It had been raining all day, and there were only a few customers in the cafe. After sorting out all the problems in the shop, I took the beans back to my residence. Of course, there was a little tail following behind me. That person
It's Gao Zijian.
When two people get along for a long time, they will naturally form a tacit understanding of how to look at problems. That kind of tacit understanding may only require a short word or a small look. However, Gao Zijian and I boast that we do not have this kind of tacit understanding.
But I don’t know why, from the time I came back from the hospital to now, I always feel that a tacit understanding seems to have formed naturally between us. This feeling cannot be described in words, but it surprises me even after four years.
No one personally broke this tacit understanding and pretended to be silent, but it made my heart beat faster.
At dinner, I prepared milk for Douzi and ginger soup for Gao Zijian. The three of them shared a table. Douzi ate very happily, and so did Gao Zijian.
There was a cell phone ringing in the room, I put down my chopsticks and walked towards the room.
Picking up the screen and looking at it, I realized that it was a call from Sun Yiqing. Just as I was about to answer it, the call was hung up. There were a total of thirty missed calls, except for the two calls from the kindergarten teacher.
, all calls from Sun Yiqing.
I'm a little uneasy.
This uneasiness made me at a loss. I turned to look out the window, glanced across the table, and saw the exquisite packaging box. Inside the packaging box was the ring sent by Sun Yiqing.
We all know the meaning of the ring. My behavior is undoubtedly a kind of betrayal.
The last few times I called Sun Yiqing, I just felt a little depressed, but this time, I felt like a basin of cold water was sprayed from my head.
Looking at the missed calls on my phone, I gently slid my fingers and called Sun Yiqing back.
There was only one ring on the other end of the phone, and Sun Yiqing's voice came over immediately. It was hoarse and gentle, and it seemed that even the gasping could be heard.
"I called a few times but no one answered. I was worried that something had happened to you."
"No, Douzi had a fever. I took him to the hospital without my mobile phone." He explained according to the timing, but deliberately ignored the fact that Gao Zijian had arrived.
"I'm sorry." Sun Yiqing's calm voice flashed on the phone, "I'm sorry that I wasn't by your side when you needed me most."
"No, I'm fine..." I replied nervously, but I didn't know how to say it to him. The truth is crueler than lies. Even if we didn't go to the stage of exchanging rings, I didn't have the courage to be so cruel.
he.
"How is Douzi doing now? I want to say a few words to Douzi." Sun Yiqing coughed lightly and said.
"It's still dinner, I'll call him." I guessed that Douzi also wanted to have a few words with Sun Yiqing, but I was worried that Douzi would tell about Gao Zijian.
"Forget it if you're still eating, let's talk later." Sun Yiqing said in a nonchalant tone, as if he already knew the facts.
With a slight guilt, I changed the topic and asked: "How are the company's problems solved? Are you busy?"
There was another long sigh. The sigh made me feel surprised and depressed. Sun Yiqing said: "Xiaojia, are you caring about me?"
"Of course," I replied directly, "don't forget, you are my and Doudou's benefactor."
"Xiaojia, last night, my right eyelid kept twitching. To be honest, I have never been superstitious about this. But last night, I couldn't sleep for no reason. At two o'clock in the morning, I sat by the window and looked at my phone, thinking
I called you, but I was worried about waking up Doudou. At four o'clock in the morning, I still didn't have any sleepiness. In fact, I don't know what I was worried about. In short, I was scared in my heart." Sun Yiqing said in a calm tone.
With the strong rendering power, I seem to be able to imagine his expression at this moment.
"I'm sorry, Yiqing, I do have something to say to you..."
"You don't need to say that we have been together for so long. I understand your character. I have been on the phone since five o'clock in the morning, but the phone couldn't be reached, so I called the store. Xiaojia, I said, I
Knowing you, they say that people in the world fall in love with their eyes, but they don’t know that as long as they use their heart, they can feel everything.”
Sun Yiqing didn't wait for me to finish what I said and said it bluntly.
"Yiqing, do you know everything?" I paused, took a breath, and asked.
"I know that Gao Zijian is not someone who will give up on you easily. The company's affairs only temporarily transferred me away. I admire his courage, but he doesn't know that I, Sun Yiqing, am not a person who makes decisions easily. Si
Years later, I think I am not losing to him at all."
"It's clear that I can't help you." Now that I have seen some things clearly, I don't want to hide them anymore.
