The patter of rain reached my ears from the window, and through the faint halo of the window, I looked at Gao Zijian for a long time. He looked at me, and I looked at him. The two of us
People seem to be suppressing the restlessness that cannot be concealed in their hearts. The more this happens, the more scared I am.
There are some words that I really can't say, but when I hear those words "I love you", my heart still can't help but tremble.
"Chen Xiaojia, what are you afraid of?" Gao Zijian opened his mouth, still staring at me closely, and said, "Is it Sun Yiqing?"
I didn't say anything, but my expression showed acquiescence.
"I will handle his matter, and I will handle it properly." Gao Zijian let go of my hand, brushed the bangs on the right side of my cheek with his fingertips, and said softly: "From the first time I met you, I
I just know that you can’t forget me.”
I didn't dare to answer, so I avoided his fingers and fled towards the bedroom in a hurry.
The bedroom door was closed. I leaned behind the door and raised my fingers. My fingertips stayed on the spot where Gao Zijian's fingers had just touched, as if they were still burning.
I know I might fall because I can't lie to myself.
The mountain rain was still falling. Listening to the sound of rain outside the window, the surroundings were eerily quiet. Gao Zijian's face appeared over and over again in front of my eyes. I thought that I still had many questions that I didn't have time to ask, so we went our separate ways.
But this time, I still didn't have time to speak.
Douzi had a high fever. At the beginning, he just complained about discomfort. He put his fingers on his forehead and clearly felt that his body temperature had risen a lot. After taking out the thermometer to test, the high fever actually reached 38 degrees 9. I hurriedly
Put on Douzi's clothes. At this moment, his cheeks were red and he was in low spirits.
It must have been that the mountain wind blew for too long during the day and made me sweat all over. It rained suddenly at night and the temperature dropped. The alternation between cold and warm was too rapid, and my body couldn't bear it.
After putting on Douzi's clothes, I looked at my phone. It was four-thirty in the morning.
"Mom, I feel bad..." Douzi lay in my arms and murmured softly.
"Be good, Douzi. Mom will take you to the hospital right now." I gently stroked Douzi's head with my hands, put a hat on him and a scarf, then opened the bedroom door, found a poncho, and got ready to go out.
Suddenly there was a noise on the stairs. I turned my head and saw Gao Zijian standing there with a dull expression on his face and asked, "What's wrong? It's still raining outside."
"Douzi has a fever, I have to go to the hospital." I hugged Douzi tightly and said while changing my shoes.
Gao Zijian jumped down from the stairs and walked to the door, without even holding an umbrella, and ran straight into the rain.
"Stand here and wait for me, I'll drive." Although his tone was a little cold, there was no doubt about it.
I sighed softly, looked at the beans in my arms, and stood at the door, waiting for Gao Zijian to come back.
There is also a hospital in the scenic area, but it is only a small clinic with simple medical facilities. Douzi had a fever, but I was still worried. The car was parked not far from the door. Gao Zijian’s figure was running in the rain. He was very fast. When we got closer, I
Only then did he suddenly realize that his hair was already half wet.
"The ground is slippery, hold Douzi for me, and you follow me." Gao Zijian raised his head, looked at me, and said very firmly.
I hesitated for a second, then handed the beans to Gao Zijian, held up the umbrella, and followed them.
The short distance of five minutes felt very long to me. I went out alone many times, but never once did I feel safe at this moment.
The tall figure walked in front, and I followed him step by step, as if the next moment, a family of three would reach the end of happiness.
When we got to the car, Gao Zijian asked me to get into the car first, and then gave me Douzi. He quickly pulled on the seat belt, turned around and walked around the front of the car, and sat in the driver's seat.
On a rainy day, the road was slippery and the car was traveling at a moderate speed. Gao Zijian was looking ahead intently. His stern profile and two big hands gripping the steering wheel were deeply imprinted in my mind.
The originally one-hour drive actually took only forty-five minutes in Gao Zijian's hands. When he arrived at the entrance of the hospital in the town, Gao Zijian took the beans without hesitation and rushed indoors.
It was around five o'clock in the morning, the rain was still falling, and the white mist obscured the sight ahead. I raised my feet and followed Gao Zijian in.
