I am not a free and easy person. As I grow up, the only thing I can afford to hold and put down is probably chopsticks. When I ran out of the hospital, my mind was filled with the scene of two men competing. This is also the scene that I am most worried about.
I'm afraid of meeting Gao Zijian. I can't describe this feeling well. Many problems were not handled well before, but problems appeared later. He was not wrong. He was wrong. Maybe it was because we were too young.
I felt that I was extremely heartless. When Sun Yiqing criticized Gao Zijian, what I was shouting from the bottom of my heart was - no, that's not the case, that's not the case.
But I have no way to say it. After all, Sun Yiqing is the best person I have ever met.
I sent a text message to Gao Zijian, telling him that I was at the side entrance of the hospital, but the phone was silent for a long time. To be honest, I was a little disappointed. I knew that Gao Zijian must be sad after hearing those words, but I couldn't comfort him directly.
The bright sunshine passed through the gaps between the leaves and through the morning fog, filling the hospital with wisps. The morning sun shines its rays on the lake. The breeze picks up, the small waves jump, stirring up the lake full of broken gold. I stand
Under the shade of a tree, I sent a text message to Gao Zijian again.
A few minutes later, Gao Zijian gave me a reply, but this line of words made my heart sink suddenly - Chen Xiaojia, maybe I should reflect on it and wait until I solve those troubles before bringing it up again.
see you.
My heart was beating fast. I looked up at the sunlight above my head and suddenly had a bad feeling. I turned around and walked towards the main door.
Not far away, I met Tian Xin downstairs holding Douzi. Douzi was smiling and seemed to be having a good time.
I took the beans in my hand, looked up at the main entrance, and asked Tian Xin: "Have you seen Gao Zijian?"
Tian Xin shook his head and said, "No, aren't you all in the ward?"
I didn't speak, thinking about the meaning of Gao Zijian's words. My eyes stretched towards the door, but there was no figure of Gao Zijian. On the one hand, I wanted to go to the hotel to find Gao Zijian, but on the other hand, I was worried about Sun Yiqing, who had inconvenient legs and feet in the ward.
After thinking about it, he looked at Tian Xin ashamedly and asked: "Tian Xin, I may go out with Douzi later, where is Sun Yiqing..."
"Oh, it's okay, sister-in-law, don't worry," Tian Xin shook his arm and said, "Leave it to me where the senior is, but you and Douzi, there are a lot of cars out there, so you have to be careful."
I looked at Tian Xin with a grateful face, hugged the beans, and walked out of the hospital gate.
Douzi looked at me with confusion and asked, "Mom, where are we going?"
I stretched out my hand to take a taxi and said in a calm voice: "We are going to find Uncle Gao. He is in a bad mood right now. Let's go comfort him."
"Mom, why is Uncle Gao in a bad mood? Did he have a quarrel with Sun's father?" Dou Ziren is a brat, so he must have noticed something.
I shook my head and said, "Of course not, don't think too much, Douzi. When you see Uncle Gao later, you must make him happy, you know?"
Douzi nodded thoughtfully. The taxi arrived just at this moment. I stopped the taxi and got in it.
After getting in the car, I realized that I didn't know where Gao Zijian lived. I called his phone, but no one answered. In desperation, I had no choice but to call Sun Yiqing and asked Tian Xin, and then I found out the address of the hotel.
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There was another traffic jam on the road during the rush hour after get off work at noon. I looked out the car window anxiously, feeling irritable in my heart.
What is Gao Zijian going to do? Will he do something stupid? His character is a bit extreme, what if...
"Mom, what's wrong with you?" Douzi noticed my irritability and asked me cautiously.
I finally calmed down a little, glanced at Douzi, and said, "Douzi, to be honest, do you like Uncle Sun more or Uncle Gao now?"
Douzi stared at me carefully with his big black eyes, pursed his lips, and said, "Mom, do you think Uncle Gao is better?"
I looked at Douzi in surprise and asked, "Douzi, who told you?"
Douzi looked at me and said: "Aunt Tian Xin said that Mom likes Uncle Gao more and asks me to help Sun's father more. Mom, do you really like Uncle Gao? Aren't you afraid that he will be cruel to you?"
