Nie Yunfeng did not finish singing the song "Ten Years". He paused at the phrase "Ten Years Later". After a long silence, he raised his head and returned the microphone to the host. He said with a smile: "I give up this grand prize and the game starts again."
." There was an uproar below, and everyone looked at this man in shock.
But he walked off the stage gracefully, with a calm posture, and returned to his seat regardless of the attention of the crowd. He drank a large glass of colorful wine on the table and drank it to the end. The coldness reached his heart, and the slightly sweet cocktail was in his mouth.
But it's so bitter.
This kind of wine may not be suitable for him. It is not strong enough or exciting enough!
"Yun Feng, if we are brothers, just tell us what's on your mind!"
Jiang Chenxi couldn't stand it anymore. He felt that something was wrong with Nie Yunfeng from the time they made an appointment to meet him in the evening. He originally coaxed him to perform on stage just to stir up the atmosphere. However, he was carrying a guitar and singing, giving people a feeling of endless vicissitudes.
Sadness radiates from my bones.
Unexpectedly this time, Nie Yunfeng did not remain silent. He just lit up the cigarette again, took a few puffs, and looked up at the alternating red and green spotlights above the stage, "Chen Xi, my...
The depression may be coming back again.”
Depression? Jiang Chenxi's face changed slightly. His brother of five years, he knew some of Nie Yunfeng's past. No one would have thought that this bright and charming man in front of him once suffered from depression, and later miraculously recovered.
, he never had another attack. This may be the reason why he became a psychological counselor.
Nie Yunfeng is like a double-faced person. During the day, he is the psychological counselor behind the desk of Yunfeng Studio, and at night, he is the boss behind the nightly Ye Weiyang. He was even once the popular "Brother Feng" in Roucheng.
"No one of the brothers on the road dared to speak loudly when they saw him.
I heard him mention these things once or twice later, but didn't talk about it much. When they met, they had stopped hanging out on the road and withdrew from the black market. But to this day, the underground market still wants to give him face, and even the top brass of Roucheng Baidao
Also treat him politely.
Jiang Chenxi squinted at the man in front of him, a little confused. Sometimes he felt that even though they had known each other for five years, they still had not entered his heart. His psychological defense was very deep.
I remember someone said: There is a place in everyone's heart that cannot be touched by others, which we call secrets. Under the consciousness of self-protection, secrets will be suppressed, distorted, and forgotten, but when this consciousness collapses,
People's emotions will be affected, including jealousy, persistence, and violence, and everything will get out of control.
Will Nie Yunfeng be like this now?
"I don't know when, I started having the same dream over and over again. The dream always had the same scene and the same people. It was always sweet at the beginning, but in the end, I woke up from a nightmare every time. Time and time again,
I feel like my heart is getting more and more desolate, and I have the urge to end my life again."
Nie Yunfeng's eyes were blurred, and he whispered softly in the faint smoke, adding decadence to his laziness.
Jiang Chenxi was stunned for a moment, then looked to the side. It turned out that the bar had closed, the music had stopped, and the guests were leaving one by one. No wonder his voice, so small, could still be heard. But...his words
Shocking.
Ending his life?! Jiang Chenxi had to start paying attention to this matter. Yun Feng's character has always been casual and uninhibited. He seemed to do everything carelessly. Maybe the only thing he considered serious was that he dumped the bar to him a while ago.
, accompanied that woman named Jian Jian to act in a foreign country. He didn't know why Yun Feng was so enthusiastic about other people's affairs, and even did not hesitate to become an enemy of the powerful Rong Jue.
"What dream did you have? Can you tell me?" After careful consideration, he asked carefully, but he was smiling bitterly in his heart. He was not a psychological counselor, but he was doing such a consulting job for a psychological expert.
Nie Yunfeng looked over with bottomless eyes, his gaze seemed to be focused on Jiang Chenxi, and seemed to be looking through him at an unknown place. Suddenly he showed an evil smile again, and the previous melancholy expression was swept away.
"Chen Xi, I think I miss a woman!" The corner of Jiang Chenxi's mouth twitched. Looking at his expression carefully, she found that the tragic side just now was gone. She couldn't help scolding him angrily and funny: "You kid is pretending to be with me.
Are you depressed and want a woman? If you want a woman, don’t you already have it at your fingertips?"
This boy, after pretending to be sentimental for a long time, said that he missed a woman... He would still be short of women. With his charming look, which woman could resist him?
"I mean, I want to...love a woman!" When he said the word "love", he hesitated slightly.
Jiang Chenxi had an evil smile on his face, "When you are with a woman, isn't it all about...making love?"
"Fuck you!" The cigarette case was thrown over and hit him on the head, and then he fell freely. Nie Yunfeng laughed and scolded: "What are you thinking about?" Jiang Chenxi shrugged, "You have to be serious about that.
