Zijin took a bath in the bathroom, dried her hair, and applied some lotion. She didn't plan to go out again, so she put on a set of pajamas. After she finished taking care of herself, she looked at herself in the mirror.
.
Her eyes were bright and her teeth were bright, and she felt refreshed because she had just taken a shower. However, no matter how hard she tried, she still couldn't hide the worries between her brows.
Her hand couldn't help but cover her lower abdomen, where... there was the crystallization of his and her love again, she was pregnant, she was pregnant...
She kept repeating these four words in her mind, telling herself that she really wanted to tell the man outside.
He must be very happy, right?
For sure, she has never doubted his intentions for her. If he has a child, he will definitely be happy. She can imagine him holding her in his arms and looking in high spirits. In fact, she has seen him busy in and out every day recently.
If he wasn't with her, he would probably be in the study. Although she didn't know exactly what he was doing, she knew that he must have something difficult to do.
It's just that her thoughts have been focused on her mother lately, and she hasn't asked him anything.
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Zi Jin gently exhaled a breath of turbid air. She gently rubbed her flat belly with her hands in a clockwise direction. Her eyes instantly became extremely soft, but the words she muttered in her mouth were full of self-blame.
"Baby, tell me, is Mom very sorry for Dad? I don't care about him enough, am I? I'm also very selfish, right?"
"…………"
"But... that's your grandmother, your mother's mother. What do you think is the best way for mother to do it?"
"…………"
The bedroom was empty, and there was no reply. Zi Jin felt that he was really stupid. How old was the child? It was less than 2 months. How could he hear her words?
Probably she was really at a loss.
He didn't know how long he stood alone. Finally he looked in the mirror and slowly relaxed his expression. The moment he barely raised the corners of his mouth, Zijin suddenly thought of something. His face suddenly turned pale. He turned around quickly and headed towards the bedroom.
Rush out the door.
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Her handbag is still in the living room. Inside the handbag are the two reports she brought from the hospital. Zijin hasn't decided what to do yet, so subconsciously, she still doesn't want Gu Yanshen to know, because he knows,
There is only one way she can go.
There was a dull bang on the bedroom door. When Zi Jin ran out, she found that the whole living room was filled with a familiar fragrance. It was the noodles that Gu Yanshen made for herself. She often ate them, so this smell
, she is already so familiar with it.
But soon, she smelled that the aroma of this food was also mixed with the smell of tobacco.
Zijin turned her eyes and saw the man sitting on the sofa. From her angle, she could only see Gu Yanshen's back and the cold back of his head.
I don't know if it was because she was hiding something in her heart, so she instinctively felt a little guilty.
Is it her imagination?
Why did she feel that at this moment, Gu Yanshen was exuding a kind of viciousness? Even without seeing his deep eyes, Zijin could still feel the sinisterness. She paused subconsciously and placed her hands cautiously.
In front of his chest, for the first time when his back was turned to her, he stopped moving forward.
Sometimes people really can't lie or hide, especially from people they care too much about.
Zijin felt that his behavior was even worse.
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"Aren't you hungry? Just standing there and smelling the delicious noodles will make you full?"
Gu Yanshen suddenly spoke up, his voice was as low as ever, and there were not many emotional fluctuations audible. Zi Jin pursed his lips, took two deep breaths, and then walked towards him.
She really wanted to relax completely. In fact, it was only a few steps away, but she felt that it was very hard for her to walk. She finally stood behind him and watched him smoking lazily.
, then Zijin remembered something, hesitated, and then said: "...Yanshen, why do you smoke again?"
"Um?"
As if he didn't hear clearly, Gu Yanshen turned his face sideways, eyes slightly narrowed by the smoke, and glanced sideways at her, "What?"
"...I said, why are you smoking again? Didn't I tell you to smoke less?"
Normally, she would have reached out and smoked the cigarette from his fingers. Today, for some reason, she always felt guilty. After saying that, she walked around the sofa and sat opposite him. She picked up her chopsticks.
, but his eyes fell on the handbag placed on the other end of the sofa. There seemed to be no trace of the zipper being unzipped, so Gu Yanshen probably hadn't seen it yet.
Also, he doesn't usually have a hobby of looking through her bag, so why would he look at his own bag for no reason?
