"I have always been grateful for the sacrifices I have made for this family. You are great. You are much better than me. You have supported this family, and I know this very well." Datong said rather remorsefully.
"What I want is not gratitude. I am a woman. What I want is not other people saying how great I am. What I want is a harbor that can shelter me from the wind and rain, a wing that can protect me and let me act coquettishly and let me be willful. , let me do whatever you want, do you understand? You have never given me this. I have never been a truly happy woman, just a hardworking person. I even feel that our genders are reversed." Haitang looked at him, It no longer feels like it used to.
"You have the whole world now, and you don't have to think about anything. Isn't that enough?" Datong asked.
"Now, it's too late. I'm too tired to see how big the world is." Haitang smiled coldly and looked at the lake.
"Then what do you want? How can I compensate you? How can I make you happy?" Datong asked. He felt that Haitang was a little careless at this time. Her life was so good and her future was so bright. Why did she suddenly become irrational? Obsessing over little things that don't matter...
"The moment I needed has passed and I can't come back. Now, I just want to be quiet," Haitang said.
Datong stood there for a while and then walked away quietly.
When did he and her become strangers...
Where has she gone? What I want is the powerful her in the past, not the she she is now. She is really like a woman in the harem, she only wants to act coquettishly...
Is this kind of Haitang still the ideal woman in my heart?
Datong looked confused.
I sat by the lake until evening, and sat here all night. It was like a place as big as Yunqi Country. Only here could I calm down and rationalize my thoughts.
Maybe because it is cold and scary here, few people come here.
It happened to be undisturbed.
Haitang fell asleep. When she fell asleep, she dreamed that she was back in her childhood. Her neighbor's brother took her to play around. At that time, she was seven or eight years old. At that time, she was carefree and didn't have to think about anything. She even played wherever she went. The neighbor brother has made arrangements, so all I have to do is follow stupidly, and there will always be delicious food...
They were all new and delicious, and I had never eaten them before. Later I found out that they were brought over by relatives of my neighbor’s brother from abroad. He was reluctant to eat them every time and left them for Haitang to eat.
This kind of life lasted for more than half a year. Later, the neighbor's brother moved away. Haitang felt lost for a long time. After that, she never made friends with other children. She always felt that she was not as good as her neighbor's brother, and she always thought about her neighbor's brother.
I often go to the places where my neighbor’s brother takes me, such as the lakeside, wild fields, and jungles...
Why did you suddenly think of this?
It was a feeling of being taken care of. After working hard for so long, it turned out that I wanted to be taken care of.
And Datong may not be the best person to take care of him. In his memory, he is the only one who blindly gives, gives, supports and supports. At that time, he really needed someone to take care of him.
He allowed himself to grow up and become a strong woman, but Datong did not allow Haitang to have the happiness that women like. She had none of it.
So now, when I think of my neighbor brother, I still have a smile on my face.
It makes me feel warm when I think of it, because that memory is the happiness I dreamed of, and I only know it now.