After returning upstairs and entering the door, Xu Ziyang squeezed my palm and pulled me to the sofa to sit down. He seemed to have thought about it for a while before speaking carefully: "I was negligent in what happened today, and it will never happen again in the future."
Seeing the nervous look on his face, I smiled lightly, broke away from his hand and said, "Yeah, I understand. Then I'll go see what materials are in the refrigerator." Just as I was about to stand up, he held me down and his eyes were steady.
On my face, "Qianqian, you are angry." He touched the corners of my mouth with his fingers and said, "Don't smile like that, it doesn't suit you."
This time I found it interesting. I looked at him seriously and asked: "Then how should I laugh? Your mother brought a girl to me to demonstrate, and you didn't explain who the girl was, so I had to be generous and not mention it.
That's all. But you can't even control my laughter." At the end of the sentence, he couldn't help laughing again.
Xu Ziyang held me in his arms and said eagerly: "I'll explain to you. Whatever you want to hear, I'll tell you. Don't say these things to offend me, okay? I'll be careful when I hear it."
Next, he told me that the gentle girl's name was Gu Qingwei. Because of something that happened and had something to do with me, she got seriously ill and almost died. But she finally saved her life.
But the root of the disease fell into the foot.
I listened to him explain so much, but he didn't get to the point. I asked with a smile: "What about her and you? What's the relationship? Your mother said this: I just have a face similar to others, and
You have Qing Wei, but you are just playing tricks on me. The previous sentence can be understood as your mother didn't know that I was Yu Qian, and mistook me as her substitute. As for the next sentence, please explain it to me, okay?"
Xu Ziyang's eyes were a little dazed. Did he think my attitude was aggressive? He smiled and shook his head, "If you can't explain it, don't explain it. I don't want the answer I'm asking for to be made of lies." When I stood up again this time, he said
He didn't stop me anymore and let me walk into the kitchen.
I made two simple side dishes at will, and there was silence at the dinner table. I would sometimes feel his eyes falling on my face, with a thoughtful and sluggish atmosphere that lasted until after the meal. I put the bowls and chopsticks in the pool to soak.
Suddenly he hugged me from behind, put his lips against my ear and whispered: "Qianqian, I've never been playful with you. Give me time to deal with it, okay?"
I didn't say anything and let him hold me tightly. He took it as my acquiescence.
When I was sleepy at night, I seemed to hear a soft sigh coming from my ears. I squinted my eyes slightly and saw him leaning on the bedside, smoking. His eyes were drifting away from a certain point, without focus, and his thoughts were flying to nowhere.
The smoke was not too thick, and he deliberately avoided breathing in my direction. His brows were deeply furrowed, as if there was an untieable knot.
I only moved a little, and he came to his senses. He immediately put out his cigarette and asked, "Why are you awake?" I mumbled sleepily and wanted to turn over and turn my back to him to continue sleeping, but he hugged me in.
into my arms, tightly, as if sighing or sighing: "Qianqian, don't leave me."
Because he was so sleepy, he fell into unconsciousness after closing his eyes. Later, he didn't remember whether he answered him or not. From that day on, he basically put off all social activities and often came to the school gate to pick me up from get off work together because he was always sitting in the car. Wait, I usually behave in a low-key manner, so I didn’t attract the attention of the school teachers.
People often say that things are unpredictable. When someone wants to find me, he can always find a way to find a way to find me. Even Xu Ziyang can't stop it. For example, this caring person is called Gu Qingwei. She came to the school to find me at noon, and I happened to finish eating with my colleagues.
Come back after dinner.
This time I didn't even think about inviting her to sit in the cafe. I felt a little irritated by having to deal with such situations again and again, so I took her directly to the playground. I intentionally ignored her slightly lame feet and pale face, and waited.
She made her intention clear.
But I don't know if she was brewing any emotions, so she hesitated to speak, and just kept walking side by side with me, stubbornly trying to keep up even if the walking was difficult, as if doing so would prove something, which I scoffed at.
Just when I started to get impatient and was about to urge her, she suddenly stopped and grabbed my arm, speaking sadly: "Yu Qian, please ask Ziyang not to send me away. I don't want much, as long as I can see you occasionally."
Just get to him, really."
I looked down at the fingers with white knuckles, and then at the face that was about to cry, and thought that if I were a man, I would feel sorry for such an expression. But I am not a man, so
I said calmly: "Sorry, my name is Xu Ruo, not Yu Qian."
She looked stunned and smiled miserably: "No, you are Yu Qian. No one else in this world will abandon me except Yu Qian."
I sneered: "You mean Xu Ziyang has deep feelings for you? Then why do you come to me again? Gu Qingwei, do you know how fake the pleading on your face is? Every bit of it is showing off to me.
How deep is your relationship with him, and you are trying to drive a wedge between me and him? How about I call him now and ask him face to face, whether he chooses you or me?"