"Xiaojia, I said that I will never force you to do anything. I also have the courage that Gao Zijian has. I am willing to give you time, but I am just afraid that you will regret it once you make a decision. Now that he is here
By your side, I just want to tell you that I have no intention of giving up, don't try to persuade me, I just follow my heart."
What does Sun Yiqing mean? Does he still want to continue?
"I don't deserve it."
"Love requires an impulse. Whether it is worth it or not, only you know best. I have considered so much. I will not stay with you. When I was young, because I was angry with my family, I chose to be with someone without hesitation.
Together, but only when I get older do I understand that it is willfulness, not love. Chen Xiaojia, you are very good. In my heart, you are beautiful, straightforward and strong, so even if you don't choose me in the end, I want to tell you that I don't regret it.
…”
"Yiqing, listen to me..." I quickly stood up from the chair, looked at the rain falling outside the window, and tried to explain.
"Don't let me listen, I need to be willful." Sun Yiqing politely refused me and said, "I will deal with the things in my hands as soon as possible, and then go back to find you and your son. Chen Xiaojia, I like you."
"One..." Before I could say anything, Sun Yiqing's call had been hung up. I bit my lip and looked out the window. Suddenly, I felt sad.
It was me who failed to handle this problem, my relationship with Sun Yiqing, and my relationship with Gao Zijian. My concealment must have caused harm to Sun Yiqing.
I should have understood a long time ago that the fire can't be contained by paper. I deliberately escaped, but in exchange for Sun Yiqing's depression at the moment, I was sorry for him, sorry for Sun Yiqing.
Two lines of tears flowed down my cheeks. I looked out the window quietly and felt that I was really too selfish.
If I want Sun Yiqing to calm down and talk to me, I can only wait until he comes back. As for Gao Zijian, I think I have to control my feelings. I hope that by doing so, I can reduce the harm to the two people.
"Mom..." The sweet voice reached my ears. I turned around and saw Gao Zijian walking in with beans in his arms. He hurriedly wiped away his tears, squeezed out a smile and said, "Have you finished eating?"
Gao Zijian seemed to notice the tears on my face. When he took the beans over, I could clearly feel that he looked at me twice more. I controlled myself not to cry and said in a calm voice: "Why don't you go and rest first."
"
Gao Zijian's face showed disappointment. He was still wearing the clothes I bought him this morning. He was stunned for two seconds and walked out.
In order not to let myself think too much, I started to work hard after Gao Zijian left. After giving Douzi a bath, I coaxed him to sleep, checked the accounts, and mopped the floor until it was almost twelve o'clock. I felt thirsty.
Just walked out of the bedroom.
This is obviously my home, but every step I take, there is a feeling of tension in my heart. I find that as long as I am alone with Gao Zijian, I can't help but think about it.
After I felt safe and drank some water, I walked back. As soon as I took a step, I saw Gao Zijian folding his hands on his chest and looking at me indifferently.
I nodded gently and said calmly: "Good night."
"I don't want good night." Gao Zijian walked over in two steps and said, "I want to talk to you."
"Gao Zijian, I know what you want to say to me. I'm a little tired today. Why don't you say it again obviously?" I found that my tone was no longer as cold as before, but a little timid, a little bit,
beg.
The magnetic field between the two of us is too weird. Before Sun Yiqing comes back, I think...
"No, Chen Xiaojia, please stop pretending to me. If you don't care about me, why do you want to buy me clothes? If you don't care about me, why do you cook ginger soup for me? You clearly have me in your heart, why do you deliberately avoid me at night?
Me?" Gao Zijian asked confidently. In short, he just felt that he was sure of me.
"Can you please lower your voice?" I pointed to the bedroom and said, "Dou Zi is still sleeping, please stop making trouble."
"I didn't," Gao Zijian raised his chin, held me tightly with one hand, and said, "Follow me upstairs. I have to have a good talk with you. Otherwise, if I speak too loudly, don't blame me.
If Douzi wakes up, I will tell him that his mother and I are dating!"
Shameless, scoundrel, gangster! My chest was boiling with anger, but Gao Zijian was lucky and still held me tightly.
"Okay, please let go of your hand first." I sighed helplessly and said, "I also think I have a lot to say to you."
In this life, what I dare not do the most is a showdown. All my courage has been given to time, but unfortunately, I still can't escape. Since I can't avoid it, I can only face it bravely.