Thinking about these things in my mind, I became more emotional and my eyes kept getting red. This is something that makes me very entangled and painful, but after all, it is a very personal matter. It is hard for Li Fusheng and Kuang Haige to say anything.
He sat next to me and looked at me. After a while, Li Fusheng asked me to calm down and handed me a cigarette. I smoked slowly, trying my best to suppress the feeling in my heart that I wanted to cry.
With this calmness, my thinking became clear again. Tan Ying, who died in the deep forests of Northeast China many years ago, would not be my father's legal wife. They may have had feelings for each other, but as mentioned before, my father was a family man.
It is impossible for a person who knows clearly to marry a member of the team as his wife. Even if he loves Tan Ying to the extreme, it is impossible. Coupled with other clues, it is possible that Tan Ying is my mother.
, has been extremely small.
If this only woman who appears in old photo albums is not my mother, then who is my mother? Where is she?
Ever since I left home, I have always wanted to find my dad, but the desire to find him has never been as strong as it is now, an uncontrollable and extreme desire. I guess only my dad can answer this question, even if
For example, Kuang Haige cannot explain why.
At that moment, I even gave up the idea of lifting the curse immediately. I wanted to keep searching for my dad and would not give up until I found my dad. But I knew it would be difficult. My dad didn’t contact me for a long time.
, As for other people, not to mention, since he did this, he just didn’t want anyone to find him.
"I know that there are some things that I shouldn't say, but I still want to say something to you." Kuang Haige sat opposite me, lowered his head slightly and said, "Don't blame No. 1. No matter what he does, he must have his own merits."
Difficulties. For example, I can't help him, but at least I have to understand him, so... So don't think about it now, lifting the curse is the most important thing now."
"I don't know anything, how can I understand it?" I shook my head, feeling confused.
"Cheer up. I believe that No. 1 will come back one day and explain these past things to you clearly." Kuang Haige raised his head: "The road ahead is a bit difficult, and you should know that."
"Our whereabouts should really be more secretive. Some plans are completely uncontrollable when they are implemented. As long as an unexpected small situation occurs, it may disrupt the entire plan and make it impossible to deal with it. So we will try our best to act on our own in the future.
Be careful when lifting the curse." Li Fusheng said from the side: "After getting to this point, I believe that neither Wang Bingwen nor Lai Weiguo will give up easily."
"No." Kuang Haige immediately denied Li Fusheng's statement and said, "Wang Bingwen and Lai Weiguo are different."
When talking about these two people, Kuang Haige had his own understanding. Maybe Lai Weiguo had betrayed my father and even Kuang Haige himself, so Kuang Haige subjectively felt that Lai Weiguo was more hateful than anyone else. However, he had an opinion.
From a long time ago, my father and Wang Bingwen have maintained a relatively subtle relationship.
At first, Wang Bingwen was the same as the other people who worked with my dad, but after the fierce quarrel in Santaihezi, their relationship changed. My dad may no longer trust Wang Bingwen as before, and neither does Wang Bingwen.
They followed my dad as wholeheartedly as before, but they never mentioned the unpleasant things before, and at least they maintained a normal relationship on the surface. But in fact, not only my dad and Wang Bingwen, the two parties involved, knew clearly,
Even some bystanders, such as Kuang Haige, could tell that they had other thoughts.
According to my father's style, if there is a nail buried around him, he should pull it out as soon as he finds it, otherwise the nail will hit someone sooner or later. But he has always had that attitude towards Wang Bingwen, neither getting close nor alienating him.
After leaving Xihaihe, Wang Bingwen stayed with my father for a long time, but my father did not give him specific tasks and was only responsible for some very insignificant things. At that time, some people were speculating that Wang Bingwen might have his own secret opinions.
Manpower. It was about five or six years ago that Wang Bingwen officially left the organization. Before leaving the organization, Wang Bingwen's actions were already quite obvious. Someone once talked to my dad about this, fearing that the organization would suffer losses after Wang Bingwen left.
However, my dad didn’t express anything and was very calm. He had the feeling that one day it will rain and if my mother wants to get married, let him go.
"You should have figured out why No. 1 is so cautious in doing things and even refuses to say unnecessary words." Kuang Haige said: "There are nails around us. If you miss a word, it may have serious consequences.
Therefore, he would rather keep something in his heart than talk to others casually."
"In this case, why not kill Wang Bingwen?"
"I don't know, I really don't know." Kuang Haige shook his head: "Not everyone can guess No. 1's thoughts."
