"Really?" Su Wan asked in surprise: "Do you really think so?"
"Yeah." Zhang Youbin nodded and said with a smile: "As long as you don't always deliberately use a high profile to give others a sense of oppression."
Su Wan blushed and said: "I have always been used to it before, because I am surrounded by people who obey me. Only my enemies will not obey me. And I have to have a high profile in front of them. You can't let me face my enemies."
Show my gentleness as a woman, right?"
"The tenderness of a woman..." Zhang Youbin shook the wine glass and laughed softly: "Just like a glass of wine, it can soothe your pain when you are in pain, and double your happiness when you are happy."
"Qie Suwan curled her lips cutely and said: "How can it be so magical? Is it used to coax girls?" "No." Zhang Youbin smiled and said: "You are not a man. Of course you won't understand."
"Then what do you think a woman's gentleness should look like?" Su Wan asked Zhang Youbin curiously.
"This..." Zhang Youbin thought for a while and said: "It is also aimed at different groups of people, such as family, friends, and lovers. The feelings are different."
"Then tell me about your lover." Su Wan looked at Zhang Youbin with an expectant look on her face and said, "How will a woman's tenderness make her lover feel?"
Zhang Youbin said with a smile: "There can be many kinds of gentleness. It doesn't mean that you are gentle and considerate to him, speak softly to him, or stand beside him without saying a word and let him show off his hypocrisy in front of others.
Macho chauvinism." When Zhang Youbin said this, he paused and said: "Gentleness does not necessarily mean obedience, it means not speaking. In fact, a woman's gentleness is a man's safe haven. Sometimes, no matter how strong a man is,
He needs a special sense of security. This kind of feeling can only be given to him by the woman he loves deeply. It can even make him think that even if he loses the whole world, she will definitely be by his side."
"Ah?" Su Wan looked disbelieving and asked, "Are those the lyrics you are talking about? How can they be so great!"
Zhang Youbin smiled bitterly and said, "I don't know either. But I think it's very real. That's the feeling."
"Have you ever?" Su Wan asked, staring at Zhang Youbin curiously.
Zhang Youbin's expression was dull for a moment, then he nodded and said softly: "Yes."
"Where is she?" Su Wan seemed to want to know some of Zhang Youbin's secrets.
"Her?" Zhang Youbin put his right hand on the table and gently rubbed his temples with his fingers. After a moment, he raised his head and said, "She's dead."
"Dead??" Su Wan opened her mouth wide and asked, "How is that possible?"
"Haha." Zhang Youbin asked with a wry smile: "Do you want to know? In fact, I haven't told anyone yet."
"Really?" This stimulated Su Wan's curiosity even more. She approached Zhang Youbin and asked, "What on earth is going on?"
Zhang Youbin smiled, picked up the wine glass, took a sip, wiped his lips and said, "W-King's only mistake since he got this name was to protect a girl who had just turned 20 years old."
Su Wan frowned and thought for a moment and said: "I seem to remember that when I looked through your files, there seemed to be a failed mission, but there was no detailed record, it was just noted that the result was a failure."
"Yeah." Zhang Youbin nodded and said, "She is just like you."
"Same as me???" Su Wan asked in great surprise: "Why are you the same as me? What are the same?"
Zhang Youbin explained: "Like you, she is a girl with a prominent background, but her personality is completely opposite to yours." "Uh..." Su Wan's expression was blank, and after a moment she said depressedly: "I understand.
She must be very gentle, but you also mean to say that I am not gentle at all..."
Zhang Youbin chuckled twice and said, "I didn't mean that. It was your own guess."
"That's what you mean!" Su Wan complained angrily, and then waved her hands and said: "I don't care about this with you anymore. You haven't told me what is going on between you and her. How do you know each other?
of?"
"How do we know each other?" Zhang Youbin chuckled and said: "Her father offended the leader of the mafia at that time, but her father was also very powerful. At that time, it was just for safety reasons, so he sent her daughter to Germany. The accompanying
There were many bodyguards, and I was summoned to Germany by him at the highest price ever. In fact, I was the only one who was sent to the mission that time."
"Really?" Su Wan asked curiously: "Then your task is to protect her safety?"
"Yes." Zhang Youbin nodded and said, "At a price of five hundred thousand dollars a day, we will protect her safety until her father thinks the threat has been eliminated."
"Then what's going on between you and her?" Su Wan asked, "Is this how you get together?"
"I don't know either..." Zhang Youbin smiled and said softly: "She is a person who will be happy when she sees the sun. Her character is enough to make people feel the warmth of spring. You will remember her forever.
, because you are very happy when you are with her, even if you don’t say anything or do anything, just follow her expressionlessly and watch her dance and tell you everything that can make people happy.
You will definitely be infected by her character.”
"Then what?" Su Wan then asked, "Do you like her?"
Zhang Youbin thought for a moment and said, "Probably. I like to be with her, listen to her talk, tell some stories about herself, and see her happy."
"Then are you together?"
"No..." Zhang Youbin explained: "Because she and I can't be together."
"Why?" Su Wan frowned and asked in surprise: "She doesn't like you?"