Undoubtedly, I am touched from the bottom of my heart. It would be a lie to say that I don't care. Every year, every rainy night, every snowy day, I look forward to Gao Zijian, that he can be by my side.
The expectation was filled with irritation, and then the irritation was followed by disappointment. When disappointed, I suddenly realized that I just couldn't let go.
Now, when the man I love deeply appears when I need him most, this feeling is self-evident.
Half an hour later, the doctor examined Douzi and gave him an infusion before leaving in a hurry. Before leaving, he sighed and said, "It's not easy. It's raining so hard. I live in Yunshui and I can still come here!"
Douzi fell into a deep sleep on the bed. Strangely, along the way, apart from feeling slightly uneasy about Douzi's situation, he always felt at ease.
I feel at ease because Gao Zijian is always by my side.
He raised his head and looked at Gao Zijian. He was still half wet. He had been running back and forth in the hospital just now, and his hair was still dripping with water. It was distressing to see.
I walked over, took out the handkerchief from my bag, stretched out my hand, and wiped it on his forehead.
He looked at me with burning eyes. I coughed lightly and said, "Here, wipe it first. I'll go out and find some dry clothes."
Gao Zijian didn't answer, the corners of his mouth were raised, and he looked at me with a wicked smile, motionless.
"Take it," I lowered my head and didn't look at him. My eyes fell on the handkerchief, feeling flustered.
Gao Zijian finally raised his arm, not to take the handkerchief, but to hold me tightly in his arms.
"Chen Xiaojia, four years ago, we had an umbrella on a rainy day, do you remember?" Gao Zijian's voice rang in my ears. I was stunned, but that rainy day four years ago appeared clearly in front of me.
"I want to be with you. I have been looking for you for four years." Gao Zijian's voice was calm, but it seemed to be filled with huge magic power. In an instant, my heart that had been tightly frozen melted in an instant.
When I hurriedly took out the ward, I was still shaking. What did he say? He has been looking for me for four years?
For four years, I have been looking for you - these words kept running back and forth in my ears. Gao Zijian, has he really been looking for me?
Is Gao Zijian a magician? Why did I believe it as if he was under a spell when he said this?
He said he was looking for me, but what about him and Liu Shihan? Aren't they married? He said he was looking for me, but why couldn't he find me? He said he was looking for me because he has always loved me?
The man I love deeply, the man I have been trying to forget, actually still loves me?
When this idea came to my mind, my heart immediately fell into strong fluctuations. This was just a guess on my part, but why, a guess made me uncontrollably jump for joy.
All excuses are not excuses. If he loves me, why should I run away?
After searching for a long time in the market town, I finally found a clothing store. To my own surprise, I actually clearly remembered the clothes code that Gao Zijian wore and the color of his favorite underwear.
Chen Xiaojia, when your fantasy was shattered, you didn't even have the guts to survive. Now just because of his words, you are so happy. You must admit, Gao Zijian, he has defeated you.
Huan is worried about gains and losses, but his negation contains affirmation. This is his concern for me, and it is also my secret love for him.
When all these things hit my chest directly, a thought suddenly popped into my mind, Gao Zijian, what have you experienced in the past four years?
During the four years when you and I had no intersection at all, you were alone. What experiences did you go through?
As I walked and thought, I carried breakfast in my hands and Gao Zijian's clothes. Before I even got close to the ward, I heard the voices of Gao Zijian and Douzi.
After an hour and a half, the drip should be finished, right?
"Douzi, honestly speaking, is Uncle Zijian nice to you?" Gao Zijian's voice came over.
"Uncle Zijian, why do you ask these boring questions every day? Mom said, some words should be kept deep in your heart." Douzi's charming voice said.
"Bad boy, isn't your mother not here?" Gao Zijian's voice suddenly rose and he continued to deceive, saying: "Uncle Zijian secretly tells you that I have another trump card here, which is super fun. If you answer Uncle Zijian's question, Zijian will
Uncle Jian will take you to play."
"Huh, not interested." Douzi responded in a low voice.
"Hey, forget it. Huahua told me yesterday that she wanted to learn skating, so I'll teach her." Is this Gao Zijian only able to fool children like this?
