Qin Zixin looked straight at Ji Lingtian's slightly serious face, "I want to give you a surprise."
Ji Lingtian frowned slightly but said nothing.
There was no expression of surprise as expected, nor was there joy as expected...
Qin Zixin's heart felt like a sudden injection of cold water, ice cold.
Suddenly, she pushed him away and walked to the window alone, crossing her arms and looking out at the quiet night.
Ji Lingtian walked over and straightened her body to face him, "Baby..."
Qin Zixin turned her head to one side, angry and unwilling to look at Ji Lingtian.
Ji Lingtian tried to hug Qin Zixin into his arms, but Qin Zixin struggled to resist his embrace.
In the end, Ji Lingtian could only quietly look at Qin Zixin who turned his face to the floor-to-ceiling window again.
"Xinxin..."
As soon as Ji Lingtian spoke, Qin Zixin turned to look at him, with slightly red eyes and a slightly thick nasal voice, "I thought I could give you a surprise, but I didn't expect your reaction to be like this."
"I'm not unhappy that you are pregnant..." Ji Lingtian tried to explain.
"You are very unhappy that I am pregnant."
"Xinxin!"
Qin Zixin swallowed the bitterness in her throat and looked at Ji Lingtian lowly, "From when I told you you were pregnant to now, is there a smile on your face? No..." Qin Zixin kept shaking her head,
Very disappointed.
"Xinxin..."
"Don't call me!!"
Avoiding Ji Lingtian who was trying to approach him, Qin Zixin walked towards the door alone.
However, when she reached out to open the door, she was suddenly hugged from behind.
"Xinxin..."
Qin Zixin struggled hard against Ji Lingtian, who was hugging her tightly at the moment, and sobbed uncontrollably, "Since you don't want me to get pregnant, just pretend that I'm not pregnant. I will handle it myself and don't need to worry about you."
"That's not what I meant!!" Ji Lingtian finally pulled Qin Zixin's body, holding her delicate face covered with tears, forcing her to look at him.
Tears of grievance continued to overflow from Qin Zixin's eyes, and her eyes were filled with pain.
"Don't cry..." Ji Lingtian wiped the tears from Qin Zixin's eyes distressedly, hugged her tightly in his arms, gently pressed his chin against her forehead, and said apologetically, "It's not that I don't want our child.
, it’s because we are not suitable to have children at this moment..."
"Why?" Qin Zixin looked at Ji Lingtian's calm face with lost eyes.
Ji Lingtian said, "You should know that your body is not suitable for pregnancy..."
"I'm already fine..."
"But I can't let you take such a risk." Ji Lingtian pulled Qin Zixin away and looked at her with pity.
Qin Zixin looked intently at Ji Lingtian's troubled face, her throat so choked that she could not speak.
Ji Lingtian stared at Qin Zixin affectionately, "God knows how much I want to have another child with you, but I can't ignore your health... Do you still remember what you went through when you were a child? You almost suffered a heart attack.
You have a seizure and die on the operating table... With such a risk, how can I let you get pregnant with peace of mind?"
Qin Zixin's long eyelashes filled with tears trembled, and she asked blankly, "Are you worried about my health?"
"I'm not worried about your health. Why should I take such strict contraceptive measures with you every time? Do you think I'll feel better every time I wear that thing?" Ji Lingtian was so annoyed that he wanted to roar, but he was afraid of scaring her.
Qin Zixin sniffed and bit her lip lightly.
Ji Lingtian wiped away the tears from the corners of Qin Zixin's eyes and face with infinite affection, and coaxed, "Be good... listen to me."
Qin Zixin bit her lip and nodded lightly.
Ji Lingtian held Qin Zixin's thin shoulders and said seriously, "Baby... we already have the child, and I am very satisfied. I don't want you to take risks just to have another child, you know? If you want this again,
How do you ask me to deal with heart problems caused by children? I can't...
I will be at a loss. I can't think about the problem with normal rationality, because every night when I see you sleeping peacefully in my arms, I am very grateful to God for letting you come back to me... Can you
Knowing how satisfied I am with my current life, I dare not ask for more..."
Qin Zixin felt a sore nose, "Ling Tian..."
Ji Lingtian hugged Qin Zixin tightly and said softly and affectionately, "Nothing is more important to me than you."
"sorry……"
"Fool..." Ji Lingtian pecked Qin Zixin's lips, "Promise me not to lose, we already have enough."
Qin Zixin nodded and buried her heart in his arms sadly.
…
After a long time.
* On the bed, Ji Lingtian put his arms around Qin Zixin, letting her nestle tightly in his arms.
Qin Zixin's mood has gradually calmed down, but her eyes and nose are still red.
"Be good, have a good sleep..."
Qin Zixin's eyes were wide open, she was thoughtful and had no intention of sleeping.