Zijin felt that she was too nervous. She tightened the chopsticks in her hands and took a bite of the noodles. She felt that the noodles were a little soft, probably because they had been left for a long time. She said vaguely, "Yanshen, stop smoking."
"
However, Gu Yanshen stood up and said, "After finishing the noodles, I will go to the balcony to smoke."
"…………"
She watched his tall back walk to the balcony, and without thinking too much, she finished the noodles without forgetting to pat her belly, and said silently in her heart - Baby, your father's craftsmanship is
Not very good?
She cleared away the dishes, waved her hands, walked out of the kitchen, and found Gu Yanshen still on the balcony.
The night was thick, and the man's posture was somewhat casual. He was leaning on the railing of the balcony, holding a cigarette in one hand and stuffing his trouser pocket in the other. He didn't know what he was thinking. The lines on his profile looked a bit lonely.
.
Zijin didn't want to see Gu Yanshen like this, as if he was immersed in his own world and couldn't even pull her out. She took a deep breath, raised her feet and walked towards the balcony.
"Yanshen..."
"Have you finished eating?"
Gu Yanshen crushed the cigarette butt in his hand and threw it into the ashtray that he brought out. Zijin took two steps over and felt that he looked a little different now. She endured it, but she still couldn't.
, asked cautiously: "Is something wrong? Are you in a bad mood?"
The man was a head and a half taller than her. When the two of them stood together, he looked down at her. Normally, Zijin never felt that such a gaze would oppress her, but today, she just felt,
The light in this man's eyes was a bit sharp. Although he was trying his best to suppress it, she could still feel Zijin's heart moving slightly. Seeing that he didn't speak, he just looked at her for a moment.
"...Yanshen, you, is there something wrong with you? Why are you looking at me like that?"
"I thought you had something to tell me."
He finally spoke, probably because of smoking, his voice was a little hoarse, Zijin opened his mouth, "...Me? What's the matter with me?"
"Well, Zijin, do you still remember what I said to you when you came back from Japan?"
He suddenly changed the topic like this. Zi Jin was a little confused. His red lips moved and he frowned, "You and I talk so much every day. When we came back from Japan... what did you say to me?"
She was actually a little panicked. Gu Yanshen would never be like this when he was facing her. She felt that now, the way Gu Yanshen looked at her looked so mysterious and unpredictable to her.
She suddenly felt sad.
In fact, all along, it was him who wanted to let himself see the real him, so that she could get in touch with the real him.
If he doesn't want to, he wants you to not be able to see through him, and it's just a thought on his part.
"Yanshen..."
"I hope you won't lie to me, and you can tell me if you have anything, because I want you to believe that there are many things in this world that you can't solve, and I want to help you solve them. You are my woman, and you
Do you remember?"
Zijin was not really clueless. She originally thought that Gu Yanshen was very abnormal today. Now when she heard him say these few words, she had already realized that there must be something going on tonight, otherwise he wouldn't
It will suddenly become like this.
Taking a deep breath, Zijin pursed his lips before opening his mouth, "Yanshen, if something happens to you, just tell me directly, don't do this, you know, even if I am a smart person to others,
, but in front of you, I can never guess what you are thinking. The more you raise your posture like this, the less I can hook you, and I feel uncomfortable. I..."
"Then have you ever thought about my heart?"
Gu Yanshen reached out and pressed her shoulder blades. The man's deep voice finally brought out a bit of cold emotion. Zijin suddenly raised her head. The pain on her shoulder blades made her frown subconsciously.
Before she could speak, Gu Yanshen continued to ask coldly: "Shen Zijin, am I not good enough to you? You refuse to tell me anything, and you have to hide everything from me? What do I ask you to do?
You just don’t listen and you still want to make fun of your own body?”
Zijin, "…………"
"...Yanshen, you...what are you talking about?"
"You still want to hide it from me?"
Gu Yanshen has been suppressing this anger. The last thing he wants to do is get angry at Shen Zijin, but who can understand the pain in his heart?
Before, she left without saying a word, leaving herself a letter, and went to Japan. He was not worried about her every minute, but he still had to take her thoughts into consideration. He endured it for a whole month before finally
Go to Japan to find her.
