The room became calm again, and I walked towards the bedroom with a tired look on my face, lying on the messy big bed, raising my head, looking at the ceiling, looking left and right, restless.
I don't know how many of Hu Yueyue's words are true. At this time, I have completely lost my judgment. The reason why I feel uneasy is because I am worried that something will happen to Li Shu.
After taking a look at the handwriting on the note, I fell into panic again.
It's okay, he will be okay. If he can be so heartless and agree to break up with me, if anything can happen to him, he will definitely be okay.
Suddenly, the mobile phone on the bedside rang. I picked it up and saw that it was my brother's phone number.
As soon as the call was connected, I heard Gao Zijian yelling: "Gao Ziran, stop making trouble, something happened."
"What's wrong?" I hurriedly sat up from the bed and asked nervously: "Is it Li Shu..."
Several sighs came from the other end of the phone, which made me even more nervous. Thinking of Hu Yueyue's words, I coughed lightly and asked: "Gao Zijian, can you just say it if you have anything to say? What's the point?"
After Gao Zijian heard what I said, he immediately said: "Gao Ziran, don't be nervous. What I say next may be irritating, but you must listen to me and hold it tight."
"Okay." I responded hastily, but the sheets were already torn up by me.
"In order to find Li Shu, we have almost turned the whole city upside down, but so far, there is no news about Li Shu. I'm worried that he will be confused. I met Wei Zheng in the morning, and he also knew that Li Shu was missing.
, he told me that Li Shu had looked for him before he disappeared."
What is Li Shu looking for Wei Zheng for? Is there a clue?
"What did Wei Zheng say?"
"Of course, I'm still looking for Li Shu. I don't have time to explain so much to you. I'll keep the story short. Wei Zheng told me that before Li Shu disappeared, he went to him for a drink and asked Wei Zheng to take care of you. That brat Li Shu,
He actually said... that I can no longer take care of you." Gao Zijian sighed again and continued: "Of course, this guy Li Shu has known us for many years, and he can say this, you know, why
?”
"Why?"
"Of course, listen to me, stop making trouble. Li Shu said that because he doesn't want to live anymore!" Gao Zijian spoke anxiously and added.
"Brother, I..."
"Of course, how could you say those words to Li Shu? If Wei Zheng hadn't told me this morning, I wouldn't have known. I thought you were just joking. But of course, you know that the scar on your wrist will
If Li Shu's life is worse than death, why not be more rational?" Gao Zijian said slowly, I didn't answer because I didn't know how to answer, and then I heard him say: "Even if you are drunk, you can't..."
"Brother, why do you always say half-sentences and leave half-sentences behind when you talk? Tell me, have you found anything?"
"Gao Ziran, I suspect that Li Shu feels too guilty because of your words and doesn't want to live anymore."
Gao Zijian finally got to the point, but he planted a landmine in my heart. I couldn't pretend anymore, and I didn't want to pretend anymore.
"Brother, where is Li Shu now?"
"He..." Gao Zijian paused and said, "Gao Ziran, actually I don't even dare to tell you."
"Go ahead," I took a deep breath, "I'm ready."
"I just received a call saying that I saw his car in front of a house in the suburbs, but I didn't see him. I sent someone there and heard from the security guard that I didn't see anyone coming out of the house in the past two days. So.
You...have to be prepared."
Didn't come out of the house for two days? Do you want me to get ready? What does that mean? Where did you go if you didn't come out of the house?
"Of course..."
"Brother, come and pick me up. I...I'll go take a look."
"It's better not to go now, just in case... I mean just in case..."
"Come pick me up." I said decisively, put on my slippers and walked out.
Gao Zijian was very fast. There were two of us in the car, and I was sitting in the passenger seat, staring out the window. My right eyelid twitched twice, which made me flustered.
Li Shu's location is the most remote place in the city. It is sparsely populated and the public security is unstable. He has not gone out for two days and two nights. What will he do?
I didn't dare to think any more, so I closed my eyes and carefully recalled everything that happened that day. I thought of downstairs in Night City, when I opened my wrist guard and roared at the plum tree. The more I thought about it, the more...
disturbed.
What happened next? Li Shu hugged me and cried. He cried and said I was sorry. He cried and said forgive me.
I let him hold me in his arms and seemed to make a decisive decision to leave. But I was too drunk and I couldn't leave.
Li Shu helped me get into the car. In the car, he coaxed me and drove normally, singing songs at the end.
I asked Li Shu where he was taking me, and Li Shu said home. I asked him where home was, and he said home is where I am.
I didn't want to go back, so I got out of the car noisily on the way, looked at Li Shu with a smile, stretched out my arms, and said, "Li Shu, haven't you always been curious about what secrets are hidden under my wrist guards? Now you know? Let's break up."
I tell you, I want to break up with you."
Li Shu didn't want to, so he pulled me forward, but I refused to go. He sat on the side of the road and cried, crying and nagging, crying and saying goodbye. He was so stubborn and still unwilling to admit it.
Admit that you can’t let go, and admit that you still like it.
At this point, we don’t need to prove each other.
"We're here..." Gao Zijian's voice reached my ears, and I rushed out of the car without hesitation. Only then did I find myself standing in front of a large courtyard. Although the courtyard was very shabby, it was clean and tidy.
Here, I feel an indescribable sense of familiarity.
I turned to look at my brother. He stood in front of the car and looked at me. He gave me an encouraging look and signaled that I could walk in.
I took a deep breath, raised my feet, and walked slowly inward from outside the gate. Passing by the iron gate, a thought suddenly flashed through my mind. This was not somewhere else, but the first time Gao Zijian and I had.
Home.
The outside of the compound is covered with grass and the place is in a state of decay. However, as soon as I walk to the door, I can still recognize it at first sight.
