Episode 1: Ji Dong's Xin - Epilogue: We agreed to live forever
Chapter 372
Bali.
Qin Zixin thought she could sleep, but when she was alone in the dead of night, she would still think of the past and everything she had experienced these days, and in the end, it was difficult to fall asleep.
The night in Bali is beautiful...
Qin Zixin was sitting in front of the floor-to-ceiling window of the hotel, quietly admiring the beautiful night scenery of Bali.
Qian Qian didn't know when she woke up and walked over to her, asking sleepily, "Mommy, why are you up?"
Qin Zixin hugged Lou's daughter and said, "Mommy is used to going to bed late, be good...go to bed quickly." g.
It wasn't until Qian Qian fell asleep again that Qin Zixin sighed heavily.
Suddenly I remembered the time when he accompanied her to the Aegean Sea for vacation...
At that time, he was also on a romantic love island like this. He hugged her and told her that they would never be separated again in this life...
It's only been a few days, but it already feels like a lifetime ago.
Not allowing herself to think too much, Qin Zixin returned to bed and accompanied her daughter to sleep.
For a whole week, his thoughts became more and more serious.
Ji Lingtian sat on the sofa in the room, staring at the cold and quiet large space in a daze.
The tiredness and loneliness on his face could no longer be concealed, and the accumulated suppressed thoughts had tortured his usually rigid coldness out of shape.
Looking around the empty room without her figure, this was the first time in many years that he felt so lonely.
Suddenly, a picture of her still in the room was sketched in his mind...
In front of the closet, she was helping him get a change of clothes for bathing...
Before sex, she stood on tiptoes and embraced him sweetly...
In front of the window, she stood there and smiled at him...
The picture in his mind finally returned to the emptiness of reality, and his eyes finally fell on the small vase of flowers in front of the floor-to-ceiling window.
At this moment, the flowers in the vase have already withered.
This was the first time he saw flowers withered in a vase.
Every day when he returns home, he can always see fresh flowers in the room...
Sometimes it's a rose, sometimes it's a daisy... in short, it's a beautiful flower every time.
These flowers are like her mood every day, always changing, but most of the time they are beautiful.
However, he finally let these words wither in his sight, leaving her dying in front of him.
In his life, he could no longer live without her...
Not for responsibility, not for the past, just for the present.
Even if there was no intersection thirteen years ago, even if he knew her now, he would still fall in love with her as deeply as he did in the past...
Because Qianqian wanted to study, Qin Zixin took Qianqian back to New York as scheduled.
After her vacation, Qin Zixin looked even more radiant than when she left. She couldn't help but look younger and more beautiful than usual.
Ji Lingtian already knew that Qin Zixin would be coming back today, so he did not go to the company early in the morning.
I met Qin Zixin in the hall at home...
The family members seemed to have a tacit understanding. They had known them for a long time, and they all immediately ran away, including Qian Qian, and disappeared in front of their eyes in an instant, leaving only him and her in the huge hall.
Qin Zixin could tell from Ji Lingtian's casual attire that he was deliberately waiting for her return at home today.
Qin Zixin smiled at Ji Lingtian.
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The two of them were walking on the path in the garden. Qin Zixin happily said to Ji Lingtian, "Bali is really beautiful. Qianqian and I both had a great time..."
Ji Lingtian listened silently to Qin Zixin's explanation of her and Qianqian's happiness in Bali, but in fact he didn't listen to a word.
When Qin Zixin asked Ji Lingtian why he didn't say a word, Ji Lingtian suddenly stopped walking, looked at Qin Zixin deeply, and apologized, "I'm sorry, Xinxin..."
Qin Zixin was confused by Ji Lingtian's apology at this moment, and smiled, "What's wrong?"
"I owe you so much."
Qin Zixin soothed softly, "Fool... I really didn't blame you. I said that it was not unilateral's fault that the situation between us has evolved into this situation... Since the matter has passed, don't mention it again.
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"Xinxin, are you angry with me now?" Ji Lingtian asked hoarsely.
Qin Zixin said seriously, "Ling Tian, you really misunderstood... I'm not angry with you, I really am not..."
Ji Lingtian narrowed his eyes and asked, "Then what do you mean by asking the lawyer to send the divorce agreement to the company to me?"
Qin Zixin smiled calmly, "At this point, you and I both know that we can no longer go on... The decision I am making now is that we have reached a consensus in France."
