Episode 1: Ji Dong's Xin - In fact, everything is planned
Xinxin, you have changed...
You have changed...
You have changed...
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His voice repeated in her mind over and over again.
This is what he said to her when they first got back together, and she has never forgotten it.
In fact, at that time, she had already realized that they could not go back to the past, and his feelings for her might have changed, but she was still unwilling to give up...
Yes, after loving you for so many years, how can you give up so easily?
She once swore that she would never leave him again unless he personally said that he no longer loved her. However, why did such a vow make her feel so miserable at this moment?
She always thought that people come together because they love each other, but she never thought that people sometimes stay with people they don't like out of responsibility...
It was because she didn't want to face it that she chose to comfort herself. The clues had already appeared when Guan's mother last talked to her...
For the sake of responsibility, although he broke up with Ren Qingle, he had no way not to care about Ren Qingle.
That's why he didn't "punish" Ren Qingle for his repeated provocations. He couldn't bear to face Ren Qingle's death threats and comforted Ren Qingle with a recording pen...
The satisfaction and relief that Ren Qingle felt when she left was because Ren Qingle had gotten what she wanted most in her life, which was his heart. Even if Ren Qingle was in the most remote corner of the world, she didn't have to be afraid, because Ji Lingtian's heart was always there.
Accompany her.
She lost...
She completely lost...
No wonder Ren Qingle could swear so confidently when he called her to provoke her...
She was so stupid, she thought Ren Qingle was playing a trick to provoke their husband and wife, but she didn't know that she was actually very confident...
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She closed her eyes in pain, suppressing the burning in her eyes, and Qin Zixin suddenly smiled foolishly.
It turns out that love has long since passed away and only memories remain.
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Qin Zixin had to admire Ji Lingtian's acting skills. If she hadn't obtained the real evidence, she wouldn't have believed that the man in front of her who was so gentle and considerate to her was actually thinking about another woman.
"Xinxin, drink some more. This is the tonic soup that Mom specially asked Mom to stew for you." Ji Lingtian scooped up a spoonful of brown soup and brought it to Qin Zixin's mouth.
Qin Zixin turned away.
Ji Lingtian put down the spoon and asked softly, "What's wrong?"
Qin Zixin lowered her head and said calmly, "I don't want to drink." She couldn't stand his thoughtfulness and gentleness, which would remind her that he was all about responsibility at the moment. When she looked at him, she would have an image of him in her mind.
The last lingering scene of him having no choice but to go to France with Ren Qingle in the name of a business trip.
"How can you not drink it?" Ji Lingtian put down the bowl at hand and supported her weak body leaning on his head, "Mom said you need to recuperate for at least a month."
Qin Zixin took Ji Lingtian's hand away and said, "I'm fine, I don't need to take supplements like this."
Ji Lingtian thought that Qin Zixin's indifferent behavior was because he was annoyed by taking so many supplements every day. He smiled softly, "I said, even if you make up for a gilt, I will still..."
His words sounded so indulgent in the past, but at this moment, her heart was filled with a faint pain.
Suddenly, she raised her eyes and looked at him steadily.
Countless cells in her body were clamoring for her to show her cards to him right now, but her heart was hesitating...
Do you really need to make it clear to him?
There is only one clear result...
She and he are both in an embarrassing situation for each other, and the beauty before their eyes will come to an abrupt end.
And if she pretends that nothing has happened, with his sense of responsibility, he will choose to hide it from her all his life, and she will have the opportunity to grow old with him... But, she can really pretend not to know anything, just
Are you going to spend your whole life with him pretending to be crazy like this?
"Xinxin, Xinxin..."
His call brought her back to reality.
She said awkwardly, "I'm sorry..."
He asked softly, "What are you thinking about that makes you so absorbed?"
She shook her head and smiled, "Nothing."
He sensitively caught a hint of disappointment in her eyes, and saw that she was covering it up with a smile, so he didn't reveal it.
Ji Lingtian kissed Qin Zixin's slightly pale lips, "I still have to drink the soup...it's already cold, I'll ask Mother He to heat it up again."
Qin Zixin quickly stretched out her hand to hold him, "Ling Tian..."
Ji Lingtian turned around, held her hand, sat down on the edge of the bed again, and asked gently, "What's wrong?"
Qin Zixin smiled slightly and said, "I have a question for you."
Ji Lingtian smiled indulgently, "Say."
Qin Zixin bit her lip and slowly spit out, "If before... I mean the years we missed, if you knew that I was pregnant with your child and gave birth to Qian Qian for you, would you choose to follow me?
Do I start over? Even if you hated me at the time."
Ji Lingtian put his hand on Qin Zixin's face and asked, "Why do you suddenly ask this question?"
"It's nothing, I just wanted to ask you suddenly."
Ji Lingtian smiled faintly and said in a low and hoarse voice, "If I had known at that time, I would have brought you back to me at all costs."
"Even if you hate me?"
"even if."
"Why? You hated me so much at that time, shouldn't you have just ignored me?"
Ji Lingtian was still smiling, sitting on the bed, holding Qu Ranran's arms, "As a man, how can I turn a blind eye to the woman who gave birth to my child? Even if I hate it, the responsibility is there...
I will not let my children live in a single-parent family like my father did."
His childhood misfortune gave him a strong sense of family responsibility, so even though he was so tired of him at the time, he could take her back to him without hesitation...
This explains why he didn't choose Ren Qingle...
Everything is indeed as Ren Qingle said, Ren Qingle did not lose to her, Ren Qingle just lost to time.
If Ren Qingle had met Ji Lingtian earlier than she did, or if Ji Lingtian had never known that she helped him give birth to Qian Qian, maybe he and Ji Lingtian would never have anything to do with each other today...