Seeing that Qin Zixin didn't respond, Ji Lingtian turned slightly and looked at her in his arms, "What's wrong?"
Qin Zixin just shook his head blankly and did not answer.
Ji Lingtian gently took away a strand of hair covering Qin Zixin's beautiful face and said softly, "Don't be afraid... I will accompany you to the hospital tomorrow."
Hearing the word "hospital", Qin Zixin's body trembled slightly.
Knowing her loss and helplessness at the moment, he hugged her tighter and said, "We have Qianqian, and we have no regrets in this life... Be good."
Qin Zixin let Ji Lingtian hold her, her expression always dull.
Ji Lingtian kept trying to comfort him, even though she didn't reply to him a word...
Finally, she finally closed her eyes tiredly and fell asleep in his arms.
…
No one knew that it was Ji Lingtian who couldn't sleep in the end.
After Qin Zixin fell asleep for a long time, Ji Lingtian got up and came to the floor-to-ceiling window of the room.
Qin Zixin's depressed and dull face flashed through his mind. Ji Lingtian sighed softly, took a lighter and lit a cigarette.
Such warm and comfortable mornings were originally Qin Zixin's favorite, but at this moment, when she looked at Ji Lingtian's handsome profile and thought of the request he made to her last night, her heart felt like it was suddenly squeezed hard.
, it hurts very much.
Even though she knew she couldn't blame him...
Because she always thinks about things emotionally, while he always thinks about things rationally.
As a parent of a child, she knew that he would not feel better...
When Qin Zixin stood up, she didn't expect that Ji Lingtian also stood up and hugged her, "Why don't you sleep a little longer?"
"Sorry for waking you up."
Ji Lingtian shook his head, "It's still early, can you sleep a little longer?"
"No, Qianqian is going to report to the new school today, and I want to accompany her."
"I'll accompany you."
Qin Zixin smiled slightly, "No... if you go to school and someone recognizes you, it will affect Qianqian's life in the new school. I can go alone."
"But……"
Qin Zixin had put on her pajamas and blouse and walked out*, "I'll be back soon."
While Qin Zixin was washing up in the bathroom, Ji Lingtian sighed heavily.
He took out his mobile phone and made a call to his subordinate Lu Ji. "Zixin will take Qianqian to school later. You will take care of her..."
After ending the call, Ji Lingtian immediately got up*.
When Qin Zixin came out of the bathroom, she saw Ji Lingtian standing outside the door, with a slightly sad look on his handsome face.
Qin Zixin forced herself to smile, "I'm fine..." She came to Ji Lingtian, held his handsome face in her hands, and said with a smile, "We will go to the hospital when I come back."
"I'm sorry, Xinxin..."
"Stop talking nonsense..." Qin Zixin stood on tiptoe and kissed Ji Lingtian's face, "I know you are thinking about my health... we can wait until we get to the hospital, okay?"
"good."
…
In the carriage, Qian Qian discussed with Qin Zixin the issues that troubled her.
"Mommy, everyone in the new school speaks English, but my English is not good enough. I'm afraid it will be difficult to communicate with them..."
Qin Zixin did not respond.
"Mommy..."
"Uh...huh?" Qin Zixin finally came back to his senses, "What's the matter, Qianqian?"
Qin Ziqian, who was sitting in the back seat, frowned slightly, "Mommy, you didn't even hear what I was talking to you...are you thinking about something?"
"No... tell me, what are you worried about?"
"I said..."
Qin Zixin didn't know how she sent Qian Qian to the new school. She was in a daze. If she hadn't made an appointment with Qian Qian's education teacher early, she might not have helped her go through the admission procedures for Qian Qian.
After coming out of school, Qin Zixin did not drive immediately. Instead, she leaned on the back of her chair and lost consciousness after thinking about it.
A nauseating feeling made her rush out of the car door...
After retching on the roadside for a long time, she stroked her belly and leaned against the car.
Suddenly, tears silently fell from the corners of her eyes...
But she did not allow herself to be immersed in such loss and pain anymore. She reached out her hand and wiped it away resolutely, and then drove home.
…
When I walked into the lobby of the villa, I met Qu Ranran who was coaxing little Yuning.
Qin Zixin walked forward and asked softly, "What's wrong with little Ningning?"
"She kept crying..."
"Is she hungry?"
"Maybe... when she's hungry, I just need to coax her so she doesn't cry. But for some reason I can't coax her in the morning."
"I'm here to coax you." After saying that, Qin Zixin put down her bag, reached out and carefully hugged the little princess in Qu Ranran's arms, and coaxed softly, "Little Ningning, be good, are you hungry? Your mother.
I'm just so confused that I don't even know that our little Ningning is hungry...is that right? Little Ningning..."