I think about it for myself, and it seems to be the case. Brother Wen is so hateful, but I have been in contact with him for so long, and he has no intention of harming me. He has not even touched me with a finger. I know that he may have his own purpose.
, but this is also true. But what about Uncle Lai? Uncle Lai has been putting on a friendly face for many years, but when it comes time to attack, he is so insidious and vicious, and he has repeatedly brought trouble to me.
"Zheng Lifu is indeed very interesting. There are some things that I can't figure out no matter how hard I try. I really want to confirm it with him." Li Fusheng slowly tapped the armrest of the sofa with his fingers and looked at the ceiling and said, "If there is a chance."
"Look for him." I felt that I had calmed down completely, but I couldn't suppress the thoughts in my heart: "If the curse cannot be postponed, then hurry up and do it as quickly as possible to solve this matter.
I won’t consider anything else for the time being. If I’m looking for my dad, I must find him.”
"Do you know where he is? Or, do you know some of the places he may go?" Li Fusheng said: "Is it true as you said? He has never mentioned anything to you except daily life in the past.
Things outside of life?”
"That's right." I didn't think twice. Over the past twenty years of my life, I could tell you everything that happened one by one with my eyes closed. My dad didn't mention anything.
"That would be too difficult, very difficult." Li Fusheng looked at the ceiling again and said: "If a person really wants to hide deliberately, then it is almost impossible for people like us without official background to find him. In the past, I
After hiding for so many years, no one can find me unless I can't help but show my face."
I was talking to Li Fusheng, and when I glanced at him accidentally, I noticed that Kuang Haige was frowning slightly and lowering his head sideways. There was something wrong with his expression, as if he had something to say but didn't want to say it. I asked him
, is there anything to say?
Kuang Haige did not answer me, but just looked at Li Fusheng. I knew that he was still uneasy or distrustful of Li Fusheng, but my intuition told me that Li Fusheng would not harm me. He might deceive me.
Me, but it would not harm me, so I nodded to Kuang Haige and motioned for him to speak out.
"No. 1 won't tell me clearly about many things, but I wonder, will he go somewhere?"
"Where?!" I blurted out and asked, "You probably know where he is?"
"I have no basis, just a guess."
"When did you know this place? In the past? Or not long ago?"
"I knew it in the past." Kuang Haige thought for a while and said, "It's been about ten years."
"Then..." I suddenly became suspicious, looked at Kuang Haige, and said, "Then why don't you go find him? Even if you are not sure, at least you have to try."
"No. 1 is not allowed to go." Kuang Haige said: "He said not to go to that place again in the future."
"Tell me, what's going on?"
"I took me to that place on the 1st, twice in total."
The place Kuang Haige mentioned is at the junction of northern Henan and southern Shanxi, located in the foothills of the Taihang Mountains. The first time I went there was six months after Tan Ying and his friends had an accident. At that time, my dad tried to find a way to find where Tan Ying was.
team, but could not be found. During that time, my dad was in a low mood. He must be hiding his emotions. Outsiders might not be able to tell without observing carefully, but confidants like Kuang Haige could still detect it.
At that time, Kuang Haige happened to have finished something and came back to talk to my dad. After the business conversation, my dad didn't say anything and gave Kuang Haige a sum of money as usual. Kuang Haige didn't have the habit of saving money, and he didn't take money seriously.
After getting the money, he kept some for himself as necessary expenses, and distributed the rest to his brothers who were working under him. At that time, something happened to Tan Ying and the others, and several people disappeared at once, and people had to be sent to look for them.
Therefore, the manpower was relatively tight. Logically speaking, after Kuang Haige finished the interview with my father, he should rush back immediately to continue with the next task. However, my father did not let him go. He said that he had worked hard these days and wanted to take a rest and go out with him for a walk.
.
My dad packed up some messy things just like ordinary people when going out, got a car from a company's hardware export department, and took Kuang Haige out. My dad didn't mention the specific destination, and the two of us took turns driving along the way.
During those few days, my father talked a lot and talked a lot with Kuang Haige. However, a lot of what he said at that time seemed like babble in his sleep. To this day, Kuang Haige still can't understand it.
They drove roughly along the direction of the Taihang Mountains. Apart from eating and sleeping, there were few stops along the way. Finally, the car drove to a small town and stopped here. Then they went to a county near the small town. Kuang Haige remembered the general route and waited.
When they arrived at the foot of the Taihang Mountains in the north of the small county town, my father said that there was no way to go by car, and they had to walk the rest of the way.