On April 1st, April Fool's Day when he was 18 years old, there was a "bang", like thunder passing by, and Nie Yunfeng's heart tower collapsed.
Because his mother, who had always been dependent on him, jumped from the 20th floor without any warning, leaving no last words. Standing in front of his mother's bloody corpse, his heart was empty without a single tear.
From the beginning of his memory, his mother took him around, living a wandering life. Going to city after city, her mother was looking for something. There was never any joy on her face, and there was a heavy look in her eyes.
of sadness.
Inevitably, she suffered from depression. She would often sit alone all day without eating or sleeping. She would often scratch her hands with a razor blade, and she would burst into tears when he found out. But even so
, he never thought that his mother would leave one day, and by choosing such a... special day, was he fooling himself or him?
When the person he spent time with day and night suddenly disappeared, he suddenly lost the focus of his life. He used to think about going out to work every day to earn money to support his mother. Now, he has no direction in life.
Sometimes he wonders whether depression is hereditary or contagious. Otherwise, why did he seem to suffer from this disease after his mother left? He feels that there is no meaning in living. Even when he walked to the window, he thought
Try the feeling of mother falling from the sky at the end.
I don’t know why when he was a child, even though his family was poor, his mother insisted on sending him to take fighting and fighting classes. Later, when he grew older, he thought that learning these lessons could protect his mother, so he studied very seriously. Now his mother committed suicide, and everything is over.
As long as he is still in the world, what is the use of what he has learned?
He was an illegitimate child and had never met his father. But his mother kept talking about that person's name in his ears all his life, always talking about how that person loved her. But since he loved her so much, why did he leave their mother and son alone?
Abandoning and ignoring? Is this love?
Mom's life was like living in a dream, sometimes smiling, sometimes crying, telling him her thoughts and pain without any scruples. Then, she took that step to pursue the unreachable dream.
From the book, depression is characterized by symptoms such as low mood, reduced interest, slow thinking, pessimism and world-weariness. Nie Yunfeng compared his own situation and found that it was indeed very consistent, even more serious. His mother had been gone for a while, but he was still
He would often see her phantom waving to him.
At this time, he stood at the street corner and heard her voice again: "Xiao Feng, come, come to mom..." The soft words were like warm wind blowing through his soul, in the middle of the road
It was his mother's white figure, with a smile he had never seen before on her face. He stepped out and slowly walked towards the warmth he had longed for.
"Squeak--" The sharp sound of brakes pierced his eardrums. With the "bang" sound, Nie Yunfeng lowered his head and saw his body being thrown into the air, then falling freely and hitting the ground heavily.
Pain pierced through his limbs and bones. When he turned his head to the side, he could see blood spreading from underneath his body, and there was a taste of blood in his mouth.
I looked in panic at the place where my mother was standing in the middle of the road, but she was nowhere to be seen. My heart sank to the bottom of my heart, Mom, where are you? Don’t abandon me! I looked up at the sky, and it turned out that she was there, and she was floating in the air.
, there was a familiar sadness on her face, and the warm smile just now was gone. Nie Yunfeng stretched out his hand, trying to get closer to her, but blood filled her eyes, and the sunlight was too dazzling, and her figure became blurry.
My vision was also blurred.
Suddenly, a figure blocked the strong light and blocked the sunlight behind her, forming a circle of light. She asked: "Are you okay?" That was the most beautiful voice he had ever heard in the world, like the sound of spring water.
Wonderful and refreshing.
That moment became eternity.
The girl squatted down, her eyes full of anxiety. The man lying on the ground, no, it should be said to be a boy, his eyes were half-opened, his face was stained with blood, and his true face could not be seen clearly.
The driver was not driving very fast just now, but the boy suddenly walked into the middle of the road, and the boy could not brake in time, knocking him out. The driver was already calling for an ambulance, hoping that he would be safe.
Because of the close distance, Nie Yunfeng could see the face clearly. Although her eyes were filled with blood, she was still clear. She was a very beautiful girl, wearing a white dress, with clear eyes and long hair as smooth as a black waterfall. Just like the first time.
The rising sun gently walks out of the horizon and stands gracefully on the clear sea, covered in mist and soft waves, looking at itself tenderly.
At that moment, I just felt a warmth and the breath of sunshine rushing towards my face, as if being looked at by her like this would last forever. I tried my best to open my eyes wide, wanting to take a closer look, and to imprint the girl's appearance in my heart, but
The next moment, his head was hit by severe pain that overwhelmed his consciousness and he fainted.
When he woke up again, he was already in the hospital bed. The nurse told him that he had been in a car accident and someone had taken him to the hospital and saved him. He suddenly remembered the beautiful and warm girl and grabbed the nurse's sleeve.