At that time, she said sorry to herself softly, but he finally couldn't bear to show off to her. In fact, how could he be her opponent? She was her nemesis. What she said and what she did, when would he?
disagree?
But when he saw the report just now, he was really angry.
The second time, and again!
She said that she would always tell herself when she did anything in the future. Why did she secretly hide the matching from herself this time? This was not the worst. He could understand her anxiety and worry for her biological mother.
, but when he saw the matching words, his heart twitched violently. If his beloved lost a hair, he would feel bad. If he really wanted her to remove the hair from her body,
How can he give up an organ?
But this is really not the worst.
Worst of all - he saw the second report.
Beneath the matching match, there was another report confirming the pregnancy.
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He really couldn't describe the mood he felt at that time. When he thinks about it now, he feels "thrilling". It's really thrilling.
She is pregnant, she is actually pregnant.
He held the report in his hand and read it word by word, fearing that he was dreaming or that he had read it wrong, which would not be consistent with his behavior as Gu Yanshen, but he took the trouble to do it three times. It was true, true,
His baby is really pregnant.
The pain of losing my first child was overwhelmed by the unexpected joy.
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But this joy came so fiercely that in less than 2 minutes, he felt like he was given a slap in the face. If she was pregnant, shouldn't she have told him as soon as she came in? Pregnancy, and
What is more important than pregnancy? But the two reports were stacked together and told him another fact ruthlessly and cruelly!
She had no intention of telling herself!
Is she planning to secretly donate a kidney to Tao Wantian without telling her?
Even if she already has her own little baby, she doesn't care?
He could understand her thoughts for her mother, but had she ever thought about her own position? She still had a child in her belly, and she actually hid it from herself. Was she ready for surgery?
…………
This thought, like a tide, rushed towards him ferociously. He exuded a kind of bloodthirsty hostility. In the end, he remained calm and put the report back into her bag, then sat down.
Smoking quietly in the living room. At this time, only the smell of nicotine can slightly relieve the anger in his body.
He waited, he had been waiting, giving her space to finish eating the noodles. When she finished eating the noodles, she came over, and he was still thinking, should she tell him?
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In fact, he is a very patient and tempered person. No matter what the problem or anyone, he can make him mess up. But he also admits that Shen Zijin is his nemesis.
So he still couldn't hold it back, but he didn't pierce the last layer of window paper. At this moment, he still thought that as long as she told him personally.
What can't he forgive her for?
All she had to do was tell herself...
When Zijin heard him say "You still want to hide it from me", she already realized that the situation was not good. She knew that he must have known something, but he didn't say anything more, which made her feel uneasy.
It's some drumming.
The matter of pregnancy, and the matter of matching...
She didn't know if he knew everything? Or...had he heard something? Or...
Her mind was chaotic, with all kinds of thoughts, but Zijin didn't know that her current thoughts were simply a sign of being cowardly. She still had a lucky mentality, and she still felt that maybe
Gu Yanshen didn't know anything, maybe he was talking about something else.
"...I, what am I hiding from you? Yan Shen, don't be like this, I don't know, I..."
The way she was evasive made Gu Yanshen's delicate features instantly cold. He would never face her with his coldest side, but now he seemed to be possessed by a demon. His whole person seemed to be a
The devil from the ninth level of hell pushed her against the sliding door with a backhand push. The man's tall body pressed heavily against her, but there was pain in his eyes.
"You don't know? Shen Zijin, you really... never take my words to heart, right? You never need to consider my feelings? You can do whatever you want? I asked you to wait.
, but you secretly went for a match without telling me. You were pregnant, but you still refused to tell me. You said, did I not find out that you were planning to take my, Gu Yanshen's, seed to donate a kidney to your mother?
?”
Zijin's eyes widened and he spoke with difficulty, "...you, you know? No, listen to my explanation, I'm not..."
"Shut up!"
Gu Yanshen roared, like an out-of-control beast, his eyes were red with anger, "What explanation can you give me? It's me who has been regressing, it's me who has been unprincipled, and it's me who gave me
Have you developed such a temper? If anything happens, you make your own decisions for me. Who do you think you are? You went to Japan without saying goodbye, why didn't I go to Japan to bring you back? You really
Do you think you can do everything well by yourself? Now you want to donate a kidney to your mother without telling me. Have you considered my feelings? Even if I understand you, can you think about it for our children?