"But I don't want a divorce." Ji Lingtian quickly grabbed Qin Zixin's shoulders and said seriously, "Xinxin... I have thought a lot in the past few days since you left..."
Qin Zixin looked at him quietly.
His voice was hoarse, "I'm not used to everything without you by my side... I always forget to take my clothes to the bathroom without you to help me take my clothes when I take a shower. When I sleep without you by my side at night, I toss and turn. Why?"
I can't sleep either. I think of you not being at home during the day, and I don't even have the time to go home..."
Qin Zixin gently pushed away Ji Lingtian's hand on her shoulder and said calmly, "Lingtian, you have already told me these words, do you still remember them?"
Yes, he had already said similar words to her when he went to France last time... It turned out later that these words were just what others taught him.
The pain at that moment still existed in her heart, but at this moment, the pain was numb.
Facing her distant movements, Ji Lingtian was stunned.
Qin Zixin always smiled and said to Ji Lingtian, "Lingtian, no one said that you must be responsible for me in this life... In fact, you know very well that I have always been a person with a clear distinction between love and hate. If you were willing to tell me earlier,
——Your feelings for me have changed, and I will never resent you, because everything I did for you in the past was done willingly, and I never asked for anything in return..."
Ji Lingtian's hoarse voice couldn't wait to spit out, "Xinxin, there is no responsibility, no past... we only have the present."
Qin Zixin looked at Ji Lingtian without knowing why.
Ji Lingtian looked at Qin Zixin sincerely, "Please forgive me for being a naive child in love..." Lowering his head, Ji Lingtian's voice was hoarse, but it was the first time he was so fragile in front of her. "After meeting you.
I have had many women before, but no woman has ever made me feel attracted to her. It was you... your appearance changed my life. It was you who let me know that I like you, and it was you who made me let go.
Hatred made me understand the beauty of this world... But just when I was sketching a beautiful future with you, I suffered the worst blow... You will never understand how much I hated you at the time, but I just
I can't be cruel to you, because you already exist in the softest place in my heart. If I hurt you, it will make my heart hurt even more... This kind of love has made me spend more than ten years against you, every day.
Once I saw you pretending to be strong despite being hurt, although I was very proud, you had no idea that my heart was actually more painful than yours..."
Qin Zixin slowly reached out and touched Ji Lingtian's handsome face that was eager but trembling slightly due to emotion.
"Don't tell me, I understand everything..." she said softly,
Ji Lingtian's thick palms covered Qin Zixin's, and his voice became hoarse, "Xinxin, the time when you left me during the operation was the lowest point in my life. I was living like a zombie. Without you, I feel that my
The world has lost its meaning...but God really favored me and sent you back to me, so I swear that I will devote my whole life to giving you warm care, but...when I pursue you again
, when we really got along as husband and wife, I discovered that the separation of more than ten years was really not as simple as saying to get back together... We lost our tacit understanding in many things, and we also lost many choices.
There are differences, and sometimes I even feel that you are no longer the Qin Zixin I once loved..."
Qin Zixin caressed Ji Lingtian's handsome face and looked at the moistness in his eyes. She was so choked that she could not speak, "I know, I know everything..."
Ji Lingtian held Qin Zixin tightly, "In order to ease our stalemate, and to allow me to see the relationship between us more clearly, I decided to go to France to secretly arrange our wedding... I want to give you a surprise
, I hope that this wedding will improve the relationship between us, but..."
"I'm sorry, Ling Tian, I failed to live up to the wedding you prepared for me." Qin Zixin apologized with red eyes.
Ji Lingtian shook his head and said hoarsely, "Actually, this whole thing has nothing to do with you at all. It's all my fault... In fact, I had already noticed something strange about you before I went to France to prepare for the wedding. At that time
I have asked for clues from Ran Ran and Mom, and I have even found out that you secretly sent someone to check the bracelet... I could clearly explain it to you at that time, but I didn't want to, because I didn't want to explain anything to you.
I thought the most important thing between a husband and wife was trust, so I went to France out of anger..."
What Ji Lingtian said made Qin Zixin freeze on the spot.
It turns out that he had known for a long time that she had misunderstood him and Ren Qingle...
Qin Zixin shook his head in disbelief. Looking back now, he was so rude and possessive with anger that night. It turned out that he was really angry...
Ji Lingtian continued, "After arriving in France, I actually didn't worry about you being alone in New York, because I guessed that you might make some decisions, so I sent someone to watch you and see what decision you would make...
