159. Secret love for such a small thing【Zijian Version】
My good friend Zheng Kai told me before that there are some things that don’t need any reason. For example? Like someone.
Of course, there are so many rich and beautiful women, so it is impossible for me to fall in love with a manly woman who can choke a man to death with her words. But sometimes, I unconsciously pay attention to her.
Of course, Chen Xiaojia, who was very nervous, would not notice me. Shi Lei, who had a paralyzed face, liked to sit in the last row of the evening self-study classroom. She sat in front of him, turned her head intentionally or unintentionally, and said a few words to him.
Heizi asked me: "Hey, Zijian, you seem to be paying too much attention to Leizi recently."
At that time, the word gay had just become popular on the Internet, and Heizi would say such a thing whenever he saw my eyes looking towards my paralyzed face.
To paraphrase Chen Xiaojia’s mantra, it’s his uncle’s.
Everyone knows that my standards for women are S-curves, good looks, and big breasts. The most important thing is to be feminine.
Looking at Chen Xiaojia again, except for the bulging curve on her chest, everything else was fine. I comforted myself, it would be fine if I took a second look, just don't be impulsive.
There is one thing that I am very dissatisfied with. Everyone knows that there are two handsome guys in the Department of Economics and Management, one is cold-faced and the other is sunny. Why is there only one cold-faced guy in Chen Xiaojia’s eyes?
Her hobbies are really different.
Once you have an idea in your mind, you will put it into practice. So, for the first time in the dormitory, I suggested that I play basketball with the class next door.
As expected, the facially paralyzed man had a look of disdain. Since it was a group activity, he did not refuse. After class in the afternoon, we set off to the playground at around three o'clock and the whole dormitory started together.
The playground was similar to what I imagined. It was crowded with people. I guess everyone had heard the rumors in the department.
What surprised me was that Chen Xiaojia didn't come.
In the first half, I was paralyzed and didn't play. I passed the ball on the court, sweating profusely, and cheers came one after another. But to me, it seemed like something was missing.
The ball was not playing well, so I chose to end the game. Leizi stood up from his seat, and just as he was about to leave, a figure jumped out, with a bouncing ponytail and red sneakers. I knew it was Chen Xiaojia.
She came with a few girls and was pushed to the front by others. She held a bottle of mineral water in her hand and handed it to her hand with a paralyzed face.
Several girls screamed, but Shi Lei didn't say anything. He took the water, took off his coat, and threw it into Chen Xiaojia's hands.
There is a female man with a blush on his face. Who is it? Does anyone know what is going on?
I was a little disdainful, but I felt vaguely unhappy in my heart. As for why, only I know. Unfortunately, at the time, I just thought she was more fun.
After the game ended, the group of people walked towards the dormitory together. Shi Lei walked on the far right, and Chen Xiaojia followed behind him, clutching the clothes as if they were treasures, as if they were afraid of being taken away.
I was surprised, wasn't the owner of the clothes right in front of her, yet she returned it to him?
As soon as he arrived at the door of the dormitory, Heizi called out, and the paralyzed man responded, but stopped.
It was midsummer, and the sticky sweat on my body felt very uncomfortable. I didn’t go back to the dormitory, but went directly to the water room. When I passed by the window, I saw that the paralyzed man had taken back his clothes, but Chen Xiaojia’s face didn’t look good.
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A man with facial paralysis and low emotional intelligence cannot understand a girl's thoughts. With his red and white complexion, I can think with my toes what he said to Chen Xiaojia.
Apparently, he said something that didn't sound too harsh.
During evening self-study, Chen Xiaojia actually changed her position. As long as I raised my head slightly, I could see her.
It's a pity that she doesn't seem to have eyes for me, the number one handsome guy.
Every man is narcissistic and thinks that he is the number one, and others are behind him. Chen Xiaojia did not pay attention to me but noticed the facial paralysis man. I thought that it had something to do with the time I drank with him.
After sneaking a few glances at her, I decided to leave a little impression on her after class.
Finally, it was time for get out of class to end, and I declined the beauty’s invitation to go to the playground. I followed her and walked directly over.
Of course, we took separate routes. But when we reached a certain location, we would meet.
To my disappointment, several girls passed by me, and everyone else noticed me, but she didn't even look at me.
I took a photo and sent it to Gao Ziran and asked her how she would rate my appearance. Gao Zijian directly sent it a hundred points, which immediately confirmed that I was a handsome guy.
But why did she not pay attention to me even though we "ran into" three times today?
I'm a little depressed.
In fact, when I went to bed at night, I still thought of the detail on the basketball court - there were two mineral water bottles in Chen Xiaojia's hand, and the one the paralyzed man drank was Chen Xiaojia's drink.
I have a mysophobia about women, but I can only sulk myself. This feeling is very uncomfortable.
I admit, this night, I dreamed about Chen Xiaojia, and her uneven body.
Perhaps because of my anger, I have never gone to evening self-study since that night. When I saw Chen Xiaojia again, it was when the class was registering for the sports meeting. The registration event was in charge of facial paralysis. Chen Xiaojia took a piece of paper and said,
They asked one by one, just for that man’s three thousand meters.
Men, you can't be a coward, right? But in the end, only one person participated.
Chen Xiaojia laughed and said, "We call each other brothers and sisters just to support the squad leader's work. I was a little unhappy, but I was looking forward to her asking me soon, but he ***, she didn't have time to ask, and the get out of class was over."