"Teach her just teach her," Douzi's voice sounded careless, and I seemed to be able to imagine Gao Zijian's expression at this moment.
Slowly approaching the door and window, I saw a scene that surprised me through the glass. Gao Zijian had taken off his coat and was doing push-ups on the bed, up and down, while Douzi was lying on his back obediently.
He still had food in his hand.
On the back of his big body, Douzi clung to him like a koala, well-behaved and calm.
As for Gao Zijian, he was moving up and down. I don’t know if it’s my imagination. Gao Zijian’s whole body is indeed much darker than before. His arms are stronger. When he moves, you can still see his tight biceps. He is looking sideways.
He looked at Douzi without noticing that I was standing at the door.
"By the way, Uncle Zijian, do you have any skates made by hip-hop monkeys?" Douzi clung to Gao Zijian's back obediently, took a bite of the food on his hand, and asked calmly.
Only I, the mother, know that Xiaodouzi is obviously tempted.
"Of course, Douzi, after a while, you will go back to Uncle Zijian with your mother. Uncle Zijian will take you to the store to choose. Whatever you like, uncle will buy it for you."
"How can that be okay? Mom said that if Douzi likes it, Douzi should earn money to buy it..." Douzi said in a cooing voice, "But what? When Douzi's birthday comes, Uncle Zijian can give Douzi a gift."
"When is Douzi's birthday?"
"Oh, today's birthday has passed, I have to wait until next year."
"Douzi, to be honest, your birthday was last month, right?" Gao Zijian chuckled, supporting himself on the bed with one hand, and hugging Douzi tightly with the other hand.
"Uncle Zijian, I am a kid who can withstand temptation!" Douzi said with dignity.
"Okay," Gao Zijian sighed, and suddenly turned over and put Douzi on the bed. The father and son faced each other. Gao Zijian's expression was very serious and asked: "Douzi, to be honest, which one do you think is better, Uncle Sun or Uncle Zijian?
"
I knew that Gao Zijian couldn't keep the leftovers from his mouth. He and Douzi had only known each other for a few days, but he was so confident. Has he forgotten what Douzi said yesterday?
"Douzi, why are you silent?" Gao Zijian asked anxiously when he saw Douzi eating leisurely.
Douzi raised his eyes, glanced at Gao Zijian up and down, and asked: "Honestly, Uncle Gao, do you want to chase my mother?"
this!!
I was nervously preparing to open the door, but I was curious about Gao Zijian's answer. I stared at his side face and saw that he was smiling without saying a word, which was very wretched.
"I know it's okay to be courteous for nothing," Douzi nodded thoughtfully, Xiaomi Ya took a bite on the biscuit and said, "You can see it too, mom is beautiful, and there must be many people who like her.
Well, as for you..." Douzi continued to observe Gao Zijian and said: "You are dark, just average, and more fierce than your mother, at most, fifty points."
"So few?" Gao Zijian lost his composure, gently pinched Douzi's face with his fingers, and said, "Then... where is Sun Yiqing?"
Douzi avoided Gao Zijian's hand and said, "Dad Sun has a good temper and is handsome, but he can't always accompany his mother, so ninety points."
"Hey, Xiaodouzi, we can't be so partial. You see you also like me. Let me tell you the truth, your mother and I..."
Gao Zijian was about to start talking nonsense. Before he could open his mouth, I opened the door and walked in.
Douzi's sharp eyes saw me immediately, and he shouted happily: "Mom..."
Gao Zijian looked at me with a depressed expression, noticed the clothes in my hands, jumped off the hospital bed quickly, and said, "Did you buy them for me?"
I nodded, reached out and handed the clothes to Gao Zijian's hand. He looked at me with joy, pinched Douzi's cheek and said, "Look, this is true love!"
I coughed lightly, quickly avoided Gao Zijian's eyes, and lowered my head to get Douzi's shoes.
I forgot to bring my mobile phone with me when I went out, so I used Gao Zijian’s phone number to ask for leave from school, and took Douzi to take my temperature. After checking, I was sure that the fever had subsided, and I went through the discharge procedures.
Before getting in the car, I raised my eyes and glanced at Gao Zijian. To my surprise, he actually looked at me and our eyes met. I once thought of what he said in the ward. Four years, Gao Zijian, you are really