Gao Zijian was too casual in everything, and he left a fierce impression on Douzi when we first met him. He got angry in the ward again this morning. I was sad that Douzi would ask me this.
I kissed Douzi gently on his forehead and said, "Douzi, Uncle Gao and Douzi have a different relationship."
"What do you mean the relationship is different?" Douzi tilted his head and looked at me with confusion.
I coughed lightly, not knowing how to explain the meaning of the word "dad" to Douzi. Maybe Douzi knew the weight of these two words better than me, but for no reason, he told Douzi that his father was Gao Zijian.
Is this acceptable?
He is only three years old. Originally, the word "dad" is sensitive to Douzi. I have to be more cautious on this issue.
"Douzi, isn't Uncle Zijian very special?" I looked at Douzi, pointed at my eyes, and said, "Douzi has a pair of lovely peach blossom eyes. Uncle Zijian also has a pair of lovely peach blossom eyes. You all have peach blossom eyes."
, it must be different!”
Douzi, you didn’t inherit your mother’s big eyes, but you inherited your father’s peach blossom eyes. Although I really want to tell you so directly, I’m worried that you won’t be able to accept it, so please forgive me for telling you step by step.
"Does Father Sun have peach blossom eyes?" Douzi still thought of Sun Yiqing, his dark eyes rolled gently, and he asked me seriously.
I shook my head and said, "Douzi, only you and Uncle Gao have peach blossom eyes, which means you have an unusual relationship with him. So, when you see Uncle Gao later, you must not be rude, okay?"
Douzi thought for a while, then gently scratched his head with his little finger and said, "Mom, Douzi is very good. Douzi listens to his mother."
It is said that the happiest thing for a woman is to be loved by three men at the same time. When I was a child, I always felt that the man who loved me the most was my mother. When I was young, I met a man who loved me deeply.
I have given my sincerity to myself. Until now, this little man also loves me. In fact, I don’t have much regret in this life.
"Be good, Douzi," I kissed Douzi gently, handed the money to the taxi driver, and ran towards the hotel.
Unfortunately, Douzi and I arrived a step too late.
Twenty minutes ago, Gao Zijian checked out. He left in a hurry and didn't even leave a word for me. Where on earth was he going? And why he left, I don't know any of this.
I was a little disappointed, so I went into a restaurant next to the hotel, put the beans away, and called Gao Zijian. Unfortunately, no one answered the phone.
Gao Zijian didn't know much about the situation nearby, and he had an argument with Sun Yiqing in the ward in the morning. First, I was worried that his thoughts would go to extremes. Second, there were some things I didn't dare to say out loud, so I was worried about Gao Zijian.
Zijian would make a big fuss at home. If she really did this, wouldn't it make things even more confusing?
There are some people I don't want to see, such as Liu Shihan and Shi Lei. They will only make things complicated, and these are what I worry about.
The blind tone coming from the phone made me even more worried, and I sighed softly, expressing my helplessness.
The phone rang suddenly. I happily took out my phone. After taking a look, it turned out to be Sun Yiqing's call. I glanced at Douzi and pressed the answer button.
"Tian Xin said that you and Douzi went out alone. I was a little worried. Are you okay?" Sun Yiqing's voice was still calm.
I glanced at Douzi who was playing on the side and said, "Douzi and I are both pretty good, but... as soon as I saw it, Gao Zijian was gone."
There was silence on the other end of the phone for a while, and I heard Sun Yiqing say: "He is an adult and nothing will happen to him."
Just a word, but it made me feel a little calmer in my heart. Before I could speak, I heard Sun Yiqing say again: "I asked Tian Xin to pick you up. I guess Gao Zijian has returned to Yunshui?"
I don't know where Gao Zijian went, but if Tian Xin comes to see us off, it means that Sun Yiqing will have to stay alone in the hospital. I am also very confused about this.
"No, Tian Xin should stay and take care of you. As for Douzi and I..." Douzi and I have to go back to find his father first. I can't say this.
"I can understand," Sun Yiqing let out a long sigh on the other end of the phone and said, "Xiaojia, Gao Zijian is not mature. If you are with him, you will definitely suffer some more. Before you get married,
I think if I can do my best to make him realize how to be a mature and responsible man, even in the end... I will feel relieved."