Looking back at this, Qing Wei was really stunned on the spot, with shock and disbelief on her face. Finally, she pointed at me with trembling lips and said: "You...you..." I pursed my lips.
With a smile on his lips, he came close to her and said, "Girl, life is full of twists and turns, just like a scale, it will never tip to one side." Then he turned around and walked away, leaving her dumbfounded.
Even if Xu Ziyang talked about that past in a vague way, it was enough for me to understand how painful Yu Qian was at that time, not to mention...
That night Xu Ziyang came back and asked me: "Did she go to school to find you?" I asked with a half-smile: "What? She came to you to complain? Come, tell me, what did you say about me?"
Instead, he hesitated, with an incomprehensible look on his face, and finally sighed and explained to me: "I'm not here to question you, I just don't want you to be affected by some of her words. Qianqian, you are now...becoming a little...
Sensitive."
"Sensitive?" I lowered my eyes and said quietly: "Xu Ziyang, when your mother and her arrogant came to declare war on me, when you only asked me to give you time but did not give any explanation, how did you want me to do it?
Sensitive? Do you think I am still indifferent when facing this? What your mother saw to me was the gap between you and me, and what you saw to me was your hesitation. As long as you put me first
Gu Qingwei has no chance to find me today. But you accuse me of being sensitive! Ha, Xu Ziyang, if that's the case, we might as well just leave it at that."
Turning around to leave, he pulled him heavily into his arms and held him tightly. He said in a panic: "No, Qianqian, don't say that. It was because I was careless and didn't think clearly. I listened to Qing Wei's one-sided words."
, she said you might have recovered your memory, but she was lying to me. I was so flustered and uneasy that I said the stupid words just now."
I raised my head and looked into those panicked eyes, and asked softly: "Do you believe what she said?"
"I don't believe it. I was half-believed in her words because I was confused at the time. How could you forgive me if you regained your memory? Qianqian, if you don't just say it, you and I will never be friends. You have been wrong for all the things in the past
You know, I don’t want the past to affect our relationship. From now on, there will only be you in my world, and no one else."
I leaned on his chest, taking a deep breath of his unique breath, but sighing in my heart. I remember reading a book, and there was such a profound sentence in it: When everything begins, we in the future will call it
: The past. The past in Xu Ziyang’s mouth refers to those painful years that cannot be forgotten, but the past in my heart is the present.
After all, it is the fate of returning from one person to another. However, it will leave deep tooth marks and it will take a long time to slowly fade away.
When I woke up on Sunday, I couldn't see someone. I looked around inside and outside, but couldn't find anyone. It's strange. I didn't hear him say last night that he had something to go out today. Where was he? I found my mobile phone and wanted to make a call.
I called him to ask, but found that the phone had been muted at some point, and there were two missed calls on it, from Xie Ya.
I haven’t contacted her for a long time. She seems to have disappeared from the world. In the past, I would often receive calls from her with long-winded advice. When I called back, I was quickly connected. The first sentence was: "Ruoruo, you are my dear."
where?"
I thought, she wouldn't go to Wu City to find me, right? After asking, it turned out to be true. The man came to Wu City in the morning, but no one answered my phone call, and no one answered the door when he came to my house, so I thought about it.
I told her my recent situation. There was a long silence before she asked, seemingly seriously: "Ruoruo, have you thought about it?"
After I responded softly, I heard her sigh: "What evil have you done? Why can't you and I escape this curse?" My heart moved, and I caught the flaw in her words and asked: "
Xiaoya, what's wrong with you?" She didn't hide it from me and told me the matter helplessly. It turned out that her ex-husband went to find her and wanted to remarry. But she thought he did it for Niuniu.
So I took Niuniu and ran to Wu City to join me.
I don't know how to persuade him. I haven't heard her say a word about her ex-husband for so long, which proves that she has not forgotten that relationship. But relationships, especially marriages, don't just break up when they want, or reconcile when they want.
After all, only the parties involved can clarify the relationship.
When Xu Ziyang came back, I just finished washing and walked out of the bathroom. I saw him holding a big bag of things in his hand. I couldn't help but asked in confusion: "You are going out for a big purchase. What did you buy?"
"I came back after buying some ingredients. We cooked at home for noon, and I made a reservation to eat out in the evening."
I raised my eyebrows and asked, "You do it?" It was meant to be a bit of a joke, but when I saw him nodding seriously, I was surprised and asked stupidly, "Can you do it?" Someone frowned.
He raised his eyebrows and replied coolly: "What's so difficult about cooking?"
Then I witnessed what he said was not difficult... When I heard the sound of ping-pong coming from the kitchen, I would visit at first, but later I could continue to watch TV without changing my expression. Finally it was twelve o'clock
Three dishes and one soup were put on the table. The appearance was not completely different, but I was more suspicious of the taste under the dull color.