Everything can be done for responsibility...
The sourness rushed to the tip of her nose, making Qin Zixin's eyes turn slightly red.
"What's wrong, baby?" He asked softly, noticing the subtle changes in expression on her face.
Qin Zixin shook his head, "It's okay, I was just thinking that if I had told you earlier that Qian Qian was your daughter, we wouldn't have missed so many years..."
Ji Lingtian pecked Qin Zixin's lips lovingly, "I don't blame you... I didn't know how to cherish it at the beginning."
Qin Zixin smiled and said nothing more.
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Now there are only two ways in front of Qin Zixin...
One way is to have a showdown with Ji Lingtian, and then they face the fact that he already has someone else in his heart...
The other way is to choose to hide it, pretend to be crazy and follow him for the rest of your life.
She knows very well that no matter who she is, the latter path is the right path for her to choose...
Only when they are fine will their family feel at ease, and Qian Qian will no longer worry about her parents' problems.
But……
If she really wanted to act crazy and act stupid, she couldn't do it.
Even if she loves a man so deeply, she doesn't want him to compromise and stay with her until the end...
She is a woman with a clear distinction between love and hate. If you love her, you love her. If you don't love her, you don't love her. If he really cares about other women, what's the use of her guarding an empty city like him? For family reasons, as time goes by,
As time goes by, she can always accept it in the end... So if she chooses to have a showdown with him, it won't be a big problem. After all, Qian Qian is already old, and children know how to respect the adult world.
But, having said that, how could she show her cards to him without hesitation?
Once spoken out, the choice he and she face will be to stay together or separate...
If they continue to be together, her relationship with him will become awkward, and she will always remember that there is someone else in his heart...
If they were separated, how could she be willing to do so?
She had loved him for so many years and gave him her entire youth. What she expected was to grow old with him. Now that it was possible, she had to back down. How could she be willing to do so? The most important thing was that she couldn't bear it...
If they really separated, he would definitely go to Ren Qingle in the end...
In the end, he and Ren Qingle will be together happily, while she will live alone in a corner of this world, watching him get happiness from a distance.
She is not selfish...
If he likes other women, she can choose to give up, but what is the meaning of her world without him?
Why do other people's love always get a happy ending after the manager's hardships, but she can't even retain his initial love?
Why is God so cruel to her? She never asks for much...
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In the study, Ji Lingtian stood quietly in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, holding a glass of red wine in his hand, his eyebrows slightly furrowed, as if he was deep in thought.
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door.
He said calmly, "Come in."
The next second, the study door opened and Qu Ranran walked in.
She asked, "Brother-in-law, Mother He said you were looking for me?"
Ji Lingtian was still looking at the scenery outside the floor-to-ceiling window, and his calm voice came out, "You have been staying with your sister a lot these past two days. Do you think there is anything wrong with your sister?"
When Ji Lingtian asked this question, Qu Ranran suddenly became nervous and hurriedly walked to his side, "What's wrong with my sister?"
"There's nothing wrong with her. I just think she's been in a depressed mood recently and wanted to ask you about her situation."
Qu Ranran was relieved and said truthfully, "Ever since my sister gave up the child, she has been in a very low mood... The last few times I went shopping with her, she was also absent-minded and in a trance, but I saw that you were always with me.
Being by my sister's side, I don't have to worry."
Ji Lingtian asked quickly, "Did anything happen while I was in Y City?"
"No, it's just that my sister is pregnant, but..."
Ji Lingtian frowned slightly, "But what?"
"Actually, it's nothing..."
Ji Lingtian turned around, his sharp black eyes fixed on Qu Ranran's hesitant face, his thin lips cold and cold, "Tell me."
Afraid of Ji Lingtian's serious face, Qu Ranran said slowly, "On the second day after my sister found out she was pregnant, she overheard my mother talking to me..."
"continue."
Under Ji Lingtian's cold and solemn questioning, Qu Ranran immediately told Ji Lingtian what Guan's mother said that day.
The expression on Ji Lingtian's face suddenly darkened, and his face became terrifyingly gloomy.
Qu Ranran quickly explained, "Mom was just worried about you at the time, so she told me about this. She didn't want to ruin the relationship between you and my sister..."
"How did your sister react?"
Qu Ranran replied, "My sister was very uncomfortable at the moment, but after one night, my sister's mood has been adjusted... I felt that nothing was wrong, so I didn't tell you after you came back."
"Okay, Ranran, go out!"
Qu Ranran said worriedly, "Brother-in-law...you suddenly asked me these questions, are you and my sister..."
Ji Lingtian looked calm and said gently, "She and I are fine. Go out and call mom in."
Qu Ranran hesitated and frowned, "Brother-in-law, you don't want to blame Mom for talking too much, do you?"
"I'm not blaming her, I'm just telling her something."
Hearing what Ji Lingtian said, Qu Ranran felt relieved and nodded, "I'll call you."
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After a while, Guan's mother walked in from outside.
Qu Ranran must have revealed the situation to Guan's mother, so Guan's mother looked very solemn when she came in.
At this moment, Guan's mother timidly looked at Ji Lingtian who was sitting behind the desk, and said apologetically, "Lingtian, mom didn't want to talk nonsense in front of Zi Xin, but she was really worried when Zi Xin was pregnant..."
Ji Lingtian looked at Guan Mu intently. After a long time, he slowly spoke out, "Do you want to take advantage of the situation?"
"Huh?" She didn't expect that her son didn't mean to blame her. Guan's mother was very surprised and pleasantly surprised. After she realized what she was doing, she hurriedly said, "Say."
"There is something only you can do for me... I want you to go to France."