Sun Yiqing's voice is low and magnetic. In this busy afternoon, when I am most irritable in my heart, it is like a cup of fragrant milk tea. The aroma is permeating my throat, and my whole person feels at peace in this moment.
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After all, I am a selfish person, and I still want to find Gao Zijian.
I bit my lip gently and said to the phone, "Sun Yiqing, I'm afraid I won't be able to pay you back in this lifetime."
There was a chuckle on the other end of the phone, and I heard Sun Yiqing say half-jokingly: "No, who knows whether I will counterattack at the last moment, there's no telling!"
When Sun Yiqing said this, I had nothing to say. After saying a few simple words, I hung up the phone, picked up Douzi, turned around and jumped into the traffic.
Along the way, my mind was filled with Gao Zijian's angry appearance in the morning, thinking that his luggage and other belongings were still at my place, and he probably returned to Yunshui. I understood the grievances in his heart, and there were some things that didn't need to be said out loud.
, because I understand, I feel sad.
Looking at the rows of neat trees flashing past the car window, looking at the sleeping mountains and the blue sky in the distance, I suddenly realized that my stubbornness had made me miss too much, and this time, I wanted to be with you
Gao Zijian, well.
An hour later, the car finally stopped at the door. I hugged the sleepy Douzi and ran directly towards my home.
The moment I opened the door, my heart skipped a beat, and an ominous feeling suddenly swept through my body. I carried Douzi to the bedroom, covered me with the quilt, and hurried upstairs.
When my feet landed on the last staircase, I raised my head without hesitation, but it was gone.
There is nothing left.
Not a single piece of Gao Zijian's luggage was left behind, and there was nothing left on the neat bedside.
He came in a hurry and left in a hurry, leaving nothing behind.
I have forgotten that the house is his and the key is his. If he wants to come back or leave, isn't it easy?
I opened my phone and glanced at the line of words on the screen again. My heart was full of disappointment, and I felt an indescribable feeling.
Just three simple words - I miss you.
If you choose to leave because of my stubbornness, cowardice, and hesitation, then at this moment, in this silent evening, I have clearly understood one thing, Gao Zijian, I miss you.
I am willing to face the difficulties that I encountered four years ago with you. I am willing to bear the setbacks that I experienced four years ago with you. There is also the continuation of the love between us, Xiaodouzi.
An hour has passed, and the phone is still silent. I don't know what Gao Zijian's silence at this moment means, but my heart can't help but feel anxious.
Douzi was still sleeping peacefully in the bedroom. I sat at the door and spread out the diary. The tenth page was the third month since I left Gao Zijian. His name was all over the page.
Suddenly, there was a noise at the door. I stood up in surprise, took two steps forward, and looked outside the door. It was not Gao Zijian who came, but Sun Yiqing.
I looked at him with some surprise. He was sitting in a wheelchair, Tian Xin was following him. The sky was sinking, but I could still see the faint smile on his face. It wasn't until he slowly approached that I suddenly woke up.
Said: "Why did you come back suddenly?"
"Sister-in-law, the senior is too worried about you and the child. The doctor and I have tried to persuade him n times, but there is no other way. He has to come back." Tian Xin walked in with a wheelchair before Sun Yiqing could speak.
I hurried over, closed the diary, and said, "Let me make you something to eat."
"No," Sun Yiqing said, "Tian Xin, go buy some food nearby and bring back your mobile phone."
Tian Xin glanced at me, then at Sun Yiqing, and said, "Okay, I'll go first..."
Sun Yiqing and I were the only two people left in the room. He looked at me and said, "He's gone?"
I nodded gently and said, "The call couldn't be reached, and the text message wasn't answered."
"Maybe I said it too harshly..." Sun Yiqing sighed softly and said, "If I haven't come back here, I probably have left Yunshui."
I looked at Sun Yiqing in surprise and asked, "You mean, he went back?"
Sun Yiqing looked at me, nodded, and said, "Xiaojia, if you really can't let go, go find him."
"Go find him?"
"Well, I understand the panic in your heart, but there are some things that can't be solved by running away. Although I...but, I also want to see you happy, so go find him..."