I don't know if it was Qin Zixin's gentle voice that made little Ningning gradually calm down. Finally, under Qin Zixin's teasing, she even giggled.
"Sister, you're so good... you managed to coax this little brat right away."
Qin Zixin smiled with satisfaction, "It's our little Ningning who is so good..."
Qu Ranran smiled and hugged Qin Zixin, "You can hug little Ningning more and exercise recently... In ten months, you will be like me coaxing the child every day..."
Qin Zixin said nothing, staring at the cute little kid in her arms, still maintaining a shallow smile.
Qu Ranran thought Qin Zixin was shy and didn't notice anything unusual about her.
…
When he returned to the room, he didn't see Ji Lingtian. Qin Zixin sat down on the edge of the bed alone.
I don't know if the servant informed Ji Lingtian, but he opened the door at this moment.
Seeing Ji Lingtian, Qin Zixin quickly wiped away the depressed look on his face, stood up from the bed, "I didn't see you, I was just going to find you."
Ji Lingtian supported Qin Zixin and asked softly, "Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"
"Um?"
"You just vomited for so long."
Qin Zixin looked slightly startled, "How do you know?"
Ji Lingtian said truthfully, "I don't trust you alone, so I asked Aji to follow you."
"Oh..." Shaking his head, Qin Zixin smiled lightly and said, "I'm fine...many pregnant women react like this."
"Is it okay to go to the hospital?"
Qin Zixin, who was mentally prepared, nodded.
…
Ji Lingtian and Qin Zixin didn't speak during the whole journey, and the atmosphere was inexplicably solemn.
When getting off the car, Ji Lingtian hugged Qin Zixin considerately and broke the silence, "Xinxin, I know this makes you uncomfortable, but please believe that I feel as much as you feel."
"I know."
Ji Lingtian kissed Qin Zixin's sad and lost face affectionately, "Be good...I will be by your side."
Qin Zixin nodded and finally followed Ji Lingtian into the hospital.
At this moment, in the doctor's office, the doctor frowned heavily as he took Qin Zixin's past cases and the report of his recent examination.
Qin Zixin asked anxiously, "Doctor, how are you? With my current physical condition, can I have a child?"
The doctor put down the report in his hand and told Qin Zixin truthfully, "Mrs. Ji, you should be very clear about your physical condition... Pregnancy will increase the burden on your heart, and you are in danger from heart surgery. You
Such a pregnancy is likely to lead to heart failure, which can seriously affect your life."
"But all the test results show that there are no major problems with my heart. I think I can have a normal pregnancy."
"Xinxin, don't worry, listen to the doctor." Ji Lingtian spoke to comfort Qin Zixin.
Qin Zixin breathed a sigh of relief and calmed down.
Ji Lingtian asked, "Doctor, my wife and I both want to try our best to preserve this child. Is it possible for my wife to maintain the pregnancy without endangering her life?"
The doctor said, "Mr. Ji, as a doctor, I naturally consider my patients to the greatest extent, so I will advise Mr. Ji's wife to terminate the pregnancy, because this is the safest method for people with heart disease, but frankly
He said that Mr. Ji's wife's examination report shows that her body is now normal, which does not rule out that Mrs. Ji's heart can maintain the load of the pregnancy during pregnancy... We cannot predict this, so we ask Mr. Ji and your wife to make careful choices."
Qin Zixin's originally downcast face suddenly flashed with joy, and she asked urgently, "Doctor, what you are saying is that it is possible that I will be fine even if I am pregnant, right?"
The doctor nodded.
Qin Zixin looked at Ji Lingtian excitedly, "Look, the doctor said this, we can keep this child."
Compared with Qin Zixin's joy, Ji Lingtian's face showed rationality and calmness. He said calmly, "Doctor, we don't have to think about it. We choose to terminate the pregnancy."
Qin Zixin, who was still immersed in joy, suddenly froze her smile on her face, and she murmured, "Ling Tian, you... what did you say?"
Ji Lingtian's loving eyes met Qin Zixin's blank eyes, and he said warmly, "Xinxin, I can't let you take risks..."
"But the doctor said it might not have any impact."
"But this is just a guess, even doctors can't be sure."
"No..." Qin Zixin pushed Ji Lingtian away violently, "You want me to take away the child cruelly, but I can't do it."
"Xinxin..."
At this moment, Qin Zixin ran out of the doctor's office as if running away.
However, when she was in the hospital corridor, Ji Lingtian caught up with her and grabbed her wrist, "Be obedient, Xinxin."
Qin Zixin struggled against Ji Lingtian's control and asked unbearably, "Lingtian, why can't we keep the child? For the sake of the child, I am willing to take such a risk."
Ji Lingtian firmly grasped Qin Zixin's struggling wrist and spat out seriously, "But have you ever thought that this child might inherit your congenital heart disease like Qian Qian when he is born?"