"No." Zhang Youbin said with a smile: "She liked to be with me very much at that time. She once asked me if I could give up my career as a mercenary and accompany her to find a job after her father finished everything.
A picturesque place to live the rest of my life peacefully."
"Then what did you say?" Su Wan asked.
"I agreed." Zhang Youbin smiled slightly and whispered softly: "I really agreed without hesitation at that time. I even immediately imagined a picture in my mind. We lived by a beautiful lake.
.It is a small two-story building of medium size. In front of the door is a green grassland and a lake, and there is also a small boat specially designed for fishing...everything is very warm."
Su Wan nodded slightly and said, "This is the life you want."
"At the time, yes!" Zhang Youbin said with certainty.
"What happened next? How did she die?" Su Wan couldn't hold back her curiosity and asked cautiously.
"I have been with her for more than a month without any danger. In addition, I have violated the taboo of not having emotional entanglements during the mission, and she is a girl who can make people forget all their worries, so I must be vigilant. It got lower and lower, and eventually, it was basically like falling in love." Zhang Youbin shook his head gently and said: "Suddenly one day, she said to me that she wanted to go out for a walk, and I said yes, wait until I let her go. I was getting ready to go out soon, but she said she just wanted to go out for a walk alone with me. She said she liked the late autumn evening very much."
"Then something happened?!" Su Wan asked, staring at Zhang Youbin nervously.
"Yeah." Zhang Youbin nodded, sighed and said: "I was attacked on the way back. I even forgot to bring a spare magazine with 12 bullets. Personally, I couldn't protect her..."
"What about you?" Su Wan asked in confusion: "A man attacked you two, how did you survive?"
"I don't know either..." Zhang Youbin smiled mockingly and said, "It was already forty days when I woke up, and her funeral had been over for more than a month.
"You are so lucky..." Su Wan said with a lingering fear: "You almost died, right?"
"Probably." Zhang Youbin nodded and said: "I got all the remuneration afterwards. Later I found out that even my medical expenses were paid for by her father. The mission was a complete failure. This money should They won't give me any points, and I don't want to take any points, because I think that one month was the happiest time in my life..." Zhang Youbin paused, took a deep breath and said: "But I can't make the decision, because the money must be given to the arbitration committee first, and then they will deduct part of the administrative fees before giving the remaining money to Bloody's account."
Su Wan sighed: "Her father is such a good man...he actually forgave you."
"In fact, it is indeed the case." Zhang Youbin nodded affirmatively and said: "Later, the German police arrested the two gangsters who were injured by me. According to their explanation, they prepared 32 people that day and divided them into two groups to prepare for the rape. They broke into our residence, and they even prepared rocket launchers for this purpose. However, because the two of us suddenly and abnormally went out alone, they sent a group of people to follow us all the way, and finally took action on our way back. Because of this , his father believed that her daughter's death was destined, but the decision made by the two of us without authorization saved myself and the other ten bodyguards."
"The day before I left Germany, her father told me in front of her grave that her short life was spent thinking about others, and making others happy was her greatest happiness, so if she knew that her decision saved ten If she takes her life, she will be very happy in heaven." Zhang Youbin whispered: "He forgives me, but I can't forgive myself..."
"Does her incident still affect you now?" Su Wan asked softly.
"That's right." Zhang Youbin smiled slightly and said, "I don't know what's wrong with me now. I seem to have been looking for a girl like her, but I can't find anyone who can make me feel that way. , I seem to be very philanthropic now, and any good girl would like it, but there is never anyone like her..."
"Do you have to find someone who is exactly like her?" Su Wan asked in surprise: "That's simply impossible."
"It doesn't mean they have to be exactly the same." Zhang Youbin thought for a while and said: "This is like a pattern. You once found a pattern that suits you best, so now, you are doing everything you can to go back to that pattern again.
Therefore, you must keep searching and keep hesitating, because you are not willing to be satisfied with the status quo before you find the pattern."
"Then you want to find the closest one?" Su Wan asked.
"I don't know." Zhang Youbin shook his head and sighed: "I don't know what I am thinking now. I have come into contact with a lot of girls, and some of them I really like, but none of them can make me make up my mind.
, not one."
"Humph Su Wan pretended to be disdainful and said: "Stop making excuses for your philandering."
"No." Zhang Youbin smiled and said, "I also think I am a bit of a playboy. I like several girls..."
"You are really thick-skinned." Su Wan looked at Zhang Youbin and said with a smile: "You have been talking to me for so long, and you also told such a touching love story between a mercenary and a rich girl. In fact, you are doing it for yourself.
You’re so obsessed with making excuses!”
Zhang Youbin curled his lips helplessly, stood up and sighed and said: "Well, just take it as such, it's getting late, I'll go back to sleep." After Zhang Youbin said that, he turned around and walked out of the bar.
"Hey, don't leave." Su Wan hurriedly tried to stop her: "Please stay with me for a while. I'm joking with you, so don't be angry."
Zhang Youbin smiled and said: "I'm not angry. Haha, I felt good after chatting with you for a while, but I have to work tomorrow morning, so it's better to rest early. Good night." After saying that, Zhang Youbin got into his own room.
Room.
"Humph, Su Wan stood up angrily, cleared the bar briefly, and returned to her room.