How many years has it been? For more than twenty years, new buildings are rising in this city every day, and new things are happening every moment. And after so many years, the old house and big yard where I once lived
, still maintains the same status.
Li Shu, are you here?
What I should have thought about, what I should have thought about, is that if one day I leave this city and leave him, what I care about most will be here.
Li Shu and I have loved each other and hurt each other. He abused himself and he drank to drown his sorrows, but he never gave up on me.
I finally thought about what I said that night, I said Li Shu, we can’t go back, we can never go back, even without Hu Yueyue, without my parents, time will not take us back. So, we still
break up,
So, Li Shu came here.
I sighed and walked forward step by step. The well at the door was where we children often played. The small steps in front were where Aunt Huang dried her goods. Five steps away, there was
The home where Gao Zijian and I lived is diagonally opposite Li Shu's home.
In that small square, Li Shu was wearing a pair of small pants, and his big brother took off his pants. I stood in front of him and tried to pick out the little bird.
And at the entrance of the alley in front, Li Shu was carried back angrily by his mother. He turned back and looked at me with a pair of innocent little black eyes, looking at me pitifully.
These are the memories given to us by time.
Stretching out his hand, stroking the rusty wall, he sighed softly, Li Shu, does he want to leave with that memory when he is hiding here?
Thinking of this, I was annoyed and felt it was unfair. Why? Why should I stay and leave? It was all Li Shu's decision?
With a push of your hand, the door opened.
"Li Shu!!" I walked in angrily, looking at the empty room without a trace. After taking two steps, I walked towards the room where little Li Shu lived, "Li Shu, get out of here."
!”
I used to call him that.
He stepped forward and kicked open the dilapidated door of the bedroom. A foul smell came to him. Looking at the whole room, there were wine bottles scattered everywhere.
There was a man lying in the middle of the wine bottle. His clothes were dirty and he looked like a dead body.
Just like what Gao Zijian said, he was indeed lying here. I suddenly felt angry, so I walked over in three or two steps, went up and kicked him directly.
At first, there was no reaction from the people on the ground. I lowered my head in panic, and then Li Shu suddenly turned over and faced me.
The whole person looked very decadent, with a slovenly beard and a hungry look. He blinked and closed his eyes again.
He ignored me and I felt a little disappointed.
The next second, Li Shu suddenly stood up from the ground and looked at me with wide eyes.
"Gao Ziran!"
I glared at Li Shu and yelled angrily: "Who are you showing me like this now? You have a sloppy beard and you get angry just looking at it..."
As soon as I finished speaking, I walked straight out the door. Li Shu quickly climbed over and pulled my leg.
To be honest, I don't know what I should say at this time. There is no right or wrong, but some things have developed to that point, and I am not sure whether we can go back to the past.
Li Shu is escaping, and I also want to avoid it.
"Don't go..." After a long while, Li Shu whined and said two words.
Seeing him like this, I was also sad, so I said, "Who are you showing yourself to like this? Do you think you can torture me like this? I tell you Li Shu, I...I am not
I’m here to care about you. Get up right away and go home to change clothes. Your mother is very anxious. Don’t let everyone worry..."
I said, "Let's talk. Why am I crying? Li Shu is hiding here, and I am still hiding in his house. He didn't cry. Why should I cry? Really."
Don't cry, don't cry.
"Of course..." Li Shu hugged my leg even more, "Of course..."
He couldn't say anything except my name. The indoor light was very dark, there was no bed, and there was no equipment. Li Shu was lying on the ground, chanting my name.
"Don't call me, what are you calling me for? Write in the book what you are willing to do, what are you willing to do? Break up with me?" I bit my lip gently, controlled myself not to look back, and continued: "You are willing,
Why are you holding my leg? Let go!"
"Of course..."
"Don't call me..."
"Of course..."
"Don't call my name..."
"Ranran..." The last voice was heartbreaking, "Can I beg you? I beg you, please... let's be together..."
"..."
Isn't this change too fast?
"Of course..." Li Shu hugged my legs, leaned his face on my legs, and said in an aggrieved voice: "I have liked you since I was eight years old. At that time, I thought I couldn't stand you, but
After so many years, I really understand that it’s not that I can’t stand you, I can’t live without you, I’m selfish, I’m domineering, I’m tolerant, and I have low self-esteem, but of course, I like you, I... cough cough cough
Ahem...I can't live without you..."
"Of course..."
"Let me go first..." I sighed softly and said stiffly.
Li Shu raised his head and looked at me, his eyes staring at me like a stray dog, and said: "Don't... don't want you to leave..."
I rolled my eyes at Li Shu, lowered my voice and said, "I'm not leaving, I just asked my brother to come over..."
"No." Li Shu shook his head stubbornly, "Unless you agree to play a game with me."
I looked at Li Shu in surprise and saw him take out a coin from his pocket and said, "If I win, you have to agree to a condition. If you win, I will also agree to a condition."
"good."
Li Shu gently let go of my legs and said, "You are not allowed to leave until the game is over."
I nodded and looked at the coins spinning in his hand.
I don’t know why Li Shu wants to play this game with me. Maybe, it’s not what I care about. He watched the coin shaking on the ground, then covered it with his finger and asked: “Heads or tails?”
"front."
Li Shu shook his head and said, "On the other hand."
I really don’t know how he still has time to play with coins when he looks like a beggar now. We have played this game before. I often use this method to trick Li Shu into eating snacks, and he will win every time. Looking at
His hand moved slowly, and the front and back sides of the coin were gradually revealed. I had absolute confidence in myself.
Facts have proved that Li Shu won and I lost.
Li Shu raised his head and looked at me, his eyes shining, and said: "Now, Gao Ziran, you have to promise me..."