As expected, you really chose to abandon me and Qianqian and leave alone..."
When he said this, Ji Lingtian paused, a hint of helplessness and complexity on his lips fleetingly.
"I'm very angry. I thought after going through so much, you should know how to trust me, but you didn't even tell me, didn't even give me a chance to explain... Even so, I still don't trust you.
You left alone, so I arranged for you to come to France. In fact, you don’t know that during the more than a month you stayed alone in this cherry blossom town in France, I stayed in a hotel in Lyon, the same city as you..."
No wonder there was only one flight to France that night...
No wonder Guan Hao couldn't find her, but Lu Ji could find her...
It turned out that he was always not far from her.
Qin Zixin's eyes finally couldn't help but turn red, and faint tears gathered in her eyes.
Ji Lingtian whispered softly, "Do you know how sad I was when I didn't see you when I came back from France?"
"Guan Hao said you were looking for me everywhere..."
"Actually, I didn't look for you because I already knew your specific location in France at that time. I just stayed in New York out of anger."
"Guan Hao said you didn't contact me for two days because you wanted to surprise me, but actually..."
"I really didn't contact you." He knew her whereabouts clearly, so he was in anger and did not take the initiative to contact her.
Qin Zixin asked blankly, "So, you have no intention of coming to pick me up..."
"I didn't pick you up because I wanted to calm down for a while and think about it clearly. What is the problem between us? I have always wanted to think about this problem clearly, but whether it is my mother or Ran Ran, they have given me
The entire responsibility lies with me and I cannot let you down, which makes me very tired..."
"But you still came..."
"Yes, because I never want to disappoint my mother."
Qin Zixin's long eyelashes drooped slightly, and the hand caressing Ji Lingtian's face gradually lost strength, but Ji Lingtian stretched out his hand and held it tightly, making her flinch.
He continued, "After meeting you, I actually wanted to talk to you about the problems between us, but at that time I discovered the fact that you had not aborted the child... Because of the child, and because of the pressure from my family, I had no choice.
I'm telling you, because I'm afraid that what I say to you will be unacceptable to you, but I didn't expect that you are more sensitive than I thought, and you immediately saw my hesitation..."
Qin Zixin looked far away, "Human emotions are really a wonderful feeling, but when the person you love is separated from you, you can feel it very clearly."
"Those words I said to you at that time, I must admit to you that I was still angry with you. Many of them were actually my immature thoughts on love... But Xinxin, no matter what I have
How angry I am, from beginning to end, I never thought about divorcing you." Ji Lingtian said truthfully.
Qin Zixin looked at Ji Lingtian steadily and asked in a low and hoarse voice, "Why didn't you tell me this earlier?"
"Because I was in favor of us being separated for a while... I felt that there were many issues between us that needed to be sorted out, and there were many feelings that we also needed to figure out, but I never thought that something would happen to you after I returned to China..." said
When he got here, guilt and self-blame occupied Ji Lingtian's entire heart.
For the first time, he begged Qin Zixin in a low voice like a child who had made a mistake, "Forgive me, Xinxin... don't ignore me... Do you know how difficult it is for me to not have you by my side?" Thinking of it?
These days when she eats, sleeps, and works alone, he wants to cut himself into pieces for being so cruel to her.
When she was away, he missed her so much...
He was really afraid that she would never come back and would never come back to her again.
Qin Zixin's silent eyes stared at Ji Lingtian blankly.
Ji Lingtian gently held Qin Zixin's cold face with both hands, and his voice became more gentle and cautious, "You are right... The problem between us is not one-sided. As you said, when you misunderstood me and Ren Qingle,
, I could clearly tell you what happened between me and her, but in order to protect Lu Ji, I didn't tell you. That's because I don't know you well enough and don't trust you enough... So the problem is not just with you.
The biggest mistake in my life is mine..."
Qin Zixin's eyes gradually returned to focus, but their expression was covered by tears gushing out.
"Xinxin, I love you... After these days, I understand more clearly that I love not only you in the past, but also you in the present... to the point where I have forgotten the past, and all I can think of is you now.
Her voice, appearance, and smile..." Ji Lingtian looked at her longingly, "I will not divorce you, Xinxin, we have agreed to be together forever."
ps: In fact, what this story wants to express is the story of a man and woman who once loved each other but were separated for thirteen years due to misunderstanding, and get along after reuniting. There are not many chapters left. Thank you dear friends for accompanying you all the way.