Urgent question: "Where is the person who sent me to the hospital?"
The nurse looked at his clasping hand strangely, then looked at him again, and chuckled: "Do you want to thank that gentleman? But the gentleman just left the medical expenses and left without saying anything about himself.
name."
Sir? He was stunned. Shouldn't it be a girl? Could it be that what he saw before he fell into coma was another hallucination? But why was the girl's appearance so clearly engraved in his mind? Especially the feeling of sunshine,
I feel warm every time I think of it.
Nie Yunfeng stayed in the hospital for nearly a month. Maybe it was because of the sunshine in his heart. He never saw the phantom of his mother again. His eyes were clear and no longer hazy. Even the sadness in his heart gradually faded away and would no longer appear.
Feeling depressed and pessimistic every day, he thought: His depression may be recovering.
After he was discharged from the hospital, he often did one thing when walking on the road. He paid attention to long-haired girls in white clothes, trying to find that figure among them. He wanted to prove that the girl he saw when the blood filled his eyes was not him.
hallucination.
However, he never met her again. He felt disappointed, lonely, unwilling, and mostly powerless. Roucheng was not big, but it was not small either. Even if they were in the same city, he could not find her.
On this day, Nie Yunfeng received a call from his school teacher, asking him how he was injured. It suddenly occurred to him that he was a student who had just entered the third year of high school. His mother's incident and the car accident happened to happen during the summer vacation, and he was in the hospital for a month to recover from his injuries.
, it was already past the time to report for the start of school. After thinking about it for only a second, he replied to the teacher and said that he had recovered and would go to school tomorrow.
Originally, after his mother left, he had no intention of studying anymore, and even planned to take a leave of absence from school. However, after the car accident, his mood changed dramatically. Since it was not the worst, what was the point?
What about the hurdles that cannot be overcome? Perhaps this is also the realization gained after walking on the edge of life and death.
The next day, as soon as he walked into the school gate, he saw the familiar white color in the distance. He took a breath and stared closely at the back. The white dress and slender figure were very similar to the images that circled in his mind every day.
Her steps followed her uncontrollably, her dress was fluttering, and although she didn't have long hair, her ponytail was still so charming.
I kept praying with my heart in my heart, it was her...
At a corner, she turned sideways, revealing half of her face.
Nie Yunfeng paused, squinting as she gradually walked away, his heart beating like wild thunder, and inexplicable ecstasy surged over him. It was really her! Just when he almost gave up the idea of searching, she appeared inadvertently.
In front of my eyes.
We meet each other everywhere in life. It turns out that God has his own arrangements. Every encounter has its destined moment and opportunity.
From a distance, he saw the girl walking into the school locker room. When she came out, she was already wearing camouflage uniforms, and then ran briskly into the queue on the playground. Nie Yunfeng glanced at the neatly arranged squares on the playground, and immediately understood that this was
In military training.
It turns out that she is a freshman in high school!
A smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. Fortunately, he agreed to the homeroom teacher to come to school, otherwise he would have missed the opportunity to meet her again. Could he understand that this is fate?
He was not in a hurry to go to class, but found a secluded place to sit down and quietly watch the freshmen practicing their steps under the instruction of the instructor. In the formation of all camouflage uniforms, she did not stand out, but he felt dazzling
The fascination dazzled my eyes.
Now that I know she is in school and a new student, it becomes easier to find out her name.
Luo Xia, a freshman in Class 1 (3) of high school.
Nie Yunfeng whispered her name, looked up at the sun above his head, and couldn't help but chuckle. She was the sun in summer, lighting up his world. Wherever she was, there was the warmth of the sun.
Military training usually lasts for two weeks. He reported to school a week late, which meant that he would have to train for another week. He made some calculations in his mind, and the next day, he appeared on the playground as the instructor's assistant.
This is due to the fact that although he is a transfer student, his academic performance ranks first every year, and he is a good student in the eyes of the principal and class teacher. He asked the teacher to participate in this military training without affecting his studies.
, but after all, he was two years ahead of the freshmen, and it was against the rules to stand in the queue, so he was assigned as an assistant in logistics.
Nie Yunfeng didn't care too much whether he really participated in the military training. He mainly wanted to get in close contact with Xia Tian and didn't want to just stand aside silently. He wanted to go to her and say thank you to her.
However, what I didn't expect was that when he was arranged next to the instructor of Class 1 (3) of Senior High School as he wished, he was coaxed by a group of freshmen below, asking him to walk goose-step as a role model for everyone to see. The instructor didn't stop him, and it seemed that he didn't want to stop him.
Intentionally testing the ability of his "assistant" who suddenly joined the class.
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Five hundred years of looking back at the past life are exchanged for a passing by in this life.