Let’s talk! I think there are many girls here, let Ruth loosen your muscles tonight? Or fly together with Xiaolan?” After saying that, she pushed his shoulder and winked at him.
Nie Yunfeng kicked him, and he immediately jumped up quickly, "Hey, if I don't bring you like this, a gentleman will talk but not take action!" This time, Nie Yunfeng did not answer his words and tease him, but took a deep breath.
Yan said calmly: "Chen Xi, have you ever experienced the feeling of the first time? I have lived for 30 years and have experienced all kinds of excitement. I have been in the underworld, skated, played with women, etc.
, but I have only slept with the woman I love once, and it was the first time."
The smile on Jiang Chenxi's face froze, and he looked down at the brother in front of him. He seemed to have an evil smile on his lips and a teasing tone, but it seemed as if he had lost his soul. He was not joking. But when he thought about it, he felt that
The ridiculous three words "first time" seemed a bit funny. Jiang Chenxi's first time? First woman? His heart suffocated, and the image of someone gradually appeared in his mind.
Nie Yunfeng raised his eyes and saw that he was stunned on the spot. A flash of realization flashed in his eyes, "You have been back for so long and you haven't seen her yet?" Jiang Chenxi sat down in silence. Do you want to see her? In what manner should he appear in front of her?
?What they lost was not only time, but also love. He was afraid that when they met again, he would not be able to help but... attack her.
At this time, I somewhat understood Nie Yunfeng's mentality. "Virgin Complex" is a common problem for every man, especially if the girl he has loved deeply, that feeling will be even more profound.
It turns out that this was the reason why something was wrong with him today. He was thinking about the woman he fell in love with in the first place!
Jiang Chenxi didn't know what to say to ease the current depressed atmosphere, because even he was brought into that emotion, and his mouth was full of bitterness. In the end, he poured a full glass for the two of them.
liquor.
"Yun Feng, you will never return unless you are drunk!"
The two raised their heads and toasted. If it's too painful, then get drunk. After getting drunk, you can temporarily forget the pain.
It's just that for people who clearly want to get drunk, even if they drink until dawn, their eyes are still clear. In addition to their brain being groggy, the pain and regret they want to forget are still lingering in their hearts.
There is a common saying: time can dilute everything.
Is this true?
But some people say: If you miss someone so deeply that even time cannot dilute it, then that person is the happiest person in the world, and you... are the saddest person in the world.
He can't forget it, he really can't forget it. Seven years have passed and he still can't forget it.
I will never forget that late autumn night, it was extremely cold.
Nie Yunfeng leaned on the back of the sofa with blurred eyes. I don't know if it was because of the wine or something, but his vision became blurred. The scene of that night seven years ago was clearly played before his eyes over and over again.
He stood at the window, hiding behind the curtains, staring at the retreating figure, so weak and yet so strong! He held the sticky note that had become wrinkled and ugly in his hand tightly, spread it out again, and walked under the moonlight.
Look, there is a neat line of words written on it: Nie Yunfeng, I love you! Let’s break up!
Let's break up!
His vision began to blur, and big tears dropped on the piece of paper, melting the writing of the pen, blurring the last five words, leaving only the sentence: Nie Yunfeng, I love you!
But what's the use? What can be erased are the writings, but what cannot be erased are the scars. He knows that they are finished, he and she are finished, and he has truly lost her! Afterwards, in order to cut off his own thoughts, he told everything about her
All her things were thrown into the trash can, and nothing was left. But when he turned around, he regretted it, and ran back to the trash can to search, trying to find all traces of her existence, but God was not with him.
Hopefully, the garbage truck would have picked up the garbage a moment ago.
Standing in front of the garbage can, he kicked her hard. Why? Why was this happening? He was unwilling to give up and drove to chase the garbage truck. However, because of his temporary hesitation, when he arrived at the garbage dump, everything about her had been destroyed.
Burned down.
Just like the relationship between him and her, there is no trace left.
Perhaps there is still something left, that blurred piece of paper, now hidden deep in the drawer of his house.
It's ridiculous that in the end, the only connection between them, the only remaining memory, was that piece of paper without temperature.
"Yun Feng, are you drunk?" Jiang Chenxi's voice interrupted his memories. He opened his eyes, and his deep black eyes were filled with sadness that could not be eliminated. He murmured softly: "Being sober will only make people miserable.
Then why not let people just stay in the dream? If the goal of survival has been lost, why can't it be found in the dream? If the dream is a world full of hope, why should I wake up?"
Jiang Chenxi smiled, but his eyes were dim, and pain came from somewhere in his heart. He once loved a woman so deeply, but in the end it was all in vain. In the years after leaving this city, he wanted to see her again all the time.
At that time, he would definitely not let her go. But when he returned to this city, he did not dare to see her. Even if he knew where she was, he still pretended not to know.
Men, it’s okay to play with anything, just don’t play with feelings.