Think? Do you think you should? Why don’t you tell me anything? Have we experienced so much between us, and it’s still not as good as your mother? Damn it, do you have any heart? You
Damn woman!"
"…………"
Gu Yanshen always spoke softly to her. He would never growl and curse at himself like this. But now, he pressed his shoulders so fiercely, yelled at himself so fiercely, so fiercely...
Her eyes quickly turned red, and the tears were like broken pearls, covering her entire face. Her vision was blurred, and it was like there was a fly stuck in her throat. She felt uncomfortable and her heart was heavy.
The pain.
She knew he would be angry, but she didn't expect that he would say such things.
What does it mean that they are not as good as her mother? Do you have to choose one or the other for love and family affection?
If the person lying on the bed today was his mother, would he be able to remain indifferent? She admitted that she was indeed the one who was wrong in this matter, but why did he see himself like this?
Isn't he selfish?
If she is really cruel and only cares about her mother without caring about his feelings, after getting the match report, she does not need to think about anything else. She can decisively choose to have surgery, and the human body will be missing.
With one kidney, she would not die. But she still hesitated. There were some things that she had no place to talk to anyone about, but she knew very well what kind of mentality she had.
When she saw the word "match", even if she didn't know she was pregnant, she hesitated. Her hesitation was just because of the man she also loved deeply.
But now, when she came to him, her concealment gave him the feeling that she took family affection too seriously, and he even yelled at himself.
Zi Jin bit her lip tightly and reached out to touch the tears on her face, but she found that the more she wiped away the tears, the more she wiped them. She lowered her eyes, squeezed her hands, and after a while, she said hoarsely.
, whispered: "...That's how you look at me. I left you once just for my parents. I'm hiding it from you now just to donate a kidney to my mother. I've never thought about your feelings.
?”
"... Then you were involved in a lawsuit. Do you know how afraid I was that something would happen to you? I went to Japan not only for my parents, but also partly because of you!"
Gu Yanshen was so angry that he sneered, "For me? I don't need you to make such a big sacrifice. You are my woman. You can just hide behind me every day. I told you that I can solve it, but you don't believe it."
My ability? You would rather believe in a foolhardy Japanese fool than you believe in me. What are you talking about for me now?"
Zijin's eyes widened in disbelief, but she found that everything in front of her was blurry. She couldn't see the man clearly, so she called his name with a trembling voice, "Gu Yanshen!"
"Everything I have done for you is redundant. You are so capable, so why don't you help my mother find a kidney source? If there is a suitable kidney source for her, why should I do this? Do you think I want to? If I really
I don’t consider your feelings at all. I may be in the operating room now. Do you think I will hold the report for you to find out and let you do this to me again? "
The two people's anger was completely aroused. Zijin's temper actually revealed a kind of stubbornness. In addition, the two people's starting point was not the same at all. The more they talked, the more fierce they became.
In the end, I just wanted to vent all my dissatisfaction and didn't care how hurtful my words were.
"Gu Yanshen, I didn't expect you to be so selfish. In order to have a complete me, you let me watch my mother die! The person lying on the bed today is your mother. The person with kidney failure today is
Your mother, can I also drag you and let you turn a blind eye and make love to me?"
"Shen Zijin——!"
Gu Yanshen was furious, and his tightening hand suddenly stretched out. Zijin's eyes widened, and his face turned pale as he watched in disbelief as his palm landed less than 1 centimeter away from his cheek. He paused, and she was stunned.
for 5 seconds, and then laughed.
"Gu Yanshen, you want to hit me?"
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If you have relatives, you keep saying that Zi Jin is too stupid and that it is not worth exchanging one's life for one. You can express your feelings and opinions, but you can't talk about Zi Jin so unfairly, right? Although this is a novel, the heroine's
The final decision is also the author's decision, but when telling a story, the process is very important, isn't it? I don't dare to say how good my writing is, I just want you to know that this is family love, and although novels are higher than
Life, it also comes from life, right? So I hope you can look at the heroine's thoughts with a normal mind. One is your own biological mother, and she turns a blind eye. To you, this is what a smart person should do? I'm afraid that at that time you
Everyone would call her a beast. Is she worse off? So everyone should keep an open mind. The result is important and the process is even more important!