Sun Yiqing still knew me well. He knew that I would be worried about Gao Zijian, so he told me to go find him.
As for me, I thought for ten minutes at the window, looking at the sleeping beans, and finally made the final decision in my heart.
Life is short. Rather than treating unhappiness as the main theme, it is better to let go and face it bravely. As for Douzi, I know it is indeed difficult for him to accept Gao Zijian, but I think father and son will get along harmoniously.
I sent a text message to Gao Zijian, asking him where he was at the moment, and told him that I wanted to tell him a secret.
This secret is very simple. Maybe Gao Zijian has also suspected it, but when he tells it personally, he still feels a little different.
After much hesitation, I booked my flight.
Douzi had already woken up from bed. In the living room, Sun Yiqing and Tian Xin were preparing dinner. When they saw us coming out, they specially brought two extra pairs of bowls and chopsticks.
Once the suppressed things in the heart are released, all the problems will not be so difficult. The sentence "I love you" is actually the best explanation.
Sun Yiqing was handicapped, so Tian Xin sat on his right side, while Douzi and I sat opposite him. Douzi was very obedient and served Sun Yiqing rice with a spoon. Although his arms were a bit short, he was really well-behaved.
Sun Yiqing also happily took the food from Douzi's hand and said, "Douzi is so filial. Douzi's parents are the happiest."
Douzi smiled and said, "Then when will Dad Sun marry Mom?"
The three adults were stunned by Douzi's question. Sun Yiqing's eyes immediately looked at me, but I didn't know how to answer Douzi. I heard Sun Yiqing say: "Douzi, Dad Sun is Douzi's father, but it doesn't have to be
Get married."
Douzi glanced at me and said, "But the parents of other children are all married."
There was confusion and grievance in Douzi's voice, which suddenly made me feel that as a mother, I was very incompetent.
"Douzi, do you want Sun's father and mother to get married?" Tian Xin opened a bottle of yogurt, placed it in front of Douzi, and asked with a smile.
Douzi looked at me, then at Sun Yiqing, and said, "I think so."
I suddenly felt confused. Looking at Douzi who was smiling with the corners of his mouth turned up, I felt restless in my heart.
"Douzi, Aunt Tian Xin would like to ask you, what about Uncle Gao, whom we saw in the hospital today, if you let him be your father?" As soon as Tian Xin finished speaking, my chopsticks fell to the table, and I was a little agitated.
Tian Xin looked at Tian Xin in surprise, but she remained unmoved and continued to look at Douzi.
Douzi pursed his lips and said with a smile: "Mom said my eyes are the same as Uncle Gao's, but I like Dad Sun better."
As soon as Douzi finished speaking, I suddenly felt discouraged. What should I do here with Douzi?
Sun Yiqing seemed to be aware of my loss and said a few words to Douzi. After dinner, Sun Yiqing took Douzi to draw in the living room. Tian Xin was busy looking for a hotel, while I hid in the kitchen washing dishes.
The night was very quiet, and when I looked through the window, it was pitch black. I guessed that it might rain again.
He sighed softly, unable to express his feelings at the moment.
I know the relationship between Douzi and Sun Yiqing better than anyone else. Without meeting Gao Zijian, I have never stopped Sun Yiqing from loving Douzi. He helped me make up for Douzi's fatherly love, and I am grateful.
But now, when Douzi has identified Sun Yiqing, should I tell him directly who his biological father is?
If Douzi knew that I would not marry Sun Yiqing in the end, he would definitely be sad and say it directly, which would be unfair to Douzi.
But it would be unfair to Gao Zijian if he didn't say it.
No one told me how to do it, and I didn't know what to do.
"Not packed yet?" A voice came to my ears. I turned around and saw Sun Yiqing sitting in a wheelchair, looking at me with a gentle face.
"Well, it will be ready soon..." I nodded gently, glanced outside the door, and asked, "Where is Douzi?"
"He's fine. He's painting in the living room." Sun Yiqing glanced at the living room with a smile, and said with doting in his eyes, "Douzi is so cute and obedient."
Douzi can also lose his temper and get into trouble like other children, but as long as Sun Yiqing is around, Douzi can calmly complete one thing.
I have to say, Sun Yiqing, he is better at educating children than me.
"Don't take Douzi's words to heart. After all, he is a child, and his ability to accept is smaller than that of adults, but it will always be fine." Seeing that I didn't speak, Sun Yiqing continued: "Remember to pack your things later. I will ask Tian Xin to send them to you tomorrow morning."
Go to the airport.”
"I……"
After Sun Yiqing finished speaking, without waiting for my reply, he pushed his wheelchair towards the living room.
I raised my head and happened to see Tian Xin standing at the door. Her eyes told me that I was too cruel.
Later that night, I was packing my things in the bedroom when the door was suddenly pushed open. I turned around and saw Tian Xin holding a beer glass in his hand and looking at me calmly.
