju seriously: "You actually peeked at my diary? Do you know that couples should also respect their personal privacy?"
Fang Ju wiped her tears and said to me angrily: "You dare to write, but are you afraid of others reading? There is an affair between husband and wife! But you are obviously ungrateful! You have forgotten how my Xie family supported you in the beginning.
Is that so? Now that you have become a successful person, you want to divorce your wife. Zhu Yunxiu, do you still have any conscience?"
When Xie Fangju said these words, she completely lost the soft and dignified side she presented to outsiders in the past. Her hair was disheveled, her face was red, her ears were red and her eyes were swollen. She looked like any shrew in the city. I knew that if I continued to argue tit-for-tat with her like this, it would only lead to trouble.
Both sides suffer losses.
So I stood up and said to her calmly: "Forget it, you are very emotional now. We can't get any results from our discussion under this situation. Let's wait until you calm down."
With that said, I put on my coat and was about to go out. Fang Ju shouted to me hoarsely in the living room: "Zhu Yunxiu, if you want to divorce me, don't even think about it in this life! Unless I die!"
I thought Fang Ju was just saying something angry, so I sighed, didn't respond to her, and went straight out.
But I never thought that Fang Ju would actually commit suicide later! Fortunately, she was discovered by the family servant in time and sent to the hospital for treatment, so that there were no more serious consequences.
After experiencing this life and death disaster, Fang Ju also thought about it and finally let me live. We divorced peacefully.
However, even though I was divorced, Su Man still didn't accept me. She said she was willing to have a gentle relationship with me.
Alas, I sighed silently in my heart, but I respected Su Man's thoughts. It would be a good thing to be a lifelong gentleman with a woman like her who is soft on the outside and strong on the inside.
Of course, in the years to come, during our gentle relationship, if she can slowly be moved by me, accept me as a person, and join hands with me to be a loving partner for a lifetime, that will be great for me.