At least I won't be in a situation where I have to step forward to ask for a competition. I go to the dormitory at night and hear Heizi talking about the sports meeting. It seems that the paralyzed man is participating in the 3000 meters himself.
I had an idea. Of course, now that I think about it, this idea is quite naive.
After all, I think that maybe, on the same track as Leizi, some people can see me and notice that I am stronger than Shi Lei, notice my chest and abdominal muscles, and notice my speed.
Also above him.
Sadly, the day before the game, I went to have a little drink, which caused me to miss the game. When I arrived at the playground, Leizi was making the final sprint, and the pair of red sneakers kept following him.
Damn it, how could I envy his paralyzed face? This feeling is too strange. I'd better dodge first.
But I felt it was a pity, so I had to go to the stands and sit there in a daze.
The consequence of being in the stands is that a beautiful woman took the initiative to hook up with her. I think about it. Chen Xiaojia is surrounded by the paralyzed man every day, and I compete with her. From this alone, it is enough to see that there is something wrong with her vision.
I never thought about forgetting anyone. In this good time, I decided to enjoy love well.
But only I know how uneasy I feel deep down in my heart.
After procrastinating again and again, it finally arrived the day before the winter vacation. The uneasiness in my heart became more and more intense. When I returned to the dormitory, I heard from several other buddies that Leizi came back after ten o'clock last night and that he probably had a date with Pistachio.
Pistachio, Chen Xiaojia, when I think of this, I feel uncomfortable all over.
I went downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes. As soon as I paid, I heard a conversation between two girls next to me. One of them was Chen Xiaojia.
I still remember what she said. The general idea is that Leizi is not an ordinary man and will definitely have a future in the future.
I had heard a little bit about Leizi's family situation. At that time, I thought that this kind of situation would happen in every class, but I didn't expect that his matter could actually be related to his third uncle.
During the last evening self-study, there was a quarrel in the classroom. Some people said they wanted to go out, and some suggested live performances. The more chaotic the classroom was, the more chaotic my heart became.
I was drawing and writing randomly on the notebook with a pen, and finally I heard an exclamation: "Pistachios? Zijian, you have a page full of pistachios, what are you doing?"
His voice wasn't loud, but I'm sure he heard it.
Because the two people have different personalities, but they are both the ones to be praised by the class, so it is normal for them to compete secretly. However, writing about pistachio directly led to the relationship between Facial Paralysis and Chen Xiaojia getting closer.
I was sent to Chen Xiaojia's dormitory with facial paralysis. Her ponytail flicked happily, but I couldn't feel happy at all. I just threw the notebook into the trash can.
I heard that Chen Xiaojia was sent to the station because of facial paralysis.
I heard that Chen Xiaojia and Facial Paralysis had breakfast together.
I heard... I *** heard all about it, but I am in a very bad mood anyway.
I thought this was just unwillingness, but I didn't know that the torment deep in my heart was almost burning me up.
The second semester of my freshman year started, and the girls in my class started to go back to school. A girl I didn’t know very well asked me to pick her up. Originally I wasn’t prepared to answer her, but after hearing the pistachio sound on the phone, I drove over in the old man’s Land Rover.
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Everyone is a discerning person, so I also know that some people's perfunctory behavior is just because of the relationship between the old man and the dean.
On the other hand, Chen Xiaojia, from the time she got off the station to the time she got on the bus, apart from saying thank you to me, she kept staring at her phone.
Although I was driving, I still heard the conversation between the two girls. I knew that Chen Xiaojia was texting with Facial Paralysis.
I have always wondered why someone like me, Chen Xiaojia, who can't move away from a beautiful woman like me, is so blind.
Now I understand that when you have someone in your heart, other people will more or less ignore you.
When I arrived at the door of the girls' dormitory, I wanted to get out of the car and act like a gentleman, but Chen Xiaojia didn't give me a chance and rushed towards the stairs with my suitcase.
Did he really treat me like nothing?
I was unhappy, so I followed the other girl carrying her suitcase. It wasn't until she climbed to the third floor that she turned back panting and said, "Huh? Girls' dormitory, why did you get in?"
I glared at her, and really wanted to say, "I'm Chen Xiaojia who followed you in. Why don't you go for a ride with me?" But when the words came to my lips, they changed to "Oh, your friend...she is weak."
Chen Xiaojia nodded calmly and continued to climb the stairs.
I have been thinking that Chen Xiaojia was so unfamiliar with me in college. Apart from the fact that I was not often in the class, maybe there were other reasons. For example, the hairstyle of Slam Dunk Master Rukawa Kaede was very popular at that time.
My hair, covering my face?
I came up with several reasons, but finally, Gao Ziran said, "I didn't pay attention to you at all."
Oh my God, am I talking about such a trivial thing as a secret love?
I woke up again, from my crush in college, and looked at the time. Today is May 28th. That is to say, according to the opinions of my elders, today, I have to talk to a very disdainful person.
woman, engaged...
[ps: Doudou has two plans. First, first write about the tragic experience of Zijian’s crush in college, and then write the second part. Second, this is the end of Zijian’s secret love journey, and he will continue with the second part. Suddenly, I feel that today
This is not well written. For example, the fact that Gao Zijian is getting engaged is the biggest point of abuse. Ahhhhh~~~ You guys dislike me. I have been under too much pressure at work these two days. I'm sorry. Please remember to give me some points.
Suggestion~~~I will compile it before ten o'clock, because Doudou will have to get up at five o'clock tomorrow morning to code~~]