"I want to drink, do you want to join us?" Tian Xin looked at me and said seriously.
I nodded, threw the clothes aside, and followed Tian Xin to the second floor.
It was a chilly night, and as soon as I got to the second floor, a gust of cold wind hit me and made my skin crawl all over. Tian Xin pushed the table over and put the beer and side dishes in his hands on it. He looked at me with a smile and said, "Come here."
, do it first.”
My intuition tells me that this little girl must have something on her mind.
But I didn't say anything. I held the beer bottle and started drinking.
In the past four years, I have hardly drank at all. Occasionally, I would drink half a cup, still in the dead of night, when I was alone.
Suddenly I felt that it would be a pleasure to find someone to drink to my heart's content.
After two bottles of beer, I felt a little dizzy. I turned to look at Tian Xin, and a trace of sadness suddenly flashed across her face. I opened my mouth and said, "Tian Xin, are you homesick?"
Tian Xin looked at me and said, "No, I just feel distressed."
I sighed softly and said: "How old are you? A girl in her twenties, don't be sentimental. Life is still very beautiful. Unlike me, I can't handle any problem well and always let it go."
People are sad.”
Tian Xin also sighed, turned to look at me, and said, "Sister-in-law, I really envy you."
My heart skipped a beat, and I sighed and said, "But it's not easy for me to deal with Douzi."
"Sister-in-law, can't you really feel that the senior cares about you?" Tian Xin opened another bottle, and I was about to reach out my hand to block it, but she didn't give me this chance, and drank it directly, and drank it hard.
After taking a sip, Tian Xin turned to look at me again and said, "I met him when I was a sophomore in college. It was on the day of the school anniversary. The principal asked him to stay, but he refused. He left in a hurry. I heard from my classmates
Said, he came to Yunshui.
At that time, I just thought he was traveling, but now I understand. The next time I heard about him, it was through the ears of a friend. I heard that he had a child and his wife had a difficult delivery. At 11 o'clock in the evening, the entire hospital team was mobilized.
Headed to Yunshui Town. At that time, I thought he was married and had children.
Two years ago, I heard that he opened a coffee shop in Yunshui Town, hired the most famous interior designer in Beijing, searched for ways to make coffee, and even took Western pastry classes. But I have never seen him.
Beside him stood his wife and children.
After graduation, I directly interviewed my senior’s company. My boss said that he was still single. A week ago, he asked me to accompany him to see the coffee machine and wrote down the address of Yunshui. I was very curious, so I followed him without hesitation.
Came over.
Originally, we needed at least one day's rest on the way to Beijing, but my senior and I just had a quick meal at the hotel. I was wondering if he would have been in a car accident if he hadn't been driving fatigued. At the time, I thought it was not worth it, as there was still traffic on the way.
After such a heavy rain, when I finally saw my sister-in-law and Douzi, I felt that some things were expected."
My nose was sour. After listening to Tian Xin's words, I squeezed the bottle hard with my hand, raised it, and drank it all.
I know that Douzi and I have owed Sun Yiqing these years. In the beginning, we kept distance because we were afraid of this outcome. But some things are simply out of control.
"Sister-in-law, senior, he is a good man, and of course he will be a good father. Of course I don't know what happened between you and Mr. Gao, but...if possible, I still hope that you can consider it again,
Consider the relationship between senior and you." Tian Xin looked at me, her face flushed, as if she was drunk, but there was a kind of determination in her voice.
Many things can be repaid, but the word love may never be repaid in this life.
"Tian Xin, I envy you very much..." I looked at Tian Xin and said with a smile: "I envy you for following me at all costs, I envy you for your long-term companionship. In the words of someone who has experienced it, I actually want to tell you that there are some
Things need to be fought for by oneself.”
Tian Xin looked at me with a trace of surprise on his face, and finally, he buried his face in his knees.
I understand Tian Xin's hesitation. He needs to see other people's things more clearly than his own. It's easy to talk about other people's things. When it really comes to him, it's not the same thing. But Sun Yiqing, I really, just
I can say sorry.
In fact, everything up to now stems from the dishonesty in my heart. I clearly love him, but I have to force myself to pretend that I don't love him. I know I haven't let go of anything, but I have to force myself to let it go.
But if everyone could control their emotions, how could there be so much sorrow, love, and hatred in the world?
Chen Xiaojia, be brave. Loving someone is not a shameful thing. Even if you have been misunderstood, even if you have been criticized, you still love him.
As for those who let you hide and escape for so long, shouldn't they be punished?
I stood at the window, took out my cell phone, glanced at Gao Zijian's phone number, stubbornly pressed his number, and dialed it directly.
No one answered the phone, so I sent a text message directly - Gao Zijian, if you don't come, your son will be snatched away!